Sunday, December 31, 2006

time flies. it's finally the last day of the year. and it's usually when all the families or friends come together to count down. =) i'll be with my family at raffles country club for dinner and then i'll meet my friends at city hall. wheee!!

ok. this is my last post for this blog. i'll summarise everything. haha.

family.
all these while, my mum and sister have been very supportive of me. they encourage me and at times, they respect my decision. however, at one period of time, mum didn't support me. i guess that was when she gave up on me. but, yeah. things are better now. relationship with daddy is still the same. i'm never close to him. and all we talk is about school work and that's all. my maid! haha. she is just like a family member to me. she's been with me for 16, going 17 years. haha. yaps. since i was 6 months old. that's explain why i'm so scare of her. and whatever i think of doing, she'll know it. she knows me better than my mum though. freaky. =x my relationship with sis is getting better, though there are times when she gets on my nerve. haha. =x

studies.
since primary, i've always been a lazy bum. i'm satisfied easily. i guess this point, i got to change. but, anyway, i became a little more hardworking when i came into MJR. haha. in sec 2, relatives love to compare me with my sis. and i was determined to prove them that i can do whatever my sis can. and i worked harder to get into triple science. when my end year results wasn't up to my expectation, i was really disappointed. but, it turns out that i manage to get into triple science. haha. i was struggling with my studies then. especially i was rather involve with both prefectorial board and choir. but i did my best to achieve the best i can. but, my entire sec 3 result, l1r5, was 29,28,27,29. haha. it sucks, i know. then came sec 4. i slacked alot. and i wasn't as hard working as sec 3. i was so looking forward for montage to be over so that i can really concentrate. however, even after montage, i wasn't working hard. my result didn't really improve much. l1r5, 29,35,23. hahas. and right now, i'm waiting for my Os result. i'm expecting the worse cause i didn't even put in all my effort. and i regret it. too bad, it's too late. haha.

friends.
i love my friends. cause they are always there for me. joanna, min min, hui kia, valerie, boon, feng yao, sheldon, tedja, jian zong(buddy) and yu ker are my sec 1 and sec 2 friends. i love them lots. feng yao and sheldon are always making me laugh. especially with their dirty jokes. haha. i remember during lessons, i'll always look at feng yao. haha. =x joanna is my best friend, also known as my les mate. haha. we often go for duty together. valerie is my mummy! always nagging at me to work hard and always teaching me. haha. then min min,hui kia and crystal would always hang out together whenever we go out. haha.
mae, silin(sotong), san, qy, sh, xl, buddy, pan sihui, yk, jordan, valerie, crystal, puay, boon, potato, eve, aunty, leonad, ah fat, glenn, tan teck(uncle santa) and many others then came into my life. haha. friends like them totally rock my world. even when lessons are boring, they made it interesting. haha. they made 4E rocks totally. haha. love you all. ^^
jc(angel), sy, alex, yu ren, avril, peiyi, heng yu, wee kiat, toh wee, kaiyi, teck kiang, sasa, leelin, cai ling, christine, jared, dum(ah boi), jared chong, bomba and many others are friends and seniors that taught me many things. and i totally love them. haha.
more new friends while working, yan wen, yvonne, ting hui, pui man, dylan, chan gap. haha. work will be boring without them. and dylan rocks! haha. yeah. he craps with me online. haha. and he sounds like an older brother to me. cool. =)
once in awhile, i have primary school friends contacting me. people like zhi hao, joshua, venron, aloysius, clarissa, serene, jun jun and ke xin. =)

relationship.
i'm not sure if i'm a horrible stead or that i'm just too young. haha. anyway, i had 2 failed relationships this year. but anyway, it's good to see that they will live better without me. hahas. cause there are much better girls out there. at least we're still friends. wish that you'll be happier with the next girl in your life and all the best. woots.

well well. time to pack up everything and close this blog. =) it's all over. and it'll all be history. =)

specially for angel: i remembered, when i first know you in mawaii camp, you look so dao and so damn quiet. quite scary though. then realise that you aren't actually the way you look. haha. after knowing you for a long time, then i know that you are so.... =x wheee. what a wonderful senior you are, who taught me many things. just like a brother, you comfort me whenever i was down. and gave me a pat when i needed encouragement. will never forget how you and sy consoled me when i cried in the prefect room after receving my chinese Os result early this year. will never forget the fun you brought along during camps like mawaii and obbd. will never forget how you crap with me whenever i was bored. especially during fahmy's lesson. haha! will never forget how you listen to me when i had many things bottled inside. haha. you treated me just like a real sister. ^^ you totally rock man! hahas.

done blogging.

-i'll learn to love this life of mine. wheee!!-

this blog was born on 26o62oo4 to 31122oo6

and brought to you by meh``


see the word "val"? hahas. was playing with my zi ma hu. =x


my meh meh manicure. =)

tata peeps``




30th dec. so fast. the year is coming to an end. haha.

woke up like 10 plus. i was freaking bored. so i picked up a storybook to read. after lunch, i was freaking sleepy, so i went to sleep. and my sis woke up me in a very abrupt way. "mei! someone talking to you online." then i faster wake up. reflex action. -.-" in the end, i couldn't sleep back. but i force myself. haha. and i slept till like 5. then i watch tv till 5.30 and went to prepare. and left house at 5.50.

went to pasir ris to fetch crystal. on my way, i bought bubble tea. i think the honey too sweet that it attracted alot of bees. =x then went to crystal's work place. haha. the young lady thought i come to take over her. cause i took over once. hah. anyway, i bought 3 pairs of earrings. then we went off. went to white sand. we bought 2 chocolates. we wanted 40g each. but the lady gave us 20g each. -.-" then i bought 2 pendants. haha. nice!

went to marina bay to meet xl, sotong, and ah fat. then took shuttle bus to the steamboat area. each of us got free can drink. haha. anyway, we started cooking. and xl pass me my bottle of nite. i was like, siao! how to finish? so i shared with ah fat. haha. they poured me a cup. and xl had hooch la. wah lao!! his hooch is like damn freaking nice!! whee. haha. nite wasn't that bad. it taste like lime soda. i drank like a few sips and my face was damn freaking red. and xl commented that it would be good if his daughter is like that. then he would know if she drank or not. o.0 hahas. crystal scold xl for buying. =x in the end, xl gave crystal my cup. and they don't let me drink. -.-" i was like damn high la. and i kept laughing. each time see ah fat's face, i laugh. haha. the more i laugh, the redder i get. -.-" hahas. crystal so scare to go toilet with me. =x oh well. went to eat ice cream. and my redness went down. haha. then went to play this picture hunt game at the bowling alley there. haha. we keep wanting to beat this old man. and nearly la. so we put our nick as old man's wife. haaha. =x after that, we took shuttle bus back to marina bay mrt. haha. then in the train, ah fat squeeze me, xl squeeze crystal. and we only sit like half of the seat la. -.-"

oh. i was msging angel. haha. i told him i drank and my face is red and don't know how to go home. he didn't really understand what i was typing. =x then i kid with him. i ask him to send me home. haha. ok ok. i'm too bored. ehs! i'm not drunk. i'm just.. red. ><

so here i am. haha. tml going to granny's birthday dinner then meeting them at city hall mrt. wheee! i miss hanging out with them. =) oh well. going to sleep soon. can't take it.

joke of the day:me and crystal were waiting for the train and raffles place. and crystal was sending herself songs from my phone. so i had this "music". many of my friends heard before. and dum was the one who sent me. so the beginning was like the "ar ar ar" sound. so it kinda give you the wrong idea. but it's actually this girl wanting to buy a bowl of noodles. anyway, she had to open the "music" so as to save it. that's how nokia phones work, right? so she opened and the thing was playing damn loudly la. we don't know how to mute it, so she had to off her phone. and we were laughing our heads off. so paiseh la. ><

done blogging.

-all i wanted to do was to forget all the unhappy things.-

Friday, December 29, 2006

wow. third last day of the year 2006, and this will be the third last post for this blog. =) nope. you didn't read or see wrongly. yap. after the last post on 31st dec 2006, this blog, will no longer be in used. haha. i've made a new blog. and it will start on the 1st of 2007. if you want the address, take it from me. =)

ok. woke up like 9.30 a.m though i slept at 2 a.m this morning. i was watching tv. haha. anyway, crystal asked me to work, but i couldn't make it. was supposed to head down to mum's office to help her tonight. but, somehow, she didn't need any more help. so i stayed home.

i spent my entire morning looking for a nice blogskin. and i found one! wheee! haha. then i talked to angel for a while. then i helped him to look for a blogskin too. but seriously, i don't know what kind of pattern he likes. =S and i'm still looking until now. -.-" anyway, it was great talking to angel again. i don't know how long never talk to him le. haha.

i'm not sure if i'm as strong as what i think. but i know that deep down, inside me, i still long for you. and all that i want right this moment, is to be in your arms for the last time. but.. hahas. glad we still can be friends. =)

well well, tml is one of the final days before school reopen. i can't really complain, cause i have to think about those poor children who cannot afford to go to school. =x ok ok. i'll work hard this time, though it's only first three months. but i'll do all that i can to make this a wonderful experience. thus, i won't make the wrong decision. haha. =P ok ok. just stay tune to the other blog then you'll see if i'm enjoying my stay there k? haha. =x

done blogging.

-give me time, and i'll let go soon-

Thursday, December 28, 2006

slept at 12.30 a.m. and i was the last one to sleep again. >< then woke up at 10.30. haha. then i started checking how to go to school. and i realised i need to take mrt to bukit batok then take bus! gosh! means i have to wake up super early! cause i still need to meet xl. -.-"

my tuition teacher came at 11.30. then she talked to us. i told her that i was working at the exhibition for a period of time. and she said not bad. somehow, she and my mum asked me and my sister not to do waitress-ing or be sales person. apparently, she had a student(damn smart, 4 As and 1 B for A lvl), got pregnent. cause she met this guy while working as a waitress. then i was like damn shock. gosh! she went to a uni. but because of this ite guy, she dropped out. kinda stupid la. uni should have better guys, yet she choose an ite guy. and because of that, her future is ruin. gosh! ><

ok ok. went to bugis with sis, my maid and my tutor. she brought us to sakae to eat. then she brought us to swensen to eat earthquake. gosh! haha. ok ok. we met my cousin. so me, my sis and my cousin went to have our nails done. while my tutor and my maid went home. so yap. my nails are.... hmm. had a meh meh painted on both my thumbs. =x cool, huh? haha. then somehow, the things in my bag dropped. and now i lost my ring. -.-" i'm sad la!!! i love that ring, and now it's gone!!! ='(

guess who i saw? i saw this instructor that was helping out at the 3 day motivational camp. i remember his face! cause he was trying to send out a message to us. and so coincidently, i was sitting in front. so he asked my name. and then he say, "let's say, i'm a ugly guy, and i like valerie. and if i asked her to accept me (he asked me if i would accept him, and i shake my head.), and she rejects, i would just walked away and won't ask her ever again. but if i am a handsome and confident guy, and i like valerie. and if i asked her to accept me (he asked me again and i shook my head.), i would keep asking her.". and of course, he kept asking me la. like about 5 times. and yao, shouted "OII!!" from the back. that's funny. then the instructor got a shocked and pretended to be scare. haha. funny. gosh. suddenly miss hanging out with yao. =)

ok. here i am. home. tml will have to help mum at her office. =S maybe saturday night i'm going out with my classmates to eat steamboat. PLEASE DON'T LET IT RAIN!! =x sunday, i have dinner with my family. maybe after that i'll go countdown. that's provided someone asks me. hmms.

gosh! so fast school is starting. and i'm going to have problem waking up. SIAN!! worse! a new year is starting! and i'll be a year older in no time! =( i don't wanna grow. i wanna be just the way i am now. =x *sigh*

done blogging.

-i'm sad! my ring is gone~ ='( nicest ring, and it's gone! *poof* just like that!-

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

there was a blind girl who could not see the world and all she sees is darkness. she swear that if one day, she manages to see the world, she would marry her boyfriend, the guy who is willing to stand by her all these while. one day, some one donates a pair of eyes to her. she manages to see this colourful world and that faithful guy who stands by her. to her horror, he was blind. when he proposed to her, she rejected him. and before he left, he gave her a note, "take care of my eyes."
people no longer keep their promises when their status changed.

after reaing this story, i really realise that there are such people in this world. where by they break their promises when they become richer, or when their positions in the company is higher than before. or when one finds a better partner than the one they are with. now. this really sets you to think that maybe, promises are meant to be broken.

i was home this entire day. i read my old entries again. and realised that i did changed quite alot. i had friends who cared for me so much and always stood by my side when i was down. however, after getting into triple science, we started to grow further apart. and i guess, i'm starting to miss all these friends now. people like doggy and joanna. i will always remember how i met doggy and gave him his nick. while reading some of the entries, i realised that he was always there to cheer me up, care for me and made sure i was perfectly fine. whenever i was lonely, he would accompany me and he was kind enough to accompany me home when i'm alone. haha. i really miss those times. as for nana. ever since early last year, we grew more like stranger. i miss those times when we went out, look at guys, laugh at each other's jokes. how we share our problems and how we gang up to bully mr chan during hcl. i wonder if we could have those days back. hmms.

i spent some time sms-ing crystal. gosh. i really don't understand how can she tolerate how her bf treats her. if i ever have such a bf, i'll really dump him the very next minute. =x ok ok. sorry. i can't stand guys who mistreat their gf. >< i love talking to her. probably because we know each other for 4 years. haha. hmms. i told her about life and stuff. and she gave me some advices. but i guess, i'll be taking this risk for the last time. =)

i started deleting my inbox. some msg was dated all the way till like 1st december. and now it's already 27 dec. so you can imagine the number of sms in my inbox. haha. ok. i kept some and deleted the rest. as i delete them, some memories came into my mind. like xl's msg. haha. cause he had training that day and he can only come to work in the evening. so he msg me during work while on his way. another msg was his msg. i remembered asking a question and he answer me. haha. =x ok. the next was angel's msg. his good night msg was freaking funny la. about alex's sentence. "hao ren bei gou yao". haha. =x finally, sh's msg. how she crapped with me and stuff. of course, not forgetting all crystal's msg. =)

hmms. suddenly wondering what would happen on this new year's eve. suddenly wondering how would i spend my valentines' day next year. suddenly wondering if i would cry when results are released. and even if i cry, other than friends, who will be there to assure me that everything will be fine and that nothing much will change? suddenly, i'm wondering if i can ever learn to walk this path alone. suddenly, i'm wondering if i could keep my promise of waiting for you. cause i remembered that i once told you that i will wait for you no matter what. suddenly, i'm wondering why i don't mind getting hurt just to love you. suddenly, i'm wondering if i would ever have a chance to be back in your arms. suddenly, i'm wondering if you would love me the way you did on june 23. suddenly. i was wondering if would have a chance to be with you again. but i guess it didn't cross your mind that i'll always be right here, waiting for you, missing you, trying to hold you back, and always loving you. hmms. guess some things just happen for a reason, yet reason itself cannot be explained. haha. gosh. i'm thinking alot. *sigh*

nothing in this life is smooth sailing. there are times, when we are at the peak, and there are times, when we are in a pit. there are times, when we fall totally in love and thinking how wonderful and sweet life is. yet, there are times when we fall out of love and we'll start thinking how miserable life is and we'll start complaining we are sick of it. there are times, when we are satisfied with whatever we have in life. yet, there are times we'll be sitting at one corner complaining "if only i had that.." or "if i only i had done that...". there are times when good things happen on others, we'll start thinking "why him/her, not me?". yet when something bad happen on us, we'll start wondering "why does it have to be me?". probably this is life. when every single one of us experience feelings such as jealousy, envy, happiness, saddness, sweet, sour, bitter, regrets, so on and so for.

and i guess, this life of mine, set me thinking about this. life is all about choices. you choose who you want to be. you choose how you want to feel. you choose who you want to be. you choose to complain to or be satisfied. but yet, most of us, will tend to make the wrong choice. that's when jealousy, envious, saddness, bitter, regrets come about.

haha. don't ask me what'd gone into me. and don't ask me where did all those crappy entries go. i guess i've been thinking quite alot these days. HAHA! i know many will not agree with my entry. but this is my blog. so i wish you'll respect it if you want me to respect you. =)

done blogging.

-oopsy! the weirdo meh has just evolved. =P-

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

slept at 4.30 a.m to watch the dvd.

then me and sis woke up at 12.30. after lunch, me, sis and mum continue watching. haha. until now! whee. left 1 last disc. haha. =x

ok ok. this show kinda suits all those girls who are wishing that there will be a guy who would come into their lives and protect, love and care for them. so.. ya. haha. i wished there will be such a guy out there too. hahas. =x

some idiot msg me. asking me to do him a favor. kinda pissed off after reading the msg. but, in the end, i realised that it isn't my friend who send the msg. so i guess, it's useless getting angry. *sigh* then, aloy msg me. ask me if i can help to donate unwanted clothes. erms. hahas. =x crystal msg me too. i kept her accompanied for awhile. yaps. haha. buddy msg me too! haha. oh oh! he said i look nice without spects. geez. =x as for bro. hey! stay happy k? it's useless getting sad over a tree when there are other trees in the forest. =x ok ok. i'm just quoting what you said to me earlier this week. =x

ok ok. home tml. so i guess i'll try to finish my storybook. thursday, i'll be out with my tuition teacher. been so long since i lasted talk to her. guess it was like in june or july? somewhere there. i rmb i was out, and she called me. hahas. so i asked her out this thursday. =D hmms. probably saturday will go for steamboat with my classmates. sunday, should be alone at home to countdown ba. i'm not really expecting anyone to ask me out. haha. what's new? new year at home again. haha. OH OH! must jump! i rmb telling potato that jumpping on new year's day helps to grow slightly taller. haha. =x

ok ok. xl is home. and i guess we are all looking forward to MI. oh oh! i'll watch him drool during school hours soon. haha. ^^

done blogging.

-new year eve's plan will be??-

Monday, December 25, 2006

shall elaborate on the entry earlier on in the day.

last night, everyone was offline except a few. jalat kor was online. haha. so i chatted with him from 9.30 p.m till like nearly 2. haha. i was bored. so he played msn games with me. we talked about many things. from friends, to relationships, to studies, to jc and poly, to craps. haha. kinda funny. anyway, kor was kind enough to keep me company till i log off. haha. thanks bro! you rock! hahas.

was suppose to wait for sis to come home so we can open the presents together. but, i couldn't stand it any longer. so i went to bed at about 2.

woke up at 12 in the afternoon. sis woke up 20 minutes later. we opened our presents. hahas. i receive lots of weirdo things this year. but, yeah. haha. after that, we watched GONG. i'm addicted to it. haha. cause that guy acting as YUL is like damn cute! lol. seriously, which girl won't want a guy who loves and care for you? and even if the person you liked treated you that badly, you won't mind. cause you love him/her for who he/she is. and you would have to love him/her for his/her good and bad points. right? haha. ok ok.

after that, we head off to vivo. GOSH! the last time i went there, vivo wasn't that crowded. but today, when i went, i wished i could get out of there. it's freaking crowded. haha. i wanted to treat my family to haagen daz ice cream. but mum ended up paying. =x oh well. haha. and we had a hard time finding it. we were nearly lost la. made one big round before we found it. haha.

guess who i met today? i met 2 of my primary school teacher. they didn't recognise me. cause they taught me when i was in P2. haha. i remember the male. i always see him. and i always recognise him. it reminds me of the time when he was angry. haha. when i was in P2, my entire class was making fun of him. and one of my classmate even ask him why does he look like a panda. yap! he has huge eye bags. awful! =x anyway, there was this day, when he came in. he was freaking angry, that he took the metre ruler and keep hitting on the table until it broke into small pieces. gosh! the next thing i know, he left school. haha. =x

hmm. i realise this christmas is slightly different from last year. haha. last year, i had to rush to finish my homeworks. this year, NO!! haha. cool. =D

ok. photo time.


me. i know i'm zi lian. but just tolerate. this is me!


this christmas tree at vivo. nice. it's pink! =x


me again! without spects.


me! with one of my favourite bear. FOREVER FRIENDS BEAR! cute! hahas.

oh! did i mention about what happened yesterday? ok. i went to make my new spects. and my mum asked if there was any spects suitable for me. and the guy went "erms. there are some spects on offer that suits kids like her." so i was like "kids? me? kid?". and he was like "erms. no. i meant teenagers.".. haha. damn funny. you should have seen his expression. =x ok.

hmm. next week is new year countdown. i wonder if anyone will ask me out. if not, i guess i'll be home alone again. =(

gosh! few more days to school reopen. haha. excited!! but results will be releasing soon. will you take off and go with me? hmms. gosh! another wishful thought. *smack my head* oh well.

done blogging.

-we are all the victim of love-




thanks bro! jalat kor kept me company through my lonely christmas eve night into christmas morning. not physcially, but technically.

hopefully today would be a better day.

done blogging.

-23 could have been half a year we are together.-

Sunday, December 24, 2006

today is christmas eve and it's a sunday. so both my parents are home. *yeepee* that's why i didn't dare to go out cause it's family day. haha.

i woke up at like 10 plus. oh! and i had another weird dream. seriously. i'm having lots of weird dream these days. i remember waking up with a weird phrase in mind. but i can't remember it now. gosh. >< oh well. i dreamt of someone(again). i know this person. erms. oh well.

i spent my entire day watching GONG with my family. dad slept half way through the show. so i doubt he knows what is going on. haha. we watched from 11 plus till like 5.30. haha. then mum quickly rush us to change and get ready to go for the family party. and the dinner starts at 5.30 la. haha. so we were like god damn late. haha.

reached there. everyone was playing with little baby. haha. yap. she brought lots of joy to everyone and brought most of our families closer together. haha. we hardly had all these kind of gathering till little girl was born. haha. =) ok. i'm really bad at carrying babies. and she is heavy la. i couldn't carry her cause she is heavy and she kept moving about. haha. today, was my first time eating log cake! haha. durian D24 log cake. lol. so happy!! ^^ haha. after that, we exchange christmas gifts. i receive quite alot. though not as much as baby. haha. even the maids give her things. where is mine?! haha. =x i'm not jealous la. =)

we took lots of family photos. haha. wheee! oh! there was this photo when baby shermaine(my niece's name), was pulling barry's hair. haha. damn cute! and whenever she pulls his hair, she would giggle. that was only the time when we see her smile. haha. funny. i think she likes pulling people's hair. haha. when susan's(kelly's,my eldest cousin,wife) friend came along with her son, they tried to let them play. in the end,shermaine tried to pull his shirt and pulled his hair. haha. everyone was laughing. kelly said he would have a hard time next time. he said shermaine wouldn be his little gangster. haha. cute! =x

we sent sis and my cousin to marine parade. then me, mum and my maid went to optical 88. haha. mum got her new spects and she asked me if i want to make new one. THANKS! i had a hard time picking what i really liked. so i ended up picking one purple one. it's nice. but i'm not exactly sure if it suits me. should be ready next friday or saturday. hopefully, i won't go there alone. =x

here i am. hope alone. sis went out with her friends to countdown. so did my cousin. and i'm all alone. like i said, another ordinary christmas. haha. what's new. i'm used to it. =)

pictures time!


that's me playing sh's phone while waiting for mae and the others to come. taken by sh using my phone.


sh's shoe and my shoe together. i find it very artistic. haha.


me! zi lian-ing again. haha. wei chang said it's a nice photo. =P


this is the SK jewellery christmas tree at bugis there. it's like so freaking nice la! =x


me again! zi lian-ing. haha. i like this green mango top. haha.


look like two glow-in-the-dark rings right? haha. i did a donation yesterday while at esplanade there. one stick for 1 buck. and i had 2 bucks to get rid off. so i donated that 2 bucks in exchange for this. love it. =)


my cute little darling shermaine. haha. love her. =)


my thrid zi lian pic. haha. just took it. some peeps always say i look nicer withot spect. haha. so i'll show you how freaking ugly i look without specks. =x

ok. done with my exhibit. haha.

i'll be going with my family to vivo tml. WHEEE!! haha.

done blogging.

-like another usual christmas. when will christmas ever be a great one?-




woke up like 8.30 by my sis. as promised, i accompanied her and my mum to the specialist. sis had to do a checkup cause she has frequent nose bleed these days. while me, i had to collect my medicine. you know how sian it is? to be on a life time medication? -.-" i'm getting sick of it. =x

went shopping around at taka and had branch at pepper lunch. the food isn't great and it's expensive. >< about 12.30, i left and met sh at borders. she was like in slippers and i was in heels. sians. why did my short heels break at this time?! hope new year faster come. and i can wear my new short heels again. haha. =x ok. she went shopping. and i bought new earrings. =x after that, we rest at this restaurant at cine for a soda fountain. it's nice. =) haha. after that, we walked around. we walked to paragon. and rest again at coffee club. god. i spent alot on food today. hmms. i had black forest cake and ice mocha and a cup of water. then me and sh talked about funny things. haha. after that, went to citylink. she went to buy christmas card for her dad. haha.

i walked to esplanade alone. reached there about 6.15. i was sitting alone(not exactly alone, i kept the ants companied. =x) at the bridge there. i love the scenery from there. haha. i had my earpieces plugged in and on my music loud. i looked at the sky and at the expressway opposite. many things went through my mind. i looked at every couple that walked pass me. oh! and i saw 2 brides. cool. =) one of the groom looked as if he cried. haha. =x ok. there was this foreigner couple that asked me to take a photo for them. gladly, i did. =) haha.

i spent my time quite wisely there. i thought about my life. haha. yeah, studies, relationship, friends, and family. haha. i kinda regretted not studying hard enough for Os. and seriously speaking, if i don't meet the mark, i don't mind retaking this Os. haha. i kinda had the urge to study, suddenly. i love the feeling when i passed my A maths. i love A maths, but sometimes i did so badly that i wished i can give up. but at times, i met my expectations and i'm really proud of it. it's great to have fahmy as A maths teacher. haha. friends. i'm really happy to say that i had many friends whom stood by me when i was feeling sad and constantly encouraging me. =) peeps like joanna, min min, eve, mae, sh, qy, PUAY!, potato and many others. without them, i guess i would have quit school at the age of 14. haha. =x as for family, i know i've let my parents down many times. and i'm always the one they are so worried about. i guess it's time i should stop all my nonsense and to show them that i'm "useful" afterall. haha. =x relationship. i guess i've got nothing to say about it. =)

met him at about 7 plus. i had cravings for beef fries. but the queue was freaking long and i guess, i had to give it a miss. haha. we walked to esplanade. and GOSH! it's really my honor to watched that school's choir. is it acjc? erms. one jc. ok ok. i really know nuts about music though most of my family member learnt music. haha. anyway, i love the way they sing. it's..... ok. the school's choir just left me speechless. MJR's choir can't even reach that standard. =x anyway, it's really an eye opening experience. and the soloist for that christmas song rocks! haha. ok. i miss choir. i miss singing. i miss being soprano. i miss performing on stage(though i have stage fright.). but i really miss being a part of choir. you caught me. hmm. but i know where i stand. come one. i'm only a subsitute during last year's syf competition. how far can i go with singing? haha. i guess not very far. haha. my wish now is to join christmas caroling. but. i guess in singapore, it's not a very IN thing. haha. talking about this, it's been a long time since i last stepped into music room. hmm.

oh well. i wanted to sit outside esplanade again. so we went out. he didn't talk much. and i didn't feel like talking. but i didn't mind. i just love sitting beside him and enjoy every moment of silence. hmm. he still didn't talk much. and i didn't dare to ask him what's in his mind. haha. ok. at least i saw his smile. =x and manage to hear his crap. haha. then walked to raffles mrt station. i kept very quiet. and i guess i made him feel bored. haha. oopsy. =x he took the train with me. but he alighted at kallang. before that, he gave me this weird look. -.-" haha. anyway, thanks for keeping me companied. =) wheee!! =x

done blogging.

^{i'll tell you what's up with my entry yesterday. ok. i've been missing you all these while. i miss all the times i go out with you. i miss having you by my side. i miss being in your arms and having you to tell me that you don't wanna let me go. but i know all those are memories and i guess it won't really bother to you how much i miss you. but i really hope i'll have a chance to give you an unforgetable birthday celebration. i don't dare to ask from you to give me another chance to be your girlfriend again. cause i feel you deserve a much better girl.
that night, i spent my night thinking about 24 november. it's really sweet of you to come orchard to meet me, to walk to somerset with me and wore button shirt when i asked you to, even though you were running a fever. forgive me for not being understanding. forgive me for not sparing a thought for you.
all these while, you stood by my side. you were being so supportive of my every decision and encourage me when i lose hope. you listened to my complaints whenever i was down. you gave me a pat on my back to assure me that i will be able to achieve what i wanted. and you held my hands to walk through each obstacle. never once you shout at me for being late for an hour. you never complain about me, even though i know i'm a horrible stead. hmm. you did things that maybe no one would have done for me.
i love you.}

-nothing special. just another ordinary christmas-

Friday, December 22, 2006

i spent quite some time reading through my past entries. and many things went through my mind. haha. i guess, it's good to have stml afterall. =) i went to bed at 1. but i couldn't sleep. i still had some thoughts in my mind. i kept tossing and turning. but i just can't sleep. i stared into space. and as soon as i closed my eyes, tears just started rolling. gosh. >< then, i manage to sleep at only 2.30 a.m. -.-"

then came the weirdest dream i had! ok. i dreamt i had to retake my Os! [totally freak me out, cause my results aren't out and here i am dreaming that i hae to retake Os! what the heck?] ok. my parents didn't really scold me for retaking. and suddenly, i'm so close to my dad's side. erms. somehow, there's a guy that appear in my dreams. can't exactly remember what happened. but all i remembered was that this guy cheered me up when i was down and that he was the one that made me laugh when i was feeling sad. erms. weird la. -.-"

ok. woke up at 11 again. then i came online. no one talked to me, so i started writing my christmas cards. ok. many people will receive the card late i guess. haha. potato came to crap with me. then she had to go. so no one talked to me again. so i continued writing my cards. then dylan talked to me. haha. manage to finish writing all the cards by 4.30. then i went to post them.

came back. started reading my entries again. thank god! i didn't stick to writing that act cute language. *phew* if not, i really won't understand what i'm typing now. and i guess some of the readers will be disgusted at it too. haha.

suddenly, i have many weird thoughts. i'm wondering if i'll still have a chance to go out with you before school starts. i'm wondering if i'll ever have the chance to be in your arms again. i'm wondering if i can turn back time and to change myself into a girl that you want me to be. i'm wondering if i would have the chance to give you more good memories than bad ones. i'm wondering if i would ever have the chance to be lucky enough to celebrate your next birthday with you, cause i didn't have a chance this year. but.. i guess. maybe i won't be that lucky. oh well.

done blogging.

-christmas spirit is not in the air-

Thursday, December 21, 2006

another day out.

woke up like 11. cause it's really hot and the air con isn't on. *sigh* god! i'm always waking up at 11. and when 3 jan comes, how am i going to wake up at 6?! GOD! WHAT IF I'M LATE FOR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL?! sians. then again, there will be P.E! =S oh well. anyway, i rushed through 4 christmas cards and manage to send them today. so probably those 4 people will receive them tml, while the rest will receive, HOPEFULLY, saturday. =x

left house at 12.30. then me and sis went to eat beef chilli cheese fries at carles' junior. nice, i tell you. =) we shared, and manage to finish. after that, went 6th floor to meet barry, my second eldest cousin at mum's side. then we walked about and before we went into the theater, we met lynnette, my 3rd eldest cousin at mum's side. haha. i'm closer to mum's side rather than dad's side. cause i don't understand dialect and my chinese sucks now. so i am having a hard time communicating with them. as for mum's side, they speaks english and hardly utter chinese. haha. i remember my primary school teacher telling me, "i don't understand why your standard of english is so poor when you come from an english speaking family.". erms.. *shrugs*

oh well. my second time watching open season. and barry was laughing so loudly. =x haha. the movie is funny la. i love the rabbits. haha. and it's weird when they call me VALERIE instead of mei. GOSH! i feel so old. =(

after that, my sis, lynnette and me went far east. walked around and suddenly, some one called my name. and guess who it was? ong ying ying! haha. she changed quite alot. but still able to recognise her. haha. didn't really talked much. haha. we walked to wisma and bought famous amos. then came home. =)

receive a lovely christmas greetings from jun jun. GOD! i miss her. when is 6/8'o2 ever having a class gathering? i miss them!! hahas. the last time i went out with clarissa, we talked about everything under the sun, from results to schools to guys to family. and i really miss her. oh! her advice were great. haha. =) oh well. i'm glad jun didn't forget me! haha. she said she'll send me a card every year. guess it's going to be a habit. =) so love her!! *AHHH* haha.

my outing days are going to be over soon. in another 1 week time? say HELLO to MI~! haha. but yet, another part of me feel like slacking at home. and enjoy life of not studying. GOD! more tests! P.E!! oh no. =S XL!! GOTTA SAVE ME! haha. ok ok. he saved me while working during the exhibit. guess it's time to learn to walk this path alone. haha.

done blogging.

-sleepy-

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i'm feeling god damn insulted. ><

ok ok. woke up 11.30 this morning, though the air con was off at 8. -.-" (does mum has to do that all the time due to the increase in electricity bills?) *sigh* after that, me and sis got up, slack awhile. then left for bugis after lunch.

went to bugis street for awhile, to get my crystal cover. sians. i got cheated. =( i got my screen protector done at tampines bus interchange for 8 bucks, and at bugis street, you can get it done and a crystal cover put on for 7 bucks! what the heck?! *argh* oh well. anyway, me and sis bought 3 crystal covers for 10 bucks. one for me, one for daddy and one for her friend. after that, we walked to shaw tower. GOD! she made me, jay walk, jay run. In HEELS!! you know how scary that is? i might fall down. but anyway, i did it. and i was screaming while running. cause there was this car about to knock me down. -.-" and my beloved sister laughed at me. ><

we bought the tickets for sneak preview for NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM for 7.50 bucks per ticket. then walked around. i paid for the tickets and she paid for the popcorn. which was half the price of the total movie tickets. she cheat me again. >< haha. anyway, we went in early. haha. we took the couple seat. and GOD! i don't understand how would any couple enjoy sitting on that seat? ok. maybe they will, but i don't enjoy sitting with my sister on the couple seat. haha. she practically took 3/4 of the chair. =x oh well. but it's big enough for 2 people. =x DUH! if not why call couple seat? *smack my head* what am i talking? >< anyway, the show is funny. i love the dum dum. haha. DUM should watch it. haha. =x. "hey dum dum, where is my gum gum?". so hilarious. haha. i think the plot is cool. haha.

after that, me and sis walked to bugis. then she brought me to see the soo kee christmas tree. HELL NICE! haha. it's beautiful. i think is more beautiful than beautiful. =x ok ok. erms. we saw this manicure temp shop. 15 for 10 nails. for different patterns. and there is one meh meh pattern. coo! haha. i couldn't get it done yet, cause my broken nail has not grown. =( so i'll be going there with my sis next week. hopefully, it would have grown by then. oh. the guy asked if we were still studying. so i said i'm waiting for Os result and my sis said she is a NUS student. and he went, "OH! SO YOU BOTH ARE SISTERS?!(in a shocked manner.)". -.-" do i look so old that makes him think i'm her friend? or does she look young to look like my friend? *sigh* do i look old? ='(

after that, we went to buy sister's clothes and took bus 33 home. the journey was long. and i had my music on. =) i passed by my primary school and many memories came back to me. i missed those times when i was still young. when i knew nothing about love. when all that i know about love is a sweet thing and knew nothing about getting hurt. when everyday was a fun day for me. and i was always looking forward to a new day with new fun stuff. when the word "stress" was never in my dictionary. when "stead" was never heard before and "boyfriend" was a term used to name a friend who is a guy. when life was all about chasing each other around the field. when life was about gossipping about teachers and their lives. when PSLE was like a joke. when i hang around with my best friends. when i laugh and play with friends like zhi hao, joshua and aloysius. when i exchange letters with dayan(btw, i still keep them. lol.) those were the days. and almost everything changed. even people we knew, changed too. those young innocent people, has grown up to have a complicating life and that they were afraid of falling love again. lol. probably, this is just life. =)

just then, i was listening to "i do cherish you" song. by 98 degrees. quite long time ago. but it's nice. and so is the lyrics. one part kinda applies nicely to my life. =)

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise

yap. just when i felt life was black and white, when emotions was ruling my world. and when i cried almost everyday and was on the verge of ending this life of mine, someone came into my life. i didn't find him, but he found me. he brought me out of the colourless life and taught me how to colour my life all over again. he taught me how to open my heart and he brought me to a whole new paradise. he made me fall for him like i have never loved anyone before. he made me realise that without him, i am nothing. he made me realise that i am able to stand strong after a fall. but little did he realise, i would rather be weak than to lose him. i once hesitated to tell people how much i loved him. but right now, i really don't mind telling this entire world that i love him that much and that deeply. but.. haha. all these doesn't matter now, does it? haha. don't think he would care anymore. don't think it would ever bother him how much i miss him. and it will no longer bother him how much i love him. =)

oh well.

i'll be out again tml. for another movie. =)

done blogging.

-i meant all that i said-

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

it's really great to have someone, whom you love and love you, care so much for you. *sigh* i'm jealous now. =S

woke up like 11. then i got myself prepared cause sh said she'll be done by 12.05? so i quickly leave house and reach aljunied at 12.30 and guess what? i waited all the way till like 1?! oh well. i was freaking hungry. saw 2 groups of children. one group was the small girl was very naughty. she didn't listen to her mummy and nearly went beyond the yellow line. while the small boy listened to his mum. haha. the other group was, the small girl listen to the parents, while the boy was like freaking noisy. =x but they are all cute.^^ you know, the first small boy i saw keep looking at me. so whenever i make those funny faces, he laugh. haha. so cute. =P

anyway, went to long john silver for lunch. saw a group of ex MJR-ians, my batch. me and sh sat inside. so i went to order food. then when i came back, the one of them sat on my place, and ask me to sit at the other table. -.-!! sians. me and sh were like chatting about our previous job and other stuff. and GOD! that group was like freaking noisy. they were like laughing so loudly la. -.-" they won't embarrasse us, they just embarrassed themselves. haha. =x before me and sh left, one of the girl commented, "no other clothes to wear, have to wear class shirt." i was like "what the heck?!" cause one of the girls was sh's stead's ex stead. so i msg glenn(sh's stead).. i don't know what he is going to deal with her. but i can see he really cares for sh alot. sweet right? GOD!!! i'm jealous! haha. anywa, i don't think we should waste our breath on them, they are plain childish and i guess they are just jealous our class shirt has a brand(FBT) and theirs? brandless i guess. this is the only time i like brand k? cause i'm proud to be part of my class. =) AND FOR GOD SAKE! she's just jealous that sh has glenn to love and care for her, while she? NONE! haha. =x this is when the chinese phrase comes "chi bu dao pu tao, shuo pu tao suan." haha. =x ok. i'm evil.

went to arcade, sh pulled me. and she play this funny game to fa xie. and damn funny la. haha. anyway, after that, we sat at the cinema there. and there is this couple. sweet, i tell you. *sigh* hmm. went to watch holiday, before the movie, we finish half of the regular popcorn. so i went down to buy another one more. ok. the movie is great. kinda nice, funny and crappy. haha. i feel as if the entire theater is filled with people i know. cause we all laugh together and stuff. haha. quite cool. anyway, i nearly cried. for no reason. *shrugs* beats me. oh well. i love the part when all of them got together. sweet. =)

we went home after that. while i was walking home, i had the verge of doing something silly. but i didn't. i was afraid that i might sound really desperate on the phone. so i didn't. =x

done blogging.

-i know i'm in no rights to say this. i really miss you and i don't mind changing. but i guess it doesn't matter anymore.-

Monday, December 18, 2006

could have slept about 12 a.m this morning. but i was waiting for crystal's msg.. wait until nearly 1 a.m!! >< sians. and don't know who use house number to call me. =x

ok. woke up by crystal(AGAIN!) at 8.30 a.m. she told me i can work from 9.30 to 3.30. so i quickly rush and prepared myself. it was really in a rush. i didn't even have proper time to eat my breakfast. =S but anyway, i reached there just in time. 9.30!! haha.

got this 3 aunties, about 50s, they were so facinated by the accessories. -.-" and they bought alot la. haha. they were like "jin sui(looks good, or something like that, you know my dialect sucks!)" and they just put into the basket. haha. but they are worse than youngsters. i recommend a long earrings and they said "tai chang le(too long.)". DOTS! haha. another lady was about in her 30s or 40s, and she only picked pearls. and i recommend one pearl earring and she went "TAI DA LE (too big)". DOTS! not long, then will be too big. *argh* oh well. i came across 3 other customers. one only pick red colours, one picked only orange and another only picked blue. -.-" weird people. they are worse then me! =x but anyway, the accessories are nice. =] should have bought a few for myself and one belt. so damn cheap!

i worked till like 4+, when crystal came to take over. then i went alone to TM. i took quite sometime to choose which handkerchief i should get for daddy. finally, i saw one that really caught my eyes. haha. ok ok. next time, whichever guy's birthday, i'll just get a handky. =x after that, i went to find cakes. couldn't find one that i like. at first, i hesitated to buy truffle. but in the end, i bought. haha. then, i came home. it was raining. i didn't bring umbrella. so i walked under the rain. haha.

i'm going out tml, wed and thursday. hopefully, friday got part time job again. kinda broke.

OH! guess what! i've got EAGLES award. i'm not sure why i'll get it. cause i didn't hold any position in choir and my position in the prefectorial board is quite low. but i still got it. weird. anyway, more money. so, not bad. =)

done blogging.

-you once said you'll walk in the rain with me. but in the end..-

Sunday, December 17, 2006

came back not long. =)

dad drove to marina bay there for steamboat. it's my sis and my idea of going there to eat. haha. so anyway, when we got there, we got a place under the shelther. haha. so we started to cook stuff. it rained half way. i was feeling damn freaking cold. =x haha. the guys sitting at the table beside us ate damn freaking alot. i think they ate more that the price they paid. so my sis asked me if this company actually made any profits. hahas. i guess they did. if not, the entire stretch won't be theirs. haha. after meal, we head back to the car under the rain. and i'm like so damn cold in the car. i was practically shivering. =( oh well. and now, i'm running a horrible flu!!

ok ok. here i am now. whee! christmas is coming. i guess nothing much would happen. i'll be home again with my parents while sis will be out having fun. what's new? *sigh* when has christmas been an exciting one? or when have i been looking forward to christmas? oh! other than opening of presents from mum's friends and my CHRISTMAS CARDS!! haha. i really love opening christmas cards. cause i'm always looking forward to reading those personal message that is written inside. haha. so that's why i love sending christmas cards too. ^^ wheee!!

god! i'll be stuck at home again. and sis friends are coming. what am i going to do?! ='( ok. hopefully i get a job tomorrow. *crossing my fingers* i'm praying hard. haha. i need money!

puay is leaving on thursday and i think potato is coming back on the 19!! *argh* i miss them. =)

done blogging.

-i'm looking forward to a whole new experience and challenge. =)-




i'm so bored at home. i really can't wait to go out. ARGH!! i'm desperate for a job. if not, i can't wait for school to reopen. just let me do something!! ><

woke up like 11? cause i slept at 1, again!! ><

nothing to do today. hopefully tml can find job. anyone, wanna go out?! i'm freaking bored at home. if not, anyone got a job for me? =S darn. stuck at home for another 2 days or so. then wed going out with sis and thursday with mae and sh. wheee! bowling. ok ok. pray hard i don't start new game for the wrong lane. =x

ok ok.

done blogging.

-tired-

Saturday, December 16, 2006

i woke up like 12!! wow! yeah. cause i slept at 2 a.m. *sigh*

then met dum at 12.30 to pass him the shirt. after that, 1, left for TM with mum to get sister's phone. from 1+ to 3 la! it's so freaking long. anyway, came back at 4.15. then i rushed out.

i went esplanade alone. yeah. A.L.O.N.E. so anyway, i took like quite long to reach there. suddenly, feel that the way there is so freaking long. >< oh well. i walked out of esplanade to the waters there. WOW. the feeling is so different. *sigh* many things went through my mind, as many couples walked past. it's weird how people can maintain their relatioship for as long as 2 years. and mine? guess i just have to surrender to reality that i'm SERIOUSLY a horrible stead.

^{in this relationship, i feel i'm a horrible stead. and that you expect me to change myself for you. ok. i don't mind. but what about you? are you willing to change yourself for me? have you ever asked what i didn't like? all this while, i feel that this relationship is all about your ex. what about me? do i even exist in your small little world? or do my existence only reminds you of your ex? but i guess it no longer matters. hmms.}

walked back to city hall control station alone. then went to meet sh and her stead. her stead left quite soon. then she told me, he thought i'm sad cause i see couples. -.-" ok ok. i went to collect my pay today. not alot. enough for a few more outings.

went to taka to get cake. then went back to esplanade with sh. then waited for qy, silin and mae. meanwhile, i was listening to my music. sorry, i can't help thinking of those memories. *sigh*. as soon as the rest joined us, things were getting better. miss them lots. oh, btw, HELLO MAE'S MOTHER!! *wave* yeah. heard from mae that she reads our blog. =x DON'T SCOLD HER AUNTIE. =) hahas. we put some cream on mae's face. we chatted for quite a while to update each other on our own work life. and thanks qy! for the chocolates!! haha. i'll grow fat!! hahas.

left early, to meet crystal. promised to send her home. so. yeah. i met her. and here i am, home. =)

hmms. i back to where i am. yeah. you are a great guy. you care so much for your stead and ever ready to give in. but still, things just didn't work out cause our interest and thinking clashes. thus, feelings is now a secondary piority. you done the best to prove me that you can be the best boyfriend in my life. you have given me the sweet days through this entire relationship. we managed to handle quite alot of situations. and lastly, you make me fall for you and love you like i have loved no one before. you gave me one of the most sweetest and best memory of my life. you've done all these. but too bad. 10 years from now, things will not be the way we want it to be. but still, you've given me all that you can. =) and thank you so much.

there's nothing much for me to say. i can't force you to come back to me, cause i'm not who you want me to be. no point pestering you to come back to me either. no matter how much i wanna hold on to you, i just can't. so i guess, i just have to learn to let you go.

so much for the ever lasting love story. so much for showing me forever. and so much for showing me what love is.

done blogging.

-the tears i shed will no longer mean anything to you. and all i can do now is just to watch and love you silently.-

Friday, December 15, 2006

i'm just stupid enough to believe everything you said. and stupid enough to think things might work out again. BUT I WAS SO GOD DAMN WRONG!

woke up like 10 a.m by my maid. all thanks to sh's call. lols. so i quickly wake up, checked classified for jobs, if any. then quickly rush out to meet her. we were supposed to catch the movie at 10.50 at suntec. by the time we reached there, it was past the time. so we walked to marina square to bowl. and saw 2 freaking perverts! damn unlucky. *sigh*.

how unlucky can i get? i broke my nail again! but i strike. like WHATEVER. it hurts la. then me and sh played for 5 rounds before crystal joined us. and guess what unlucky think happen? this time not to me. =x ok ok. we were supposed to have new game. so i didn't notice the mode was to the left lane, and i click new game. but i was on the right. so in the end, i helped the pro start new game. i had to apologise cause his score the previous time was like damn freaking nice. it's either strike or spare. and it was over 200. >< oops.

anyway, after 7 rounds, crystal left for her lessons, and me and sh went shopping. we went to paragon to ka jiao qy, sotong and xl. then walk to taka. bought some stuff and head to somerset to pick crystal up. then went home.

unlucky enough? ok ok. something else happen.

tml should be out again. i can't stay at home!

done blogging.

^{after the last time we quarrelled, i kept thinking of you. but each time i think of you, i told myself that no matter what, i need to get you out of my mind. i tried real hard, although i wasn't getting the result i wanted. all these while, i missed you, think of you and recalled every single moment we shared. i was wishing that things could be the same as before. then came yesterday, when things seemed to be the same. however, this happiness only last for awhile. i was stupid enough to think that things could be the same. i was wrong. from the time we went separate ways, you left me thinking and missing you. and today, you dashed all my hopes. treat me as an idiot, if you want to. yes, i'm just a bitch. since you think we aren't suitable, what for lift up my hopes? and then dashed it all over again? forget about the probation thingy, since you already know that we aren't suitable and that i will always be the same. what for continue to lift up my hopes to keep thinking that we might have a chance to be together again? don't tell me you love me if you don't even love me for who i am. please. i'm begging you. don't hurt me anymore. i had enough. and i can't take it anymore. ><
no matter what, i wish you all the best with the next girl that steps into your life. friends?}

-i'm saying this again: if love is all about letting go, then i'll let you. but i'll wait here silently. i won't force you to come back to me. but just don't hurt me time and time again.-

-i fighting back my tears. and i wanna stay strong-





the sunset scenery when i was in the taxi, on my way to the hotel.

sis and her mud pie.

purple christmas tree with angels on it.

me and sis in front of hard rock cafe.

pretty hard rock cafe. haha.

me zilian-ing on my bed.

pretty pink angel in hard rock cafe. nice.

me zilian-ing at hotel's lobby mirror and sis joined me.

us! at chatuchak.=D

my maid, me, sis in our room.

sis and her SEXY necklace. haha

look at how busy chinatown is!!

what a weird pattern. the heels is so freaking high!

another weirdo pattern.

pretty looking chocolate at MBK. lols

my new top and new skirt. and i'll look like little back riding hood. haha.

a nice heel i wanted to buy. but i ended up buying another one.

me, my maid and sista.

this is a couple's shirt. and i meant girl and boy.

this is another couple's shirt. and i meant boy and boy. =x

pretty chrismtas tree. ^^ nice!

sis, me, mummy!

GOD!look at their roses! so damn nice!! where are my roses?!

me, in the airport. so damn nice!! i love their airport. =x

BIG BIG HERSEYS!! ooo!! i love it!! but quite ex. =(

nice bottle. limited edition k? hahas.

look who's that? random picture of a friend. =)

here are my pictures. if you wanna know my thailand trip, it's after this. =) take care readers.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

ok ok. only a few hours, and i'm blogging again. but now, different theme. now, is about thailand trip. many people are asking me how is it. so now, judge for yourself. ^^ erms. pictures another time k? =x

o9dec
left for the airport about 1.30 when the flight is about 3+. sh wanted to sent me off, but i didn't want her to come. haha. no one ever sent me off when i go overseas. so not use to it. =x so anyway, when mum and my maid went to check in, i called puay and him. puay is so cute. haha. ^^ so after 3.15, my dad and sis joined us. and 3.30 we went in. board the plane and flew to thailand. the journey there was boring. so anyway, arrived there, and we had a hard time communicating with the people. luckily, we manage to hire a taxi van. so cool. haha. reach the hotel, check in. pack everything and we head off to hard rock. we didn't know our way, and we were lost. >< so we tried to flag a cab. but guess what, not all taxi drivers know hard rock cafe. HARD ROCK CAFE IS SO FREAKING FAMOUS AND YOU DON'T KNOW?! i was like "how can they now know?".. so finally one of them know and we manage to have HRC! hahas. dinner cost a bomb! 2084 baht! haha. after that, took cab home. beofore going to bed, i msg 3 special people. haha.ok ok. first night, was quite alright. cause of the long journey and stuff, i manage to sleep well. and guess what? i dreamnt of puay!! GOD!! i'm not going to elaborate. =x oh! angel msg me. he wished me good night, and he said "as promise". haha. not all promises are meant to be broken. =)

1odec
woke up 8 a.m sing time, 7 a.m bk time. then got everything ready for the day and head off for breakfast. had french toast and some hot dogs. yummy. =x after that, we walked from our hotel to siam "mrt". then all the way to one station which is near chatuchak. i so love that place though it was hot and stuffy. but, guess what, the price is good and the things are cheap. =x i bought pants there. nice! bought many bags for like 4 bucks. you can't find them in sing, not even pasamalam. haha. half way, my maid couldn't take it, and daddy had to accompany her back to the hotel. -.-" god, she is worse than me. haha. i manage to stay there under the SUPER hot sun till like 4? then took cab back to the hotel again. and my daddy and maid just woke up from their afternoon naps. and what were we doing? shopping under the hot sun and they were sleeping in the nice air con room!! >< ok. that night, we went to patpong for dinner and shopping. haha. then went to walk around. and GOD!! their changing rooms? *DOT* what changing room? all they did was the give you a long skirt and you do the changing there. i was like -.-!! but oh well. i bought a jeans, a slipper and clutch bag! hahas. anyway, full of bars la. and all the guys were like looking into the bars, cause of the bar top dancing. -.-" anyway, was walking along the roads. when i heard a male voice. damn freaking deep. and all i saw was a lady talking on the phone. after she walked away, my sis told me she was aqua. >< took cab back. second night, had another weird dream. haha. this time, dreamt of angel. haha. slept the best this night. =)

11dec
woke up, 7.30a.m bk time. same thing for breakfast. after that, head off to chinatown. i swear i'm never going there again!! everything was whole sale and it is freaking squeezy la. hate that old lady who push me, step on my feet and still dare to "TSK" me so loudly!! what the heck. argh! after that, manage to squeeze though, and took cab back to hotel. rest awhile and went MBK. haha. did lots of shopping there. not on clothes but on food!! haha. yummy!! after that, went back. this night, it's horrible. i slept like only for awhile. i dreamt of ghost!! like that the heck!! argh! 3 a.m. receive ah boi's msg. he wished me good night. sweet huh. haha. angel wished me good night too. his msg damn funny.

12dec
last day in bk. and we spent it at platinium fashion shopping mall. and i tell you! it's good! haha. i bought like 5 shirts, many tops, and 1 shoes. haha. so nice to shop there. i really feel like a tai tai there. haha. only that dad was the one paying. haha. whee!! manage to change my wardobe. haha. ok ok. now, you'll see me wearing pants lesser. haha. anyway, we were carrying alot of things. so after that, went back to the hotel. rest awhile, went for dinner and went night market along pratunam centre. took many pictures and of course, bought many pins. haha. after that, head back to the hotel. when we were at the lobby, everyone where covering their noses and coughing. so i followed blindly. and finally, i ask the receptionist what happen. and guess what, the chilli powder package burst. -.-" dots. haha. this night, i slept the least. i couldn't sleep. >< sians.

13dec
woke up like 6+ bk time. and we rushed down to the airport. reach there by 8.30. and the check in counter not even open. -.-" dots. so many people were already queueing up la. haha. ok ok. the journey home was longer. haha. as soon as i reach sg, i msg puay and angel. then puay called me immediately. haha. shows how much she missed me. =x haha.

that's the end of the trip. =)

done blogging.






i'm back!! home from outside. =x and i'm not in the mood to post a long entry. so i won't be posting an entry on thailand trip. i'm too lazy to do that. =x haha.

ok ok. couldn't really sleep well last night. but anyway, woke up at 9+ to check my posting. =x then slack awhile and left house about 12. and was able to reach orchard at 12.30 sharp! haha. i'm not late. =x

so anyway, went to many places. from paragon to wisma, to taka, to marina square, to esplanade and finally to raffles city, before i came home. lols. guess who i saw?! i saw dylan choo! haha. yeah. he was with a girl. i saw min hui too. and 2 other ex mjr-ians.

i was freaking sleepy though. but manage to keep myself awake. lunch was just ice lemon tea and tea break was sobert(lemon). the waitress, christina, is sweet. haha. i think they work base on commission. cause after she gave us the menu, she said "my name is christina, when you are ready, you can take your orders from me.". it was similar to what we said to the customers at the exhibition, after explaining to them the products and before they left. we always say "you can come back to me, (name), if you want to buy the computer. thank you.". lols. so that is my conclusion. haha.

i'm tired. and i'm still going out tml. =x i'm going bowling again. and this time, hopefully my nails won't break. =x hahas. i think i'll be going marina square then to somerset or maybe paragon to give xl a visit. see how everything goes ba. =x

wow. i didn't know so many people miss me while i'm not in singapore. but don't worry people, i miss you all too!! =D i bet puay miss me the most. haha. ok ok. i'm just being thick-skinned. fine! =x

done blogging.

-READ THIS: i want you back. and i want you badly.-




WOOTS! just check my posting for first 3 months. =) i got into MI(Science). though to many, it ain't a good JC/MI, but i seriously don't care. every school has its own good and bad points. just like MJR and RI. which, obviously, i don't mind choosing MJR once again, if i have the choice. hahas. anyway, right now, i'm just looking forward to experience and of course to learn new things. yeahs!! haha. hopefully life will be better. especially with a change in environment. whee!! i'll get to know new friends!! ^^

wishlist for this very moment:
-to gain a whole new experience while in MI
-to meet new friends
-i get to wear back my school uni.
-lectures!! <3 <3
-may be a increase in my allowance? =x

things i don't want in my wishlist:
-damn. got P.E!! ><
-can't go out with friends, cause i'll be in school
-homework!! ><
-orientation
-fierce teachers.
-wake up early.
-long school hours


but peeps! even if i make new friends, i'll diffinitely not forget people who kept me company through boring lessons in sec 3 and 4. and peeps who encourage me all this while and of course, peeps who keep teaching me when i don't understand. finally, i'll not forget those i love!! haha. although i'll be meeting new friends, which include guys. haha!! =x ok ok. shan't bitch around, before i get smack. haha.

done blogging.

-i'll love this life of mine.-

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

*kiss singapore's ground* god! i so love singapore!

ok ok. i'm currently in singapore now. WOOHOO!! the air here is like so freaking fresh and smoke-free. =x hahas. and i'm so happy to be a singaporean. i swear i'm not going to be a quiter. and even if i am, i'm not going to run to malaysia, thailand or brunei. =x

i shan't really blog everything now. i'm rushing for time. going to sleep soon. =x

this trip is great. i manage to change my wardrobe with quite alot of skirts and tops. they are brandless and i seriously don't mind. =) i don't see the point of wasting so much of my money on branded goods, just to show that i can afford it or to show that i'm high class. oh well. this is my point of view. you may not agree. haha.

thailand rocks in some way. like the cheap clothes, shoes and bags. diffinitely not the traffic, the air and the curry. hahas. the clothes, shoes and bags are really cheap. and damn it! my 15 bucks shirt i bought at bugis street cost only 6 bucks in thailand!! like what the hell. >< i bought many tops. tops that i never like wearing last time. hahas. anyway, bought 1 more short heels for new year and slippers. bags, i bought a puma sling bag and LV-look alike bag. haha.

the air there is horrible. i came back feeling as though i smoke alot there. there is alot of air pollution and all the road side stalls smoke. damn horrible la!! >< oh. the traffic sucks too. and some taxi drivers really drive until so damn scary la. >< maybe sg should import some taxis for thailand. since our taxis seems to be the limiting transport vehicle. lol. and the curry is like so freaking spicy!! >< but at least, they are environmental friendly. =) love them for that.

hmms. have all sorts of weird dream over those nights. and i was always looking forward to day time. =x shopping spree!! haha. hopefully, i can sleep well tonight. hahas. puay, be honoured that i dreamt of that weirdo dream la. hahas. and angel, that dream was nice, it seem real though. hahas. third night was on a ghost. hahas. funny.

i'm going to gain weight in no time. bought many many food stuff. haha. =x

done blogging.

-what's in your mind, i won't know. but i'll wait for you to tell me personally-

p.s. pictures will be posted soon.

Friday, December 08, 2006

ok. this is my last entry before i leave. =) whee!! miss me people!! cause i'll miss you all!! ^^

ok. woke up today. 9.30 sharp, the air con was off. AGAIN!!! ahh!! hahas. i couldn't find any breakfast. the bread was expired. so i skipped breakfast. then i had gastric. damn. >< so i lie in bed. haha. but when my maid and sis came back, i saw bread!! woots. so i had bread and peanut butter for breakfast. haha. =x

i packed all my stuff for the trip tml. and yeah. i'm all ready to go. haha. so anyway. about 3+, i went to orchard with my mum, sis and maid. of course, we went into taka. mum was looking for a briefcase for daddy. suddenly, i realise that being and mum, as well as a wife and a working lady, ain't easy. you have to look after the welfare of your husband, childen and have to handle the pressure in office. wow. i love my mummy. =)

after that, went walking around ngee ann city. mum brought us to coffee club. god. the royaltine looks delicious, but it just doesn't suit my taste. =x the chocolate milkshake wasn't that bad. haha. after that, went back to taka. mum was looking for something, so i went to look for puay. haha. i was looking at the lighters. and i saw one damn nice one!! haha. puay so funny. she keep listening to the sound when you open and close the lighter cover. haha. it feels good to see her!! i miss puay! haha. i tried looking for angel, but he wasn't there. so forget it. haha.

after buying everything, we took cab home. sis left to meet her friends. so anyway, we were queueing. and i saw this cockroach in sushi teh. -.-" god! so freaking alive can? why didn't they kill it?? eeew!! lol.

i started talking to mum about my friends. lol. quite funny. =x

hmm. i was wondering if you will msg me when i'm not in singapore. would you even tell me that you miss me? or am i too desperate for you? ><

done blogging.

-if you're reading this, tell me what exactly am i to you? i wanna know. please.-

Thursday, December 07, 2006

i'm currently having problem typing. >< yeah.. my thumb is freaking pain. ='( no one help me sayang.. =(

ok. woke up about 10 plus today. wasn't in the mood of going out at first. but after coming online, i had no one to talk to other than crystal. and i predict that the day would be boring. so i decided, no matter what, must go out. haha. and finally, sh manage to persuade her mum. so yeah! i went out.

was the earliest to reach. so waited for the two ladies. when sh came, she was damn shock la. cause my skirt was freaking short. yeah. that will be first and last time i'm going to wear. i'm not use to wearing that skirt. haha. 34 bucks like that gone. =S then crystal came and we head off to marina square. was chatting in the train, when i receive a msg from jalat kor. he was in the same cabin as me. but i just didn't spot him. haha. oh well. he say i paste stamps on my eyes. but i think he is the one. blue and white also cannot differentiate. haha. =x

reach city hall, went U.R.S to disturb mins again. haha. love ka jiao-ing her. cause she rocks totally! ^^ so went to marina square. then saw cotton candy shop. me and crystal wanted to eat. so we agree to eat when we are going home. haha. oh well. we were all deciding where to go for lunch. crystal say we should go AZABUSABO! haha. damn cute name. haha. but, in the end we went to long john silver to eat. haha. i ordered for 3 combo 1s. and guess what, they gave me 2 combo 1s. and mine was 3 chickens. -.-" i wanted to change, but sh ask me to accept it. haha. ok lo.

after lunch, they pulled me to play bowling. i was like... =O duh! i don't know how to play bowling. i'm a noob. haha. anyway, after sometime, i got the hook of it. and i manage to bowl. although some times tio long ko. >< ok ok. i manage to strike once. haha. anyway, got once, i was about to bowl, and i drop the ball. -.-" and worse!! my nail broke!! WAH LAO!! i just cut it until so damn freaking short yesterday. and now, i break it! ='(

after bowling, went to buy our candy floss. 1.50 for a huge candy floss~~ haha. nice nice. yummy. =x on our way out of marina, our candy floss starts melting. so all of us threw it away. haha.

so here i am. back home. so bored and nothing to do. tml can't go out cause i've got to do last minute packing. and i'm expecting to have more blue blacks. haha. oh well.

hmms. i had the urge to know if you would miss me. doesn't matter as a friend or what. i just wanna know. and i asked. =) thanks for telling me the answer. so, would you tell me what's going through your mind? i wanna know, but i won't force you. yeah. tell me, will you? but i just wanna say that i won't do anything to prove how much i love you. and of course, i hope you will accept me for who i am, though i'll try to change to suit your lifestyle.

god. i'm talking too much. what for think so much when may be you won't even wanna get back. haha. ok. forget it.

ARGH!! i'm leaving le. and i don't feel like leaving this place. singapore is a wonderful place!! haha. where i've got a lovely bed of my own. my toys paradise. where i can sms like siao without worrying whether i need to pay overseas charge. haha.

ok ok. pictures time!!


meh (me)! and meh meh (stuff toy)!! haha. that is so cute!!


eeew!! my ugly bowling shoes. haha.


my broke thumb's nail. pain!! ='(

ok ok. i was working at singapore expo for 4 days for some computer exhibit. and one of the perm staff's friend came to find him after the work. so last night, i receive a weird friendster msg. god!! the perm staff's friend called me the lenovo girl and say we should meet some time. -.-" erm.. so i'm thinking that he got the wrong person. but at least, if he insists that i'm pretty, i won't reject. haha.

done blogging.

-i miss you. but it doesn't seem to matter anymore, does it?-

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

my life is getting more and more dull each day. >< shouldn't have put all the dates over the last few weeks. now i'm bored at home~! -.-"

GOD~! finally wake up late! hahas. i woke up at 11.30 a.m. without having the air con off! woots! sleep until so nice! anyway, had roti prata for lunch. and i only ate 1.5 pieces. haha.

played Be Trapped! and Prime Suspect this entired afternoon. and i was so freaking bored. so i decided to watch disney channel. haha. after that, i packed my stuff for the trip. i know i'm clumsy. i dropped many things la. and i dropped the remote control on my feet. and immediate effect. i had a blue black. then i knock my knee on the piano, one blue black. -.-"

got myself a date with sh tml. yeah!! finally can go out. hahas. damn. i need someone who can go out with me everytime i need someone. =x ok ok. shan't be bad.

leaving on saturday. god. i don't feel like going thailand. suddenly, i wanna go malaysia and eat banana chips. or to australia to buy rock candies. >< just not thailand. =( oh well. now i'm not sure if i should bring top up card or my own sim card. hmm. i don't think anyone will msg me right? haha.

wow. so fast 4 years flew by. and from a thirteen year old girl to a sixteen year old girl. i'm not sure if people around me changed. but one thing for sure, i changed quite alot. hahas. i'm starting to be someone i've never like and someone i'm starting not to know. oh well. few things that never change, i still rely on friends alot. especially all my brothers and girlfriends. i still stay happy. one last thing, i know i love my family somehow. =)





blue blacks!

done blogging.

-i'm not who i used to be-

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

9.30 sharp, the air con was turned off. wth. >< can't i sleep a little longer?! i slept like 12.30 a.m la. *argh*

ok. my plan for the day had some last minute changes. and it's always the case. regardless who i am going out with. and it's starting to get on my nerves. >< sians. oh well.

met sh about 11.15. then went to kelly sevices to help her bf register for the job application thingy. then we headed to marina square for movie. i dropped by guardian to by some plaster thingy. cause my heels was hurting my baby toe and the back of my leg. >< then i finally found U.R.S! hahas. i saw mins. and i called her phone. but no answer. so after buying my stuff, i went to find her. haha. and she was shocked. =P oh well.

went to marina square. bought to tickets before lunch. and i started to put on the plaster thingy. and guess what? i found a cut. damn freaking pain la. damn my shoes! hmph. it shows that being vain needs to pay a price. >< *sigh* went to mac for lunch. then went to watch open season. lols. god. damn cute. but i pity all the rabbits. lols. after that, went to walk around to look for sh's clutch bag. then went home.

after that, i went raffles club with my cousin, her parents, sis and granny. went there to celebrate my cousin's birthday in advance. lols. the food was... no comments. anyway, going back there to celebrate granny's birthday on 31st. maybe after that can go count down. haha. =x i love the white chocolate cake. WHITE CHOCOLATES ROCKS! hahas. then went to granny's house for a while and my other aunt sent us home.

hmms. seriously. i'm sick of living this life man. i don't wanna live in this world of guessing all the answers to all my doubts. just tell me what i wanna know! if not, just let me get over with this freaking issue and let me move on. damn it! why on earth this i make that stupid move? why on earth is my mind constantly thinking of you and every single memories. YES! it just starts flowing into my mind. and i hate thinking of it. cause i'm having a hard time facing the fact that you are no longer by my side. and facing the fact that i'm not strong enough to walk this freaking path alone. why on earth did you enter this freaking world of mine? why on earth do you have to be nearing perfection, thus making me insecure? why on earth is everything has to turn out differently from the way i want it? why?

DADDY. i can't take it any longer. ='(

done blogging.

-the cut hurts so badly and i can't take it anymore-

Monday, December 04, 2006

as i was saying, i'll be going out with dum and jalat. yeahs. i met them at suntec. was suppose to be at city hall mrt station. but yet, those 2 guys made me walk to suntec ALONE! ='( lols. yeah. but i guess, i just got to learn to get use to being alone.

anyway, while on my way to suntec, feng yao called me. and i know he sould be around some where. so i looked. and i saw cornelius and i know fy got to be with him. and, true enough, fy was hiding behind him. lols. so we walked together to suntec. then i left and met dum and jalat. we walk to marina square to eat kfc. lols. we also started chatting. jalat really tempt me to go poly la. >< bad boy! lols. oh well. i've still got to base on my results right? hahas.

after dinner, they went to arcade. i sat there and watch dum play. lols. damn lame la. =x after that, i pulled them to pei me sit outside esplanade. yeah. i've been wanting to sit there for a long time. but i've always ended up in town. so. yeah. i decided to take this opportunity. this will be my last time sitting there, i guess. if not i won't be there for any other reasons in future. =)

ok. i bought candy floss and started eating. and the two elder guys ate my candy floss! hmph! in the end, i helped dum to buy pop corn. haha. and i bought popcorn too! haha. so we started talking. got this guy's pants so low, that can see his under garments. and dum keep laughing la. -.-" crap! someone started getting emo. anyway, i bought snapple, grapeade. and i commented that it smells like wine. so i let dum smell and that guy drank it instead of smelling it. -.-!! irritating. haha. oh well. i spent most of my time crapping with them and singing songs. "i do, cherish you, for the rest of my life.. " guess that lyrics will only be true in future. just not now.

while looking at the night scenery of the city, i just can't help wondering of the every moment of memories i had there. just when i was about to give something to you, everything was over. and i guess, there isn't any way to change things back to the way they were. hmm. i read the e-mail you sent me few months ago, again. every single thing you said just came back into my mind. oh well.

let me end this beautiful story with a perfect ending. =)


this scenery, i once shared with you.


guess who are those 2? the red one and the black one. haha.


that's me and my bro! dude, way to go! haha.


that's jared, the red one, who is sms-ing. who is he sms-ing? haha. the black one is dum. and the white one is rainer. he is working in suntec. and we met him at city hall mrt.

oh well. i believed, this ending should be a rather nice one.

done blogging.

-tell me, what is in your mind. i really wanna know.-

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