Friday, December 31, 2004

metoyou

stay happy~!

hahax.. jux came back from school.. so farnie.. hahax.. anywayx.. homework not done yet.. gonna do later.. ^^ hahax..

kae.. firstly, i'm wondering why peepx aren't proud of their name.. instead, their proud of their nicks.. aiyoyox.. i'm not gonna say much, coz i kinda like my nick too.. but at least, i'm proud of mua name.. jux hope u peepx are proud of ur name.. if u dare to say something, dare to say ur name too.. no one is gonna get angry or wad.. hahax.. *sMiLe*

kae.. woke up 8.30.. i was woken up by my alarm clock, and i didn't even know.. hahax.. got up of mua bed and prepare for school.. my maid is sick, so aren't gonna to ask her to do anything.. i met minx at kallang mrt station, then went to nana's house to pick her.. then we went school together.. hahax..

reach school that time, very little sec 1s lo.. wonder why this year junior super little.. hahax.. went to canteen for a short meeting with the prefects' teachers in charge.. wahx~! next year 2 investiture sia.. 1 in jan, and another is the stepping down of seniors in april.. why lidat?? aiyoyox.. first month jiu so mang liaox.. sianx..

i was asking alex something, then AH indiretly pointing to me lo.. say mux have respect.. i respect her, but then, i was taking down minutes and that i need to clarify stuff in case i give wrong info.. haix.. wadever lo.. toh wee today super happy sia.. he shuang lo.. now can go crazy anytime.. i'll go crazy studying chinese next year.. >< hahax.. scouts got meeting today.. hahax.. yapx.. saw LH kor kor.. brough his prezzie that i bought from malaysia.. but lazy give him.. hohohox.. never mind lahx.. ^^

went AVA room after that lo.. now is EXCO take over.. super many things to say.. so let it be.. hahax.. seniors today go crazy.. especially the sec 3s'o5.. hahax.. then we disturb the seniors lo.. hahax.. ^^ sec 3s'o5 rawkx~! hahax.. mua duty never change~!!! ICC LIST RULEX~!! hahax.. sending ppl to DC.. not that i'm mean.. jux lazy go for reading period.. hahax.. but next year 3 ppl ler.. that makes a more difficult job.. hahax.. but let it be.. hahax.. i'm in communications lehx.. so super sad you mei you?? under jordan, mux get bully by him.. hahax..

after that, went to help out a little in the PR lo.. help to open all the lockers.. next year can have locker ler.. hahax.. so cool.. hahax.. won't get caught for leaving books in school?? hmmx.. probably bahx.. hahax.. ^^ then jordan tried to take down the glass of our notice board.. then something happen, then ask me go tell teacher.. -.-" everything also me.. saddening.. hahax.. but at least i help mahx.. hahax.. stay until 1.40.. then they closing the school.. so we went mac lo..

reached mac that time, some of us drenched lo.. hahax.. then order our food.. we all go crazy manx.. chao pick a long french fries, then slowly slowly, one by one feed others tru the mouth.. wahx.. i'm always the second one lehx.. >< then SY keep asking me to bite his fries.. -.-" diaox.. hahax.. let it be?? hahax.. dunno.. i'm still pure horx.. never give mua first kiss away.. ^^ hohohox.. mux give someone i truly like?? probably.. ahax.. love=respect.. that is the motto of love this year.. dunno who tell us de.. hahax.. alot of motto lahx.. love = respect.. hahax.. cool..

went home about 3+ lo.. hahax.. then here i am, updating mua blog.. never go help the salvation army.. >< coz i came home late, and jie lazy go?? hahax.. later going countdown.. at suntec i think.. hahax.. so cool?? ya lo.. mux jump~! then can grow taller.. or else mua buddy gonna tease me again..

new year resolution
to grow taller *]]
remember every lesson that i've learnt *]]
to concentrate on mua studies *]]
dun make mum disappointed anymore *]]
put first thing first *]]
study hard to achieve better result *]]

wootx.. happy new year in advance everyone~!! to all mua friends: thanx for always being there for me.. ^^ love u peepx~!!

Thursday, December 30, 2004

metoyou

accidentally in love

wootx.. it's sure cold today.. *brrr* so fast 30th ler.. 3 more days to school reopen.. wad should i do?? i dun feel like going school.. so pinky lehx~!!! i'm gonna face pink colour everyday.. eeewx.. oh.. oh.. can u imagine 20 singaporeans confirmed missing and 279 are unreachable?! omg~!! so many.. and according to the bible, we are coming to the end of the world.. >< and here i am only having a PSLE cert.. >< hahax.. but that isn't important.. wad is important is that Jesus is coming down to bring His lost kids up to heaven.. ^^

okay.. last night, i was talking to david.. he was suppose to go for night walk in the old changi hospital.. so scary.. yahx.. but in the end he nv go.. coz his whole bunch of friends are unable to get rid of the security guard who have 2 big police dogs by his side.. >< so we talk and talk lo.. and he was asking wad JC i wanna go to, i told him i wanna go poly.. he was shocked.. do i look like one who wish to go JC? hahax.. anywayx, poly fees went up by 100 bucks.. and my parents are indirectly hinting me to go JC.. so sad.. >< but as long as i can go australia or canada to study xin li yi shen course, i'm happy ler.. ^^

today is homework day.. but i have no inspiration for my jian bao.. >< i'm doing on this article about the casino in singapore.. that topic lo.. i've got my points.. but i forgotten all those words that i can use, and i can't write it now.. >< saddening lo.. =( but never mind.. do my maths first.. maths rox~!! hahax..

tml might help jie jie.. do some charity for the peeps in those affected countries.. i jux wanna do my part in the society.. well.. we shouldn't cry coz they died.. we should be happy for them.. they left the world and raise to heaven.. and there they are, looking down at us.. i might be thinking alot.. >< hahax.. tml going countdown with her lo.. ^^ a new year is beginning.. hope i won't repeat mua mistake.. hahax.. i'm 15 next year.. yesh~!! finally getting mua I.C, and i can work.. wootx.. rawk on.. hahax.. i'm crazy ler.. ><

well.. that is about all i could say.. nothing special happened.. jux an ordinary gurl, living her ordinary life, in an ordinary place with her ordinary family.. and here she is, updating her ordinary blog about her ordinary life, jux the ordinary way.. hahax.. so cool.. all ordinary.. hahax.. i'm really gong crazy.. ><

INTHEEND//EUULEFTMEALONE

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

metoyou

guess i've already got the slightest hint

yapx.. i'm happy again.. ^^ after thinking wad dave said last night.. well.. i'll stand tall.. ^^ hohohox.. thanx dave~!! love u lotx.. and thank u a million time.. =)

woke up super early.. tired to do my homework.. i skip here and there.. and nothing was done.. >< well.. didn't feel like going choir actually.. coz my mind will definitely not be concentrating.. especially with my mind thinking about homework.. but i finally enthu myself to go, coz i should go there and relax mahx.. so i got ready.. and went to school. wootx.. 1 minute late.. ><

choir rox~! keep singing the sunset lo.. don-dang.. dong-dang.. tam-bu-ra.. vi-ni.. hahax.. ^^ i jux love singing in the pac.. i dunno why.. >< hahax.. but anywayx.. i finally got rid of thinking of mua homework and jux sing sing sing.. hahax.. when sectional, we went canteen.. so cool.. hahax.. kor came back to school for NCC, and the other kor came back for wushu.. hahax.. both so mean lo.. see me only, pretend i invisible.. >< so mean.. shang le wo de po li xin.. hahax.. not so yan zhong yet.. hahax..

after that, i went to the bball court.. saw yao yaox.. he chao dye his hair.. smack that pai kia.. hmptx~!! i dun like an E.N.E.N who dye hair worx.. but never mind lahx.. hahax.. i also not his stead, so shan't care much.. i finally found out wad is so weird about tai gong.. tot he wearing his scout's pants.. but, it turn out to be the long pants of our school uniform.. hahax.. then jia yunx.. U RAWKS LADY~!!! hahax.. thanx alot for all the prezzie u gave me.. and i also forgot to give u the present i bought from malaysia.. i'm so sorry.. >< school reopen then give u bahx.. sorwee.. i love that cross alot.. i finally found a place to hook on my fone.. so i hang it there lo.. pink color some more~!!! u so sweet.. love u.. muackies.. jia yun rawkx and rules.. ^^ hahax..

went by kallang lo.. suppose to go photocopy the worksheet for zong de.. but, yah, it was close.. hahax.. then went to buy banana chips for mua maid.. then got fone call.. thought it was from my home.. turns out to be samuel.. going home from camp.. hahax.. he super mean.. keep on messing my hair, pull my hair.. gonna cut my hair like a guy one day lo.. then see wad he can pull.. hmpt~!!

then went home lo.. listen to mp3.. reach home ler, jie's friend playing daidee.. tot they suppose to study.. hahax.. never mind.. i xi guan ler.. cox that time they came our house play mahjong.. hahax.. win ler hor?? hahax.. so here i am, using the com and updating.. hahax.. letti's cousin coming MJR next year.. hahax.. mux ask her/him to join choir.. coz choir rawks our world~!!! wootx~!! 3 cheers for choir~! hahax..

oh.. i've plan to go australia after poly.. probably i'll take up xin li yi shen.. ^^ i'll save it up, coz i've got a job next year.. and 1.5k a month.. cool?? hahax.. mua dad gonna pay me mahx.. hohohox.. so cool.. hahax.. that is all about today.. ^^ love everyone.. hohoho.. thanx alot, dave.. love ya too.. ^^

all i can do is to love u secretly

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

here i am trying to write out all the things in my mind.. life isn't smooth.. life is all about lessons.. lessons that i tried to learn from.. but i failed to do so.. i tried to sit down and cry.. crying about how pathetic my life is, while peepx out there are so fortunate.. i'm trying so hard to run away from reality.. hiding away from it as long as possible.. but i can't.. it jux keep haunting me.. i'm trying hard to stand up.. but where are those hands? i' so tired of life.. i'm tired of sitting here crying everyday.. tired of facing all the problems alone.. i'm tired of being lonely, being in the darkness without light.. but dave is right.. we jux have to stand up one day.. cuz alot of times we are so upset that we dun look around us and see the good stuff fly past.. our heads are always down.. so we should look up and try and see something better.. maybe it wont appear right away..but soon it will.. i'm waiting for it to appear.. i'll pray.. God, here i am laying all my burdens at Your feet.. bring it to me, and bring me through it.. i'll pray.. i'll pray for a brighter future.. and one day, i'm trying, i'll stand tall and proud and lead my life to the fullest.. i know You are with me and You'll always be in my heart..




metoyou

could [u] jux give me a little hint to know wad exactly are [u] thinking?

hohoho.. my new blog skin has finally been done.. i've tried so many times.. think this is the fifth or sixth time ler.. so sianx.. hahax.. at least it is nice.. the bear bear suppose to be 2 hearts de.. but i like this pic more.. so i change lo.. hahax.. cute mahx?? jia yun also got new blog skin.. hahax.. quite similar.. we both like the same time mahx.. hers is pig pig i think.. hahax.. ^^

i was talking to david again.. and mummy was teasing him.. she keep asking him to call her mummy.. >< he got a stead lahx.. hahax.. mum thinks he tells me everything.. actually, 90% of everything.. and i told him 80% of everything.. hahax.. his mum is sick.. and he called me evil.. >< fine.. he is the kind soul, and i'm the devil.. hahax.. ^^ hey.. i've got red horns and a tail.. so cool.. ^^ hahax.. mum ask him to come over more often.. >< omg.. he is treating him as her son?! eeew.. pray hard is not.. haha..

woke up early today.. suppose to do my homework.. but i ended up doing all my blogskin.. hahax.. i'm proud of this one.. hahax.. and i never do my homework.. lucky today no tuition.. actually, tutor is sick.. so she never come.. *phew* later mux rush ler.. ><

jie got 3 dates in one day?! wootx.. rox manx.. hahax.. mua sistah rulex~!! hohoho.. oh ya.. i'm studying in a pinky school next year.. and i'm gonna be a pinky student.. eeew~!! i'm feeling awlful.. hahax.. but second last year ler.. so let it be lo.. hahax.. i know the sec 3s'o4 will sure to say: mua last year next year, dun jealous.. hahax.. made minx blog today.. nice mahx?? hahax.. okie.. i'm not an expert.. but i kinda like it.. hahax..

okie dokie.. i'm still trying very hard to forget all my unhappy stuff.. but it seems as if it wanna stay in my mind alot.. haix.. so sad.. today is raining.. and it is a dull day too.. sad bu sad?? haix.. let it be then.. i'll forget it one day.. ^^ [u], made me who i am today.. not too childish, not too mature.. jux nice and jux the way i like it.. =) but right now, i jux wanna know wad exactly are [u] thinking? or are [u] once again giving me false hopes? i jux wanna know.. but no matter wad, i'm still waiting here.. waiting for the day to arrive.. i'll love [u] always..

i'm no longer having high hopes for [u] to return

Monday, December 27, 2004

metoyou

today is third day of christmas.. woke up 10.45 lo.. then rushed to prepare for school.. go back school for choir.. actually quite lazy lo.. but for the sake of choir, mux crawl out of bed..

was talking to david last night.. he and his stead for 2 years ler.. he is really faithful sia.. hahax.. can u imagine?? he kneel down at the soccer field on a rainy day seeking for his stead's forgiveness?!?! omg~! so sweet yeah? and he cried for her for 2 weeks becoz they break.. well, they are back together now.. ^^ one sweet loving couple.. yeah.. not gonna forget wad he said to me.. say i'm bad enough for not going back to visit his mum, my form teacher in p5 and p6..fine.. >< talked to him until 2 a.m lo.. hahax..

oh.. he was telling me how proud his mum is of me.. coz i never stead.. hahax.. but, yahx, she dun really know anything.. >< but i told dave everything.. and he was like, take things easy.. hahax.. yeahx. i'm taking them easy.. ^^ but asked him to tell her i never disappoint her and made it to the first class.. afterall, she always treat me as her god daughter.. hahax.. ^^

zong called me twice.. finally answered him at 10.50.. hahax.. then later he told me he wanted to asked my maid to wake me up.. but in the end, he didn't.. coz for the first time this month, i slept so late.. hahax.. ^^ kae kae.. after that, rushed to perpare for choir lo.. took taxi to school..

went to bball court.. hohohox.. didn't expect to see LH kor kor lo.. hohohox.. ^^ not say i'm bad lahx.. jux didn't expect lo.. >< then went bball court.. pass them the christmas presents.. then rushed to choir lo.. hahax.. nearly late sia.. ><

choir today was fun lahx.. hahax.. broke into groups lo.. then performed.. hmmx.. can see that my vocals aren't strong.. *sigh* but i'm try to improve.. let off at 4.15 bahx.. then went to prefect room awhile.. hahax.. ^^ then on my way out, say mrs YC.. then she say i become slim.. where gotx?! hahax.. then she tot i grew taller.. *diaox*.. why everyone say i slim down?? i'm still dieting, and no result at all lo.. aiyoyox..

was walking home.. then later saw mr gui.. then me, jia wen and lilian thought it was Ms goh beside him.. oh ya, it turn out to be Mrs gui.. how can i forget?? hahax.. then mr gui was like telling me to be wadever rep.. and i told him i wanna be a tiny treasurer.. and he was like, yahx, responsible enough.. hahax.. then he say be physics rep too.. >< then mrs gui was like asking me wad class i go.. hahax.. then we went different direction.. hahax..

reached home late enough.. did abit of my homework.. then watch tv lo.. hahax.. so tired.. i'm becoming pig ler lo.. >< dammit.. how ar? hahax.. aloy kor that day call me.. i was talking to my family memebers about christ.. and he told me never become a christian.. hey manx~ i love God and i wanna be a christian.. like it or not, i dun care.. jux dun insult christianity.. haix..

is it love? of is it as a friend?

Sunday, December 26, 2004

metoyou

i dunno wad ur mind is thinking or the real meaning of the words u said.

today is second day of christmas, which is boxing day.. jie told me is opening up of presents.. hahax.. >< i opended mine,all yesterday..

woke up 10+.. so nice to sleep.. so nice to cuddle my new stuff toy to bed.. sleep soundly last night.. hahax.. no nightmare and no sweet dreams.. hahax.. ^^ so long never sleep until lidat ler.. so shuang.. woke up, do my homework lo.. try to rush through them.. sianx~!!!

left the house at 12.30.. waited at the mrt station for jie's friend.. then 3 of us went PS to watch movie.. hahax.. watch the incredibles.. hahax.. after like 1 month+, finally i get to watch it.. sebestian lahx.. say wanna treat me, treat me until now, still haven't treat.. never mind lahx..

the combo of the week got free lolly pop.. so big worx.. hahax.. i took it.. hahax.. none of them eat sweet mahx.. >< hohohox.. feed my sweet teeth.. ^^ dash is so cute~!! omg~!! hahax.. kae.. i'm not in love with a cartoon character.. hahax.. jux that he is so cute.. ^^

after that, went to buy jiayun's christmas present.. hahax.. never forget her de.. ^^ then went to buy jian zong, jian yao's christmas present and LH kor kor de burfday present lo.. broke liaox.. >< next month cannot afford any more burfday presents ler.. ='( hahax..

then went long john silver to eat eat lor.. eat until left 5 more french fries, none of us wanna eat ler.. hahax.. jie jie left her friends' christmas presents on the table.. then one malay lady chase after her, to return lo.. hahax.. then went city hall.. jie jie and her friend go bbq, i go home lo.. listen to my mp3 player and fell asleep.. >< sianx..

reach home, mum and dad in the kitchen, waiting for my arrival.. ^^" hahax.. took my bath.. now online and watch disney channel.. hahax.. so boring.. no one online.. >< tml gotta go back school for choir.. feel so farnie.. i'm too use to wednesday and friday ler.. hahax..

friday going count down~! boohyah~!! rox~!!! going downtown east to countdown.. hahax.. last year went downtown east.. couldn't find parking lot.. so cousin and his wife didn't went down with us.. they count down in their car.. then this year leh? they dun wan go with us ler.. >< hahax.. understandable, anywayx..

hahax.. lazy send new year greetings ler.. every year the same de.. so sianx.. a new year is beginning, and i'm not prepared.. probably i dun wanna leave the past behind and move on bahx.. but i'll still have all of them in my mind.. love everyone..

i jux love u, the one and only u

Saturday, December 25, 2004

metoyou

last christmas, i gave u my heart. the very next day, u gave it away.

okay.. i love pink ALOT.. so i can't resist setting pink as my font color.. ^^

went granny's house about 5 lo.. we were suppose to be there at 3.. but mummy was tired, she took a nap.. and we ended up going down late.. my maid was pro.. she told me she didn't get me any christmas present.. *saddening*

went down.. help out with the dinner.. hahax.. miracle is happening.. ^^ then kor kor msg me.. glad he isn't angry.. kae.. granny was nagging at me.. telling me that next year is a bad year for me in relationship.. and persuading me not to go steady.. duhx.. as if i will.. kae.. i will probably take back my words.. hahax.. wadever.. i dun give a damn actually.. jux wanna stay happy next year.. but i promise her i won't.. hmmx..

after dinner, i went upstairs to watch finding nemo.. "jux keep swimming.. jux keep swimming".. hahax.. squirl is cute.. ^^ hehex.. kae.. 9.30, went downstairs and found that my cousin are here already.. hahax.. so we wait for barry kor kor who came down from his friend's house after prayers.. then we started exchanging gifts..

hahax.. my maid actually bought me my gift~! love her~!! I LOVE MY MAID~!!! so afterall, having her with me for 14 years is cool.. ^^ hahax.. she bought me my PRECIOUS THOUGHTS STUFF TOY~!!! CAN U BELIEVE IT?! hahax.. i love her lotx.. hahax.. i got a total of 3 stuff toys(unexpected), 1 box of chocolate and 1 bottle of sweet, 1 pimple cream(for all the gers), 1 pinky color handbag(rox~!), one towel, one keychain, one bracelet and 1 candy cane.. hahax.. rox manx.. but of coz, i love all of them.. love my family.. but they say that i won't get anymore stuff toys next year.. means i mux grow up~!! >< manx. give me a break.. hahax..

kae.. kor kor is msging me.. he never mention anything(which i'm glad).. so let it be.. hahax.. ^^ i'm still trying to know wad place i stand in [ur] heart.. i'm curious.. but i guess i won't want to know the truth.. probably i'll rather hear a lie that cheers me up rather than crying.. wadever.. i'm still waiting..

dad is happy with our present.. hahax.. so happy.. my happiest christmas day~!! love christmas.. of coz, i love everyone too~!! life is about forgive and forget yeah? so i'll forgive all those ppl who maad me angry(which i think no one).. and of coz, i'll forget wad unhappy stuff happened this year.. ^^ i'll stay happy~!!

i wanna know where i stand and who i am to [u].




metoyou

wowx.. stayed up til exactly 12 mid night.. but could stay any longer.. so i went to bed.. >< woke up the earliest(beside my maid) today.. hohoho.. ^^

MERRY CHRISTMAS

then came out to the living room and start opening my prezzies that my mum's friend gave me.. got a very nice necklace that aunt carina gave me.. blue rox~! is a flower shape with a hollow heart shape in the middle.. ^^ nice.. can u believe that the string itself cost 10 bucks.. if the flower cost 15 bucks, it will become 25 bucks.. manx.. >< haha.. mum gave me a pair of ear-rings for the wedding dinner in january.. and aunt jenny gave me a box to put makeups.. which i dun have make ups.. hahax.. i got a B.U.M shirt.. rox manx~!!!

kor kor msg me lo.. then he ask for the answer.. i told him cannot lo.. probably becoz i wanna be single and concentrate on my studies.. and probably becoz i still love [u] bahx.. haix.. then he suggested a try out.. i dunno lo.. he gave me more time to think about it.. should i or not??

later going to granny's house for gifts exchange.. hahax.. i got more gifts to open ler~!!! ^^ i wan tarot cards.. >< wadever lahx.. hahax.. got turkey for dinner.. hahax.. cousin cook de.. hahax.. ^^ then maybe ask cousin and his wife to bring us to look at christmas lightings.. ^^ hehex.. shuang kuai.. ^^

christmas is here again.. and it means another year is going to pass by us.. haix.. so fast.. next year sec 3 ler.. dunno if can cope with my studies not.. gonna fail my damn english.. hate it~!! then november is Os.. think i'll drop HCL lo.. buay tahan the stress lo.. >< hahax.. ^^

have a nice season holiday and have a great year ahead~!!! love u peepx~!!! ^^

Friday, December 24, 2004

metoyou

okiex.. it is christmas eve today.. and i'm sitting here sulking..

i woke up early for tuition.. i was in no mood to be taught.. i wanted to shout at my tutor, but i tried to control myself.. i have no right to shout, i should thank her, shouldn't i? haix.. wonder wad had gotten into my mind..

everyone is in a happy mood, and here i am complaining how tired i am of my life.. lets forget about my previous entry.. it totally sux.. tomorrow is the celebration of The Son's birth few thousand years ago.. and i'm here complaining about my life the day before?! dammit..

i'm acting as if the whole world is agaist me.. i vent my anger on my buddy today.. and i'm glad he didn't take it to heart.. *sigh* guy, i'm really sorry.. i didn't did it on purpose.. jux that something was plucking my very last nerve.. i hate that feeling.. >< *sigh*

kor kor was asking for the answer by tml morning.. how am i suppose to answer?? wad have i gotten myself into?? haix.. i hate myself.. >< *sigh* help peipei do his new blog lo.. not bad lahx.. got brand some more.. bilabong de.. guess alot of guys like that brand, so i help him do lo.. then later.. tok to tohwee kor kor.. tell him everything lo.. not bad lahx.. at least feeling happier and more cheerful ler.. but still sad sad lahx.. never mind.. let time heal it bahx..

reading my previous bloggy.. then suddenly feel like crying lo.. dunno why lahx.. it jux bring me back to the past.. guess my friends are right.. i changed.. things jux changed without our knowledge.. so how? wad can we do? haix.. jux carry on with life and do wad i can do lo.. haix.. i tried to treasure wad i can.. but yet, i lose wad i didn't wan to lose.. let that be wad it is.. if it is meant to be mine, it will be mine eventually.. i'll looked on the bright side..

merry christmas in advance peeps~! God bless you~!




I'M SICK AND TIRED OF LIFE

Thursday, December 23, 2004

metoyou

it is a wrong beginning.

woke up so early.. >< woke up like 6+? then later i prepare and went to school lo.. hahahx.. i was late, so took taxi with my mummy.. ^^ then reach school wan of the latest.. ^^ JC birthday.. sanee too~!! hahax.. didn't see sanee.. >< but i saw JC.. i very good hor.. i told him i wont beat him this year coz i wan to bite him 16 times next year.. then he was like: that is so much more mean.. >< hahax.. not bad lahx.. there is always a day to change the tradition and set new trends.. hehex..

got all the briefing in the teachers' stuff meeting room.. hahax.. then i got a whole thick thick folder to carry up lahx.. then i wearing court shoes some more.. hahax.. then went to my place.. wahx.. i next tym can be clerk le.. hahax.. ^^ i do everything like professional clerk lahx.. kae.. so i put all the addtional important papers into all the folders.. then i seat there.. 8+, the parents start coming in ler..

then i am in charge of 1F lo.. first Express class.. this year, express 3 classes, normal(A) 3 classes and NT 2 classes.. quite bad lo.. haix.. MJR really dropping standard.. Mr Yew(ex CCHMS principal) should jux come lo.. he totally bring up CCHMS standard.. cool yeah? hahax.. anywayx, i sit there wait for parents lo.. then alot of parents come in lahx.. not bad lahx.. one 1F only got 3 ppl studying higher chinese.. >< aiyoyo..

the thing start at 9 only lo.. then all the parents start going.. 5% of 1F students going to transfer?! wad the heck.. jux becoz ppl always look down on MJR students, that doesn't give them a reason to trasfer.. okay.. shall not talk about them, coz i was one of them before.. >< hahax.. but nonetheless, never regret coming in here.. ^^ MJR rox.. hohoho.. got this parent came in lo.. then the elder brother looks very farmiliar.. then i realise is Eddie the scout.. hahax.. his sister in sec 1F.. hahax.. Pebb's bro in 1G, Seng wei's sis in 1G too.. hahax..

then when no guest, AH tok to me lor.. then she ask why i never go CPA, coz i'm sick? then she ask wad illness.. MY NOSE~!!!! stupid damn flu that is still haunting me till now.. >< haix.. then Mr Gui came and took all my files away.. >< omg.. hahax.. i finally return him his 10 bucks.. then he told mrs gui.. then he look at the class i'm in charge, he say: wah.. ur sec 1 class lehx.. so qiao.. hahax.. >< omg.. hahax.. my neighbour on the 8th floor came my school and go to first NA class.. no wonder his mum is super angry with him.. who ask him mixed with bad company.. never mind.. shan't be mean.. hahax.. got this lady ask me help her fill in all the forms.. hahax..i remember the child name and the address ler.. >< hahax.. a ren jie jux graduate, now another renjie come in.. but is Lawrence choo ren jie.. hahax.. ^^

10+ already very little parents ler.. then guess wad, JZ come lo.. then he squat in front of me lahx.. then his aunt's neighbour saw.. then he so paiseh.. hahax.. so i was like: i also not ur stead, u scare ppl say about u for wad?? aiyoyo.. hahax.. then i tell him everything lo.. then he dun wan tell me advise.. tao yan~!! i'm so confused.. anyone can lend me a hand?? haix.. oh ya.. apologise to peeps who msg me today.. tot i could slack, but i realise i was more busy then i tot.. so i replied super late, coz TPP was there too.. >< anyways, super sorry.. >< didn't mean too.. sorry.. help TPP outside stuff room lo.. then carry the files to the general office.. walked pass KP kor kor.. then he say bye bye.. hahax.. first time sia.. after like how long?? hahax..

after everything, stayed back and help lo.. and guess wad.. i reached home at 2+.. super tired lo.. caox.. leg pain, scratch myself and got headache.. so many stuff~!!! >< aiyoyo.. then KP kor kor keep nagging at me to eat, so i buy lunch lo.. then i had a 2 buck pizza and i came online.. hahax.. then tok to TW kor kor lo.. he was telling me about poly courses.. i guess all the courses he wan to take lehx.. all right lo.. hahax.. see.. i'm such a understanding mei mei.. ^^ hohoho.. KP kor kor might be buying K700, coz i psycho him to buy.. hahax.. then he say he exchange phone with me for a few days.. hehex.. so cool rightx?? hahax.. ^^ he so hao.. wootx~! 2 days to christmas.. love the spirit i'm in now.. a crazy mood with my family.. but deep down inside, how am i feeling? beats me.. haix..

but i'll make the ending right.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

metoyou

i'm sitting here,wishing.

last night feeling super energetic.. couldn't really sleep.. so i was lying on my bed reading archies comic.. then only 12 a.m then sleep lor.. jie jie's bed still empty.. =(

woke up 7+ today.. then got everything ready, then went to school lor.. lucky i wasn't late.. ^^ then sit in the ava room.. nothing to do.. i walk here and there, then went out to wait for the teacher.. TPP so late still haven't come.. then went down look for him, he say he wan full attendance, then he will come up.. >< so ma fan.. then we wait till all full attendance lo.. wait until 1 hour.. 10+, then he come up.. stupid.. then after the briefing, we stay back awhile lo.. ^^ my duty can slack worx.. hahax.. ^^ peepx, if feeling bored, can sms me tml~!! i'm free~!!! hahax..

on my way out of school with my junior.. hahax.. then someone shout my chinese name.. *shriekx* dun like ppl to call me by my chinese name.. >< eew.. then a monster come out.. hahax.. ^^ hair spike up de, like durian.. hahax.. tohwee kor kor lai de la.. lamo.. hahax.. he scare me sia.. hahax.. so jux play with him lo.. then went home with my junior.. then out of school, walking towards kallang.. the car park there, dum dum say bye bye to me.. then i sae bye bye lo.. then see toh wee.. i shout his name.. wahx.. his reaction super big~!!! hahax.. then he say bye bye.. hahax.. he today siao siao liaox.. OMG~!! mux have caught teck kiang's virus.. hahax.. ^^ the kee siao family.. hohoho..

walked to the mrt station alone lo.. then realise many stuffs changed without me knowing.. well, glad God let me know now.. probably there's a change in me.. but i guess, i'm not the only one.. ^^ this time, going back school makes me feel unwelcome.. i feel as if i'm a stranger to this school.. someone new, someone who knows no one in there.. everything is so mysterious.. it is all unknown.. well, i jux have to live the way it is now.. studies will still be the most important thing in my mind.. once again, i have never regret coming into this school.. ^^

i'm afraid of the future.. i'm afraid to lose precious things that i have always treasure.. things and people that means alot to me.. but, i guess, if i had to, i will do so.. nothing last forever.. and i know, no matter how much i wan to have them by my side, it is hard.. probably.. probably one day, my buddy won't no longer be there already.. probably, one day i'll be in the dark world searching for my light.. well.. i'll try my very best to search for the light.. but still, i will always treasure all my things and all the people around me..

jie jie coming back today worx.. hahax.. miss her alot~! hahax.. but she sure fight computer with me de.. so better use now.. hohoho.. but tml i'm not in the whole day.. so sad.. >< hahax.. so msg me if u peeps are bored.. hohoho.. i'm here waiting.. ^^

later going granny's house to pei her.. dun say i unfilial.. hahax.. then as the same time go cousin's room to sleep.. hehex.. ^^ so tired.. school sux alot~!!!

i'm waiting too.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

metoyou

i am still loving you.

last night slept 12+ a.m.. not only msging Lh korkor, i was waiting for my buddy's call.. sianx.. in the end, my maid keep asking me to sleep ler, he still haven't call.. aiyoyo.. last night jie jie's bed empty.. miss jie jie worx.. haix..

woke up 9+ today.. then went to the hawker center behind.. bought roti prata for breakfast.. reach home 10 ler.. sianx.. went to play with the baby at the other block.. so cute.. ^^ the mouth small small de.. hand very small worx.. hehex.. so cute.. but very heavy lehx.. >< hahax.. then after that, came home lo.. ^^

came online awhile, then i leave my msn on, then went to write christmas cards.. oopsy.. i'm chasing after time.. think they will receive belated christmas greetings.. but never mind.. there are 12 days of christmas.. hahax.. wrote 14 cards.. suppose to send about 21 cards?? still got a long way more.. >< aiyoyo.. but the things i write, getting longer and longer.. reach to KP kor kor super long liaox.. hahax.. but still got space to draw the smile.. ^^ hahax.. so proud of my work..

wootx.. xiao gg keep msging me.. aiyoyo.. he keep making me speechless.. i give up ler.. so follow him say wadever.. hahax.. ^^ aren't i clever.. in the end, he speechless too.. hohoho.. aloy kor kor msg me today.. miracle sia.. hahax.. his cousin next year sec 1.. same as xin yun's sister.. then she thought of asking her sister came my school.. hahax.. i dun mind lahx.. at least can help xin yun look after her sister and can prevent those ah beng and ah lian from disturbing her.. ^^ hahax.. aren't i good? anyway, he msg me then keep asking me wad is my answer.. diaox.. he like not asking since last year till now.. hahax.. then i told him i dun wanna stead.. then he say when will i wan to have stead.. i told him after Os.. hahax.. i bian guai ler.. ^^

nothing much happen lor.. still so bored at home.. lester kor kor jux now talk to me.. ask me to continue to work hard.. dun slack next year.. ^^ of coz i won't.. i still wan his 30 bucks worth of chocolate wor.. hahax.. wonder why this time he never go back help their scouts?? weird weird de.. hahax.. zhi yang(jie jie's senior), came back from india.. hahax.. got to know him from jie jie.. coz hardly ppl talk to him mahx.. then they ask jie jie intro him to me.. so i got to know him lo.. hahax.. good guy too u know?? CCHMS scouts rox~!! wootx.. hahax.. of coz MJR scouts rules~!! hahax.. scare tohwee beat me.. hahax..

tml mux go school for briefing.. sianx si ler~!!! aiyoyo.. i wan to be in charge of the hall lehx.. hahax.. then can slack.. hahax.. or the one to measure the uniforms.. hahax.. that one also very slack de.. hahax.. so long never slack ler.. ^^ then can sms you mei you.. one week off from choir.. next monday resume.. hahax..

sianx.. i'm broke for this month ler.. next month even no money.. >< how? got alot of ppl's birthday some more.. sianx.. dear dear went malaysia.. >< miss her alot worx.. aiyo.. hahax.. so tired.. i wan orh orh~!! but haven't finish writing the cards.. >< haix..

i'm trying my best to hold on tight.

Monday, December 20, 2004

metoyou

God is always by ur side.

last night, dad took out his plaster.. then show his stitch lor.. eeew~!!

mummy woke me up 7.45 a.m.. then i sleep until 8.20 then get up.. my tuition at 9 lo.. also not say i do things like snail lidat.. ><

went plaza singapura.. drag mum to treat me to pastamania.. hahax.. had this tuna and bacon pasta.. wootx.. yummy.. *wipe my mouth* so freaking full.. ^^ hahax.. after that, walked pass this wrappamania.. then like every shop got mania lehx.. next tym i open a strawberrymania.. ^^ hehex.. all sorts of strawberry dishes would be sold there.. applemania sounds fine too.. ^^ i starting to feel lame.. ><

went shopping lo.. walked here and there.. went molecule.. wootx.. saw this pink and blue doggy.. wanted to buy for my cousin and his wife.. but mummy and my maid say too childish.. come on, stuff toys are meant for all ages mahx.. and it is really cute~ ^^ went to precious thoughts.. manx.. i'm gonna condemn precious thoughts.. not becoz i hate it, but becoz i never get to buy the stuff toy i like.. i love that stuff toy.. dunno whether is a dog or bear.. but very cute lo.. the fur so nice to touch also.. and the medium one cost 26+, the big one cost 75+~!!! damn.. then the figurine.. wahx.. cost 85+~!!! so cute, yet only to see..

went fila.. hohoho.. buy 1 shirt, 15 bucks.. 2 shirts, 12 bucks each.. 3 or more shirts, 10 bucks each. hohoho.. so we bought 6 shirts.. 60 bucks lo.. ^^ at least i settle my cousin and his wife gift.. couple shirts.. so sweet.. ^^ hehex.. then went to buy this necklace for sista.. orange colour.. she sure love it de.. the pendant is made out of glass and only got one of each kind.. so i bought for her.. she hate ppl to wear or have same thing as her.. haiyo.. hahax.. so , i settle all my gifts for relatives.. left with friends.. hmm.. duno wad to get lehx.. aiyoyo.. ><

dunno wad to sae.. jux suddenly feel so lonely again.. it is like everyone's life seems so perfect.. and it is only me, that is meeting problems.. sigh.. but at least i found myself more cheerful and open minded.. ^^ wellx.. i'll learn to overcome loneliness one day, right? i hope i will.. for i know God is always there for me and He is always watching over me.. ^^ He is everywhere.. love Him so much~!!! hehex.. of coz, i mux thank my buddy worx.. always there to pull me up.. ^^ never fail to listen to my problems.. somehow i feel so mean.. always try to help him, but i ended up creating more trouble.. and him? aiyoyo.. always helping me along the way.. this time CO concert so successful also feel happy for him.. ^^ buddy will always be my buddy.. ^^ next year we shall celebrate our birthdays together.. hahax.. so happy God send me such a good angel.. ^^ hahax.. he always my jiu xin.. ^^ first person i ran to when i cried that time.. hahax.. so cool..

well, afterall, life is wonderful.. and one day, i'll find my purpose to life.. ^^ like setting my aim to go SP or TP.. or NJC or VJC.. hahax.. most probably i'll go SP and then to UK to study.. ^^ wootx.. i feel as if i'm writing my last words.. hohoho.. ^^ life will go on and i'll mian dui all the challenges from today onwards.. ^^ i'll face reality and stop ranning away from problems.. as for [u].. well, i wish u all the best is wadever u do.. hope u find ur happiness.. i'm always supporting u and here for u.. ^^ jux stay happy..

God's love for us is so deep and so strong.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

metoyou

i'll change my ways for U.

wootx.. so sianx.. woke up 9+ in the morning.. then had breakfast and use the computer.. ^^ so little ppl online lo.. super bored.. then mummy went out, daddy went out, maid off day.. jie jie at home writing her diary.. so i use the computer lo.. ^^ hehex.. lets see.. Lh kor kor online.. so talk to him.. hahax.. then i was playing games.. then later kor kor online.. by then already lunch ler.. hahax.. so i offline.. tok to Xiao GG.. he at wedding ceremony.. hahax.. then kor kor msg me.. *diao-ed* he tou tou sms de.. notti boi.. hahax.. he still counting down to christmas.. hahax... happy counting down.. ^^

after lunch, went to bed.. so tired.. ><><>

aunt came jux now.. with my cousin and his wife.. hahax.. one whole family.. ^^ hahax.. then my house so ri nao.. they ate all my pineapple tarts~! ><>

hmmx.. new sec 1 batch coming in.. better be more clever than sec 1'o4.. dammit lo.. next year sec 2 only 3 express classes.. shit lor~!!! dun wan to study well, whole day go out and shop.. next tym they'll know how xing ku to earn money.. hmpt~! sec 1s only dun study hard.. next year dunno how they'll survive manx.. especially with the damn algebra.. hahax.. but i love algebra.. wootx.. heard that they won't be having F maths ler.. lynn jie jie love F maths alot.. i love maths.. but hope to take F maths next tym.. if no more ler, i rather go Poly.. hahax.. go accounts or masscom.. hahax.. ^^ mathx rox.. science rules~!! wootx..

God let everyone have a choice.

♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:55 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

metoyou

believe in angels.

woke up this morning by some stupid dreams and my damn painful blue black.. shitx~ all thanx to one of the musical box.. ><>

last night met yunx wearing skirt.. ^^ she so sweet norx.. hahax.. sweeter and prettier than me.. ^^ hahax.. then all my friends only know she is basketball player.. so intro them to each other.. ^^ hahax.. aren't i good? hahax.. dun bhb here.. ><><>

wore skirt to suntec today.. ^^ went for asian food fiesta.. some food are nice.. some are not.. when we had enough, we went to shop for christmas gifts.. bought a cross for cousin.. ^^ aren't i thoughtful? coz he is a devoted christian..a cross should be good.. i kinda hint my maid to buy me a precious thoughts bible.. that is so cute lo. 35+ for the small one.. 42+ for the big one.. no one will get me tt.. i know it.. so i won't have high hopes.. haix.. lets see.. came home about 4+.. took my bath, and here i am.. *tada* i'm lame.. wadever..

told God wad i wanted.. and i really hope that i have it.. but somehow, if it doesn't belongs to be, i jux won't want it.. ^^ i know my limits to some stuff.. God will know them too.. hahax. but it is his choice, and my decision to get it.. haix.. let nature takes its own course.. ^^

let nature takes its own course

♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:05 PM

metoyou

look on the bright side of life

wootx.. wake up this morning.. then remember my dream was about dinosaurs.. then told mummy about it.. so she came online and check out wad it means.. it actually means that i'm living in the past and unable to face reality or the future.. >< lame~ so weird lor.. i also never live in the past nor do not face reality.. diaox..

wootx.. prepare to go to the concert ler.. then meet ah gong(jia liang) to take the ticket for mummy.. then after that, i go somerset give jie jie her stuff.. she told me tml handphones at funan shopping mall sell for 1 buck nia.. from 1-4.. *diaox* i like won't go ler.. of coz mux go and buy lar.. first hand some more lehx.. then went to city hall to meet congx, jordan and the other juniors lo.. then walked to VCH.. reach there, saw alex and SY.. then we go change and prepare lahx.. then eat dinner at 6+.. after that, we go to our positions.. i tear ticket lehx.. hahax.. meet quite alot of yandao.. but none bio me.. dammit.. ><>

after the concert, we go sell posters.. i sell the most.. wootx~ then me and dear dear nana, go meet yaox they all.. wootx.. i go crazy ler.. i keep shouting.. >< hahax.. took photo with yaox, sean and one of zong.. so farnie.. hahax.. but quite nice.. hahax.. then go eat mac for supper.. hahax.. then go home lor.. minx and nana keep talking about those guys they met in CPA camp.. diaox..

suddenly, feel life is so empty and bored.. haix.. wonder why.. i lose interest in so many stuff.. i lost fate in myself.. i want God to be by my side.. i know He is there.. but yet, i dun feel Him.. haix.. wonder why lidat.. today, tu ran xiang ta lo.. then keep avoiding everything.. i try my best not to think of the past.. try not to think of the happy times we had.. but i can't help it.. i miss him.. >< haix..

mr gui told me i'm his good student.. wootx.. ^^ feel so guilty.. he gave me 10 bucks for the ticket to pay to another of his student.. then i forget where i put it.. STM~ then i keep saying no.. then jux now msg him and tell him i find it.. feel so much better.. not so guilty ler.. but i keep saying sorry.. sorry Mr GUI~!!! sorry~!!

loneliness? i'll overcome u.

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:35 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2004

metoyou

i have sins and i am sinful.

wootx.. last night went for the party.. got door gift.. erm.. it is a book of bible stories and some sweets.. after that, wen all the visitors arrived, we had buffet dinner.. then got to know afew peeps.. like faye, fiona, finna, juilet, karen.. all friendly peeps.. oh ya.. i'm the youngest.. after dinner, got songs to sing.. Praise the Lord and His Son.. then got a skit.. kor kor keep forgetting his name of his skit.. so farnie.. david, barry, david, david, barry.. hahax.. ^^" then later got a bible study.. so we bent our head and think of the sins we committed all these while.. actually, no matter how hard we try to be pure, we can't.. for we get our sins from Adam adn Eve..

then karen, told us to open the doors of our hearts and let Lord in.. she asked us to raise our hands so she could pray for us.. i wanted to.. but jie and mum won't allow.. so i silently pray for myself and let Lord into my heart.. ^^ yeah.. wanted Lord Jesus Christ to wash my sins so i could go to Father as His lost child.. ^^ after everything, had dessert.. kor kor gave me his sweet.. the candy cane.. it is pure white with red strips.. the strips represents Jesus blood that He shed for us when He was cane on the cross.. the white represents purity.. ^^ the truth of christmas.. hehex..

slept at 1, waiting for xiao GG to msg me.. but he slept off lo.. so mean~!! >< then hong korx msg me.. >< chao nagging at me to sleep early.. next tym he nag again mux call him daddy ler~!! ^^ [dun angry, though u dun sound tt old] then dream of so many stuff.. hahax..

went swimming jux now.. then i practice moi vocals in the pool.. hahax.. jie jie say i sing very loud.. >< not really mahx.. quite soft lehx.. >< hahax.. going to out again.. pei jie jie shop shop and buy jordan korkor de present.. ^^ hehex.. tml he 14 lerx~!!! hahax.. tml got CO concert.. gonna meet ah gong to get the tickets.. then mux wear court shoes.. dammit.. another day of pain.. peeps~! wan to tear ur ticket, please cum to me hor.. i'll gladly serve u de.. =) ermx.. jux dun step on my feet.. ^^ hahax..

daddy jux came back from check up.. cancer test, negative.. then the doctor dun even know wad happen to him.. then cut part of his skin to send for lab test.. daddy dun wan stay in hospital.. haix.. worry for daddy.. =( how? how can i do to help him? shall i work so that parents dun have to worry about moi education fees? haix.. ><

love the Lord~

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

metoyou

take every fall as a lesson

wootx~! jux came back from choir.. hahax.. actually no mood to go de.. cox my cough came back lo.. dammit.. but then i pull legs to go.. hahax.. reach school jux in time for choir.. ^^ then started singing the Sunset.. hahax.. so long never sing, still remember abit.. so proud of moiself.. =P hahax.. then got sectionals again.. PSH take saps lo.. then the altos were taken by Ms Poh.. YG took baritones.. then got short break.. go back, combine.. sang sunset again.. Ms Poh not happy with baritones sia.. so make them stay back, then the rest break early.. wootx~!!! went home by aljunied way today.. ^^

preparing to go out soon.. coz my cousin going to perform in his church for christmas party.. so invite us along.. wootx~! probably i'll go to his church next tym.. hahax.. =D jux love going church.. feel closer to God and His Son.. =D Love God, His Son and the Holy Spirits.. =D hahax.. anywayx, today is his church christmas party.. so mux enjoy myself.. hahax.. =P

mum on leave sia.. hahax.. she stay at home wrapping presents for her friends' children.. hahax.. then i jux sit here and use to computer lo. hahax.. =P i'm such oppunity seeker.. =P wootx~! jux not msg kim peng.. then he never reply~!! feel like smacking him lerx.. hahax.. i sound so bad~!! ><

haix.. somehow, God jux dun let me learn anything.. each fall is a lesson.. but i jux dun seems to learn anything.. besides learning how to treasure my life.. hahax.. oh ya.. i dream about monkey last night.. then later i remember how sad the monkey i saw at malaysia GIANT.. can u imagine? they are going to sell that monkey as a pet.. and it is a new-born monkey lo.. then the monkey so sad, so ke lian.. it hides behind the towel that the stall holder put.. very ke lian lo.. can't imagine how cruel peeps are.. separating the baby from its parents.. ='( wonder why do ppl wanna keep pets when 98% of pet keepers ended up dumping their pets along the road side.. poor pets.. ><


granny sitting, left to right: me, sista, barry, lynnette


moi whole family


wishing well??


us in the hotel room


big big family~


moi mummy and her big boy~!!


me(sitting), barry, sis, lynnette(left to right)


sistas with daddy~!


moi big family again~


all the children of moi family


the gurls

i'll learn to stand tall one day after that great fall

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

metoyou

accept the fact and face the reality

wootx.. i'm back le.. hahax.. so tired~!!! super sad too lahx.. but anywayx, i have a fun time after so much stress of exams and peer pressure.. ^^ hahax.. =P anywayx, no matter wad, God still loves us.. ^^

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wootx.. woke up 6 a.m(after 1 month+ of holiday).. makes me feel as if i'm going back school.. hahax.. kae.. i'm not.. hahax.. then i wash up lo.. about 7+, the mini bus come.. wootx.. super big sia.. nice and comfy.. hahax.. off off and away~!!!! hahax.. oh.. towards woodlands, there is a jam lo.. then we hit a mini van.. oopsy.. the other driver lost to our driver, so in the end we no nid pay.. hahax.. ^^ at singapore custom, everyone go to the singapore passport.. then my whole family rush to the all passport.. super fast.. hahax.. =P reach malaysia custom, we brought everything down lo.. super slow lah.. everyone trying to cut the queue.. smack their faces ar~!! hahax..

8+ reach malaysia, JB le.. then had our breakfast at a famous restaurant.. then we had our breakfast lo.. the toilet only for males and one cubicle is for either males or females.. ><

then we were on our way.. reach malacca about 1.45.. then had paranakan for lunch.. after that we go check in le.. super nice hotel they have.. hahax.. big room lehx.. ^^ hehex.. after that, we unpack our stuff and went our shopping..

we walked to St. Peter Church.. then shop lo.. mummy hen hui bargain lehx.. i bought very little stuff.. no money le.. >< haix.. then 5+, we walked back to the hotel..

6+, we prepare ourselves for the wedding dinner lo.. wootx~! i wore a tube dress.. hahax.. didn't wear my spects lo.. then couldn't recognise myself.. coz i put make up~! hahax.. kae kae.. i'm vain.. hahax.. ><

7+, went down for the wedding dinner le.. hahax.. took many photos and chat with aunts and uncles.. mummy so happy.. coz her big boy grow up ler.. hahax.. not that he is her son, but jux that she watched him grew up and took care of him on my aunt's behalf.. hahax.. they took photo together.. dinner was filling.. but my cousin(groom's younger brother) is not full.. still eat the fruit cake on the table lo.. ^^" then the malaysians tai-tai all dancing while we were having dinner.. they dun mind dancing in front of unknown peeps as long as they enjoy themselves.. cool~! i drank red wine.. never get drunk lehx.. can u believe it? that time drink volka i got drunk lo.. this time never.. hahax.. ^^

went back to the room, then kor kor(groom's younger brother) ask us to go to the groom's room.. so we went up lo.. the club level, VIP rooms lai de.. then super big and nice.. all special service.. got slipper somemore, our rooms dun have.. ><

went back to our rooms about 12+ le.. then go sleep lo.. 3 of us sqeeze on the 2 single bed.. then my maid sleep on the sofa beside me.. the sofa so nice to sleep on lo..


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next day, woke up at 9 by aunts and uncles.. ^^" sianx lo.. then we had breakfast in our rooms.. then go next door shopping.. bought many local products.. i had my banana chips~!!! yeepee~!!! hahax.. i'm a banana chip fan~!! hahax.. after that, i pay for all the stuff for mummy.. can u believe it? i pay for them?? hahax.. the sista treat the entire family to durian chendol.. the famous tan kim hock.. but *whew*.. they feed us, we feed the mosquitoes.. dammit.. i got 5 mosquito bites when i got out.. shitty lo~!!! *argh* then head back to the hotel.. rest awhile, we check out le..

*driving* then go mummum with qing jia.. my eldest aunt went to the farm to stay for 1 day.. *diaox* then we ate alot lo.. so full!!! ><

1+ le.. we went off.. about 4+ left malacca.. then me, sista and lyn jie jie play daidee on the bus.. sista won 5 times, i won once, cousin didn't win any.. hahax.. then keep playing lo..some were sleeping.. mummy keep looking out for cows and goats.. ^^" then we got stuck in a jam.. then cousin was like "why got jam here?" then jie went "no no.. not jam.. is traffic butter" lame sia.. they chao lame.. hahax.. we sang the smith songs..

did u bring ur books today?
no, we lost them on the way..
wad a tragic incident,
thank u for the compliment
we dun believe in school days,
we wan more sundays
we dun believe in school days,
sundays are fun days~!

hahax.. then keep singing till we reach JB de GIANT.. then shop alot lo.. shop shop shop.. hahax..got m&m dispenser for my christmas preset for my cousin.. bought at GIANTS de.. hahax.. had KFC for dinner.. about 7+ le bahx.. hahax.. then go home lo.. 9, reach singapore custom.. wootx~!! home sweet home.. =D i miss everyone in singapore~!!! today was 2f'04 bbq somemore.. 2f'04 rulex my world~!! hahax.. =P

got home, unpack everything, then went straight to bed.. *sweet dreams*


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woke up 8+ by the doorbell lo.. then realise got tuition.. force myself up and open the door.. wash up and prepare for tuition.. skip breakfast today.. wad a good start.. hahax.. then after tuition i do my homework then come online.. hahax.. saw jared kor kor.. then he ask me go out on 21st to shop shop.. hahax.. then now talking to my buddy, JZ.. wootx.. hao xiang ta.. so long never talk to him le.. hahax.. super fun to talk to him.. hahax.. my sista's friend's PE teacher died in NZ in a car crash.. its on the news today.. home section, first page.. super happy for them.. not that i'm mean, but is that they get to go to heaven ler.. i believe that when one is finally pure, then they can go heaven.. guess i'm stil not pure yet.. >< mummy bought me a ring lehx.. got a cross and 10 dots.. think each dots represents a Holy Mary or a Holy spirit.. its a rosary.. kinda feel save when it is by my side.. mummy still against me becoming a christian.. but later, she say it is my decision.. well.. everything is fate.. but our decision still changes our fate mahx.. hahax.. =D God will always be in my heart.. ^^ tml i'll upload some pics on my diary.. keep it as a memory.. for the first tym in 14 years, the entire family leave singapore together.. =) i love my family and God, Jesus and the Holy spirits.

we can't go against fate, but we changes fate with our decision.

P.S. since we can't go against fate, parallel lines can never meet.. wad are not fated, can never be together.. ^^

Saturday, December 11, 2004

metoyou

every day is a new beginning

last night talk to xiao GG.. didn't know he also got problem worx.. but i manage to cheer him up.. =P aren't i an angel?? ^^ hehex.. kae kae.. i know i super bhb.. but why would ppl think it is not normal to love or like someone? i think it is not normal not to like or love someone.. hahax.. God is love.. if we dun love someone, we dunno God.. hahax.. kae kae.. dun wanna preach online.. ><

then last night also msg kor kor.. he sleep rather early.. kae kae.. maybe is i sleep late.. but these few days sleep at 10, is really impossible lo.. normally 12+ then feel tire.. haix.. now can become panda le.. o.0 sHiTty~!!!!!! wadever lah.. jie jie on the phone last night.. with her ex classmate.. then she was praising scouts lo.. scouts is honest and can be trusted.. hahax.. she super like her scouts alot.. duhx.. i also got alot of kors from scouts.. but like none of them can be trusted lehx.. >< kae kae.. probably i ask for super many stuff that they can't give me.. but lester kor kor rox~!!! he dote on the the most de.. hehex.. =D wellx, scouts rox! =P

today, i'm going wif jie to cut my hair.. wootx~! no more center parting le.. now i'm moving on to side parting.. hahax.. probably it suits be better.. but i still prefer center.. lolx.. wadever.. got my hair can le.. gonne reborn it one fine de.. cousin went reborning without me.. >< she go dye her hair golden(some parts only).. hahax.. then jie jie go for hair extension.. yapx.. i'm going too~! for a pink colour de.. sweet and nice.. or maybe a white? pure and innocent.. hahax.. kae..

i'm leaving tml le~!!! early in the morning.. ^^ manage to dig out 72.14 ringgit.. should be able to buy if there is a mall nearby.. hehex.. but of coz, i'll get a present for my dearest twinnie and boi boi.. talking about boi boi.. he was asking me when school reopen.. >< 3rd jan mahx.. then he laugh out loud.. ^^" then he ask whether i wan christmas cards.. i sae anything.. lolx.. i met twinnie that tym.. then aloy last week.. only boi boi haven't meet yet.. hahax

brian told me he know how parallel lines can meet.. then now he sae he dunno how it can meet.. lolx.. no fate jiu shi no fate.. no matter how u mian qiang, also mei you jie guo de.. wootx~ why i am talking aout this.. aiyoyo.. lolx.. kae.. life does not sux when God is guiding you.. so my life shouldn't sux bahx.. hmmx.. i'm gonna miss him.. haix..

i'll learn to walk out of the darkness my own and to look for the guiding light

Friday, December 10, 2004

metoyou

i wished i'll never enter the complicated world

wootx.. woke up at 10+ lo.. got nightmare again.. -sianx half- but dun remember wad it is lahx.. then did my homework lo.. feel like stuffing my brain with only knowledge and prevent it from thinking about other things.. but i'll be so lifeless.. >< haix.. mum prevent me from going to choir, AGAIN~! why? coz my throat is worse than before. why? coz i didn't take my medicine.. why? i lost them.. ^^"

hahax.. twinnie might accompany me to work at mac.. hahax.. but i wan to be a tutor mahx.. then i'll tutor his two cute sisters.. =D but no one would wan a tutor with only a PSLE cert right? so i'll jux dream that someone wouldn't mind.. hahax.. but dad told his boss that i'll take over sis's place next year.. that means.. I GOT MYSELF A JOB~!!! weeex~!!!! hahax.. super cool.. =P kae.. i'm still thinking if i should pierce my third ear hole.. well.. i dunno.. feel like doing that.. but wad if teacher catch?? hmm..

last night, kinda feeling down and moodless.. then kor kor msg me.. then he so ke lian.. he dunno how to cheer me up.. then i told him i'm fine.. so he ask me dun think too much and gave me a huggie.. well.. i dunno wad went into my mind.. suddenly, feel like ending this stupid life of mine.. nearly.. but i didn't(duh.. if i did, i wouldn't be updating my entry).. i wouldn't wan to give up God's wonderful gift.. so i went to bed lo.. couldn't sleep.. keep turning here and there.. thinking why am i on earth.. thinking why God wants to give me that gift.. it is all useless to me.. i'll rather let someone who uses the gift wisely to learn more meaningful stuff.. haix.. God is putting me tru a difficult test.. i wanna surrender.. haix..

i dunno wad to do now.. my mind is so luan.. think i'll jux do all my work.. read my book and think of nothing else.. life so meaningless to me now.. haix..

life is meaningless.. so wad for should i carry on?

Thursday, December 09, 2004

metoyou

You were everything, everything that I wanted.

*phew* manage to wake up early today.. got tuition mahx.. from 9+ to 10+ lo.. then she left the house, i did my homework.. miracle is happening again?! hahax.. wootx.. nothing is impossible mahx.. =P but i only cut the articles and jux read lo.. haven't write yet.. ^^" hahax.. but at least i made a first step.. hehex.. =P

geex.. twinnie went to pierce his ear.. >< when the lady too the gun thingy, i nearly faint.. in fact, cold sweat broke out.. and he dare to pierce?! omg~ cannot blame.. he is a guy mahx.. shouldn't be scare of pain.. hahax.. but he sure look cool.. =D can't wait to meet him.. maybe i should pierce my third ear hole.. then put ear stick.. so no teachers would find out.. hahax.. i know i very notti.. but it looks cool.. hahax.. oh ya.. next year looking for job wor.. if dad's office dun hire me, i'll jux drop by twinnie's house and babysit his sisters.. =P hehex..

stupid mp3 player.. keep auto shut off de.. then one day one battery.. like won't harm the earth.. so wasteful.. somemore batteries so hard to decompose.. and even if it did, sure harm the earth de.. hmpt~ unfriendly to the environment.. hahax.. kae kae.. not say i'm environment friendly either.. hahax.. ^^,

*gulp* had a very long sweet dream.. too sweet to be true.. probably it is reallly jux a dream.. maybe it is time to face reality and get out from that dream.. =) maybe i should jux learn to let you go.. together? loving someone need not have to be with him or her.. so as long as u r happy, that is my happiness.. should we jux go our own separate ways? or should i jux wait for u? =) no matter wad, i'm here for u as a sister or a friend.. =) love u always..

didn't eat much.. jux toot 5 scoops of noodle and i'm done.. i'm not hungry.. but my tummy pain.. >< haix.. hope i dun develop stomach flu.. >< i'll cry de.. hate that the most.. *brrr* still so cold yeah? feeling cold.. hahax.. my maid still saying me lo.. say my face like horse lidat.. long long sharp sharp.. then i very thin.. she sot sot le.. >< i'm so fat lo.. and my freaking weight never seems to go down, despite skipping several meals.. aiyoyo.. mux cut my diet more.. i wan to lose weight~!!! hahax.. planning to give all my rice to daddy tonight.. hahax.. i'm skip carbohydrates and proteins.. jux have greens.. =) maybe my weight will go down.. hahax.. =)

all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away,So much for my happy ending.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

metoyou
currently is raining here.. cloudy.. and my nose is still block.. >< didn't went for choir today.. cox my throat is sore, and mum ask me to rest my voice.. surprisingly i didn't argue back.. hmm.. right now, i'm stuck with 'state of happiness' looks interesting.. still trying to read and see if the ger died.. wahx.. nearly missed my morning today.. lucky i force myself up or i'll be late.. then again, i realise i didn't have to go to school.. haix.. i didn't eat my breakfast.. probably i'll have a lunch cum breakfast.. so i read my book again.. then about 1+, i'm feeling sleepy.. feel like sleeping.. but i was force to take my lunch.. got up, took my lunch.. and i started reading again.. believe it or not? i'm a bookworm.. hahax.. sudden change, but i love it.. at least i didn't have to think so much.. =) my life jux revolve around books.. hahax.. jux dun get me harry potter.. hate such books~!!!! >< hahax.. hmmx.. come to talk about dream.. i have weird and horrible dreams that night.. bloody dreams.. blood here and there.. eeew~ but kor kor gave me a hug last night, and the nightmares were gone! hahax.. miracles~!!! mux get more hugs from him le.. hahax.. *huggie kor kor* haix.. still feeling sleepy.. i realise i didn't take my medicine~!!! hahax.. never mind.. i already forgotten where i left them.. hahax.. let it be.. useless to me le.. my maid curse me go hospital~!!!! -sianx- coz i didn't eat.. and i haven't had a proper meal for the whole of last week till today.. hahax.. then she say if i carry on lidat, sure go hospital de.. *diaoed* hospital then hospital lo.. die then die lo.. all fated mahx.. God is still there to bless me.. hahax.. =P i'm going mad le.. haix.. I MISS CHOIR~!!!! i miss singing the ca the yowes.. i miss singing the ba jun zan front part only.. hahax.. =P haix.. miss choir..




metoyou
jux came back from cousin's dinner.. her burfday today.. came home, throat seems worst.. >< tml can't go choir coz of this stupid throat(mum says tt).. kae kae.. i got a tear at the end of my lips.. super pain and is bleeding.. wth.. kor kor super farnie.. hahax.. sunday i'm not around, monday too.. then i told him, sae i'll msg him.. he was like super shocked.. hahax.. then he told me 18 days left.. then i asked to wad? he said to christmas.. then i asked him christmas nia right? he said and the answer.. he got good memory la.. fine lo.. hahax.. he told me he missed me.. hahax.. =P bought 2 books at borders.. 35.75 bucks.. my life shall nothing but books, books, and only books.. haix.. *coughing* my medicine finish le lo.. and the freaking cough is not gone.. wtf.. hate my throat~!!!! life is still dull.. let it be then.. i'm happy with my tiny little life.. a gift that God gave me and a life that Jesus save it.. why everyone telling me i'm skinny?? i admit that i didn't eat alot.. i've been avoiding all my food lo.. but i jux no appetite to eat.. i'm not ill.. i'm still healthy.. but why am i avoiding my food? feel like vommiting after 5 or more scoops of rice.. >< accept the fact that i'm on diet.. hahax.. i'm bone and skin now.. hahax.. but my weight haven't gone down.. -sianx half- i'm tired..
without u, where would i belong? without u, how would i move on?

Monday, December 06, 2004

metoyou
^brrr super cold sia.. morning is gone!! hehe.. this morning got tuition sia.. do my stupid news paper lor.. sianx.. if not counted to CA1, i won't do.. like my maths~!!! hahax.. haven't touch yet.. >.<
[6/12]
woke up not late not early.. missed my camp.. >< then keep coughing.. lynnette jie jie came over.. gave her the wallet for her burfday.. then she stay until 12.30.. then go to meet her friend.. hahax.. she left her handphone here, then my maid go down give her, she cum up.. then she go down again.. hahax.. =S then i slack lo.. whole day watch disney.. late afternoon, jie's friends came over play majong.. then my camp leader(i think), called.. told him i got MC, and of coz, my mum knows abt it.. duhx..she even force me to see a doctor.. >< then later, still keep coughing.. -sianx half- 6.30, her friends leave.. hahax.. kor kor super happy sia.. nineteen days to christmas ma.. hahax.. wadever la.. hahax.. studies come first yeah? hahax.. =D then couldn't sleep last night lo.. haix.. cold cold de.. _shivering

[7/12]
happy burfday to u,
happy burfday to u
happy burfday to lynnette,
happy burfday to u!!!
happy burfday to u jie~!! she turns 18 on 7 dec.. hahax.. still sick.. GOD BLESS ME~!! then finish my medication le.. still no cure.. GREAT!! hahax.. later going borders buy book to read.. =D am i good or wad?? hahax.. still raining lehx.. why mux rain everyday de?? >< aiyoyo.. tutor came here and told to me about going to church.. i'm interested~!! picked me!!! hahax.. acutally it is a better way of knowing more ppl and of coz knowing God, the Son and the Holy Spirit better.. but mum is afraid that i might really becum christian(which i wan to be).. haix.. who knows i might meet my other half in the church.. hahax.. kae kae.. God will bless me and bring me to him when the time is right.. hahax.. God is love~!!! i know that.. hahax.. kae kae.. i'm feeling sleepy.. -.- can i sleep?? haix.. tml got choir, thursday might have tuition, friday choir.. saturday rest day, sunday i'm gone~!!! hahax.. great yeah? i'm gonna miss singapore.. hahax.. kae kae.. next monday the bbq is still on, and i'm not going.. haix.. saddening.. but wadever.. it is not like i dun go, it will be cancel.. hahax.. 2F'04 shall have 40 ppl with only one heart.. love u guys~!!! *muackies* hahax.. 18 days to christmas.. =D love christmas.. the spirit of giving and not having the tot of taking.. hahax.. =D no wonder i have to give an answer without requesting a reply.. shit~!!! hahax.. i'm lame.. kae kae.. haven't been hearing anything from him.. well.. dunno wad to think.. haix.. my life is jux dull.. dull cox u aren't around.. =(

Sunday, December 05, 2004

metoyou
woke up 11+.. good life yeah?? wad to do? i woke up a number of times, but i saw sis still sleeping soundly.. so i decided to join her in dreamland.. didn't meet her there, but at least, we woke up the same time.. hahax.. hey~ i'm 20 bucks richer.. i finish my 2nd book, so mum gave me 20 bucks.. great? hahax.. that book is super horrible.. BRAD IS A JERK~!!!! he totally cheated JJ.. he sux to the core.. anyway, he is a 100% jerk and pervertic guy.. hate him`! but Ben rox.. he was sweet.. kae kae.. the story goes lidat:JJ is working with Geraldine and Ben in a newspaper company.. JJ got a huge crush on Ben.. then Ben manage to get tru an interview and went to work with Diana as a news presenter.. JJ on the other hand had to let Ben go, so she meet Brad online.. JJ who is a fat lady was determined to go on diet so she can meet brad in LA.. she succeeded in becoming slim and she flew to LA to meet brad.. then they enjoy themselves.. in LA, JJ met Laura who came from london too(when JJ lives).. one day, JJ spilled drinks on the bedsheet, and open the cupboard to change the bedsheets.. and she knew the truth.. brad actually like jenny, his high school friend.. then she went to tell Larua.. she stayed with laura.. Ben was in LA, he wished he could meet JJ becoz he had made a mess in his life.. then he arranged to meet JJ in La.. he didn't recognize her.. JJ wanted to fly back to london but she is broke.. she called Geraldine and told her everything.. next ting she knew, Ben got her a ticket back to london.. and she became Mrs Ben Williams.. eeeew.. super sweet and romantic.. but it is not meant for ppl my age to read.. but unless u r open minded.. hahax.. not sae i'm not.. jux abit to young bahx.. lolx.. went to library today to borrow books.. another 2 books.. 300 pages++.. hahax.. i'm still sick.. believe it or not? for nearly a month le.. didn't tell my mother about it..until recently she found out.. no wonder she will chase me out the house.. hahax.. =S kae kae.. i'm donating 5 bucks as charity.. aren't i kind?? hahax.. abit bhb.. kae kae.. kor kor msg me at 11+ today.. hahax.. then he pei me chat lo.. he is still thinking i'm a badie cox i never give him an answer yet.. ^interesting.. hmmx.. hahax.. wadever la.. then i sae he badie coz he never look after me, that is why i'm sick.. hahax.. then he sae he look after me now lo.. hahax.. cute guy sia.. wonder why the 2 gals wanna dumped him.. *pat pat* saded.. i can't go to the class bbq coz i'm not in singapore.. saded mahx? but they won't miss me la.. i'm jux someone not important in class.. so jux wish they are happy~!! hahax.. yapx.. life is still dull for me.. i'm gonna planning of studying my whole life tru.. well, boring life.. but no choice.. i wanna go poly and then to U.. if not, i'll work and afford my fares to go to U overseas.. well.. sounds like a good plan.. i think i'm going to church.. gonna make more friends and sing songs.. i love church songs.. praising God and Jesus.. and our sins are gone.. for God send Jesus to save us.. isn't He great? he is willing to sacrifise His Son for us(His kids).. God is Great.. =D hahax.. 20 more days to christmas.. i knoe kor kor is counting down.. hahax.. happy counting down.. =P well, reading books is the best way to forget unhappy stuff.. so i'll read my book.. daddy still not home yet.. haix.. his skin is super thin.. if something sharp jus gently touch it, sure to have a deep cut de.. haix.. how can i not worry?? haix
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

Saturday, December 04, 2004

metoyou
woke up by mum at 8.15.. super early.. >.< but i didn't got up immediately.. so i laze on bed until 8.30.. then i really force myself to get up.. had breakfast.. buried my head in my book again all the way to 9+.. then got chased out of the house by mum.. keep asking me to see a doctor.. relactantly, i dragged my legs to the clinic.. oh man.. u won't imagine wad happened.. i blushed~!!! yapx.. right in front of the doctor.. oh manx.. he was so cute.. i never regret going there.. the doctors are nice.. and he is super cute~!! >.< hehex.. yapx.. red throat, with super blocked nose.. but use to it.. got 5 different type of medicine.. lolx.. 11+, got myself ready.. dressed myself in my red shirt and jeans.. then i wore a pinky earring, purplish bracelet and a purple necklace that i got for my christmas present~!!!! hahax.. finally wore it.. super nice.. went to the mrt station, tutor picked me up.. oh ya.. her daugher was a former relieve teacher of MJR.. but she didn't really know most of the teachers that i mention.. kae.. probably i never mention mrs keh or mrs sue.. after all, she worked there for awhile when i was only Primary 1..lolx.. kae kae.. then the wedding was great,despite starting at 2 when it is suppose to be at 1.30.. hahax.. the groom is my sister's GP teacher..so he invite the whole class.. and wadever clapping, laughing or cheering, they are the loudest~!!! hahax.. but the groom is sweet.. he sang a song by k.c and jojo.. and he keep trying to master the chorus.. until the bride decided to help him.. and after that he cried~!! guess it was too perfect to be true.. well, God bless them to be togethere.. hahax.. we love coz God love us first and when we love, God live in us.. great huh? uh huh.. i love going to church for such stuff, coz i learn many stuff.. i feel super relax.. no stress or worries in my heart.. light hearted, i should sae.. nothing much was in my mind.. hahax.. there is this video.. the groom is KY bear and the bride is Lian bear.. super cute.. very farnie and cute.. anyway, it is really a nice wedding.. lolx.. had buffet high tea.. didn't eat much.. no appetite bahx.. i'm still sick~! great.. my care taker is back from wushu camp.. hahax.. he msged me immediately after he was release.. he was thoughtful though.. he nv msg me late at night, coz wushu ended late and he didn't want to disturb me.. hahax.. wadever la.. hahax.. then he nv msg me, coz i still owe him a damn answer.. win le lo~!!!! hmpt~!!! kae kae.. tutor send me home.. freaking tired.. feel like sleeping, but i dun wan.. i bury my head again in my book.. lolx.. jie jie not back yet.. she went out with her friends, pang seh-ing me again.. =S kae kae.. my blog looks super dull.. but i like it..at least it is simple.. hahax.. tatty bear rox~!! hahax.. kae kae.. daddy is rather quiet these days.. missed those days when he joked with us.. *sigh* i promise never gonna hate my family for i love God.. God is Love.. if we dun love, means we dunno God.. hmmx.. i'm confuse.. hahax.. jux know that God is Love.. hahax.. so therefore, i love everyone~!!! hahax.. love my friends, family, teachers, enemies and unknown ppl.. hahax.. =P Love God, the Son and the Holy Spirit.. Amen..

Friday, December 03, 2004

metoyou
morning had tuition, did nothing much.. jux chat with my tutor lo.. then she bringing me for her student's wedding tml.. hahax.. kae kae.. i'm going there with my sickening flu and throat.. good luck to me~!!! >.< went for for choir today.. sing the sunset.. sounds weird though, but should be fine la.. kept coughing, and i could breathe~!!! dammit.. could't reach the high note lo.. haix.. still not going CPA camp? duhx.. as if mummy would ever allow.. i'm still also small kid to them.. Thank God, i should sae.. haix.. wadever.. life super dull sia.. so i decided to make my entry even dull.. grey color.. suit my tatty bear.. hahax.. *huggies* after choir, went to prefect room.. diana got tarot cards.. kae kae.. super cool and super cute.. she help me suan ming lo.. quite accurate but the outcome was rather bad.. hahax.. kinda expected it le.. but wadever it is, i'll let fate decided.. if it is true, i'll jux have to accept reality.. never gonna cry again.. no way will i do that the second tym.. =) but i'll still love u~!! hahax.. kae kae.. went home with diana, she looks xing fu mahx.. hahax.. envy her lotx.. my kor super dote on her mahx.. hahax.. going to rain le.. another rainy day.. haix.. i'm gonna vow to God that i'm gonna concentrate on my studies next year.. if i dun, i'll die.. hahax.. =P kae.. there he is, toh wee still persuading me to go for the CPA camp.. hahax.. so he could flood me with strepsils to cure my damn throat and flu.. no way am i gonna let him do that.. afterall, i did that like for one month le.. hahax.. but still not any better.. wadever la.. hahax.. then he use another method to get me to go to the camp.. how? lidat lo: got alot of yandao lehx.. wadever la.. hahax.. i'm not a despo lo.. hahax.. kae kae.. i nearly get choke lo.. stupid nose so block, cannot eat or drink.. later block my air passage, then i die.. hahax.. basic bio knowledge.. hahax.. feeling bored.. kor kor go camp also.. then he cannot msg me.. he bluff ppl de.. sae will msg me, then never.. he good la.. hmpt~! i've become guai le.. finish half my book and i never sms alot.. maybe a little to kor kor and wo de xiao GG.. hahax.. then abit here and there la.. xiao GG still owe me pressie.. hahax.. will remember de.. he also promise to teach me bio and other subjects.. hahax.. u dare chase me away, i'm gonna stick to u like a leech.. believe it or not.. lolx.. yappy.. dad is the greatest~! he gonna give me 50 bucks.. love u daddy`!! never regret having him as a dad, although he never spend tym with me.. but i'll still love him.. =) my maid told me i'm feverish.. *saying sacarstically* GREAT~!!! now i'm freakingly falling sick.. Sugar.Honey.Ice.Tea.. dammit la.. dun wan care le.. i'm giving up.. i'm gonna rest, rest, rest.. and nothing but rest.. *argh*

Thursday, December 02, 2004

metoyou
woke up 8+.. kor kor send me a msg before he went to camp.. he ask me to take care of myself, then give me muackies.. hehex.. kae kae.. came online a while, then started reading my book.. chatted with my classmate.. he going to the cpa camp.. i can't go.. mummy dun allow.. dunno wad happen.. then later, had spicy noodle for lunch.. i'm on fire~!!! >.< took my bath and then read my book again lo.. i was listening to my mp3 player.. love my life now.. i'm gonna treasure my life.. =) jie jie came back.. then told me we going to change our car.. then i sae i wan the family car.. that big big one.. but she sae "have u ever tot about dad's condition?".. i stared at her.. wad happen?? she told me daddy's condition never improve.. so took blood test to see if he was having cancer.. kae.. this is really horrible.. since young, always warn daddy not to smoke.. he tried to stop, but he can't.. well.. things are expected.. but it is fate.. *SADDENING* hope the result is not cancer lo.. jux imagine, he scream when the doctor tried to draw his blood.. his hand was swollen and the doctor was unable to draw his blood?! wad shit is this?? haix.. i love my family and i hope God love them as much as i do.. and i hope he won't take my daddy away.. ='( i love you daddy.. i'll be a ur sensible and smart daughter.. i'll try to be.. haix.. i feel guilty.. i've always spend dad's money without giving a tot on wad i spent on.. sorry daddy.. i miss you.. haix..

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

metoyou
came back from choir, took my bath.. and here i am, sitting in front of the computer, chatting, dreaming and eating.. hahax.. good life yeah? hahax.. i'm addicted to ribena~!!! hahax.. that purple blackberry drink.. hahax.. anyway, my throat still hurts.. couldn't find my antibotics.. >.< dammit.. but never mind.. i'll drink plenty of water to cure it.. hahax.. =D choir rox today~!!! hahax.. the ba jun zan right, they went super fast.. towards the end, i was alittle confuse, but manage to catch up.. hahax.. ca the yowes still rox.. but due to my stupid throat, got alittle difficulty reaching the high notes.. >.< after choir, i was at kallang mrt station again.. sat on the chair and read my book lo.. i love reading at mrt stations.. got better concentration.. hehex.. =P but at the side of my eye i saw this guy keep staring at me and diaoing me la.. so i decided to board the next train.. damn him manx.. hahax.. kae.. lyn jie came my house this morning to take her test online.. some math test.. she score 800 upon 800~!!! she math pro sia.. so she be my A and E math tutor i have no worries.. hahax.. jus imagine, she got AO for her F maths.. that is like super pro~!!! i wan to take F maths too~!!! hahax.. super bored now.. can't wait to go to school and meet new challenges and stress.. i'm gonna stress myself next year.. hahax.. feeling weird.. have been avoiding my rice these few days.. feel like vomitting after eating too much rice lo.. >.< but should be fine.. jus eat more proteins lo.. twinnie go camp and going chalet le.. then mei you ren pei wo.. ='( was talking to kor jux now.. hahax.. he changed alot.. super cool now.. =P then he so mean lo.. that day he saw me, and he couldn't recognise me la.. super mean.. hahax.. anyway, he told me i'm always his mei no matter wad.. hahax.. u better mean it hor.. or i'll smack u.. hahax.. tonight is Singapore Idols.. who gonna win? hmmx.. good question good question.. who ar?? dunno lehx.. hahax.. got super good news~!!! i found old self back.. =) miss my self~!!! *huggies* hahax.. i crazy le.. hahax.. i found myself back le.. glad or wad? kae kae.. i promise never to lose my self? okay.. wadever.. *muackies* hahax.. love myself, my friends, my family, God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and u~!!!

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