Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Daddy is kind. and i love Him. =)

went out with eve, jordan and bro. cause i was freaking bored at home, i pulled bro and eve. and bro pulled jordan. hahas. watch happy feet again. i'm fated with it. =) it's cute i tell you!! baby gloria!! hahas. EEW!! SO CUTE!! ok ok. i was laughing my head off like some mad lady la. cause it's cute. and when bro jerked when the seal pop out of the water to eat happy feet. and how scare eve was when the whales came along. hahas. interesting. =)

came home slightly later than what i told mum and maid, and i've got an earful from my maid. GOD! she sounds as if she is going to be a naggy mummy next time. =x thank God she isn't my mummy. hahas.

was about to bathe, when i receive a phone call from an unknown number. so i answer. lols. GOT MY JOB!! hahas. i was so happy that i jump up and down. mum was saying the pay is very low and not worth it. so i told her that i am working for experience. at least it is a step to gain knowledge about the working world. =) hahas. tml got training. my work place is at SINGAPORE EXPO! time from 11 p.m to 9 p.m.. please support me!! lols.

i'm going to movies with sis!! wow! been so long since i last went to movies with her. hehes. =)

yaps. although in some ways, life doesn't seem right. but i guess, i just have to look on the bright side. =) hopefully, life will be better.

Daddy, i love You!

done blogging.

-i'll live on this earth for as long as i can and make every single second of it fruitful-

P.S. laughing and being happy is the best way to stop yourself from thinking of unhappy moments or being sad. =) <3 puay!




i was expecting no more memorising of stuff after Os. and now, i've got lots to do! >< lols. well. at least, i hope it will be fun. lols. =)

i just pulled xl to work with me and sh. and to think of it, i'm afraid of meeting chinese speaking customers. i mean, i'm having a hard time speaking chim chim chinese. ><

i guess, after this event, i'll be looking forward to a new school term! provided i get in, that is. hahas. get to meet new friends and gain a whole new experience of JC life. or well, MI life. lols. but of course, i won't forget my secondary friends. definitely not puay!! she is my listener! hahas. =P <3 puay!

hmms. seriously. i don't think it matter anymore. cause you don't even seem to care. i guess it was only a silly crush. and it'll be over soon. so, i'll wish you all the best in finding someone that really suits you. =)

i guess, i'm no longer who i am. no one knows if i cried. no one knows if i am sad. no one knows when i'm lying. cause this world is all about hiding who you truly are. and now, i'm not sure who i am. guess i'm just a girl with no more feelings. =) oh well.

done blogging.

-i no longer trust love anymore. this heart, has long stop beating-




woke up like 8.30 when i was suppose to be up an hour ago? lols. then quickly prepare myself and met sh at 9.15.

walk to funan. and guess what, none of the shops are open! so we sat outside the shop and chatted. then the big boss came. lols. he rocks! hahas. he is funny. lol. anyway, it wasn't much of a training. but just to tell us which models we are selling and the free gifts and the special features. PEOPLE! it is LENOVO AKA IBM. thanks. please support me! lols.

then went to TM with sis to watch step up. the show was great. CHANNING rocks! hahas. =) made sis pay alot today. like finally. hahas.

so here i am. back home. gotta do my research on the freaking products. ><

done blogging.

-guess life is pretty back to normal. just without you.-

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

i'm so freaking bored at home! ><

ok. woke up about 6+ by my phone. not the alarm. i dropped my phone! heartache ar.. ='( oh well. i went back to bed and slept all the way until..... crystal msg me. >< she was suppose to go out today. but she had to meet her bf. so. yeah. i decided not to go either. or i can't make it for the class bbq. lols.

i came online. and went around reading some people's blog. bored.

oh well. finally, puay came online! you know how much i miss her? hahas. i miss talking to her, crapping with her and stuff. =) no wonder people say she rocks! hahas. i totally agree. =) we had some plans for bbq. =) gee. i hope i won't go home looking like an idiot. and i won't wanna stink my room the way sis did it the other time. that smell sucks! hahas. ok. i'll have my limits. and i sweared to her i'm not doing it cause i'm sad. i'm doing it cause... erms.. i don't know. lols. =) FINALLY GOING TO SEE HER! ^^

i'm still waiting for the freaking call. and each time my phone vibrates, it's a msg. WHEN WILL I GET A PHONE CALL?! lols. ok ok. in fact i don't think i'll get the computer exhibition job. cause i know nuts about computers! mp3, it's still fine. computers?! WAY TOO COMPLICATED! lols oh well. just have to wait for tml. =(

you know. it's weird when i hear how some guys complain about their girlfriends. and i'll think of them as bitches. yet, sometimes, girls complain about their boyfriends, and they classify them as jerks. so in the world of bgr, jerks doesn't exist alone. in fact jerks and bitches exist together. lol. ok, i admit i'm kinda of a bitch. but who cares. i don't think any one will bother right? hahas. i'll cut the crap.

wow. mummy is good suddenly. ok. i'm going out soon to watch happy feet i think. at TM. ^^ god. sh, think you are not the only one fated with happy feet. =P

GOD!! LET ME GET MY JOB!

done blogging.

-your answer seems obvious-

Monday, November 27, 2006

GOD! my foot hurts. AGAIN! =(

ok. met sh at 12. then went to centry to eat long john. i left half the combo 1 untouch. =x god. hahas. ok ok. then went to kelly sevices. seriously! i didn't know there were so many office buildings. and they all look almost the same. so i went to ask the security guard. and haha! kelly services was the next building. so we went there and sat down. then fill in our particulars and went off.

took bus 67 to sim lim square. the ride was damn long! i was on the verge of sleeping, so sh talk to me. hahas. the weather was so damn nice to sleep!! ok ok. so alighted. then she wanted to run under the rain. -.-" IN HEELS?! God! and i followed her. i must be mad! hahas. it was fun though, and i was praying i won't fall. I DID NOT FALL!! wow! hahs. we entered and i was freezing. i just hate cold!! >< ok. went to the shop to register. wow. i think it's a guy's environment. only saw one girl. but still, being desperate for job, i took up. i registered. now i'm hoping i'll get it. PEOPLE! RMB!! IF I GET THE JOB, COME SINGAPORE EXPO TO SUPPORT ME! thanks. ^^ just don't come on 1st. i won't be there. =P

took taxi to lido. after waiting so long to buy the tickets, we didn't get it. -.-"
so went borders. i bought a book. ^^ saw it at kino that day. and i bought it today. yeah! hahas. then took mrt to plaza sing. reach there, bought tickets. and went to watch happy feet. ^^ so cute!

seriously, i think human are doing alot of harm to little creatures!! =( poor creatures.

went home after that. God. i wasn't feeling well. =( and now, i'm having bad headache. AHH!!! DADDY!! KILL ME WILL YOU?! FREAKING TIRED OF THIS LIFE!

done blogging.

-do you miss me the way i do? or your life is better off without me? i wanna know-




wow! i finally sleep so well. yaps. more than 10 hours of sleep. =)

today going to look for job. wish me luck. i seriously need a job. =x OH! look at the classified of the straits times. wow. 20 people needed to taste food. and 12 bucks an hour. like what the heck!! so freaking good can? ^^ i wanted to. but it's like all the way at woodlands. ><

done blogging.

-i'll learn to grow up and walk this path alone. =)-

Sunday, November 26, 2006

finally got my blogskin changed. =) finally found one that i liked. =) changed my tag board too. but too bad. now, i can't even view my freaking blog on my phone. =(

ok.

been requested to update my blog now, by my girlfriend, sze hui. yaps. guess she bored. and probably she loves reading my blog. =) yeah. my life is very interesting. =x

4E'o6-sians! there is a class bbq this friday. and i hope you all will attend, cause i freakingly miss you all alot! ok. it's at east coast park, area C, pit 15. it should start about 5+. so come early before the food are gone! and bring along 10+ bucks to pay the food. please tag me if you are going. i'll see you there. =)

great. one of my wishes came true. =) i can finally stroll along the beach. enjoy the beautiful sun set. not with anyone special, but with my potato. =) Daddy, please tell me that i'll be able to sort out my thoughts.

3 hours of sleep really doesn't do good to my mind. ='(

done blogging.

-freak!^{i miss you}-




yesterday went steamboat with crystal and xl. me and crystal left xl alone cause crystal didn't want to be left alone. so both of us went to take food. erms. they said i take very little. so xl went to take more, while me and crystal sat there. then when xl came back, and realise we didn't take the butter. =x so in the end, all three of us went to take food. steamboat was great, other than the chicken meat that i cooked all burnt. cause i forgotten that i was cooking. =x had dirty talk with them. which i don't really understand what was going on. had durian potong. while xl had the pimple potong, red bean. =x that's what he said, i was quoting it only. =x

reach home about 11+. mum didn't scold me. neither did daddy. took a bath and when i came out, everyone was asleep. so i used sis comp. that was why i was alone out in the living room. used the comp for like 20 minutes, and i decided to sleep. no point staying online when no one is talking to me. =(

i had another freaking long night. that's why i'm starting to hate night time. oh well. i was lying in bed tossing and turning for 3 hours. only manage to sleep at 3!! -.-" kept checking my phone. but no msg. =( ok ok. the time pass so freaking slow. manage to sleep. but woke up at 6!! wth. argh!

here i am. blogging. tml might be looking for job. can't stand another minute at home. it's driving me crazy. ><

done blogging.

-Daddy, tell me it's going to be over soon-

Saturday, November 25, 2006

i didn't expect myself to do it. but i did. i've got no one to blame but myself. yaps. i don't like to force others, even though i know you would rather be asked to stay.

alone in the living room is a good feeling. yeah.

went for steamboat with crystal and xl. i'll rather be out than the be home thinking. yaps..

oh well. another day.

done blogging.




god. why is everything going wrong?! ='(

i'm sorry i made a big fuss yesterday. which sort of led us to a conclusion. i chose not to let go and i chose to change my ways. but will this relationship be better? or will things remain the way it is?

facing reality is hard. and i hate facing the fact and the truth. i hate facing the fact that i might lose you. something you might never know and something that you might never care about. cause i'm starting to feel that there is a gap between us. and that you no longer care for me any more. am i thinking too much?

i cried while recalling every single memories with you. they were special and sweet. you led me through the dark back to a place that is full of hope. you never screamed at me and quarrelled with me. you gave in to me, and tolerate all my nonsense.

you are so perfect, which make you the dream guy of every single girl. who doesn't want?

hmm.

i won't force you to stay by my side, seriously.

^{if love is all about letting go, i'll let you go. and i'll watch you silently for far.}




wow. it's the longest night i've ever spent. ><

i went to bed about 12.30. but i just couldn't sleep. many things were occupying my mind. yes.. many. hmm. finally manage to sleep at about 2. and freakingly woke up at 5. -.-" what the heck. argh! and it's really amazing how i can sit in front of this comp looking like a zombie.

trying to look for job. hopefully there is an exhibition so i can like apply and work for only few days. but, damn, no more event crews are needed!! =( WHERE TO GET A FREAKING JOB!!!

i've decided to make my trip to MI a fruitful one and to learn what i need to. who cares if i'm going poly or not. who cares if i make it to the uni or not. seriously, i can't be bothered any more. =x

done blogging.

-damn. tears love my eyes so much. DADDY! I HATE TEARS!!!-

i still love you

Friday, November 24, 2006

slept freaking well last night. woke up 6.40. saw a msg from daddy venron. think things between him and his stead are... so he msged me. and i replied freaking late. i hope things are fine now. =) although i don't know what happened.

met crystal at 11.48 when we are suppose to meet at 11.30!! hahas. ok. due to some miscommunication, we got to somerset quite late. =x hahas. ok ok. mummy and potato wore OBS shirt. crystal wore green top and cute black pants. and i wore some weirdo clothes. -.-" puay couldn't meet us on time cause she met xr.

went to cine to eat burgerking. ok ok. stop talking about my eating style. i know it's unglam. but this is me. =x hahas. then went to wisma.. ok ok. quite boring there. cause the things there are like freaking ex! then walked to far east. lols. went in to one shop. GOD! i swear i'll never go in there again. the sales girl is a damn good promoter! she asked all of us to try on clothes. and i felt like a model la. ok. only that this clothes have to buy. i wanted to buy one, but i was damn broke. so i guess i got to save up before i can get it. IT'S SO FREAKING NICE! then went around walking. hahas. not so bad la. at least my leg not as pain as wednesday. hahas.

went to scotts for a cup of drink at coffee bean. GOD! CARAMEL!! hahas PAUY!! SEE THIS!! CARAMEL!! hahas. she loved it. so do it. ^^ so walked to taka. then went to puma. tried a shirt on with potato. she bought it. hahas. it's nice. ^^

left the girls and met him at somerset. nothing much. just had dinner and walked around. went to find puay. crystal was unable to meet me to go home. so, i went home alone.

sorry for feeling sad. anyway, thanks bro, for listening to me. =)

i'm not sure what happened. something just set my mind thinking. i'm not exactly sure about what. but there is a mixed feeling. i'm confused. while walking home, i felt tears in my eyes. i don't know what was going on. i don't know what went wrong. and i don't know who to turn to. but.. ya.. i guess i'm fine now. *sigh*

done blogging.

-tell me that i made the right choice-

Thursday, November 23, 2006

finally, i'm home whole day.

i woke up at 3 this morning to reply a msg. hahas. then at 6+ to reply a msg and to make sure he was fine. yaps. was quite worried about him. =x ok. then was talking to venron for awhile. he asked me to get back to bed. really sounds like a daddy. hahs. so i asked him why is he up so early. guess what was the reply? "i send my girlfriend to school.." sweet right?? gosh!! i'm envious. hahas.

finally, woke up at 10+.. tried looking for event crew. so.. yaps. can't find it. ok. i'm fussy. >< then slack the entire morning. spent my day on the comp, watching tv, clearing my wardrobe, msging venron, and eating.

ok.

i'm going out tml. orchard. gonna have leg pain again!! =x with my darling potato, beloved puay, cute boon, and caring mummy. not sure if prince is going. but princess is busy. sigh.

i'm going to get myself a date. =) soon. real soon.

pig. hope you're feeling alot better. take good care of yourself. rest alot and drink plenty of water.

oh! suppose to promote someone. ok. the story goes: someone says no one likes him. so decided to promote him on my blog. ^^ this guy, he is cute, handsome, smart and well-build. he has a good character, friendly, sociable, lovely smile. not say very tall, 174 cm. he is an officer. books out every night. age 20. ok. if anyone wants, just leave me a tag. i'll pass him the msg. =P

piggy. i'll see if you dare to say no one likes you. =D

done blogging.

-can't wait to see you-

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

wow. tired. hahas.

woke up like 10. hahas. then went online to register for first 3 months to MI. then slack about until 11.30. then i was going to be late. so i quickly prepared everything and run out of the house. without breakfast!!

hahas. and i'm the first to reach!! hahas. then wait for crystal. after that went eunos to wait for sze hui and silin. in the end, me and crystal went to city hall to meet them. why? cause that girl wanted aircon. -.-" met potato.

reach orchard le, saw jalat. hahas. then i keep moving closer and closer to him.. cause he got blocked ma. in the end, his friends all stare at me like i'm some stupid stalker. lols. anyway, it's him la. hahas. so i just said hello. went to far east to eat long john silver. hahas. then silin join us. hahas. then walk and walk lo. walk from far east to taka to heeren. hahas. sze hui bought a shirt, crystal bought a belt for her friend, i bought bubbly tea, silin bought necklace. and all of us took neoprints!! been so long since i last took. hehes. xing lun joined us too. then the girls were all saying about working before the Os result. then xing lun ask me don't listen. hahas. bought nice nice chocolate. ^^

ok ok. went home early. i'm such a good girl. =P but my freaking feet hurts la. ><

done blogging.

-gosh. addicted to your voice-

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

i'm freaking pissed off! leave me alone!




i don't have to do things to prove or show who i really am.

went out with crystal and eve to marina square. yaps. walk around. i bought new shoes! it was only 16!! half price! hahas. love shops that are on sale. ^^ ok. then went to watch movie, flushed away! hahas. damn funny. the small boy laugh until so loud, that everyone laugh not because of the show, but because of the small boy. lols.

came home.

got nagged. can't stand it. spoil my whole freaking good mood. why the heck i can't stay out late? damn it!

i'm freaking angry now.

done blogging.




went vivo with eve yesterday. yeah. walk practically the entire vivo. it's big, that i got to agree. but most of the things, i can't afford. ask me go there, is like asking me to go paragon can? ><

anyway, step into zara, mango and many more. yaps. zara and mango variety is wide. but s&k, fox, ebase and others have little variety. hahas. then met the others at 5+. went carles junior to eat. DAMN!!! BEEF FRIES!!! WOOTS! hahas. ok ok. eve shared the fries with me. and even when we share, we can't finish la. hahas.

walk around. guys wanted to watch movie, while me and eve just wanted to shop. so anyway, we got ourselves ended in bugis. eve and me went bugis street to shop. the guys went ezone. -.-" anyway, eve bought 2 shirts, and i bought a shirt and a cardigon. HAHAS! cool right.

went to ezone look for the rest. and guess what?? I GOT A LOT OF SWEETS TO EAT!! hahas. they were playing this stupid game la. then got a lot of sweets come out. so yeah. we shared. but i got the most. why? cause sweet is my life!! HAHAS. went MOS to sit and drink. then went home. i'm such a good girl. mummy say reach home before 11. i got home about 10.15. hahas. ^^ dum went home with me. hahas.

today, went to school collect testimonial. wow. i didn't remember handing in all my assignments on time. yet she said i did. wow. hahas. ok. the main thing now is. i'm only eligible for MI or any 3 year pre-u course. and i'm not sure if i should go. damn. if only i had work harder. hahas. anyway, jordan and xl is trying to persuade me to go. so.. yaps. see bahs. i'll talk to mum. but the decision sill lies in my hand right? sigh.

ok. i'm going out again!!! hahas. with eve and crystal. =) and others.

done blogging.

-freakingly in love with you. damn. miss you freaking much!-

Monday, November 20, 2006

seriously. i'm wondering what's wrong with my mummy. she's been so nice lately. that i'm starting to love this family all over again! whee! no more fights, no more screams. just hugs and kisses. wow. nice, warm home. hahas. of course, this will be the kind of environment you want after a long day of work. right? =)

going to vivo with friends. the prefects of course. but i'll be meeting eve first. and dum is coming!! hahas. but before that, i'll go mad with eve. hahas. mum let me reach home before 11. wow!! hahas. hopefully i get to sit my cable car. ^^ but, damn, there is school tml!! ><

gee. starting to miss school already. hahas. yes! MR PAN and MR TAN! hahas. without them, life in class will be feaking boring. >< of course, my close friends. and the teachers!! I LOVE MRS LIM! hahas. she rocks. she is a dedicated teacher and she makes us love e maths. ok. other than the nagging part. >< MAN! when is our class chalet?! i want bbq~

quick quick. 23rd faster come. ^^

done blogging.

-i'm truly, madly, deeply in love with you-

P.S: i seriously think my entry is better than dum!! hahs. cause my blog has no SUX!! hahas. =x

Sunday, November 19, 2006

wow. you're not gonna believe this. this lazy bum actually got down to work. hahas. yeah. i finally cleared my messy room, messy cupboard and messy table. so now, everything is clear. ^^

spent my entire afternoon watching tv. thought of going out though.. but. nahs. shall stay at home. since i'll be out whole day tml. AGAIN!! i'm out shopping with my beloved PRINCESS!! hahas.

i wanna sit cable car. =x i wanna stroll along the beach. i wanna sit and gaze at the stars. but, it's all wishes and none might come true. lol.

the best place on earth is to be at the highest place, whereby you can look down and see the city. =) had that vision twice. hahas.

argh! i'm so broke. shopping tml, shopping on thursday, shopping on friday!!! when can i watch my freaking movie?!?! movie mood. movie mood. hello!!

done blogging.

-i miss you-

Saturday, November 18, 2006

finally woke up late. yeah! 10+. hahas. ok. although i did replied some messages. hahas.

was supposed to meet him today. but he might not make it. so i went around asking people. hahas. wanted to ask dum. but decided not to. hahas. in the end, he can make it. so i met him. ^^

went to marina square. then to walk. went to times, i just can't find my book. =x oh well. met mins. gosh. i can't stand her. she really can make you so paiseh. >< hahas. the funniest thing is. HAHA. i'm not going to say. =P it's a secret between us. hahas. FUNNY!!!

then we head to esplanade. gosh!! PIANO!! it's been like how long since i last touch a piano without getting stupid smacks or naggings. damn. oh. the girl who gave the flower is so cute!! her eyes are big and nice. I WANT A DAUGHTER NEXT TIME!! cause daughters are usually better than sons. hahas.

met dum and jalat at mrt. they were playing soccer. and saw 2 other sec 3s. gosh! aren't they suppose to study for Os? hahas. =x

done blogging.

you seem so perfect. way too perfect for me. which often makes me wonder why on earth did you choose me instead of others. it feels great to be with you. even just having you by my side without uttering a single word. =) yeahs. i'm sorry, and feeling guilty, for being late twice. and always letting you wait. and you didn't threw your anger even though you may be feeling angry deep inside. i miss you alot. and i love you too.

-my life is all about you.-

Friday, November 17, 2006

gosh. I screwed up another date.. Sorry..

Chalet was great.. Yap.. It was like a hotel.. Haha.. Went to the beach and sort of sun tan. I really love the beach. Yes. When will i ever go to the beach again and stroll.. STRESS FREE!

Met him.. Can see that he wasn't happy and stuff. Sorry. It's my fault again. =( guess i'm just a bad stead..

Here i am in the train.. >< BORED! Yeah. Nothing much.

Done blogging.

-i love you. I'm sorry.-

Thursday, November 16, 2006

i'm back home. whee. =) yeah. i still can't believe exams are over. and damn! i'm facing the screen, and i've got nothing to do! no one is talking to me. you know how boring it is?? =X

a maths was kinda bad. the first few questions were like easy. towards the end, i was struggling. and yeah. famhy is like so relieved when his subject is over and when many declared it was easy. EASY?! gosh. shows my standard in the class. ><

as for chem, mcq, out of 40, i only know i'll get 16 marks. the rest are like, not sure not sure. HOPEFULLY, miracles happen. yeah. paper 2, i was rushing for time. ahh!! but all these are over!! =D

now, i'll be afraid of the results. and i'll start crying over spilled milk. >< ahhs!

WOW!! I'M GOING VIVO CITY TML!!! DON'T HAVE TO WAIT FOR MONDAY!!! hahas. an guess what. sy treating me and jordan. cause jordan is my dar. and he told sy, no him, no me. so if he treats me, he got to treat jordan. wow! my dar is so smart at tricking seniors! hahas. and damn! they making us wait till 4+. wah lao! i want to go home watch tv? =x

sleepy. when can i catch my sleep? i'll be out everyday. afternoon till night!! MY DREAM LIFESTYLE! hahas. ok. and not forgetting, i'll try to make salad for mummy. hahas. yeah! i didn't win my salad competition for fun hor. haha. ^^

done blogging.

-love my freaking phone! where is my 10 reasons? =)-




and i love Puay.. My Os is over.. Haha.. And i'm blogging immediately after my Os.. Haha.. Don't jealous..

♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:31 PM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

FINALLY!! tml is the BIGGEST DAY! hahas. the very minute that i end my paper, i'll blog!! hahas. woots. for the past few major exams, everyone suan me cause they don't have to come for certain days, while i have to go for all the days of the exam period. hahas. but guess what? now, i got 4 days more of holidays than them! hahas. don't jealous.

wow. it's really good talking to an old friend and recall all about the past. hahas. anyway, be glad i'm a good girl now k? hahas. i didn't know i was so playful last time. =x yeah. vernon told me that i always kicked his chair, call him papa, and do all sorts of weird stuff. GOSH! hahas. ok. at least, he didn't ignore me, despite how irritating i am. hahas. ok. then came P2 when i performed in front of the school. yes!!! AS A BUTTERFLY!! EEEW!!! one of the most EMBARRASSING moments of my life. ok.

many things planned, more dates with friends. I'VE BEEN INVITED TO JOIN FRIENDS TO VIVO CITY ON THE 20TH!! hahas. YOU KNOW HOW EXCITED I AM?! THE BIGGEST SHOPPING MALL!! THAT MEANS MORE FOOD SHOPS! MEANS MORE FOOD TO EAT!! MEANS MORE ICE CREAMS, SNACKS, SWEETS, AND WOW WOW WOW!! PLEASE DON'T DISAPPOINT ME!! lols. crap. hahas. yep. going vivo city with jordan, sy and kors. erms. that's all that i know.. maybe got more? i'm not sure.

ok. finally, i'm hoping my chocolate will turn out well. ^^

done blogging.

-i started thinking about you during my paper. and you msged me after that. WOW! just love you lots. where is my 10 reasons?? =x-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:35 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

i laid in bed last night. i felt tears welling up. oh well.

it was like 2 weeks ago, when i was counting down to Os. and now, i'm counting down to end of Os. TOTALLY ROCKS!

lols. chocolate!! i'm making chocolates!! hahas. hope it'll be better than before. =) hehes.

ok. a maths paper sucks! i left an 8 mark question blank. and it is like those super easy topics can? wahs! i like not sad. ><

done blogging.

-i don't have to say a single word to tell you how much i love you-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:48 PM

Monday, November 13, 2006

i'm already in a holiday mood. i can imagine how sians those combine science students will be when it comes to their last paper. lols. just go to school for 1 hour to do mcq. i'll be damn sian if i am one of them.

ok.

it's so cool! i can blog using my phone. hahas. means i don't have to come online. woots~!

3 more days to go.. tick tock tick tock.. ><

done blogging.

-suddenly, i feel it is just a dream. am i plain lucky to find you or is it all fated to be? sorry. i have no faith in myself.-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:34 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

every time, when one goes into a relationship, he/she might said "i won't change myself for a relationship.".. ok. to think of it, sometimes, we change ourselves for the other party without know it ourselves. ^^

ok. did revised today. =) so i guess i'm quite a good girl. though i went out in the afternoon to buy lunch. but still, i studied right? so i'm a good girl. ^^

4 more days!! then it'll be over. wheee!!

ok. plans after Os.

17-18 Nov: out with friends.
20: either with mins and yao, or with sze hui.
21: back to school for PAE briefing.
22: either with mins and yao, or with sze hui.
23: with him.
24 & 25: with ah boi and jalat or primary school friends.
december, SATURDAYS ARE STRICTLY BOOK FOR A PERSON!! BAHS!

oh! i'm suppose to make chocolates. =x anyone wants? hahas.

lols. my primary 1 classmate took my number. hahas. ok. been a long time since i last contacted him. hahas. anyway, STOP REMEMBERING ME AS A RED FACE GIRL! ><

done blogging.

-i'm looking forward to spending every moment of my life with you-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:44 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

had another bad dream last night. >< gosh. why recently i keep dreaming that i'm losing all my loved ones? ><

studied today. on off on off. nothing much. just couldn't concentrate. it's another 5 days more!! ^^

ok. everyone around me is sad. =x

done blogging.

-new phone!! AHH!!-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:29 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

e maths paper 2 is over. whee! 6 days to after Os. and 6 more papers to go. woots.

sat in the hall for 2.5 hours. about 1.5 hours through the paper, i suddenly can't go on anymore. just had the urge to give up suddenly. i stared into space. and starting thinking what the heck am i doing in the damn hall. i got the urge to just throw my pens down and leave the hall. but.. i got myself to focus and wake myself up. and damn. wasted precious 15 minutes. oh well..


i'm not exactly sure what i'm thinking. all i know is that i really wanna cry out loud and hard. my heart hurts alot, but for a reason that i don't know. tell me what on earth is going on?!

hmm. i miss you alot. i can't wait to see you. i can't wait to be in your arms. to hear your heart beat. i wanna hear you whispering into my ears, telling me that you're there. my world is all about you. and it revolves around yours. can you sense it??

done blogging.

-i miss you dear-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:27 PM

gosh.. Just woke up from some stupid dream..

Who doesn't long for ever lasting love? Who doesn't long for true love? But i guess, most relationships now, at our age are just puppy love.. Tell me, who ever know what love is? The word may be simple, but yet, it is complicated.. Oh well..

Few hours to e maths paper 2.. End at 5.. Sian.. But.. After this week can relax slightly a little.. =)

Gee.. Last night felt like crying hard.. =x hmm..

Done blogging.

-i wish i could leave-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:50 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

gosh! i feel so bad for mistaking her as someone she is not. anyway, i just got to learn to reason why she made that decision. i just think cambridge is so unfair. just because of missing one english paper, she got to waste one year. sigh. no matter what, i'll love her. ^^

hmm. i really miss them. the fun we used to have. hope to meet up with them soon! ^^

O level has started early this week. i'm in the mids of it. yeah. not say tough, manageable. maybe will have lots of careless mistakes. ok. other than SS! hate SS. ><

i'm totally in love with my new phone!! hahas. who won't fall in love with it? lols. ok. other than that pig. who doesn't like sony ericsson. hmph! =x

done blogging.

-i'm seriously in love with you that i keep missing you-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:33 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

i feel like i'm back in primary 6!! yeah. during PSLE, mum took leave to supervise me and to make sure i was studying. and yap! she did it again! but this time for Os. gosh. and she is making me worried. AHH!!

ok ok. back to the major topic. she brought me to TM at 3+ to get my new phone! lols. ok. i wanted black. but she told me it was too manly. and persuaded me to buy blue. no choice. i bought. super like that phone! my first FLIP PHONE!! hahas. ^^ dream come true. ^^

ehs. my snowy's head is like going to drop off any time. *hint hint* nahs. i only want my maid to buy. cause there is sentimental values!

so yap. someone is telling me my english sounds fine. GOSH! lols. kidding me, that's what i told him. lols.

done blogging.

-i love my phone-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:56 PM

Monday, November 06, 2006

ok. i think everyone is sick of my whining about SS. yeahs. especially kors. lols. been whining to him for so long. since paper end until now.

anyway, e maths is managable. SS has woken me up for my dreams. and it is time to face reality. >< DAMN!!! after the entire paper, wanted to hug puay. but that girl.. dunno where she go to. stupid.

came home. don't know to cry or what.

anyway, i'm too depressed that i decided to blog. so here i am.

was talking to many people online. dum, sh and venron. lols. yeah. been a long time since i last talked to venron. that i thought he doesn't exist anymore. yeah. my used-to-be prince charming. anyway, he told me that he found it amazing that he is actually talking to me again. lols. yeah. been 7,8 years since we last talked? and he's happy about it. lols. AHHS!! so happy to talk to him again. ok. probably because i don't wanna lose a friendship just for confessing my love? hahas. but anyway, that was so long ago.

tml no paper. then wed is english.

done blogging.

-you ended all my nightmares-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:07 PM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

tml is like the big day. i'm not exactly excited, but i'm just scare. =S

ok ok. wish me all the best.

was sharing my past with bro. the funny part of course. yeah. i confess my love to a guy, at the age of 6. and i commented that his mum looked like a ghost, at the age of 7. his mum, of course,called me up. and i was like.. erm.... =x ok ok. then at the age of 8, he transfered out. =x hahas. he talked to me last night. but mum was chasing me out of the comp. >< so.. yap. this is the story.

anyway, to all my friends who are reading my blog and are taking Os tml, good luck for Os. i love you!!! ^^

done blogging.

-say good bye to my soul-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:22 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

my first crush just add me to msn. and i was laughing my head off. nothing big. but i just remember how open i was. people always think that in primary one, everyone is all young and innocent. but i guess i'm not. at that time, i really wished i had someone who love and care for me. lols. ok. cut the crap.

suddenly, i'm missing all my primary school friends. all of them changed alot in terms of looks. yeah. all prettier and more handsome. lols. guess i change the least. hahas. really hope to see them soon. =)

i'll be getting my new phone soon. ^^ you know how excited i am?? =x

2 days left to Os. and i'll be free. yeah. lots of things to do. owe many people dates. but, most saturdays are book!!! too bad. hehes. sundays are book for family. =)

i can't stop missing you or thinking of you. right now, at this point of time, i need you the most. i wanna be in your arms. i want you to tell me that you're really here for me. and that you'll always be by my side no matter what. but i guess, i can only think about it. and imagine them all.

i'm not sure what i'm doing. but i think i know but i think i don't know. so do i know or don't know? =x

ok ok. time to wish me luck. is either i make it, or i don't. and if i don't. forget about seeing me ever.

done blogging.

-i love you so much that i miss you so much that i want you so much-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:46 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

went to school for consultation. bio consultation was great. at least now, i finally know what's going on. and i'm really glad to have such a good and wonderful teacher!! lols.

seriously. she's quite cute and blur. lols. she actually called her mother in law auntie, until her mum nudge her, then she called auntie mama. lols. but anyway, can see that she really can't believe that she's married to her love one. lols. she cried when taking vow? wow! so cool right? wedding is the most interesting thing. ^^

went kfc with sy, jordan, and bro. damn funny. i was playing bro's psp. next time really cannot drive. i keep on crashing. =x then i made alot of noise while playing. hahas. funniest thing was, i was playing in the mrt, then i lost my balance and step on a lady's feet. and three of them had to hold on to me. and make sure i don't lose my balance again. lols. =x i like small kid can?? =x

just 13 more days, and i'll be as free as a bird. =)

sometimes, i'm not trying to hide anything. i just don't know how to express it out. i guess many things happen for a reason. hmms. every time when i'm alone. i'll think of the time with you. i miss you.

done blogging.

-i wish something sweet happen.-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:00 PM

i hate to think what lies ahead. or probabbly i'm just thinking too much. seriously, does forever really exist??

just woke up from a nightmare. i'm not sure if it will happens in reality, but i'm crossing my fingers tight and praying hard that i won't? who loves nightmares to happen in reality? no one.

just 2 days to Os. probably this is my last entry. hopefully no. =x i'm just addicted to computers. >< damns.

i'm not confident in getting my As or Bs. but i'll try my best. not going to let anyone down this time. especially not myself. didn't make it for psle, i shall make my dreams come true this Os. i must and i will.

no more temptations. no more distractions. i just wanna concentrate. please. this is my last chance.

haven't seen puay for a long time. starting to miss her. =( miss her naggings. =x

done blogging.

-i'm just living in a world of lies. is this the real world?-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:42 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

ok ok. tried to wake up early today. but i kept snoozing my alarm. and that's it. i slept through the night and ended up waking up at 9. ><

went to school, hoping i could meet my SS teacher. somehow, couldn't find her. only manage to see her when she was leaving. so had to rush to finish my assignment to hand in to her. and got to go back school tml. sians.

went for tuition at bedok. journey was quite long. anyway, been a long time since i last took a bus. well. many things went through my mind. which kinda affect my mood. sorry buddy. didn't meant to pms you.

oh well. tuition was kinda boring too. probably because i didn't do my work. lols.

it was drizzling after tuition. yeah. love the rain. =) took bus back to bedok interchange. the bus route was familiar. but the feeling was different from the one i had before. the last time, i travel this route feeling sad because of certain things. now, i travel this route feeling kinda happy?

damn. i'm desperate to go rockapella. i'm like so in love with them. sians.

a part of me is feeling sad. but i don't know why. hmms.

happy birthday sotong!

done blogging.

-my life is all about you-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:19 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

seriously. i have no idea what i'm doing. i hate memorising all the stuff. i don't mind if my mind works like a comp. at least, i can copy and paste. but this brain of mine, just can't rmb stuff. -.-" my mind is saturated!!

slept through my afternoon. woke up, the rain just stopped. how long have i not gone out there and walk under the rain? i miss walking in the rain. it washes all my tears away. =) i love the rain!! ^^ the most romantic weather? probably. but most shows, show couples breaking up during wet weather. like wth. spoil people's impression of the rain. =x

i just can't concentrate. my entire mind is filled with you. hmms.

done blogging.

-stupid life of mine-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:37 PM

yeah. i'm awake. out here in the living room studying. and listening to canon in d from youtube. lols. i got the link from someone's blog and the tagboard. =x

i hate it when i'm listening to canon in d.. i'll feel emo and then tears will start forming. probably it's really nice and i'm too happy to hear it.. the other possiblity is really... lols. ok ok.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=2xjJXT0C0X4=> rock version.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M8Io3oIJsZE=>choir and orchestra.

damn. just realise i'm left with 5 days to study. ><

done blogging.

-i'm seriously in love with you. in a world of our own.-

♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:50 AM