Monday, May 30, 2005
well.. well.. i'm leaving tml~! and 3 days to mua birthday.. nothing much bahx.. first time celebrating my birthday in another country.. abit sad you mei you? hmmx..
woke up rather early.. guess i'm still not in a holiday sleeping mood.. hahax.. then went to play with the baby girl.. she is cute k? although she don't smile to strangers, unlike me.. hahax.. anyway, tried to carry her.. but she see me only, got that *question mark* *question mark* look.. hmmx.. but in the end, she come to me.. so i got a chance to carry her.. hehex.. but every time she comes near me, i feel so pathetic.. first, she anyhow touch *ahem ahem*.. hmmx.. then she step on my thigh until pain pain de worx.. =X lastly, she scratch me!!! >< feel like a total failure.. other people could carry or handle a baby well, but i can't.. weird mahx.. hahax.. then after that, eve came.. went to swim.. hmmx..
tuitor came, had tuition and then i had my nap and went back to swim.. hahax.. and now, i feel as if i'm floating in the water.. =X hmmx.. hahax.. not so bad lahx.. i got a sun tan.. hahax.. come back from obs sure darker..
12 days gonna be away from the urban area.. hahax.. cool? guess so.. i'm looking forward to the flying fox.. oh.. did i mention my sistah giving me my prezzie? i got a four leave from her.. i always wanted to get one.. but, she gave me.. i love her!!! hehex..
i'm gonna miss every one.. even you.. although whatever happen for the past few days, i'll treat as though nothing has happen.. =) i'll stay happy.. hahax.. =P you too yeah? ^^
take care peeps~ tata``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:40 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
i don't know if the PTI really upsets the people around me.. but i guess it did.. i really didn't mean to shout at you, order you people or make things difficult.. i hope that you understand.. the expectation for this PTI is higher than others as there are 3 levels.. hope you will put yourselves in my shoes and know what i'm going through.. thank you..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:00 PM
currently feeling down..
everything is going wrong..
i wanna let go..
i wanna give up..
i wanna hide away from the truth..
but you know i can't..
it won't be the same again..
you sure you wanna walk this route?
think twice, my friend..
don't regret..
once you walk this path,
you can never turn back..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:50 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
today Be yourself day.. ^^ it wasn't that bad.. spent the entire morning busy with PTI.. went to charge the walkie talkies.. went to do this, do that.. hehex.. hmmx.. then went back to class for physics class test.. Mr G look fierce today.. wonder what happened.. but i guess, as a student, we should just care less..
9.45, BYD start.. went to our 3E booth first.. very little people.. guess everyone went to canteen and games stall.. i went to open the prefect room.. then went to disturb my junior.. bought a signboard from her.. aiyox.. hehe manage to take discount.. =P feel so mean.. hahax.. then went to eat.. MY GOD~!!! the mashmallow in chocolate dip rox~! althought the chocolate dip was a little too sweet.. but.. hmmx.. it just rox~! hahax.. went to help the choir stall.. =P guess it was popular.. within few minutes, everything were sold.. head to the booth again.. got Mrs T to dedicate a song to the entire school.. hehex.. =P then went to walk around.. did a handa.. -moonx- hehex..
11+, went to change and got ready for the PTI.. everything was a mess.. told them the time to come back, they came back later.. the classrooms were all not open, prefects all not ready~! super tired of briefing them, and briefing them when they aren't serious about it.. i told them frankly during the debrief..
i'm sorry to say that i was little too harsh in my words.. but this PTI is the worst.. guess last minute job isn't the best.. *sigh* Mr J talked to my mum, and he told her that the teachers didn't expect such result from me.. he believed i could have done better.. guess i shouldn't disappoint them at the end of the year.. i must prove to them my capabilities.. i MUST~!
well, i feel i've disappoint my parents, teachers and people who put their hopes on me.. i don't know what to say.. but i know i'll try harder.. i'll stop focusing on my prefectorial board.. i won't, no more..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:45 PM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
sometimes, everyone wish to be the leader.. to lead the rest and always get the rest to listen to your opinion, your views and your words.. but have you ever thought of the rest feelings? well, i do.. and now, i wish i'm a follower.. it is easier than leading.. i really wish i am a follower..
tml is the PTI, and i just finish assigning all the jobs.. wishing and praying that nothing would go wrong.. i'll keep my fingers cross~! hehex.. many things still not done yet.. i know.. but i don't care.. i hate people giving me those super lame excuses.. don't wanna do, just say.. i won't force you.. haix.. don't know them lahx.. i wonder why other seniors didn't have a hard time planning them all.. while i do.. shitx~!
tml BMD(be myself day).. i'm sick of thinking what to wear.. guess i'll just wear half uniform lo.. hahax.. don't care.. but i get to shop~! i'm gonna go to the sweet stall.. guess everyone can find me there.. lolx.. wonder if it would be as fun as 2 years ago.. guess not.. everyone has their own friends.. guess i do have my own friends too.. hmmx.. don't know.. wanna enjoy myself tml..
4 more days to me going to brunei and 6 more days to me turning 15~! cool? hahax.. a year older, a year wiser and mature.. so i guess i have to change my mentality.. hahax.. i hope i can..
i'm praying and wishing for miracles
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:30 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
wahx.. woke up 6.15 today wor.. my maid lahx.. climb to my bed and sleep beside me.. so sqeezy!!! meet the rest 7 at aljunied.. 2 pairs of couples worx.. see ler, abit envy lahx.. but friends come before stead.. =X family and studies comes before both.. =P i'm mean.. i know.. oh.. my aim by the end of the year is to get lex daddy a malay girl.. coz he wants someone that cover herself all up.. =X
anyway, we walk from aljunied mrt all the way to kallang stadium and then finish walking the entire 10 km! my god.. i feel so satisfied.. lolx.. then pull nana go bugis shop shop.. then she make me walk lo.. >< leg so suan sia.. lolx.. but got to talk alot.. gossip all the way there.. then eve wanna meet us mahx.. so we meet at the taxi stand.. then me and nana looking at our right.. then eve sit next to me.. then scare me lo.. lolx .. then we go eat lunch.. then jordan meet up with us.. lolx.. then after that go shop shop.. lolx.. i went to buy [u] something.. hehex.. =P happy mahx? dunno if [u]'ll like it.. but i hope [u] will.. =}
reach home awhile only, then go out again.. hahax.. then reach home ler, i went to bath and watch tv.. hehex.. i'm tired k?! then now want to sleep.. aiyox.. i feel so naughty now.. wanna play a joke.. but then, i scare i end up playing until too far.. aiyox..
next week PTI.. me and jordan IC.. hehex.. but, i'm scare.. don't know what my teachers will tell my mother.. good or bad? i don't know.. hope is all good lo.. just don't tell them wad i do in class can ler.. sure get scolding de.. hmmx.. anywayx, 11 more days and i'll be leaving.. so happy!!! first time celebrating my birthday overseas.. hehex.. so cool.. gonna miss each and everyone of you!!!!!
[u]: to this day, i have never forgotten the times we had together, the days we spent together.. the tears i shed, and the pain i've gone.. just know i love you so much!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:33 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
today.. wanted to sleep until late late de.. but then, got interview.. so rush to school lo.. nearly late sia. but i reach there, only Valerie Goh and sengyong.. then later.. 8.20 then start interview.. lolx.. mrs T keep smiling at me.. lolx.. they so cute~!!! hehex..
after that went choir.. sectionals lahx.. my junior so naughty.. bully me de.. lolx.. but she is cute.. lolx.. hmm.. then until 12+ lo.. then went kallang mrt to change.. then heb psyco me go east coast with her.. lolx.. actually quite sianx lah.. coz wear jeans go mahx.. then in the end, she manage to psyco me lo.. so evil right?? lolx.. went with mummy, joceyln, senior ong, heb, jordan and heng yu.. went there just to eat gelare.. lolx..
then me and joceyln cycle the 2 people bike.. she super ke lian.. coz i so heavy, then she paddle paddle paddle, then i help so little.. super guilty sia.. >< then go all the way to sparxy there lo.. wahs~ so tired.. my muscle aching now.. wonder how is jocey.. lolx.. gonna go back old sitting arrangements!!! i must study hard.. i must.. i must.. haix.. but i scare..
anywayx, i had fun~! wootx~! my friends rox~!! lolx..
[u]: all i need to say is just sorry.. i hope it explain all.. i really hope so..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:37 PM
Friday, May 13, 2005
hmm.. haven been waking up at 3+ to study lo.. can go crazy.. next time cannot do last minute stuff ler.. abit regret lo.. today 4th and 3rd last paper.. then focus on chinese didn't care about maths.. super sad lo!!!! >< haix..
didn't do well for physics, feel i disappoint Mr G.. always disturb him.. always ask him to teach me de.. aiyo.. but then, when i see the paper, really wish to give up lo.. probably i did give up lahx.. so just write all the crap in.. >< geog too!! didn't understand a single thing.. all i wrote was CRAP!!! =S
hmmx.. next monday alot of classes don't have to come back.. and i need to go back school!!! sianx.. i want a break also cannot.. marking day still got interview, choir and obs briefing.. crazy!!! my 21 hours of sleep is gone.. haix.. i'm starting to feel sleepy again.. all my sleeping habits all change.. die liaox.. can become owl.. lolx..
you know that 9 p.m show.. the yifan go use the matchstick to burn his wrist right? pain lo!!!! but don't have immediate effect.. the show bluff people de.. hmptx.. but it is pain lahx.. shouldn't try.. will cry de.. only curious people can try.. lolx.. like me.. ^^ but at least no scar lo.. *phew*
[u]: don't know what i'm doing lo.. i feel that i've really gone crazy for you.. but this craziness have made me hurt you.. am i mean or what? tell me what to do.. tell me how to change.. tell me.. haix.. i'm crazy for you..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:35 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
i'm slacking~! omg.. think i've give up on my hopes of all the As and stuff lidat.. i'm starting to have that stupid heck care attitude.. just hate myself.. haix..
lessons were same as usual.. just staring into space waiting for all the answers to drop down from the sky.. whatever~! i jsut hate all my surprise QUIZ~! *argh* haix.. sitting in front is super pathetic.. i can't talk, i can't play, i can't vandalise my worksheets.. and all i can do is just to pretend to pay attention.. i don't even understand a single thing~!!
i laid on my bed the entire night.. just had 3 hours of sleep.. 10 to 1.. then i laid there thinking of my E maths formula.. hehex.. finally, i found the right formula to the pattern thingy.. hehex.. i didn't dare to sleep, coz i scare i'll forget my answer.. silly me.. ><
i'm so tired.. can't wait to just lie on my bed and sleep all i want.. may be i don't even wish to wake up.. i'm just waiting for the moment.. i'm waiting.. haix..[u]:i'm sorry to make you feel lidat.. but i really don't know what to do.. somehow, i really wish i know, but i don't.. i cried again.. i'm at my wit's end.. i'm waiting for you to guide me along again.. just like before.. but i realise that it is impossible.. when things changed, it is hard to be the way it was.. i'm lost.. and all i can say is just: i'm sorry..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:40 PM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
haix.. wad kind of life is this? i'm super bored.. >< hmmx.. wonder who can ever live his life like this?
[31o4]
today went to school for consultation lo.. but i ended up doing my work with seeking any help.. sick right? waste my 90 cent of transport.. lolx.. then i had a great talk with heblyn.. well.. at least i know there are friends like her to be there for me.. and i know that afterall i'm not the only one suffering.. haix.. why do our life have to have so many obstacles..
i went for my appointment with mum and mua maid.. stupid.. the procedure is quite pain lo.. eeewx.. >< after that went lucky plaza to buy my hair conditioner and went to far east to shop for my shoes.. lol.. then walk walk walk until taka.. mum went library, i went to the art and craft shops.. went to amuse myself with the toys that they are selling.. then went to look at the children in the art class.. they so cute.. one of the girl look like my snowy!!! so cute worx.. hehex.. feel like cuddling her.. =X
reach home 7+. then came online.. mish my joceyln lao gong.. hehex.. one day never talk to her will die de.. but everytime see her online, she always put busy.. =X aiyo.. sad lo..
[o1o5]
LABOUR DAY~!!! wootx.. everyone suppose to enjoy today mahx.. so of coz, mua entire family went shopping, except my sistah.. hmpt.. she make us go simei to fetch her lo.. then after that don't wanna go with us to Parkway.. she went out with her friends.. aiyo..
then we got NTUC "shop shop" lo.. hmmx.. then went to east coast there to buy dinner home.. reach home 6+.. i'm freaking bored.. just bought cross stitch to do.. make for him bahx.. shhhx.. =|
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:40 PM
