Saturday, January 29, 2005
lets start from yesterday.. hmmx.. *recalling*
[28o1o5]
everything were normal lahx.. only recess time, i was struggling to understand my stupid completeing the squares.. then in the end, yao yao mux teach me.. hahax.. so paiseh.. then i got E maths test and A maths test.. so cool hor? 2 maths on one day.. hahax..
after that got choir lo.. then sing until so shuang.. =^^= then break into groups lo.. everything end about 6.30.. then i so paiseh.. i make doggie wait for so long lehx.. about an hour lo.. -.-" then i went to meet him.. then ask him to carry my books.. hahax.. then me, doggie and seng yong walk to the bus stop lo.. then seng yong pangseh me.. he take bus 51.. but i got doggie.. hahax.. then met sheldon.. then we went up bus 26 lo.. then sheldon found a place, ask me to sit with him.. i dun wan.. then doggie go behind.. wanted to sit there de.. but so far behind.. so i sit with a lady.. then doggie move in front.. then wanted to sit with him, i lazy move.. hahax.. then i listen to my music and slept in the bus.. and that doggie say i pig!!! *argh* so mean.. hahax..
reach home, so tired.. then i watch tv lo.. next friday SYF audition ler.. die liaox.. ><
[29o1o5]
woken up by mum's hitting.. not hitting anyone though, she was hitting the dough.. making cookies mahx.. *yawn* when to 7-eleven to buy mua breakfast.. then i took a free fortune cookie and bought my sparkling juice.. then i read the paper inside the cookie.. you are the builder of ur future.. duh.. i know that.. so lame sia.. hahax.. then i tried to open my juice lo.. then open until my hand pain pain.. but i dun care.. so i force the thing open.. finally open ler!!! but the cap cut my finger.. -.-" then i started drinking.. think everyone tot i underage drinking lo.. but they didn' know i was drinking sparkling juice.. aiyoyo.. am i a gurl that looks as if i will drink??
then got home, did my work lo.. do until 3+, i went to sleep.. sleep until 4+.. hahax.. then mummy took us out to orchard.. i bought OP skirt.. ^^ so cool okay? hahax.. 25 bucks.. ^^ hehex.. then went to eat thai food.. very big serving okay? i'm so full now.. hahax.. so tired.. *yawn*
[u]: i realise i dun really know what u r thinking.. and i'm trying very hard.. sometimes, i feel helpless.. i can't be there for u when u r down.. and i'm always wishing i could do something for u.. but.. *sigh* but no matter wad.. i'm here for u..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:40 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
i think i'm crazy lo.. hahax.. i dunno in wad sense.. behavior and stuff lidat.. anywayx, i was trying to cut my wrist with the sharp edges of a file.. >< i dunno wad gave me that idea.. probably is the pain that i'm enjoying bahx.. hahax.. i find myself so sicko!! ><"
anywayx, i went for choir with a bad sore throat.. i force myself to reach the high notes.. but realise it was hard, coz i got block nose too.. -.-" so stupid!! hahax.. but anyway, choir rox.. hahax.. then stay back awhile to practice the CNY dance.. hahax.. i'm tired lo..
lessons were as usual, boring!!! hahax.. bio isn't interesting anymore.. i miss MR J!! hahax.. he rox!! he actually bought Joey a present.. and we, as his classmate, didn't even buy.. let me be sad on his behalf.. =P anywayx, Mr J makes bio interesting.. ^^ bio jux rox when he is around.. ^^ anywayx, Ms Q gave this crossword puzzle.. but before that she give us time to revise.. then i went toilet.. so never revise lo.. but somehow, when i'm doing the crossword puzzle, everything came to my mind.. so cool.. then i was the second to finish lehx.. so cool.. ^^ hahax..
doggie gonna send me home on days that he is free.. hahax.. coz we can walk home the same way and take the same transport.. so cool.. ^^ great friend.. ^^ he woke up 5.30 jux to prepare for school.. hahax..
haix.. i kinda find myself so idiotic.. i seems to be happy at one moment, and find myself hurting myself the next moment.. ><" haix.. i've given up..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:55 PM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
*rush rush rush* i was home late by 2 minutes.. >< mux try again tml.. -.-" haix.. lucky mummy never call home.. *phew* took my bath, then went for tuition.. didn't listen to her.. -.-" i was busy msging.. hahax.. then she got so fed up, she ask me to switch my phone off.. lolx.. use to it can ler.. hehex..
oh ya.. i didn't study my physics test and score 20 upon 22.. hahax.. tyco worx!! hehex.. think Mr G was shock bahx.. he keep staring at my papaer.. then he makes me think as if i got alot of mistake lidat.. ><" oh.. we got our physics TYS.. i dun think i'll do it lo.. sistah's red spot TYS is better and cheaper.. and they explain to u how they get the answer.. hmmx.. i got alot of TYS at home ler lehx.. -.-" i'm gonna do like crazy lo.. and my dearest cousin is scolding me for not doing the english TYS.. -.-" all the comprehensions are making me bonkers.. ><"
doggie msg me wor.. ^^ then he keep cheering me up lo.. cannot say cheer me up, coz i'm not sad.. erm.. wad u call that? hmmx.. wadever lahx.. then is like he always make me laugh lo.. hahax.. but first time see him so stress up with school work worx.. hahax.. but he is always happy.. ^^ hahax.. yao yao also msg me.. he was worried worx.. hahax.. coz i was walking home with nana.. then he keep calling me, i didn't even hear it.. then he tot i sad sad.. -.-" hahax..
today, bio lesson rox!! the chicken liver super cool.. put in that wadever-u-call solution, then got air bubbles.. then remind me of the finding nemo, that fish that likes bubble alot.. ^^ so cute.. hahax.. anyway, it was kinda gross lo.. i keep poking the liver into the test-tube.. then part of the liver tore.. ><" i'm innocent.. hahax.. Ms Q teach very fast lehx..i don't even understand a single thing.. all i hear is: ENZYMES.. and all i remember is: EMZYMES.. o.0
Sugar.Honey.Ice.Tea! the prefects' investiture is super waste of time lo.. they didn't even arrange everything properly.. and i wasted 2.5 hrs there lo.. sickening! *argh* that's the reason why i came home late.. hmmx..
i saw her again.. she sat next to me.. i didn't talk to her, neither did she talk to me.. it looks as if we are total strangers.. but i dunno.. probably either one of us changed.. guess it's me.. but if it was due to the change of character that made me lose a friend, i'll rather force myself to change back.. i really treasure the friendship, but somehow, things aren' the same.. *sigh* why mux the friendship be this way?
[u]: we seems to be playing hide and seek.. and i'm always the one that will be looking out for u.. wad am i to say? i jux dun wan to let u know that i'm watching u.. =)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:40 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
i shall be kind and good to u.. ^^ who ask u to be older than me.. hahax.. u owe me 15 whacks.. hahax..
happy burfday twinnie~!!!! u rOx~!!!
15 years old ler.. a year older, a year mature, a year smarter!!! hehex.. yapx.. u owe me 15 whackx, and i'll remember kae?? i'll give u on CNY!! ^^
happy burfday to u
happy burday to u
happy burfday to joshua twinine,
happy burday to u!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:24 PM
i'm starting to be irritated with everyone.. -.-" not becoz they irritate me.. but i dun get it why they say that i'm suffering from depression? >< i was studying my bio test this morning.. and i didn't understand wad i was reading.. and i was irritated.. and so "GREAT" my junior ask me if i was suffering for depression.. i was shock.. *argh* wadever.. then came recess, and eugene also ask if i'm suffering from depression.. and how "GREAT", my buddy ask the same thing.. -.-" hmmx.. am i suffering from depression? how am i to know.. *argh*
i'm lucky u know? all the MCQ question that i did last night from the TYS came out lehx!!! hahax.. super lucky.. later mux do physics der.. haha.. but i dun have the topical.. >< today got A math test.. i'm used to having test each week ler.. so if i fail, i won't even care about it.. probably jux try to make myself free for a retest.. but today's test was rather simple.. take note: RATHER.. yapx.. hopefully i'll get a 9 upon 10? hehex..
got home about 5+, my maid open the door and shouted at me.. =O wad did i do? i jux press the doorbell and waited outside only mahx.. then she shout at me and give me her angry look.. ><" wadever lahx.. hmptx.. i'm a super innocent party.. oh ya.. i was on my way home, when i saw this guy climbing the fence, near the construction site there.. now i know why the top part of the fence are not straight.. students always climb.. and that lower sec(coz he wore shorts), got caught by this black shirt aunty.. and got caught by me for tucking out his shirt.. and he stare at me!!! dotx.. okay.. i'm in no position to say him, coz i didn't have my badge on.. but who cares? =X i regretted being involve in PB!!! and everyday, i'm to reach home at 4, besides CCA days.. oh great.. i wonder if i'll be lock out of the house or not.. but i hide my keys in my bag, so that my parents will think my keys are home.. ^^ shhhx.. i dun wanna camp out of house k? with the space so limited.. about 1000 cm x 1000 cm only.. -.-"
*sigh* i'm tired and irritated!! i tried to be crazy and happy.. but it seems that there is still something bothering me.. and i'm yet to find out.. wad can i say? i'm not suffering from depression.. ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:10 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
weird.. who is Smile?? why flood mua tagboard?? so weird?? *scratch head* anyway, hihi.. ermx.. take care? enjoy ur visit here? ^^
can u believe it?! i actually study the entire morning without letting the thought of using the computer enter my mind.. ^^ i rox~!! hahax.. i was actually doing my E maths portfolio.. then i study my bio, for the test tml.. i did sistah TYS.. omg~!!! i dun really know wad i was doing.. but anyway.. i tried to do.. 60% correct.. hahax.. doing topical.. shall do that before every test.. ^^
went to kranji with my parents and my sistah.. slept on the way.. super hot worx.. next tym mux go there sun tan.. all i can conclude is: kranji is hotter than the east.. ><
went home about 4+, nearing 5 ler.. then i study again.. how boring life can be.. >< yapx.. i shouted at mum again.. i'm super irritated~!!! why mus she always say me? to her, everything is my fault.. *argh* when i'm clearing my stuff, she scold me for not studying.. and when i'm studying, she scold me for not clearing my stuff.. wad she wants me to do?! be an octopus?! i hate it lor.. especially when i have so many things to do, and there she is keep nagging at me..
I AM NOT A PERFECT PERSON AND I CAN NEVER BE ONE!!
can't they ever give me a break and let me do my own things at my own pace? i'm not someone who needs others to tell me wad to do.. i know wad i'm doing and wad i'm gonna do next.. can't they ever understand wad their children are undergoing?! with the number of tests they have each day and each week.. I CAN'T HELP HATING MY LIFE~!!
tried talking to my sister about life.. but i realise is hard communicating with her.. guess to all my family members, i'm a kid.. a gurl who knows nothing about life.. am i a kid? why can't they see me as an ordinary mature kid that is curious about everything? i dun get it..
i'm reading this book.. state of happiness it is something like a walk to remember.. wonder why there is nothing as everlasting relationships? why do people always pledge how much they love the other party and always breaking up in the end? i'm wondering why.. i jux can't help being curious.. *sigh* life is meant to be complicating bahx.. no matter how simple we want it to be, it will still turn out complicating.. why why why?! I WANT A SIMPLE LIFE!!
i'm giving up on my life soon.. i can't take it anymore..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:20 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
rex, jordan, seng yong, evelyn, jian cong, shu hui, lynette, joanna and jia wen came.. they came to practice the prefect's investiture performance.. ^^ rex rox! he help me with my maths and gave me revision~!! rex kor kor rox~!!! love him! hahax..
i'm trying very hard to focus on my studies.. but i realise that my mind is always wondering about.. *sigh* i'm giving up on myself soon.. >< hmmx.. do i sound as if i'm very down?? why yao yao thinks that i'm very sad and stress up? -.-" haix.. probably it is only these days.. i dunno who to turn too.. i'm jux too confuse.. and i'm only receiving the same advice.. *argh*
dammit.. headache again.. *argh* everyone is telling me that i've slim down.. and my family members are forcing me to eat when i dun have that appetite.. wad is the point of eating, when the food will eventually come out? haix.. stop feeding me.. i dun wanna eat.. i'm sick and tired of eating~!!! GIVE ME A BREAK~!!!
somehow, i feel like jux leaving this complicating world.. leaving all my worries and sadness behind.. haix.. life is jus so tiring.. when can i leave the world?? *sigh*
[u]: sometimes, i think i'm a burden to u.. sometimes, i feel i'm always bothering u.. tell me off if that is true.. i won't mind..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:45 PM
here i am sitting in front of the computer.. wondering wad is life all about.. but all i know is that i'm in the dark, still searching for the light..
i no longer know who am i.. and i'm searching for my answer.. i'm sorry to throw my temper on all of u.. i've lost my controls.. and all i can do is only to hate myself and say sorry.. but sometimes, we cannot turn back time. and we can't redo the things we have done..
i found myself crying in the morning.. i have no idea why the tears are flowing.. and all i know is that my heart seems to be pierce by a thousand needles.. everyone think i'm immature.. i'm not.. and neither am i mature.. never mind.. jux let it be.. i'm hating myself..
[u]: i dunno how to face u.. i dunno wad to tell u.. but all i wan u to know is that this part of my life, is a part that i'll never regret walking.. but one mus learn how to fall before she learns how to stand.. and i'm only at the beginning.. forgive me for doing this.. i'm learning how to stand up once again.. and i'm trying my best..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:25 AM
Friday, January 21, 2005
well well.. here i am again.. staring and the screen hoping to write all my thoughts down for the week.. but i'm in pain.. yapx.. in pain..
i dunno who really am i now.. no longer that gurl who ppl know.. that gurl who hardly get angry over stupid little stuff.. haix.. but here i am, throwing my anger on anyone who gets in my way.. throwing my temper on friends so close to be.. hitting buddies who are always there for me.. i'm in the wrong.. somehow, i wish there was a chance to tell them that i'm sorry for being so mad and throwing my temper at them.. sigh.. i jux can't changed back..
having mood swing these days.. practically everything in the PR have been thrown by me.. even book that didn't even belong to me.. *sigh* i'm starting to hate myself..
3rd year has jux began and i'm stressing myself with all my work.. blaming myself for not working hard to pass all my class tests.. who is it to be blame? me.. jux me alone.. no one is perfect, and i'm trying so hard to be one.. *argh* why are things going this way? haix.. i'm going to break down soon..
[u]: i'm sorry for not sparing a thought for ur feeling.. i dun wanna hurt u.. i dun wanna upset u.. but i've gone too far.. i'm afraid of losing u.. and i'm unable to look into ur eyes.. things aren't the same anymore.. it's getting out of hand.. i love u so, and i'm trying to keep u by my side.. but i guess i'll fail to do so.. please forgive me if anything happen.. i jux have to let go when the time is right..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:20 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
who are friends? what does friends means? wad is love? and wad does love means? she is wondering.. who really are her true friends? she jux can't stop thinking..
my eyes met hers.. she said nothing.. all she did was turned and walked away.. strangers, they are.. friends, we might be.. they are all, clueless to me.. will things still carry on lidat? all will they come to an end.. good friends they were once, but now she is left with one..
i lean against the wall.. sunk between my thoughts.. right in front of me was a huge black wall.. where am i? why am i here? i don't know.. i'm tired and sick, sad and confuse.. wad kind of life am i leading here? its getting on my nerve.. why mux i continue this road.. i wanna walk the road that brings be to my destination.. quick and fast, and i'll bid my goodbyes by then..
there he is, bringing the sunshine to my world.. i had no confidence, but chose to run away.. i'm sorry to do this, but i'm force to do.. forgive me and let it go.. but my heart is still with u.. and will forever be..
well.. that is me.. and it will be.. let it be, and i'll be free.. love [u]..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:55 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
here i am.. deep in thoughts.. wondering if the path i walked was the right choice or not.. and i came to realize that it was a total mistake.. haix..
there she is.. laughing and smiling.. and here i am, crying and weeping.. who am i to say her? who am i to be jealous of her? and who am i to envy her? i'm in no positions to say her, to be jealous of her or to envy her.. i'm no one, no body, nothing.. i'm jux invisible..
probably i'm wrong, probably i'm right.. i dunno.. i'm wondering why.. wondering why things turn out this way.. the way i wished it will never happened.. but it happened..
and here i am again.. i'm all alone.. all alone in the dark.. searching, crying, finding, weeping.. i'm trying all ways to find the light.. but sad to say, i've lost my sense of direction.. where is that hand? where is that sunshine? guess they are gone.. before i ever realise..
i found u out there, i lost u again.. and i found u again.. but then i realise, it was all illusion.. i'm dreaming.. a dream that will never happened.. i'm wishing.. wishing upon a star for ur return.. i dunno why i'm afraid to lose u.. afraid to be alone again.. i'm hiding in the corner.. wishing u'll never realise i've been crying for u to return and dreaming that we'll live in our paradise.. i'm a failure..
thats all for the day.. i'm leaving my memories behind.. i'm leaving my footprints on their hearts.. i'll let them noe that i'm the gurl who treasures them as much as i treasure my own life.. but i guess, wad is meant to let go, we'll jux have to let it go..
shall she bid her good-byes to her memories? leaving them all a mystery? she is wondering..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:25 PM
Verse 1
And I
Never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try to feel the way we do today
And than if you can't remember.....
Chorus
Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for
In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Verse 2
Well you came and open me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you....
Ohhh and then
For the times when we're apart
Well just close your eyes and know
These words are comming from my heart
And then if you can't remember....Ohhhhh
(Repeat chorus 3x)
this song rox~! love it~!!!! may friends always last forever~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:35 AM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
i feel that i no longer belong to this world.. i'm a stranger to everyone and everything.. no longer use to be that gurl who goes to school and laugh with her friends.. but jux a gurl who sits at one corner watching people laugh.. who am i? a gurl who wish to find her true friends and friends that she hopes they'll be there for her..
was walking with my family along bugis.. used to go there with my friends.. but things changed.. i'm there and seen with my family.. yeahx.. not only do people changed as time flies, a place changes too.. and bugis was a great example.. it changed.. i'm not surprise.. i found myself losing my sense of direction.. finding myself following others instead of having a mind of my own.. and now.. i'm regretting it all..
i choose to ignore advices.. i choose my path.. and i'm seriously regretting it all.. i dunno why.. probably i should be grateful that i'm able to pass my EOY and end up in the first class, even though i was so involved in PB.. and i'll learnt.. i'll learnt to but studies before it.. i'll learnt for my mistakes.. i'll learn to walk the right path again..
*sigh*
i'm stuck with my studies.. the works are starting to pile up.. and here i am still slacking.. guess i haven't put much effort in.. seriousness-out of my list.. *sigh* i'm confused, sad, disappointed.. i dunno.. i'm having mood swing.. guess life isn't that smooth afterall..
there she is.. enjoy her life, enjoy each of her friends companion.. and here i am.. watching her, envy her, wishing to be her.. but will i be able to bear the consequences like her? guess not.. i'll go bonkers and break down.. guess being her will not work out..
dunno wad is wrong with me.. i'm jux so bored with my life.. tired of my life.. sick of my life.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:20 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
about 1 week never update ler.. so come and update lo.. 5 days of mua sec 3 life.. ><
[mon]
lessons quite sianx lo.. suppose to go bio lab der.. but then the bio lab painting, so we never go.. then on our way back class, jia yunx and evenly they all say pink sux.. -.-" pink rox lo.. hahax.. ^^ then lessons end at 2.25.. dunno wad i do until go home so late.. hahax..
[tues]
today manage to to the bio lab.. got to see the microscopes~!!! saw our hair cell.. so cute manx~!!! hahax.. but so farnie lo.. hahax.. then i keep disturbing JZ today.. so sad lahx.. but never mind.. hahax.. ^^ nothing much happen lo..
[wed]
got assembly today.. then so sianx lo.. nothing much.. entire thingy change lahx.. wonder why all the arrangement all change.. super sad lo.. hahax.. went for choir at 3.. about 5.30 can go ler.. then later was down for the chinese new year thingy.. manage to get out due to 3 test the next day.. >< got home about 7 ler lo.. got scolding from mum for staying until so late.. *saddening*
[thurs]
great.. it didn't start well in the morning.. but yeah, jux forget about it.. thursday means another day of long hours in school.. so shitty~ anywayx, early in the morning, gave LH kor kor his present.. last minute prepare de hor.. coz went home late the day before mahx.. then abit ugly lahx.. but.. hahax.. then lunch time, of coz have lunch lahx.. duh.. but got tummy pain.. then pain until i tried to sleep in the PR.. shitty lo.. at first okay ler.. but then lehx, toh wee go hit my head.. then i shout at him.. =X not on purpose der.. then after awhile, okay ler.. hahax.. then go rush back to classroom.. went home about 6+..
[fri]
choir rox today manx~! school as usual.. but choir was fun.. coz got new members mahx.. then we play games.. hahax.. go crazy ler.. jordan so ke lian.. he kana sabo so many times.. ^^ then was looking at yuker from upstairs.. then i keep disturbing him, until he kana never hear wad his senior say.. lolx.. then so farnie lo.. hahax.. anyway, choir end at 6.30.. then go home lo.. went home with rainer and jia wen.. then met terence's sister on the way.. then talk to her.. she very cute lo.. hahax.. so farnie.. lolx.. then lidat lahx.. hahax.. reach home 7 again.. haix.. i failed my physics test.. haix.. and gonna fail my A maths test.. so great! hahax.. >< i siao liaox..
[u]: thanx for always being there for me.. and i'm wishing that this moment won't end.. it is an ending, i'm not looking forward too.. ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:20 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
heart has its reasons, which reasons itself cannot explain.
well.. jux finish this touching story? about this gurl and guy had no dates, while all the others had their dates.. so they decided to date each other for 100 days.. and everyday were the happiest moments in their life.. they treasure every minute.. one day, they went up to the mountain and saw liu xin.. then the gurl wished for something.. on the last day.. the guy went to buy a drink.. 20 minutes before the 100 days was up, the guy met and accident.. they rushed to the hospital and the doctor was unable to save him.. his heart was still beating, but anytime, God would take him away from her.. the doctor hand her a letter that was found in his pocket.. he wished he could be her boyfriend forever and to be by her side forever.. and he loves her.. she loves him too.. and she wished he would be there for her too.. but 12 midnight.. he past away and left her forever..
wonder if this story is true.. sometimes, we leave without letting the other party know wad are we exactly thinking.. hmmx.. hahax.. well.. today is another boring day.. =X nothing to do mahx..
came online, then i went to do homework.. tried to revise.. but i still dun understand a single thing.. *sigh* stress ler lo.. haix. haix. haix.. oh ya.. i did a daily calendar u know? so cute.. tatty bear der.. hahax.. ^^ so cute.. hahax..
tml going out for dinner.. coz granny's burfday.. hahax.. burfday after burfday.. mine still long way more worx.. 02022005 is our prefect investiture.. sianx.. every tueday and thursday i mux stay back.. ='( sianx.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:40 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
life so boring these days.. wake up, sleep, study, watch tv and come online.. so sianx lo.. haix.. still so tired.. 1st week of school already so tired.. wad more about the rest of the days?
today go chem lab lo.. do some practicals.. then went to hcl.. all of us eat sweet during lesson.. the teacher dun mind lehx~! cool right? some more we in air-con room.. rox man~! hahax.. but got project to do.. super sianx lo.. wan me read chinese history.. will die manx.. dun even know cong zi, cheng zi and so on la.. so stupid lo.. ><
then recess super idiotic lo.. hahax.. but first let me say.. i go walk walk lo.. went to pei rex do duty.. he super cute lehx.. see him blur blur but cute cute.. hahax.. then went back prefect room.. then i ask benjamin why he see me always dun wan talk to me.. then he say i SHORT~!!! then the rest all tease me.. even my good buddy lo.. hmpt~! from recess till after schoo lehx.. super sad..
Mrs lim's lesson so boring.. i nearly fall asleep.. coz of the fan too mahx.. then super cold.. *brr* sianx manx.. lessons end 2.25.. one of the only classes left in the second level.. sux manx.. hahax.. SS so boring.. hahax..
choir wasn't that bad.. jux too tired lo.. dunno why all CCAs end so late.. haix.. so sleepy.. saw tohwee.. then shock him from the back.. hahax.. >< then slack lo.. kor was waiting for me.. then wanted to go to him de.. then that seng yong keep shouting i gonna meet a guy.. ><" then in the end, went back with zong.. yao go home, he go tuition.. then reach kembangan, he ask wether wan send me to the door step.. i say i not a baby lo.. hahax..
so here i am.. updating my blog on another tiring and boring day.. *sigh* ah gui de lesson not so interesting ler.. mr johari de lesson quite nice lahx.. but all wanna make me sleep.. sux.. i can't concentrate this year lo.. >< how? haix.. gonna be nerd again lahx.. *yawn*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:53 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
feel like hugging [u] to the end of time..
went to school lo.. finally daddy fetch me to school.. so can take my time.. hehex.. ^^ went school, go canteen slack lo.. thought can see.. hmmx.. nothing.. hahax.. then i went to do duty with rainer lo.. slack until can go mad.. hahax.. but yeah, before flag raising, my hips there very pain.. weird weird de.. *scratch head* hahax..
went back class.. guess wad.. CME lessons so relax.. Mr Johari was saying all the burfdays.. then he missed mine and wang boon de.. so mean.. dun like me tell me mahx.. hahax.. =P so we got all our class burfday.. joey is the oldest.. hahax.. we shall respect him.. ^^ hehex.. bio lessons is all about cell.. so there is this and that, that and this.. all sorts of farnie names came out.. and i was blured.. so many weird weird names.. some i know,duh.. hahax..
P.E run 3 rounds.. great.. hahax.. every year lidat.. sec one, 1 round, sec 2, 2 rounds.. sec 3, 3 rounds.. damn.. if next year Ms Foo be my P.E teacher, mux run 4 rounds ler.. hahax.. but she rox.. she kinda farnie.. hehex.. ^^ then went for recess lo.. yapx.. i skip recess.. i dun feel like eating lo.. so jux drink.. then some stupid explosive stuff *bang*.. scared me lehx~!!! i was so shocked.. and my heart skip one beat.. >< so scary.. haix..
A maths super luan lo.. but i can cope lahx.. still holding on the rope up in the air.. hahax.. then after that is chem.. chem so sianx lahx.. but not bad lahx.. hahax.. then leonard ask miss tay, asked until she so..... nothing to say.. hahax.. then she can't believe we are 3E.. >< hahax.. Mr Gui lesson not bad too lo.. my tummy too pain until cannot concentrate.. sianx.. 2.25 lessons end..
went canteen.. dun feel like eating de.. but then my tummy super cannot take it, so i force myself to eat lo.. hahax.. then rushed back to class lo.. my handphone is on.. hahax.. ^^ not bad lahx.. but no one msg me lehx.. hahax.. Mdm wee's lesson now.. so we went to lab 4 to watch the tsunami.. but then dunno why no video.. hahax.. mdm wee seems to know me only lehx.. hahax.. -.-"
after that went to prefect meeting.. sianx.. end at 4.30+ lo.. so sick.. i'm so freaking tired.. haix.. i wanna orh orh..but mux revise later.. so that i know wad the teacher will teach tml.. -.-" so tired.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:02 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
*ouch* having gastric.. >< haven't been having proper meal.. but, never mind.. i'll eat tml.. i'll eat.. i mean, i'll force myself to eat.. hahax..
today rain heavily lo.. but dun care lahx.. went to the hall.. so cold lehx.. hahax.. then got some annoucements.. then went back classrooms.. my form teacher never teach CME lo.. then went straight to bio.. bio rawks manx.. hahax.. i'm aiming for 5 top position in BIO mid year.. can go New York lo.. super cool hor? then he bringing us to dive and see the coral reefs.. ^^ then get to go to NUS to do some project.. hahax.. bio rawks manx..
English is mua ex CCA's teacher in-charge.. then she tot my english very good lo.. >< OMG! hahax.. anywayx, this is another teacher that say the class super quiet.. >< hahax.. tried to be noisy.. but we are noisy only when teacher not around?? hahax.. Geo rather boring too.. keep falling a sleep.. >< aiyoyox.. but never mind.. geo rawks too.. i'll try to like it lahx.. hahax.. wu lao shi never come.. so no chinese.. then lidat lo..
2nd time NewP came lahx.. scold us for sleeping.. OldP never even say when we sleep lo.. chaox.. she reminds me of my primary school P.. hahax.. so farnie.. but, can't deny, she is one good P.. hahax.. she change many school rules.. lol.. ^^
choir super tiring.. me and silver(tt's wad they call him) help to move that white board lo.. then carry up the the next step, both of us carry the bottom, then the top too heavy ler.. so it fall lo.. then i tried to catch it.. it hit my hand, and hit silver's leg.. pain sia.. then the others help lo.. >< now got one red line.. free temporary tattoo.. hahax.. coolx..
6+ end lo.. but nice la.. angry with boi boi jux now.. sorry lahx.. no mood to talk.. coz i very tired and super no mood.. *argh* went home alone lo.. mua tummy super pain some more.. then feel like vomitting and fainting.. lucky manage to reach home first.. then super pain lo.. but never mind.. =S
no homework today.. mux revise my notes.. haix.. if Mr Naufal never go, he'll be my form teacher lehx.. but he went.. haix.. so sad.. Mr Johari dun wan anyone's name to be in the attire and grooming file.. worst, he dun wan any teacher to catch us and complain to him.. he got high expectation for us.. and he thinks we are ANGELS.. cool.. hahax.. can't take it.. mux go sleep..
i dunno why i feel i'm disturbing [u].. but i jux can't help looking out for [u].. this will be the last chance [u] give me.. and i'll make it another happy part of my life.. love [u] always..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:35 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
great.. i'm forcing my eyes open to write this entry.. super tired.. but no choice, feel like updating.. hahax.. =P
school bag heavier than before.. sistah bluff me sia.. say upper sec, bag super light de.. >< is heavier lo.. my back pain liaox.. 2 months never carry so heavy lo.. hahax.. anyway, ICC List duty dun have to do until next week.. so went back to class lo.. then Mr Johari keep asking me about prefect stuff.. can't blame them for not always being in class.. they are EXCO.. hahax.. cool? quite lahx.. hahax.. oh.. he keep stressing to bring the edusave form.. and in the end, he never collect.. =S omg.. hahax..
lessons begin.. i'm so freaking bored.. Mr Fahmy brought us out of class.. which was great! dun feel that sleepy any more.. coz i see alot of friends in the new block.. hahax.. ^^ then recess time lo.. walked pass Ms Ong's class.. she thought i run out of class.. wad is worst? she think i am still lower sec~!! >< so sad.. hahax.. never mind.. recess time, mei you ren pei wo.. so get mua hao buddy to accompany me lo.. he so good.. keep pei-ing me.. hahax.. so not so bored ler.. recess rox~ hardly find any of my ex classmates lo..
after recess, lessons again.. bio no lesson.. coz only left 13 of them in class.. i went for choir thingy.. help out lo.. CHOIR RAWKX~!! hahax.. got one fatty jux can't shut his mouth.. hui ting, they all keep clapping and waving their hands.. he keep saying their crazy.. worst is that he can't even keep still and the chair he sit nearly break.. >< feel like shutting him up.. =S sound so cruel sia.. hahax..
3.30 end, went to buy drink.. i skip recess and lunch, a little gastric, but never mind.. then aunty give me a drink.. i wanted to pay, but E.N.E.N help me pay ler.. hahax.. he super sweet.. ^^ i never ask him to treat me, he treat me.. hehex.. ^^ love u E.N.E.N.. hahax.. =P friends forever.. ^^
came back home.. couldn't buy Geo text.. gonna borrow lo.. no choice.. hahax.. i'm super tired.. i'll end here.. ^^ have a nice school day.. love ya peepx~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:57 AM
Monday, January 03, 2005
sianx.. woke up later than usual.. rushed jie to the toilet.. and she take her own sweet time.. >< rushed to the taxi stand with mummy.. then took taxi lo.. alight at the junction, while mum heads off to work.. then i walked to school, reached school 0709.. nearly late.. reached school, every one like quite farmiliar, you like like not farmiliar lidat.. hahax.. went prefect room first, then head to the buddhist hall.. everyone squeeze like crazy.. >< super sianx lor.. then i hang out with mua friends.. then the buddhist hall finally open, we all stroll in to find our class.. i got asked to settle ppl down. not my duty worx.. ='( abuse fellow prefect~! hahax.. kae kae.. never mind.. i slack too mahx.. hahax.. skip mua duty to go to the buddhist hall.. everyone all go ler, only my class left.. the the bio teacher came.. hahax..
enter the class, he keep asking us to stand and sit, sit and stand.. gurls or guys, to greet him.. -.-'| diaox.. hahax.. but quite fun and cool.. MR JOHARI RAWKX~!! lolx.. then he arrange us to sit according to index.. super boring worx.. cannot mix with the guys? hahax.. the guys also very quiet.. hahax.. then he came out with many jokes lo.. my class super nice.. 2 Valeries and 3 Jocelyns.. hahax.. so cool~!! hahax.. then he very blur.. hahax.. ^^ know most of our teacher.. coz we got our time table.. and how great? i got choosen to be an EL rep~! S.H.I.T~! i like not fail my english.. and i like not suay to be choosen to be rep.. >< i rather be treasurer.. hahax.. ^^
miss tay very farnie.. but yeah.. our class super quiet.. then she say she cannot hear her own echo.. all the teachers say they like talking to the wall lidat.. -.-'| so diaox.. hahax.. Mr Gui's lesson will rox~! wootx.. love his lesson.. hahax.. Mr Gui u rawkx~ but yeah.. he will dote the sec 4s more.. confirm.. jux like last year.. hahax.. out of 365 days, 265 days he will be talking about his sec 4s.. hahax..
lessons end at 2.45.. like bu sad? same time as the sec 4s? aiyoyox.. thursday more shuang.. 4.10.. and after that still have to stay back for rehearsal for investiture.. i wanna kill myself ler.. haix.. but i'll try my best to do it.. mux prove to my parents that wad my sis can do, i can do.. hahax.. ^^
[u]: i'm wondering and wondering.. but i can't deny that my love for [u] is true and is deep.. but all i wanna let [u] know is that no matter wad, i'm here for [u].. either as a friend, sistah or some one special.. love [u]..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:45 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
metoyou
a very special new year
wootx.. left the house nearly 10 p.m.. then went to cineleisure.. only 10.30 mahx.. so mummy suggested to go eat lo.. then went to mummum.. had famous five.. nice nice 5 scoops of ice cream.. ^^ hahax.. so cool.. all of us were msging.. hahax.. and i'm glad that sms weren't lagging.. hahax..
11+, went down to the tent lo.. the breakdance were not so bad.. and the atmosphere rox~! hahax.. everyone were screaming, spraying and smoking.. 3s.. hahax.. then my cousin manage to find us.. which was cool.. hahax.. then happily, we count down to new year..
5... 4... 3... 2... 1...
HAPPY NEW YEAR.. and i jumped.. hahax.. ^^ i'm so determined to grow taller.. not forgetting thinner.. hahax.. i'm going on diet.. ^^ wootx.. kae.. then we had 1 minute of silence for the people who died in the tsunamis.. *respect* then all of us rushed for the train.. hahax.. so cool..all of them weren't msging le.. couldn't send out mahx.. but lucky for me, i get to send out all my msg.. hahax.. so happy~!! ^^ reached home about 12.30.. then we bathe and watch tv.. cousin stayed over.. which is cool.. hahax.. slept at 2 this morning.. *yawn*
woke up 9+ to do my homework.. and i'm not done with them.. sharkx.. hahax.. never mind.. i'll rushed tonight.. i've to rushed my report for the notice board.. *argh* first day of school, already need to stay back.. super sad.. >< but never mind lahx.. leave it lo.. hahax.. for the sake of mua points.. i'm rather straightforward mahx.. hahax.. but coolx.. ^^
sean msg me.. my cute little younger brother's class will be next to me.. hahax.. and 4F will be the only class same level as the sec 3s.. so me, soo min and cailng can go back class together after duty this year.. rox on~! hahax.. so qiao.. all 3 choir members together.. hahax.. ^^ JC do the duty thingy.. hahax..
kae.. i'm slacking now.. dinner is ready anytime.. and i'm so freaking sleepy.. >< i wan to ORH ORH~!! monday school reopen.. so tired.. i'm so lazy to go school.. *yawn* i wanna go to bed.. haix.. never mind..
i dunno wad [u] are exactly thinking.. and i really wanna know.. i dun wanna be a fool to wait for another miracle to happen.. it might not happen anymore.. please let me know.. please.. love [u] lotx..
from [u] to me
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:10 PM
