Sunday, July 30, 2006
cute picture yeah? see that smile? i really wish i could be like her once again. nothing bothering her and always so happy. oh. anyway, that's me when i'm young! ^^
oh well. woke up really early. about 7+.. went with dad and sis to pay his mum a visit. yaps. i brought a book along so i can read. call me anti-social if you want to. i just can't help it. hook on to the book. and i'll be bored to death if i don't do anything. they talk a weird language and they just don't speak my language. except for some of them. lols.
sis drove us to cold storage to get ingredients for dinner and to buy lunch. went home, had early lunch and started burying my head into the book. oh well. finish the book about 1.30. answered prayers- danielle steel
this book is about Faith. she's married to Alex with 2 daughters. alex didn't really care much about her. she was like his wife in name only. and he keeps putting her down in front of her daughters. so anyway, she went to her stepfather's funeral and met her childhood friend, who was her brother's best friend,brad. they caught up with each other and started e-mailing each other. faith used to have a crush on him. anyway, he treats her like his sister and always protect her, just the way her brother would do to her. faith wanted to return back to law school, but alex didn't support the idea, unlike brad. in the end, she decided to go back to school. and it made her family fall apart. it wasn't exactly her fault. alex had another girl. so anyway, the story ended with faith being with brad. =)
it's sweet to see how true love will last. i was cursing alex while reading the story. he treated her like shit and still blame her for causing the family to fall apart when it was his fault! jerk! worse! he controlled her life. but it's great to see that she was able to achieve her dream. sweet.
studied a little from 2+ to 5+. picked up another book and started reading. it's weird why our lives can't be as perfect as the characters in novels. well. i really don't mind if my life is like faith in this book. or like the girl in the book the gift.
i was searching for something in the late afternoon. i was quite disappointed when my effort gone down the drain. yes. i threw it yesterday. it's not something very important. but it's something that held the memories i once had. and it was the only way i can keep that memory. sad to say, i threw it away.
i'm sick and tired of living in a world of clues. i hate guessing. i just want the answers to everything. right now!
i'm wondering. what am i to you?
i wish all the couples i know, all the best. treasure each other and believe that it will last. it will, eventually.
it's great to see all the people around me happy. finally i see smiles every where! =)
done blogging.
-the tears i shed, is for a reason. i want you so badly. that much. i wanna see you soon.-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:33 PM
Saturday, July 29, 2006
[friday]
lessons are kind of boring. oh well. had scoldings by our el teacher. it made some of us really sad. i'm quite affected by it. but.. i don't know. lols. went for vocab classes. i kinda like the teacher. in fact she is better than all the el teachers in our school! love her! hahas. she makes the lesson interesting. ^^ went home after that. slack for quite awhile, then i made my way to marine parade library. i'm hook on to this book. it is interesting. the book actually tells us that we have all the right in the world to pursue what we dream for. i totally agree. went for tuition after that.
[saturday]
my day off! hahas. i woke up about 10+. spend my entire day clearing my cupboards. some things just got to go. in fact, the memories just have to be packed up. oh well. came across many things. like letters that were given to me from friends. gifts that were given to me from some of my friends. came across my baby photos!! ahh!! so cute. lol. saw many pictures. and many things. it's like i'm trying to recall every single thing that happened in my life. like this guy who i'm close with in P5 and P6. and many people hope to see us together. unfortunately, i told him i'm not his type. he's is handsome and many girls like him. well, just not me. lols. and my form teacher's son. have been seeing him many times this month. but just didn't have the time to talk to him. hahas. anyway, they are all memories. and i'm just trying to let them go. it's time they ought to go. ><
was called to go out for dinner. met eve and some other friends. went to marina bay for steamboat. i'm really outdated. or probably i don't like eating steamboat. lols. anyway. had really great time. cause my eve is there!! hahas. i love her lots. went home really late. amaze that mum didn't nag at me. she told me it's my last time going out. yeah! really last time. hahas.
i'm so in love with the book! everyone has the right to pursue what they really want in their life. no one can stop them, not even their love ones. and true enough. i swear i'm not going to let my love one interfer with my life. accept me for who i am. well, you can change me for the better. just don't change me to suit your life. or ask me to do what i never like doing. =x
101 days to Os. what i'm doing?
done blogging.
-so much for those memories-``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:21 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
i guess this is life.
[wednesday]
lessons are boring. oh. not to mention the demerit points system. HELLO! if our school is good, attire is not a big deal. even by having this demerit points system, students will only put on their good side when there is a strict teacher. some won't even care. then what's the point of this entire system. -.-" oh. i nearly got a demerit point. for having my P.E shirt tucked out. first from my form teacher and second from principal.
P.E was fun. didn't have any skill work thingy. so we played games. girls played soccer. well, not all of us la. my team consist of wb, qy, imm, jy and me. the other team consist of mae, sh, yl, crystal, auntie, fish, jocey chua. so anyway, the game was lame. i scored 3. hahas. so cool right?! hahas.
assembly was boring. the teacher just tempt me to go for the overseas CIP when i can't go. cause i'm graduating! stupid right? and he spent the entire 35 minutes telling how fun it is to go. when all sec 4s and 5s can't go.
after assembly, me, mae, silin, sh went to suntec. while waiting for the shuttle bus, saw this really cute guy. he is thin, tall, cute. lols. oh well. went to buy durian pudding for mummy. after that, i went home and put my stuff down and went to visit mum.
[thursday]
4 tests in a day and 1 australian maths competition. you know how boring it is?! but at least time pass quickly. ^^ a maths teacher print the calendar for the up coming tests and exams. i'm counting down!! but no point when i'm not making any efforts. i'm tired. ><
oh. i really miss being a prefect. hahas. get to skip lessons, get to learn many things and go for many camps. i want camps!! >< i remember the time when i was in charge of the teachers' day backdrop. i got many prefects and ex seniors involve. even pulled my classmates, non prefects, down. hahas. practically stayed back to 6+ every day. had fun back then. and when i was doing the LRC list. cool! hahas. i miss cailng. been a long time since i last saw her. PREFECTORIAL BOARD ROCKS!
feeling sick these days. having slight sore throat, back ache and sleepless nights. felt so terrible last night. i woke up at 2+, 4+ and 5+. went to school looking like a zombie! ><
hmms. if something is yours, it will always be. even if you let it go, it will still come back to you. but if it isn't. no matter how much you are trying to keep it, it will leave you one day. and till this day. i'm still searching for what belongs to me.
i miss you.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:00 PM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
wasn't a bad day afterall. =)
morning was bio. learn the parts of male and female. wonder why male's part have to be so complicating. unlike females. now it makes my job tougher to remember what is what. lols. oh well. then there was el. had a comprehension test. i'm not really expecting high marks. but i'll be expecting a good scolding from the teacher. the same old thing. lols.
after recess, we had a maths. quite slack today. so there wasn't much teaching going. yk was boring enough to even msg me. funny guy. he is just sitting in front of me and msg me to give him sweet. and glenn. call me for fun. -.-" oh well. physics was kinda boring. but i manage to stay awake! how proud am i. mum msg me and told me she can't discharge today. i wonder how is she. she don't allow me to visit her. hmms. well, you msg me too. i'm shocked! =x SS period, i felt like sleeping. but didn't. she was talking about last year's chapter. i was so happy to remember what i learnt! lols.
lunch break, the guys showed us the golden lizard. we were like screaming la. lols. i don't mind touching and holding a dead lizard. but alive and still kicking, just keep it away from me! ><
had bio test after school. didn't revise it last night, but i still manage to pass, so far. lols. then went home.
17 days to block test. 36 days to prelims and 104 days to Os. how time flies. in a blink of an eye, i bet my Os will be over. soon. soon. by then i'll be hanging out down town everyday. probably i'll get a job? or maybe i'll just be at home. lols. book me after my Os k? oh!!! christmas countdown. anyone?! lols. ok ok. let me study first. lols.
oh well. i'm trying hard to concentrate. yaps. trying very hard. ><
done blogging.
-my life is yours alone-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:35 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006
i'm really tired. all i wanna do now is just to sleep.
woke up late, but manage to get to school before the bell rang. did the same old routine. went to the prefects room. crap. assemble. go back class.
watched march of the penguine for chinese. quite lame. our class and the sec 2 classes of 2005 watched it. so we weren't really amused by many stuff. while the other classes went WOW, OOO, OMG! and stuff. quite boring.
physics lessons was fine, manage to keep awake. then suppose to have P.E. but our teacher didn't come and most of us didn't dare to rebel the relief teacher. so we stayed in class. recess time, i ate alot. many of my friends were surprised and happy for me. they were like: FINALLY EATTING AR?. -.-"
lessons after recess is really terrible. i had a hard time keeping awake. >< oh well. even if i'm awake, my mind is shut off. wasn't in the mood to listen or to even pay attention. then had lunch break. i ate even more. all my friends think i'm crazy. lol. silin thought i'm either too happy, or too sad, that's why eat so much. lol. i'm not la. just have lots of cravings today. =x
chem extra remedial worse! the room was so stuffy and i'm so sleepy. don't even know what the teacher was talking about. sians.
rush home, took my bath and left for the hospital. mum looks fine. only that she seems weak. lols. kor say he wanted to accompany me. like real. hahas. i don't believe. but i'm not sure if he really meant it la. =x
oh well. suppose to study for bio. stupid studying mood ran away! >< i wish i'm in sec 3. i still have time to slack. now? 2 weeks to block test, 1 month to prelims, 105 days to Os. and what i'm doing? still slacking, still playing and not studying. what the heck. i really wanna know what's going on! shucks~
ok. i'm sleepy. very sleepy. sigh.
i'll try to concentrate. DREAMS!!
what the fuck~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:39 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
spent my day quite well.. probably because i know what i wanted to do. but still had some time to slack.
went out for lunch. sis's driving wasn't that bad la. only that she make me scared. like as though anytime, there will be an accident. lols. anyway, had hor fan for lunch. it's nice. but i couldn't finish. then i went to buy new comb and oil blotter.
came home, carry on with my revision. all of a sudden, i just can't concentrate. but i had to force myself. yaps. i just had to.
let me post some pictures.
[school anniversary]
that's ah boi, jalat kor and me! they are good guys! any one wants? =x
puay, potato, boon and me at the bottom!
omg! all award winners, except me. ='(
my maths pro kor! i love my kor!
sy,eve,mins,me,jc! i so love them!! they make me love PB alot!! oh. got to know sy and jc during mawai camp. sy was my leader, and jc helped me carry my water bottle during hiking.. =P
eve,ah fat, me!! ah fat is so cute!
san and tong so cute!! mae and me took when they aren't aware. how pro can we be?
mae and me. that's the babe. and the super tall girl! lols.
puay, san, me, mae, silin, jashi. they are all chio bu.. except me.. =P any one wants them? hahas..
[crystal's outing]
she kissed me! omg! lols. i scare her stead beat me. hahas.
san,yl,me,eve,crystal,auntie and sh at the bottom.
this durian pudding... ROCKS LAH!! die die also must try.
xl, me, jordan dear! lols.
tong, ah fat, crystal, yl, glenn, sh,xl, jordan,me,leonad. still got more.
but not in the pic.
my sexy puay. ^^
mummy say ah fat very cute. eve become prettier and jordan become more shuai. lols. funny.
oh well. i'm trying to be happy. today? special day. you think so? i guess it really doesn't seems to matter anymore. who cares if i'm hurt?! who cares if i'm crying?! who cares if i'm missing you?! you don't even seems to care. i miss you. i really do.
done blogging.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:39 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
today is a wonderful day. but somehow, something is missing. hmms..
woke up 10+. then slack here and there, wait for the time to struck 1.30.. i started to prepare to go out! wohoo!! my last day to havoc. sigh.
met crystal at 2.15. then went to city hall to meet the rest. met jordan, eve, san, sh, glenn and yl. took quite alot of picture with all of them. sh kiss me!! hahas. she took picture of it. hahas. then took the shuttle bus all the way to tower 4. crap quite alot in the bus. everytime, when i'm with eve, i'll just go crazy. lols. i love her! woots.
then they went to the arcade to meet leonad. sh and jordan were dancing, the rest of us were walking around. me and eve were eyeing on the sweets. =x so anyway, we manage to get some sweets and were smiling like kids. =D so, we stood outside the arcade and waited for auntie and ah fat to come. when they arrive, we went the the basement to sit down lo.
we took even more pictures while waiting for xl and silin. lols. i realise that my photo taking skills have improve trememdously! woots. which means i'm more vain and more zi lian. lols. after that, we talk around the whole suntec. decided to head for marche for dinner, but then we decided not to. so we stood outside marche and wait for mae. TOOK EVEN MORE PICTURES! =x oh oh!! the durian pudding in carrefour is nice!! i love it!! heavenly food!! MY GOD!! oh. the bubble tea is awful. lols. it's huge and too sweet. my sweet tooth can't take it. ><
when mae came, we went for dinner. decided to go surf and turf. after awhile, we decided not to, and settle down in N.Y.D.C for dinner. dinner was crap. i had baked cowa-danga(something like that). it's beef and had a thick layer of cheese.. wow! MAMA LIKES. lols. so anyway, i was eating the cheese. and the melted cheese just don't like me la! i keep eating, like string like that.. everyone started taking pictures la. i looked like some stupid idiot! >< went out to meet puay and brought her in.. took photo with her!! lols. she is sweet. =x
after dinner, xl and ah fat went to collect the cake. then i brought crystal to the toilet. so that when we are back, it'll be just in time to surprise her. lols. and she is surprised! lols. after dinner, walk to esplanade. me and eve did a crazy thing. we jay-run across the round-about. lols. so many cars. ah fat wanted to, then he got honked. sadded. lols.
by the time we reach esplanade, me and crystal got to go. so in the end, me, eve, leonad, san, silin, xl went off first.
really had a fun day with them. although many things happen today, but i guess everyone's day ended off quite nicely. happy, i hope.
P.S: i'll upload the pic soon. i'm tired. ><
it's not fun seeing everyone in pair, and you are alone among them. especially when you are attached but your partner isn't there. the feeling is weird. lols.
oh well. i'm currently feeling single. but i guess, no one cares. =)
i'm alone, walking this path. you appear to be there, but are you really there?
presenting to you, me!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:50 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
oh well. i'm not sure what kind of day it is.. good or bad. average i guess. lols.
went to school. then crap quite a lot in the prefect's room before morning assembly. then help kor and sy carry their bags all the way to the assembly area. like maid!! had 3 periods of lesson. i only paid for the first the periods and my mind was shut off for the rest of the day. =x oh well. e maths is boring. but dont worry, i won't give up..
went out with mae, silin, qy, san, crystal, yl and xl.. watch the pirates of the carribean. omg! do you know how charming orlando bloom is! i so love him!! hahas. oh well. the show isn't that bad. only that it makes you wanna watch the third part. and it seems as though the story doesn't have a proper ending. oh well. i had to rush back to school after that for my duty. reported to my duty area at 3.15 with only few strips of fries for lunch..
my duty is quite simple. i'm doing the receiption and all i have to do is to put the cosage on to the GOH's blouse or coat. so anyway, i'm freaking nervous. i really wished, at that moment, i could run to the toilet and hide.. but the teachers told me how honoured i should feel. i was like "whatever".. oh well. she arrived at 5.. i helped her put on her cosage and waited for her to leave to watch the parade.. i felt tears in my eyes and i ran to mins. wow. my job is done. i never felt so nervous before. not during my oral or any of my exams. wow. i really regreted laughing at kor last time. now it's my turn. ><
we had a break. i took photos with eugene, mins, ja lat kor, ah boi, ms tay and jordan.. then had to get back to position to wait for the GOH to leave.. stupid. the clerk gave me two packs of sweets. i thought for me.. in the end, it was for GOH.. so i had to give it to her.. she shook my hand. omg!! hahas. anyway, after she left, we went to the hall to watch the concert. i got to meet my seniors like clarice, bei bei, christine, sanee, wee wee, rex, yan ting, yu jie, and min ting.. still got more.. oh well. had to guide the students out of school and prevent them from going to the hall.. after that, i went to the hall.. took lots of picture with friends and teachers. hahas.
went out for dinner with mae, silin and san.. met pat puay.. hahas..
so here i am. blogging.
indeed, today is a memorable day. last day of doing duty and the second last day of having fun. mum isn't happy with me. oh well, i don't care. i need to have fun first before studying. lols. having a super horrible sore throat. sleepy! my legs are aching! neck pain again..
tml. going to meet crystal. and guess what! i manage to borrow the white shirt. hahas. don't be shock if you see me on the streets. feel free to call me. hahas.
oh well. i'm currently feeling very great after calling this guy a jerk. it's not for no reason. but it's because how he treated a girl, and i really can't stand it. come on! treat your stead well and don't treat her like shit! she is a girl, a human, and she has feelings. stupid jerk! lols. anyway, he turned back and look at me and i was "what?!". =x hahas..
wow. a long day. and it's finally over! eugene owe me a treat for making me run and nearly fall. and of course to make me be down for duty even when i graduate!! hahas. but anyway, i'm starting to miss PB..
i really can't imagine what i'll be during graduation night. i'll miss my classmates. although we weren't close last year, but i feel that we're all as a class now. i don't feel like a sec 4, but i am. i wish i won't graduate yet, but i will be. somehow, we only learn to treasure things when they're leaving us or when feelings starts to develop. my class is cute, cool, funky, wonderful and WOW! we may be going different routes, but i believe, we'll be in contact. AHH!! 4E'o6 ROCKS!
ok. done blogging. finally!!
i've waited for this day to come. finally. it's here!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:00 PM
oh well. i'm not sure what kind of day it is.. good or bad. average i guess. lols.
went to school. then crap quite a lot in the prefect's room before morning assembly. then help kor and sy carry their bags all the way to the assembly area. like maid!! had 3 periods of lesson. i only paid for the first the periods and my mind was shut off for the rest of the day. =x oh well. e maths is boring. but dont worry, i won't give up..
went out with mae, silin, qy, san, crystal, yl and xl.. watch the pirates of the carribean. omg! do you know how charming orlando bloom is! i so love him!! hahas. oh well. the show isn't that bad. only that it makes you wanna watch the third part. and it seems as though the story doesn't have a proper ending. oh well. i had to rush back to school after that for my duty. reported to my duty area at 3.15 with only few strips of fries for lunch..
my duty is quite simple. i'm doing the receiption and all i have to do is to put the cosage on to the GOH's blouse or coat. so anyway, i'm freaking nervous. i really wished, at that moment, i could run to the toilet and hide.. but the teachers told me how honoured i should feel. i was like "whatever".. oh well. she arrived at 5.. i helped her put on her cosage and waited for her to leave to watch the parade.. i felt tears in my eyes and i ran to mins. wow. my job is done. i never felt so nervous before. not during my oral or any of my exams. wow. i really regreted laughing at kor last time. now it's my turn. ><
we had a break. i took photos with eugene, mins, ja lat kor, ah boi, ms tay and jordan.. then had to get back to position to wait for the GOH to leave.. stupid. the clerk gave me two packs of sweets. i thought for me.. in the end, it was for GOH.. so i had to give it to her.. she shook my hand. omg!! hahas. anyway, after she left, we went to the hall to watch the concert. i got to meet my seniors like clarice, bei bei, christine, sanee, wee wee, rex, yan ting, yu jie, and min ting.. still got more.. oh well. had to guide the students out of school and prevent them from going to the hall.. after that, i went to the hall.. took lots of picture with friends and teachers. hahas.
went out for dinner with mae, silin and san.. met pat puay.. hahas..
so here i am. blogging.
indeed, today is a memorable day. last day of doing duty and the second last day of having fun. mum isn't happy with me. oh well, i don't care. i need to have fun first before studying. lols. having a super horrible sore throat. sleepy! my legs are aching! neck pain again..
tml. going to meet crystal. and guess what! i manage to borrow the white shirt. hahas. don't be shock if you see me on the streets. feel free to call me. hahas.
oh well. i'm currently feeling very great after calling this guy a jerk. it's not for no reason. but it's because how he treated a girl, and i really can't stand it. come on! treat your stead well and don't treat her like shit! she is a girl, a human, and she has feelings. stupid jerk! lols. anyway, he turned back and look at me and i was "what?!". =x hahas..
wow. a long day. and it's finally over! eugene owe me a treat for making me run and nearly fall. and of course to make me be down for duty even when i graduate!! hahas. but anyway, i'm starting to miss PB..
i really can't imagine what i'll be during graduation night. i'll miss my classmates. although we weren't close last year, but i feel that we're all as a class now. i don't feel like a sec 4, but i am. i wish i won't graduate yet, but i will be. somehow, we only learn to treasure things when they're leaving us or when feelings starts to develop. my class is cute, cool, funky, wonderful and WOW! we may be going different routes, but i believe, we'll be in contact. AHH!! 4E'o6 ROCKS!
ok. done blogging. finally!!
i've waited for this day to come. finally. it's here!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:00 PM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
firstly, forgive me for this long entry. secondly. if you're not interest, feel free to close this site and leave.
[wednesday, 19]
lessons in the morning was boring, until P.E time. girls had to do skill work while guys played games. anyway. we learn how to dribble and kick. it was fun. everything in life had to start from the basic. so we did that. after that, we split into 2 groups and started playing the match. my team, led by mae, won. 1-0. fish scored! way to go fish! lols.
when lessons start, i exchanged place with jz. i like the place where he sits. probably because the teacher won't keep walking pass me. so i can have a chance to sleep. =x but anyway, physics lesson was interesting. bio too! lols. then we had chinese. we sat in circle and we started playing a game. there was a bag full of questions written by each and everyone of us. we can ask any questions to anyone in the class. anyway, i had 3.
am i satisfy with my life. in terms of friends and family, etc.
i have to say that i'm really very satisfied with my life. i have a wonderful family, great friends and a really special person in my life. my family members are very supportive of me. although there are times when we'll quarrel, but still, they are always there for me. as for friends. i know that i always have someone to lean on when i'm out of my house. friends are always there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on to, they share my joy with me, crap with me when i'm feeling crappy and encourage me whenever i lose my faith. as for that special person. he made an impact in my life and changed part of my life. he taught me many things in life and showed me what love really is.
somehow, in my life, i regret some stuff. i regret losing contact with many friends. i failed to understand what my parents are going throught. and i failed to be a good friend.
how will you feel when you can't eat sweets?
HELLO!!! if you know me well, you should obviously know the answer. sad! DUH!! lols. sweet is my life. well. probably it is a habit of mine to pop a sweet into my mouth when i feel like munching something. and when i'm sad, sweets are the only thing that makes me happy. well, other than stuff toys. =x
what are the happiest time during your stay in MJR
okay.. in 4 years, i have many happy days. from the first day of my sec 1 orientation, i know my life in MJR will be fun. i met friends like joanna, min min, feng yao, sheldon, pebble, hui shan, crystal, hui kia, vale g., mae, sh, qy, silin, san, puay, potato, eve, fish, jocey chua, boon, jz, jc, alex, yr, sy, avril, yiling, yi xiang, hy, kim, zy, eugene, ah boi, jalat, ah fat, jordan, glenn, ken, xl, rainer, auntie, imm, ht, sk, constance, alicia, kiat, christine, cailing, rex, tootz, monkey, wee wee, lh, leelin, sasa, rebecca, tohwee.. many more. friends, juniors and seniors that made my life meaningful. true, part of my days in MJR are sad, but they brighten it up, and made my life cool and fun again.
mawai camp and OBBD were the camps that made me realise how many things i've taken granted for. it made me realise that in this entire world, i've got to learn to love and trust myself before i can love and trust anyone else.
finally answered all the questions. had to go for assembly. after that, i rushed home and came back to school for rehearsal for school anniversary. guess what is my duty? i have the honour to put on the cosage for the GOH, Mrs Yu-Fu Yee Shoon. and because of this, i got so nervous that my hand was shivering even when i practise putting a badge on my teacher's shirt. -.-" scary k?
rush off to tuition with my buddy. can't stand the tuition class there. lucky it's only for one lesson. *phew* i reached home and 9+ and only manage to study for SS.
[thursday, 20]
couldn't stand it. i feel so sleepy today. my mind was switch off and didn't even pay attention. ><
played an "IQ" test. really stupid. it's nice to laugh at others, but you'll realise how stupid you were when others laugh at you. =x so, i shan't elaborate. lols.
first time this year, i get my first 0/10 for a maths test. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! ok. i have to be blamed. i didn't study, i wasn't concentrating. i don't even give a damn. don't ask me why. i just don't feel like giving a damn.
i stayed back to settle my duty for tml. finally found my court shoes. lols. then saw ja lat kor and ms tay punishing the NPCC. he is really fierce. never seen him so fierce before. >< anyway, tml taking picture with him, and hopefully with ah boi. i'm promoting them. =x
oh well. i feel like going to the beach to scream. but, i guess, no one will pei me ba.. hmms.. i'm not sure what exactly am i thinking. i just don't have the mood to study. i don't even feel like sitting for my Os! i just wanna scream my lungs out, cry my heart out and sing my voice out. hmms. 109 days to Os and my attitude just sucks. damned!
oral date is out. 11 august. i'm scheduled to have it on the first day. >< wish me luck!
this is part of my art piece. i know my handwriting is not nice. =x just forgive me. lols. i'm a BITCH! hey. not scolding myself. i'm praising myself. i'm beautiful, intelligent, talented, clever, honest. ^^ lols.
another part of it is with puay. lols. she likes it. i think. =x
would you ever care if i still exist?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:26 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
had a long day today. well, long and probably quite bad day.
woke up early than usual. i drag myself out of bed. i stood in front of the mirror for quite a long time. was trying to think what i'm suppose to do. quite blur today. so anyway, didn't have much appetite, so i skip breakfast.
went to school. the sky was quite dark. as though it's gonna rain, but can't rain like that. anyway, went to the prefect room to slack. wasn't in the talking mood. was really sleepy, blur, and depress? bell rang, i went to meet my classmates. the moment i see puay only, i could feel tears gathering in my eyes. then mae came, i cry even more. wows. broke my record of crying in school. so shitty. ><
things were better later in the day. i'm back to my normal self. manage to crap with eve and dearest puay. sang with silin and mae. lame around with yk and claron. the only problem was i couldn't concentrate. oh well. did a wonderful "art piece" today, during el period. puay took photos of it. shows how much she likes it. =x
NSW competition was crap. i wanted to throw dice. seriously don't understand. i mean, i do understand the passage. but not those underline sentences or word. so i just had to pick and choose. what is the probability of me getting the correct answer? 1/4 for each question.
went home. have been slacking from 5+ till now. cool right? but it's worrying la. ahh!! when can i get the mood to mug?! motivate me peeps, inspire me!! just don't stress me!! ><
i love puay!! =x
i just realise that you can look at something from different perspective. to a certain topic, there will always be people who agree, people who disagree and people who choose to remain neutral.
just like in a relationship. there are people who have to give in, there are people who demand more. and there are people who give in and demand. no doubt that in every relationship, there must be one to give, and the other must take. but giving in has a certain limit. understanding each other needs in important. so is trust.
treasure what you have. it will hurt when you lose him/her, by then you'll really regret why didn't you treasure him/her while he/she is still yours. understand the needs of your partner.
thanks puay and potato for your pats, mae for your shoulder, eve and buddy for accompanying me during the free period. and KOR!! for pei-ing me through the night. hahas. =x
112 days left and nothing is done. omg!
ja lat kor wearing number 1 uniform!! hahas. yaps. gonna take picture with him. i'll post on my blog let you see how shuai my kor is. wahahs. it'll be the last time i'm gonna wear my prefect blazar. yap. so much for my good old days in prefectorial board. =)
done blogging.
-get a life-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:30 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
played soccer for P.E! woots. i manage to score a goal and save 2 goals which, in the end, still went in. not all the girls were playing. no wonder the guys can win.
lessons were boring. i couldn't help falling asleep until sh miss call me. then i miss call ah fat and ah fat miss call me again. yk msg me when he was only in front of me. -.-" the bio clip was cool! well, learning bio is interesting. taking the test is boring.
had chinese Os listening. i shan't comment much. i wanted to sleep. it's really boring. probably because it is only shading and listening. went home immediately after that. having bad flu!!
went home with crystal, mae, sh and sheldon.
you know. truth indeed do hurt. but you would rather get hurt than to be happy for nothing, won't you? seriously. right now. is either i'm a bitch, or an idiot.
it's been so long since i last cried this hard. and i finally understand how hard it is to be a clown. you can only appear happy on the outside. and you can only show your true colours when you're alone. and this is me. my world is complicated. it's just meant to be this way.
i am weak. i have to admit it. but as compared to before, i feel i grew stronger.
i hate being hurt. but i hate it more to break couples. forgive me for being a bitch for so long.
in a relationship, one must learn to pay the price and learn from mistake. i guess. i've learnt another lesson. and i guess i've got to pay the price too.
i'm tired. i'm sick. i'm just a bitch.
-my life is over-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:14 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
woke up really late this morning. probably because i slept late last night and couldn't sleep through the night.
i really think through what i've been doing all this while. 92 days since Montage 2 was over. 92 days since i said i'll start working hard. 92 days since i promised that my fun days will be over. all i do all this while is to sit in class, day dream and to live my life for the sake of living. where is my goal, my aim, then?
did my homework and some tys. i wasn't sure what exactly was i thinking. oh well. my mind; shut off. finally manage to clear my table. now it looks neater. =) sense of achievement. =x
there's chinese Os listening tml. i guess it won't be a problem. i'll be keeping my fingers cross.
i failed to stop my tears from flowing. been so long since i felt this way. and i wished those days were over. somehow, i guess, they will never be.
wanna go shopping, wanna watch movies. wanna take a walk at the beach. wanna scream my lungs out. wanna have a new hair cut. so many things i wanna do. but i'm just not in the mood!
down for duty for friday's school anniversary. and i lost my court shoes. going out on saturday to celebrate crystal's birthday in advance. so many people going. sunday, i'll be home to study. my weekend. packed!
i'm tired. i just want a day all to myself.
-dead-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:44 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
woke up at 8+ this morning. then slacked around. left house at 10. met 2 of my friends at the mrt station. i thought i saw the wrong person. so i didn't bother to wave. until i board the train, then he wave to me.
anyway, i nearly fell in the train. then i predict the day ahead would probab;y be a bad one. which, indeed, was a bad day. went to get bubble tea for sh, jerald and sw. on my way back to school. i was honked by a taxi. >< then went to the hall to meet them. i slack all the way to 11+. then report for my CIP.
we were divided in to pairs. 1 MJR to 1 NYG. i pitied my partner. i know nothing about house chores and i know nothing about dialect. so we made our way to the first house. we got them to do a survey for the PUB people. then went to meet kor and his partner to do house chores for the next one. lucky they didn't need any. so we were give the third house. it's the mdm low. really did many things! i had to move things here and there. wash her sink, plates and cups. clear her room and clean her fan. my poor sensitive nose. now running. -.-"
anyway, after that, went to mac for lunch. then head back to school to do the packing of food. i finish my stuff, so went to talk to daddy and kor. dad told me something. i was taken aback. he seems shock. and i look like a third party. hmms. kor somehow got worried for me. he kept asking me how i was. i said nothing.
went home and then went to meet mum at great world. i was in the train. i'm not sure how should i feel. hmms. had beef goulash for dinner. couldn't finish. how i wish buddy was there to finish up for me. then he would complain how bad i am for making him fat.
during dinner, i told mum i want to go to JC. yaps. i'm proving her wrong.
here i am. blogging.
love is sweet when you feel that you found your true love. but it hurts so much when things go wrong. it's easy to say trust. but you'll realise, it's easier said than done. it's easy to say you love your partner. but when you're ask to show it, it'll be a different thing.
right now. i feel like a shit! it's not anyone else fault. it's mine.
i'm trying hard to trust you. but as long as it's on that issue, i guess, i will not be able to overcome my fear. i'll feel inferior. i'll feel weak. i'll feel like a bitch.
i just hate tears.
-dead-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:16 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
today is a relaxing day. had 2 free periods. didn't manage to do any single work. was slacking. ><
ms tay's scoldings are good. it motivates me. well. at least now i'll got the mood to study. =x anyway, had a maths test on vectors. i'm not sure if i can pass la. but i know i've got 4 marks in my hands! hahas. relative velocity is easier than vectors!! =x
went for choir. had to double check my CCA records. anyway, i don't really care much. but suddenly, i miss choir alot. i love being part of the choir. i miss singing, i miss those fun, i miss the laughter and, of course, my juniors. anyway. i stayed there to do my a maths. and the choir, indeed, improve alot. it's great to hear them sing!! hahas. next year got to buy SYF tickets! =x
ah fat so funny. hahas. wasn't very close to him until that time's outing. hahas. then i realise that he is very crappy. yaps. my new boyfriend and jordan, my new dear. hahas. CRAP! lols.
next week gonna play soccer!! girls vs boys. ahh!! hahas. so cool. oh oh. borrowed rainer's white shirt again. i'm going to wear it out on crystal's birthday. but qy ask me wear girl. -.-" how girl you want me to be? hahas.
ok. i'm done blogging. i'm tired!!
oh. my face hurts k? second time of the year being smacked by a ball ><
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:15 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
norman just got sent out. and i like his speech. indeed. life is full of surprises and these surprises do sprung out anytime. and second chance come by hard. it is best to do your best and make the fullest out of everything you do. cherish what you have.
school was fine until all the cockroaches started to appear in front of me. hate them. i was in the toilet, then i saw this huge cockroach, i scream and ran out of the cubicle! so paiseh can? ><
went home early. slept for 2 hours. i'm really tired. couldn't sleep well at night. stupid muscles killing me!! i need a new pillow!!
i'm not in the study mood. i need motivation. ahh!!
i'm tired. i'm feeling sick. i'm depressed. i'm feeling unwanted!! ='(
forget it. things are just meant to be this way.
happy birthday minx.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:11 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
my neck mucles are killing me! TOTALLY! couldn't slept last night. sleepless night. ><
lessons are really boring. wanted to sleep in class. P.E was stupid. next week then play soccer. sians. recess suppose to play. but not in the mood. lols. so poor sh, got ole! hahas. then ken say i ps her. sorry. >< had 3 periods free. first period, we were settling our jersey. second, i was gossiping. third, i was playing.
feel so pig today! had a bowl of hor fan, then 4 meatballs, 1 mango ice blended, 1 apple pie at mac and 1 cup of iced milo.. scary right? went home feeling so bloated. but still can eat dinner! my god! ><
no mood to study again. my mind totally shut off. shit! i can't study!!
about yesterday. 2 people liking the same thing, one just have to give in. and yaps. someone actually gave in. it's no doubt that you'll be sad. but life is never fair and life is never smooth sailing. what can i say?
i'm tired. i'm sick. i'm depressed!
done.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:51 PM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
everyone is so excited over the jersey. but it'll cost so much. sigh.
anyway. lessons are so boring today. i keep wanting to dose off. i even ate during lessons! hahas. can't help it. got to keep ourselves awake. stupid ken can't pronounce my name properly!! lols.
SS lesson is cool. humanities room, teacher can't really catch me. so i manage to keep eating and talking. unlike in class, she keeps walking pass me. i had no choice but to really shut up and listen to lessons. and i meant shut up and not keep quiet.
i'm losing all my concentration. seriously. i'm wondering what's wrong with me. i just can't concentrate. *argh*
what will you do if you and someone else fall for the same thing, or the same person. will you give in to the other person? hmms. jealousy kills.
my muscle tension is hurting me! sigh.
i'm tired. i'm depressed.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:00 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006
lessons are boring today. i think the funniest is geo. we asked her a question and she went telling stories until it is totally unrelated to the question. and my classmate asked me if she was another home econs teacher. funny.
anyway, had oral practise with my el teacher. i think i read too fast. oh well. she said i was fine, just need more practices. yaps. i love reading. ^^
anyway, played soccer in the rain! stupid. ken manage to goal again!! next time must really close my legs. give me constant reminder. CLOSE UR LEGS WHEN KEN IS NEAR! sians.
anyway. i'll end here. really tired. i'm running a flu again. sians. take care.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:00 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
received a call last night. didn't say much. he sure sounds energetic. hahas. i miss his voice. yaps.
woke up this morning to watch the germany's match. poor petit, own goal. that is damn sad! =x but still, klose is top scorer! hahas. so after the match, i msg xl and potato. then i update him the score. wow. didn't know they wake up different time everyday. =x he woke up at 5 and had to rush for morning pt. cool. i told him i want to go army, he called me siao. -.-"
woke up by sis today. keep banging on my bed. but went back to bed after that. hahas. woke up 10+. had bo bo cha cha for breakfast. it tastes horrible!! >< nearly vomit it out. =x so starchy!! hahas.
suppose to study. but i ended up watching tv. my concentration level is so low. easily distracted. ahh.. so i ended up not doing much. sigh. so slack!! ahh..
ok. 120 days to Os. and i have to wait 130 days for new phone. i'm announcing, my phone is officially broken. not my phone la. as in my phone cover. shows how "well" i take care of my phone. hahas. oh well. i'm waiting for my dream phone. this time, i swear i'll take good care of it. =x
oh well. next week should start mugging le. tmr playing soccer with the class. hope the field isn't muddy! and i hope i won't get smack on the face!! ><
done blogging. hope can update my blog tml.
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♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:36 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
went for tuition yesterday. there was a joke going around the class, but somehow i didn't get it. oh well. only after the class, then i realise it. it was about this guy who wore pink shirt. and they say that he looked like jiggly puff, that pink pokemon. buddy said bye to the guy! lols. i'm shy. i told you! =x
anyway, rmb, yesterday i went out. there was this guy who kept staring at me. then he told his friend that he thought i was his friend. erms. well. he did looked like someone from khs. but i just can't register him in my mind. =x probably because he is tan. then, i met another cute guy at pizza hut. i find him cute, but tong say he isn't.
woke up early today. had to be in school for cip. finally saw mummy for the first time after montage. and sis after 3 weeks! wow. anyway, i pair up with vale g. so we're the vale group. =x we were asked to knock on the doors of the forth level. although it was a boring thing to do, but yet, i've learnt many things.
the first house i knocked on was an old man. we asked him if he needs any help with his house chores or does he needs a water saving device. he rejected us. he said he lived alone and his house is very neat and tidy. most of the elderly there are living alone and their house are neat. so our job was rather simple. as soon as we reached the first floor, mr tan got us to go to the 12th level to see this lady, mdm loh. same surname as me. ^^ anyway, her house is very spacious. but she collects many things. so next week, we're going to help her. sounds cool. oh. she is a scholar. =) anyway, the entire cip ended about 10+.
met my maid and singpost to buy lunch. then came home. slept the entire afternoon! shows how tired i am. woke up, did my a maths self retest. actually, it's simple. a little careless mistakes here and there. argh! >< spent the rest of the evening slacking. no mood to study!
so here i am. blogging. poor puay, i think she don't dare to visit my blog le. =x sh is jealous now. she ask why i nv take with her. hahas. ok. now i've got to please a jealous girl and 3 disappointed boys. how cool? next monday playing soccer. 7 guys and about 8 girls. hahas. who's going to win? it's not about winning. but it's about fun. ^^
shit! my phone's cover is spoilt! i want a new phone. hahas. Z530i!! ahh!! hahas. or a camera phone also not bad. =x but i've got to wait for another 131 days, when my Os is over. >< shit!! 131 days with a spoilt phone!!
the class is planning to buy a class jersy, i'm not really against it. but 25 bucks is abit too expensive. probably a cheaper one will do it. well. hope everyone is sporty!
done blogging. some thing is wrong with my blog!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:11 PM
Friday, July 07, 2006
i controlled my tears. i had the urge to cry. he called me last night. told me to take care and stuff. sounds naggy, but that was the first time that i didn't mind being nagged at. i slept last night, with tears in my eyes. hais.
this morning, i called him. i just had to hear his voice. yaps. but he had to go. so i had to hang up. i wanted to cry again. but well. i'm strong.
oh well. lessons was boring! totally. chem experiment was boring. i stirred until my hands are aching. spend the entire 1 hour and 10 minutes stirring can? and finally manage to dissovle 3 magnesium strips when i'm suppose to dissolve 5. sians. e maths lesson also boring. hahas. after recess was El. teacher wasn't around. then SS. was suppose to leave at 12, cause the teachers had a course. but fahmy needed to meet us. so we stayed back alittle while. receive our test. wow! i manage to get 14 out of 20! hahas. not bad la. my relative velocity still got hope! shan't give up. =x
went PS with puay, tong, mae, imm, cryst, potato, boon, vale g. qy. went to eat pizza hut. lols. then spent quite a long time in there. talk like siao. then after lunch, san came to join us. so funny. we walked around lo.. chat and chat. they display the world largest kit kat. so fake! but it's real. walked for 5 hours. just got home.
let me entertain you with a pic.
i kissed my puay! lol. ok la. although i'm really disgusted at couples kissing in public. but kissing a friend goodbye is fine. =x san got jealous and she slapped puay. poor puay. =P never mind. i sayang you k? =P
i'm done blogging. oh well.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:35 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
i can't help but to fight back my tears, after reading the blog. seriously. i know i'll miss you. not because you're sweet. but because you are someone so special to me.
had 2 tests today. i was rather prepared for the chem. but things turned out differently. couldn't do many questions. hmms. wasn't prepared for a maths test, and things turned out otherwise. so i conclude that i shouldn't be prepare for the test if i want to score well. =x
e maths lessons was funny. we were given work to do, yet we still can crap. oh well. yk showed me a note that was a conversation among 3 girls. cute and sweet. anyway. the way he woo the girl is cute. as in, he's so ah beng and stuff. but towards the girl, he shows his shy and quiet side. so funny. but anyway, we helped him a little today. =x hope things went well. ^^
went home with girl friends. mae came my house to study. manage to finish the vectors worksheet. so cool. stuck on P&C. so i had to give up. an hour of a maths really kills. >< oh well. send her out. tml we're going to havoc again. yaps.
123 days left.
a smile hides a thousand tears
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:41 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
never had such a crazy day before. jokes. laughter. well. a period of saddness too.
first few period is quite boring. in fact super boring! i nearly dose off. all thanks to puay who kept me awake. cause i have to try to keep her awake too. =x so anyway, went down for P.E. osman never come again. stupid. so the girls were supposed to play with 4B. in the end, we didn't. so we took soccer ball and play.
PROCESS: the guys came along. only 5 boys, jj, xl(torres,omg!), jj(crouch), jordan(ah pui), and ah fat! hahas. so we played. the guys keep scoring like siao la. it was my second time playing soccer. one thing that makes me dislike playing soccer is that i have a hard time controlling the ball. so anyway, my passes were rather accurate. hahas. so i lazy run, i went to be goal keeper. cause the guys are better in soccer, we had 3 goalkeepers. funny. yet the guys still can score! hahas. so anyway, towards the end, ken(henry, yucks!) came. he came closer. i stared at the ball. i thought i manage to catch the ball. but, damned! the ball rolled between my legs. hahas. second time, he came closer again. this time dangerous! he kicked the ball and it smacked my face, before it went in. "header". wow! home goal! o.0 it hurts. there was tears, but i wasn't crying. funny. third time, he kicked. i manage to kick out. but wasn't far. xl tried to kick it in, so i stop him. in the end, 3 girls vs him. and his head knocked my head, and i step on mae's foot. hahas. anyway, the entire match ended. i'm voted the lady of the match! woots. hahas. that's what xl told me. woots! anyway, there were alot of hand ball. but who cares? you think i care? hahas. a familiar line? =P
after recess, had physics test. i finished quite fast and i slept. =x had 2 free period. i did a maths vectors. i love vectors! but i hate relative velocity. lols. suppose to leave for assembly. but who knows? the guys were spraying themselves. then jordan went to spray me. -.-" but poor puay. tio most. hahas. so when we step out of class, everyone covered their noses la. as though we just came out of the rubbish bin like that. ><
stayed back to revise relative velocity. i really give up la. cannot take it. lols. so i sit there and finish only 2 questions in an hour. so cool right? oh. 2 dollar richer. managed to get it from norwin. who ask him, no 1 buck. lols. so well. i left earlier than the rest. saw wesley at the gate. tried all ways to avoid him. but damned. he saw me. >< so he offered to send me home. i told him NO! then he say i dao. fine lo. don't like people to say me dao! cause i'm not. i'm friendly. lols. now he is laughing at himself for how he used to like me. funny. you'll laugh if you hear those things. ok. i know i'm evil to treat him like that. but what for give false hopes. dislike people who give hopes and dashed them! ><
journey home was sweet.i'm not sure if i'm suppose to feel sad or happy. i guess, i had a mixed feeling deep down in me. yaps. i really can't imagine what life will be from friday onwards. somehow, it seems as though you came into my life to teach me something. =) yaps.
i'm not sure what i'm suppose to do. keep telling myself to get 6 distinction seems useless. getting scholarship is a dream so far to achieve. Ch. you can kill me right now, i don't care. lols. it's so depressing to see how slowly life is now. i can't wait for after Os. i can't take it! well, probably i'm thinking of fun whole day long. just not born to study. my fighting spirit is gone again!! i need motivation. ><
i love this song, do i make you proud by taylor hicks. somehow, the song is meaningful. go listen for the lyrics. ^^
currently losing my appetite again. just had 2 small little sausage for dinner. lols. i know i'm going to be nagged. but you think i care? look at my face. i don't care! haha. just not eating proper meals only ma. =x gastric? pain and it'll be fine later, i guess. =x
lols. i've got a compliment. i'm cute when my face is red. lols. so if my face is always red, means i'm always cute! hahas. and, anyway, when i'm red, it doesn't mean i'm blushing. lols. i'm just born red.
i'm still a disappointed girl.
i'll end here.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:28 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
hot! humid! wow! ok. today's weather is really hot! i think that is the cause for most teachers to be, well, easily irritated. =x
first period is bio. had presentation. i think fy's presentation is the best! woots! always full of surprises and funny things. his IT skills are really great! i like the hamster song!! =x although that was the popular song way back when i was in primary. not very long actually. ok. so some students were being sabotage to answer the questions. it's like the who wants to be a millionare. but not is, who wants to be the five bucks-are. lols. lame.
anyway, the whole world cup thingy is making everyone high. especially in my class. so many people are betting. and i swear i'm not going to. the guys are horrible! you owe them something, they'll ask from it everyday. >< so yaps. seriously wondering if i should give up the entire chapter of relative velocity. it sucks! =x i practically copy the enitre worksheet. don't even understand a single question. i mean, i do. like Vb/r= Vb-Vr and stuff. but when it comes to the vector here, vector there. wow. really makes me head spin. >< SS is fun. it's good to be a british. 6 months maternity leave! who won't want? and they used to pay those people who are unemployed! ok. i'm trying to find an easy way out. =x i'm lazy.
went home immediately after school. well. had super bad gastric. i was on the verge of fainting by the time i reached home. so after bath, i quickly sleep. the only way to get rid of the pain. =x no medicines please! oh. and the flu! feel like getting rid of my nose! it is so irritating!
oh well. 125 days to Os. and we were discussing how are we going to havoc! hahas. guess it's the best time to contact those people i lost touch with. like jalat kor, twinnie, aloy, zhi hao, jun, serene, clarissa, elena and the rest. not forgetting to go back to choir. omg! i miss them!! and of course to hang out with my beloved girl friends! hahas. and i'm signing up for cooking class!! hahas. i know it sounds crazy. but i don't wanna suffer when my maid goes home k? you know eating packed food everyday is so unhealthy. even if it is crystal jade, it's worse. ><
hmms. everyone who is involved in a relationship suffers, don't they? like when you quarrel, or when one is jealous, or when there is a communication breakdown. but, it's normal to quarrel right? we quarrel so as to know each other better. yap. this was being told to me. i'm not sure if it is 100% true. but i guess, it is true somehow. but quarreling in just part and parcel of a relationship. you can't avoid it somehow. well, unless, one party is willing to keep giving. but it will be so unfair. erms. whatever. just crap. =x
now. i'm just another disappointed girl, ok? so just tolerate my nonsense for a short while.
forget. i'll end here.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:00 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
here i am. blogging.
woke up really late today. about 11? never felt so tired before. anyway, feeling so much better today. whee! hahas. woke up and started doing revision. well. not a productive day. wasn't in a studying mood. in fact, i wasn't concentrating. hahas.
spent the entire afternoon writing one essay. and i think i went out of point. but who cares? it's still talking about tourist attractions in singapore. =x anyway. i was msging sh and xl. hahas. sh, don't feel single. if you feel single, then i'll feel unwanted. hahas. anyway. xl owe me a soda. ^^ he's a good guy. so get rid of the thought of being bad. cause i'm expecting more sodas? hahas. you can't treat me everyday, after the Os. i won't reject. =P
saw my primary school head prefect 2002. eew! i can't believe he actually finds a gf!! omg! ok. he's tall, smart, sporty, has leadership qualities. so what? i won't forget those days when we will always quarrel each time we talked. irritating! ><
anyway. 126 days to Os. and i'm still not working hard. shit! ><
had fun slacking. hahas. oh well. back to school tml. released early on friday. so cool right? hahas. cause the teachers are on some EXCEL course. so i guess, i'll be home early to study?
mum is nagging again. >< not like i don't want to make full use of my time. but at times, i just got to rest right? can't possibly ask me to study all day. -.-" forget it. shan't complain so much. for my future, i just got to.
oh! i found ballack's blog!! hahas. cool right? i guess everyone found it too. it's published on life. only that i can't get access to ronaldinho's blog. sad!!
life is never smooth. even for those who are high and mighty will still experience a time when they are tiny and weak. but it doesn't give us a reason to give up and to just admit defeat. instead we should try our best to be who we once are. ok. just crapping. =x
i love my puay!! hahas.
can't live a day without you. what more about 2 weeks?
that's all folks.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:24 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
i'm feeling so sick. ><
stayed up to watch the matches last night. happy that portugal won! christiano!! my cutie!! oh well. poor brazil is out. my poor ronaldinho must be damn sad!! how i wish i can fly over. hahas. get his shirt or something? signature also not bad. =x k. crap.
ah fat and xl called me during the half time. i lazy to answer. so i let it ring. until i cannot stand the vibrations, i told them "sleeping in progess". hahas. ah fat won 50 bucks! shit him. >< now everyone predicting my poor germany gonna get kicked out. never mind. klose will still get the top scorer award. woots! i love him! his goals all damn nice. be it using the head or the feet. hahas.
had 5 hours of sleep, still feel sick. went to cousin's buffet lunch. feel so young at times, and old at times. alot of toddles and babies. i think i'm the oldest kid there. but compared to the adults, i'm the youngest. hahas. it's always good to feel young. ^^ anyway, my nephew is hospitalised. he's having high fever. so didn't manage to see him. oh well, my niece came. but her parents never come.
LEARNING POINT: don't settle don't if you're not willing to give up your stupid night life! think about the child. you brought an innocent life to this world and yet, you aren't showering it with love. what is this? you aren't fit to be a parent. she has all the rights to lead a wonderful life. but you, as a parent don't even care and your parents have to take care of your own kid and to support both u and your wife. if you have no ability to start a family, don't get involved. if you're not sure that you'll always be hers/his, don't give empty promises.
came home and slept the entire afternoon. but still feel sick. >< lucky tml is a school holiday! hahas. but too bad. i can't go out. study time!!
128 days. 138 days.
oh well. life is short. indeed. life is never smooth. indeed. treasure what you have and treasure those around you. there'll be a day whereby you'll lose them. by then, it'll be too late to treasure them.
Daddy. i love him. yes, i do. 9 days, 4 hours, 10 minutes.
that's all folks.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:05 PM
woke up 7 today. wanted to rush for school. then i was thinking what day it is. and i realise it's a saturday. so i went back to bed.
woke up at 10 and started doing my revision. wow. i really did with full concentration. only that sometimes i was msging. really how amazing to get my mood back to study. =x mum started nagging at me. telling me to work hard and that my effort will be paid off. oh well. that was when i increase the volume of my mp3.
went out at 6. went to novena to meet sis. in the train, i lost my balance and i step on this guy's toe. *ouch* i know it hurts. so i apologise. and he apologise too. hahas. so after awhile he stood up and offer me his seat. wow. ^^ he's cool. hahas. mum calls him "the nice guy". lols. oh oh!! his smile is nice. hahas. =x
jie made me took a backbone test. well. my backbone isn't straight. slanted to one side, 4 degress. my muscle tension is really high. in fact it is worrying for an age like mine. oh well. can't do anything. went to noodle hut to eat. the la mian is not bad. ^^ but very filling. yaps. went to buy minimelts.. yummy.. ^^ i felt like a small little girl again. i pulled sis to get me a cup. i like the mint. rainbow isn't nice. wrong combination i guess. all the flavours mixed and it doesn't taste nice. =x
well. never underestimate the power of love. it's like, no matter how bad the other party treats you. as long as you love him/her, you won't even mind being treated this way. this is why, i admire kor alot. seriously. he showed me how strong the power of love is. oh well, love makes the world go round. hahas
129 days to Os. 139 days to freedom.
i'm 2 dollars richer on tuesday and gonna have a free drink too.. ^^ all thanks to germany. hahas. i love them!! my beloved klose and ballack. hahas. oh well. my class argentina's supporters all so sad yesterday. they went xl's house to watch. tonight, also. well, if can wake up at 2, i'll give them a call. hahas. but i think i'll only wake up at 3. =x having a terrible flu now. and my freaking blue black hurts la. stupid. so damn gross!! and i'm wearing skirt tml.. shit.
tml, another lunch. i'm an aunty for 2 niece and 2 nephews. omg! i feel so old!! ahh!! hahas.
some weird guy add me. i seriously think it is a prank k. pakistan. -.-" and ass that guy who keep calling me dear. i aint your dear! *argh* makes my freaking hair stand. friends is fine, just don't be too much. you're totally freaking me out! ><
jie's friend staying overnight to watch the match. and she bought so many chips. then they went to the clubhouse to watch and the chips left at home. hahas. yes! then i can eat. ^^ woots. too bad. mum don't allow me to go to xl's house to watch. hahas. got my own tv at home.
i need to shop for new earrings. my dream earring got new stocks again!! hahas. damn freaking nice. =x never mind. i'll wait until after Os. hahas. i need them!!
oh! happy birthday dy. hahas. exactly a month younger than me. ^^
that's all peeps.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:13 AM
