Monday, November 29, 2004
metoyou
dun feel well.. having a freaking sore throat and a bad flu.. dammit.. dun wanna care.. not gonna see a doctor.. i'll jux heal myself.. haix.. where r u?? where is my confidence?? i lost them all, sad to sae.. haix.. i dunno.. i'm feeling lost.. haix.. who am i again?? haix.. i dunno.. i'm a person with no confidence..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:57 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
metoyou
thE heArt d0es thIngs fOr reAsons whiCh reAsons iTself cAnnot uNderstAnd
love is like a matchstick.. it is difficult to light, and even if it did light up, how long would it stay lighted?
yes.. nothing last forever.. not even ever lasting love.. u told her how much u loved her, u did all sorts of things to capture her heart.. and now, u are breaking her heart into a million pieces.. how long would she stay strong? will she ever trust u again?? haix.. i'm here for u galx.. jux stay strong and hang in there.. love is something that no one could really understand it.. but wad really is it?
love is nothing but a sweer sorrow.. haix.. i'm in dream land.. thinking that i'm holly and i'm sitting there missing my gerry~! *sobx sobx* well.. no one knows if my future ends up lidat.. but i hope that my husband does the same thing.. if not, i'll join in up in heaven.. haix.. went to bedok this morning.. saw my old dear dear.. miss her lotx~! *huggies* how is ur life? going out yeah? see that smile on ur face reminds me of the happy times we had in primary.. hahax.. we hang out together bio-ing yandaos at shopping malls, sharing our secrets and laughing and crying together tru happy and sad times.. miss u baby~!! take care.. i'm still here for u.. =) went ntuc to get some daily needs.. then i saw aloysius.. another good buddy.. hey, miss u kor~! u still owe me sweets~!!! hahax.. u haven't been feeding my sweet tooth since last year.. hahax.. =) stay cool yeah?? hahax.. i'm also here to share those happy and sad times with u.. jux dun ask me to find u a mei fu~!!! >.< hahax.. yapx.. i'm losing my confidence again.. i dunno why.. probably i'm afraid of losing u again and probably of wad happen to her.. i dunno.. haix.. *miss my hush puppy*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:35 PM
metoyou
have a kit kat,have a break
all i need was a break~!! *argh* kae.. holiday is here, and i haven't even earn a single cent.. broke broke broke( past tense of break, still break).. then i'm super busy with so many stuff, and i haven't even got a good break.. -sianx half- lastly, i dun not have a good and nice tea break.. haix.. WHEN CAN I HAVE A BREAK?! haix..
[27/11]
yesterday, woke up nearly 9.. spend my morning on the computer and whole afternoon reading my book.. kae.. Ciara, holly's sister is going back austrialia with Matthew, her boyfriend.. they finally patched~! great of matthew to know how important ciara was.. holly, on the other hand still haven't gotten over Gerry.. she is supper missing him.. well, how can she not? before Gerry died, he wrote her a letter each month to guide her tru the month.. tasks for her lo.. then at the end, he would sign:
P.S. i love you.. *heart melting* manx.. can she not miss him? they are together since young and he was her soul mate.. and she lost him.. *saddening* kae.. next.. mum scold me again.. wtf.. why have i been getting scoldings from her lately?? it jux sux~!!!! dammit.. can i leave the world and get out of this place???*missing my hush puppy*
[28/11]
woke up half and hour to 11.. super tired.. started my morning by burrying my head in the book.. kae.. i finally finish my book.. holly still love gerry and she can't and could never gotten over him.. Sharon, holly's friend, got pregnant and holly kinda sad.. she didn't see it coming.. Denise, holly's friend, was getting married to tom and she didn't see it coming either.. she was depressed.. Gerry gave her a new task.. find a job.. and guess wad? she found it.. hahax.. she liked her job alot.. Daniel, another friend, confessed to holly.. but holly didn't accept him or anything.. but the last letter from Gerry was:
never be afraid to fall in love.. and remember, shoot the moon.. so holly tot over it.. she seek help from her mother and stuff lidat.. and on denise wedding day, she was the person speaking on stage.. her speech was nice.. let me quote on part kae?? i love this part.. hahax.. kae.. here it goes:
finding some one you love and who loves you back is a wonderful feeling. but findinf true soul mate is an even better feeling.. a soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, will be there for you for ever, no matter wad. they say nothing last for ever, but i(holly) am a firm believer in the fact for some, love lives on even having after they're gone. and another is
shoot for the moon and if u miss u'll still be among the stars. in the end, holly didn't end up with anyone, she live her life happily and will always remember Gerry.. sweet story.. love this book..yapx.. and i earn 20 bucks with this book.. *wink* love my book.. Gerry rox man.. he is a sweet guy.. hahax.. oh ya.. Daniel was back with his ex, laura.. hahax.. so all are shuang shuang dui dui.. but holly didn't mind.. well.. love lives on even having after they're gone.. =) i'll try my best to find my true self.. no matter wad, i'll love peace and i'll control my temper.. i won't quarrel with mum anymore.. haix.. i hope, i'm still the same old person, everyone knows.. as to you, my love won't change.. jux love the one and only u.. *muackies* when ever can i leave this world?? i wan to be free from all my unhappy stuff.. haix.. mummy, i love you.. *hush puppy, wo xiang ni* *woof woof*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:30 PM
Saturday, November 27, 2004
metoyou
had chinese tuition early in the morning yesterday.. woke up late.. =S then after that, had physics tuition.. then my cousin (yappy, she is my physics tutor) keep thinking how to phrase her sentence.. haha.. she taught me accelerating, decelerating, displacement, velocity.. wadever it is.. i only knoe they are super chim things.. i mean beside accelerating and decelerating.. but i hate drawing graph~!!! the velocity and time de.. need to consider gravity thingy.. hahax.. went for choir.. today's choir more on independent singing.. hmmx.. i do not have much support lehx.. so not so powerful.. haix.. went home alone lo.. kept thinking of many stuff.. i dunno why.. they jux keep flooding my mind.. *sigh* reached home, couldn't on the computer cox of some stupid thingy.. guess wad i did? i stayed at the living room watching cartoons.. hahax.. super cute cartoons.. lilo and stitch~!!! hahax.. i love that show.. fine, i'm childish kae?? hahax.. but it is really cute mahx.. hahax.. hmm.. 7+ le.. mum, sis and dad came home from work.. keep pressing the sickening door bell that irritate me.. and i shouted at them.. i'm shocked myself.. i never did that before.. sigh.. wad has gone into me?? dinner time, i threw my temper again.. wad the shit.. then mum start saying me.. wadever.. i hate it.. i ate 3 spoon of rice, my soup and my egg yolk and left the table.. and they were talking about me.. great~ *argh* later that night, asked mum if could go to the library, not only she dun allow, she say i got STEAD?! *argh* she still dun trust me?! wadever.. i went to the toilet and locked myself(my room isn't the best place to cry).. then i was wondering lo.. wad has gone into me? i'm not who i am.. i no longer know who i am.. i'm a stranger to myself.. i changed.. i changed~!! i didn't mean to make my mum angry or answer her back.. but it is who i am now.. it is jux me.. i hate myself`!!! why did i change? why am i like dat? why??? i jux hate myself..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:05 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
metoyou
super bored~!!!! haix.. i miss the hush puppy i saw at east coast that day.. the body long long de, leg short short de.. ears cute cute de.. *missing the puppy* ppl miss someone, i miss dog.. hahax.. intersting.. but i really didn't noe that hush puppies really exist.. can i have one?? *sigh* I MISS THE HUSH PUPPY!!!!! wait.. is it a puppy or a dog that i saw?? kae kae.. I MISS THE HUSH DOGGY~!!!!! hahax.. i'm lame.. hahax.. yesterday in a questioning mood.. and so am i today~ sorry if i irritate u.. jux tell me worx~ hahax.. why why why why why??? wonder why mummy ask me go library when i wan to work? wonder why jie jie still never call home? she couldn't be that busy until dun call home mah, could she? manx.. why am i still missing the hush puppy?? dammit.. stupid owner shouldn't have been there.. or else i could bring it home.. then i can have a hush puppy~!! eeeewx.. so cute.. i wan a hush puppy~!!!! hahax..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:40 AM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
took some quizzes.. super bored ma.. let u noe more about me.. hehex.. enjoy~ take it if u wan.. =P
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kae.. i'm super bored and super lame~!! so dun mind me kae?? hAf fUn~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:39 PM
metoyou
yesterday[23/11/04]
prepare everything for the chalet, had lunch and i went to meet joanna, rainer and minx at kembangan.. live so near, yet reach the mrt the latest.. >.< stupid stallholder, cheat me sia.. everytime buy that time, cost 14 bucks.. yesterday charge me 15 bucks~! sianx.. took mrt to tampines and took bus 29 to the chalet.. then started drizzling.. sianx half~! run all the way to the chalet.. then after that went to the room and play~!! jian cong, jun pei,jasmine and yun qi sleep lo.. so the rest of us play.. hahax.. i slept too.. >.< too tired and super not feeling well.. haix.. then later i went to help them prepare for the bbq.. i keep playing with the matches.. then heng yu keep saying me.. -.-'| i bigger than him, then he ask me not to play.. after that, all the seniors came, they play water bomb.. then i sick mahx, so senior ong and leelin protect me.. hehex.. stood at one corner and watch them bbq and play.. tummy very pain~!!!!!!!! haix.. dinner tym, i ate about 6-8 sausages.. then i full le.. went to the room and sleep again.. cannot take it lo.. super pain.. sianx.. after that, all the ppl came in.. wet wet de.. hahax.. =X but see them having lots of fun, super sad.. miss all the funs.. reached home 10+ lo.. hahax.. kor kor de bill super high.. oopsy.. coz everyday i keep msging him mahx.. hahax.. *sadening* sorry worx.. =S i wonder how high.. 120 and above.. confirm.. coz his bill higher than mine.. hahax.. sleep at 11+.. miss my PINKY~!! *huggy*
today[24/11/2004]
woke up 9+.. pinky on the floor.. >.< hahax.. shows wad nightmare i have.. stupid.. Miss AH came to my dream sia.. no wonder got nightmare.. sianx.. then i dreamt i got stuck in the toilet with her, then the toilet got ghost.. dunno why the guys go into the girls' toilet de.. dream jiu shi dream.. all the weird stuff happen.. hahax.. kae kae.. dun talk about it le.. yesterday joanna's daddy fetch me and minx home mahx.. then they were saying that when i'm ah lian, they feel like slapping me.. -.-'| -diaox- next tym if i'm ah lian, mux avoid them le.. or else i get 2 slaps by each of them.. hahax.. but be guai kia also very sian lo.. haix.. 1 month 1 day to chirstmas~!! my socks not ready yet lehx.. haven't find a right place to put it.. i wan tarot cards~!! jie jie dun wan buy for me.. she say i'm silly enough to believe in such things.. *dotx* never mind.. i'm broke to buy presents le.. how ar? tml thursday.. if can go out, maybe i meet yunx then meet jared to take my treat and my letter.. jared kor kor wrote me a letter on 18th november, then never give me.. hahax.. wonder wad he write.. later going for choir.. hahax.. *yawn* feel so tired.. sianx..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:20 AM
sianx.. mummy ask me go library tml.. guess i'll stay there whole day to earn my 50 buck.. hahax.. can't go out with yunx they all le.. jared kor kor call me jux now.. ask me if tml wan to go suntec.. as the same time pass me the letter, told him can't.. but i wan to see the letter~!! hmpt~!! hahax.. kor kor wan go watch incredibles.. ask him ask mummy go.. he sae he scare daddy jealous, so dun wan.. hahax.. then suggest to intro gals to him, so he can ask them go out.. he also dun wan.. diaox.. fussy guy lehx~!! aiyoyo.. came home alone today.. sat at kallang mrt station to read my book.. then after that, i missed 2 trains and finally decided to take the third train home.. hahax.. super nice book lo.. the younger sister broke up with the stead, then the elder sister told her alot of da dao li.. fine lo.. my sister never do that to me.. hahax.. tml thursday le,means exactly one month to christmas~! woohoo.. i jux love christmas.. GOD bless you~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:03 AM
Monday, November 22, 2004
metoyou
i seems to be losing my memory.. i couldn't even remember who the heck am i.. kae.. i'm trying to sae, i changed.. good or bad? i dunno.. hahax.. super tire.. >.< 1o+, i got ready.. 11.15 i was at bugis mrt station.. read my book.. wth.. i jux read 1 third of it!! dammit.. *argh* but nice story.. hehex.. kept msging kor kor.. he meeting his primary friends.. hahax.. 11.50, he came to pass me a book and a present.. then he left soon after that.. then i started hugging the book.. manx.. ppl mus be thinking i'm crazy.. but i dunno why.. after opening the present, i felt like crying.. it is really nice.. love it lotx.. after that, minx came.. then daddy, then nanax.. after that, the guys pangseh 3 of us and went to meet 2 chio bu.. idiotic~! hate such guys who pang seh gers after making them wait for 1 hour~!! jerks~! then went to buy second hand books.. then went mac to mummum.. took alot alot of pictures! hehex.. then after that, went to baby arcade.. feel so cheater bugs.. we like bully the kids lidat.. hahax.. then went home.. met sheldon.. man.. he grew... hmm.. better.. hahax.. anywayx.. i got locked out of house~! dammit! then maid came home and open the door for me.. and guess wad, i'm using the com.. hahax.. peepx~ 6-9 december i got camp, pls dun msg me.. 12-15 go malaysia.. dun msg me.. and *_______jia yunx~!!! : please take care of urself when i'm not around.. duty resume after that kae? *mwackx* yappy.. i off to watch television.. haix.. sleepy sleepy sleepy.. >.< having sore throat~!! dammit..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:44 AM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
metoyou
shitty~!! it is 6.55 a.m on a monday morning~!! i couldn't sleep at all last night.. bu sleepy, then mux be crazy.. >.< eyebags, bloodshot eyes.. wadever la~! grrr.. went for dinner last night.. then eat alot lo~!! super full.. bao bao de.. aiyoyo.. mux try to slim down so i can wear the gown.. hehex.. =) update later..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:57 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
metoyou
super tired today.. >.< nightmares, nightmares.. jux keep haunting me.. *agitated* sux manx.. i hate nightmares~!! woke up super late again.. 10+.. not anoher long day to go.. came online after my breakfast.. life jux sux so much.. it was yesterday that i tot over everything.. and things are the same again.. >.< doesn't life jux sux?? i was reading her blog jux now.. i didn't mean too, jux came across it.. it feel super mean.. in her heart, she still love him.. i dun understand why he gave her up.. i feel mean for taking him away from her.. haix.. so many questions and doubts.. haix.. could i return him to her? i dunno.. i feel like i'm the third party.. it jux sux.. *argh* gonna relax later.. tml going out.. wadever..
*________ wish jia yun to cheer up and be happy alwayx~
*________ hope that she could be happy always~
*________ hope that she will always be in ur heart~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:49 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
metoyou
running slight fever last night.. so cool.. been a long time since i last run fever.. =P he reached singapore at about 11+.. then msg him lo.. then watch disney channel.. =X that guy super cool.. he got the passion to cook and he cook really cool.. but his dad didn't allow him.. until the competition that day, the dad finally realise wad his son wanna be.. so he support the son.. but he never win, coz he wasn't in the right uniform[wadever u call that].. but the the judge, he was a winner.. so touching.. until now, i never really thought of wad i wanna be.. too many ambitions.. maybe jux a simple life? be a housewife!!! hahax.. 12+ le.. then went to bed lo.. finally slept so tight.. no more nightmares le~!!! hehex.. and my fever has gone down.. but only having running nose.. hahax.. i learnt some things in life.. one mus be strong no matter wad happen.. one must have faith and confidence in wadever u do.. one must never be afraid of loneliness and should learn to overcome it.. i dunno where i learnt these, but i think it is some things that many ppl are lacking of.. and i am one good example.. hahax.. i wanna be a strong ger and i wan to learn to face all my fears.. hahax.. i am growing up.. hehex.. dear dear happy ma? i'm finally growing up to be a sensible girl le~!! hehe.. no need for any one to worry about me~!! hehex.. i'm not afraid of growing up any more.. the road of life isn't smooth, and i noe i will fall.. i'm prepare for anything, and i'll learn my mistake and treat it as a lesson.. hahax.. but lastly, i love everyone on earth.. i love u all the way God loves us.. God bless u~!!! hehex..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:43 PM
metoyou
sickx~!! woke up with a running nose.. >.< spend whole morning at home.. did nothing.. slack lo.. 12+, before going for choir, minx mummy call.. she came back le~!! woohoo.. hahax.. super cool yeah? then later, daddy fetch me to school and jie to bugis.. talked to miss tay[mrs gui] and mr gui.. then she told me that i got a place right in front.. hahax.. so meanx.. >.< mr gui told me i go e3.. hahax.. i dun mind, less stress.. went for choir, feeling super horrible.. nose kept running.. and the rain making it worst.. saw jia yun worx.. hahax.. super cool~! hehex.. nothing much about choir today.. as usual.. then went home.. *Argh* my nose sux~!!!! nothing much le.. YL kor kor ask me go stead?! geex.. think he kidding sia.. hahax.. GG keep calling me tootx~!! grrr.. but then he keep saying miss ya.. -diaox- and kor kor lehx? keep asking me for the answer!!! 1 month 6 days to christmas.. I MISS U come back today.. hao xiang hao xiang ni worx.. i miss u alot alot worx.. i go rest.. cannot take it..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:06 AM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
metoyou
didn't manage to sleep last night.. i dunno why.. jiu shi keep missing u lo.. =S woke up super early this morning~!!! very excited to noe my result.. then 9.05, nana dear dear msg me wor.. she told me i go e1~!!! hahax.. not very happy and not very sad.. satisfy, i should sae.. dunno why, first thing i do was to msg u.. hehex.. then after that i msg GG.. reach school to see who same class as me lo.. alot of choir members the same as me worx.. =P got my buddy too.. hahax.. but nana dear dear and mummy not same class as me.. *sigh* wadever.. not really prepared for next year stress.. before leaving, ms tay told me that she reserve a place in front for me le.. i dun mind~!! hehe.. went to east coast beach after buying my books.. keep skating until leg pain sia.. then stop and rest lo.. he reply me worx~! up there cold cold, hope he take care.. =) give him warmth~!! hehex.. daddy super happy for mummy.. hahax.. after knowing her result, he immediately wake up sia.. hahax.. =P ai de mo li.. hehex.. wo hao xiang ni worx~!!! >.< haix.. that stupid kor kor.. bluff me sia.. tot he retain, in the end he pass with flying colours.. hahax.. he gonna treat me worx.. =P his parents and miss cheong super happy for him.. hahax.. after resting, went back to the shop to return the skate.. i only skate for half an hour la.. then later rent the double seat bike.. then we ride all the way to the bedok jetty.. super hot la.. *sweating* the ride back to the shop.. went to jie jie's favourite shop.. -.-'! i ended up treating her lo.. diao bu diao? i'm super broke le.. >.< aren't they suppose to treat me? aiyoyo.. shouldn't have gone to e1.. super regret.. >.< walked all the way to marine parade lo.. then took bus 197 to bedok mrt station and back home.. super tired.. i dun wan go bio class.. =S take care..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:18 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
metoyou
didn't even get to sleep well last night.. i couldn't even get a wink.. -.-'! i had exactly 3 nightmares(although everyone will have 100 of dreams each night).. but these 3 nightmares seriously didn't let me have a nice sleep.. >.< woke up feeling super terrible.. haix.. first thing that came to my mind, u aren't around le.. haix.. YL kor msg me.. at the end of each msg, putting ^ai ni^.. arghx~!! i ran away from reality and force him to tell me it was a joke! i noe i'm mean.. but i couldn't bring myself to reject him the 4 time in a year.. i'll be super cruel.. i shared my good news of not being an EXCO with GG.. he was happy for me too.. hahax.. then, he keep saying miss ya.. wonder how can he keep missing me for so long?? before choir, had a great talk with lionel, jordan and miss yap.. and miss yap told me to concentrate on my english next year.. and she told me to pray hard that she won't teach me next year.. >.< but i wish she teach me worx.. =X anyway, i will seriously worry for next year's english.. jux imagine, i scare only 19 upon 50 for this year's EOY compre.. manx~!!! but anyway, LATE FOR CHOIR~!!! hahax.. choir practice was seriously tiring.. i stand for so long and my leg is freaking pain.. can't help but to keep siting down.. oopsy.. hahax.. break time, went mama shop.. suddenly rain, so lilian and me had to ran back.. hahax.. *phew* wasn't totally wet.. hehex.. finally we finish ca' the yowes.. woohoo~!! it rox.. hahax.. gonna rain again?! i wan go claim my free movie ticket from daddy1.. wonder when is he free, then get minx and nana to pei wo qu kan movie.. hehex.. daddy treating me and not YL kor kor.. then YL kor kor jealous.. hahax.. =P who ask me to be his only daughter.. hahax.. wonder if u will go notx.. hmmmx... anywayx, tml getting back posting~!! gonna call jared kor kor first, then GG, then my parents.. hehex.. friday, minx mummy, daddy2 and u are coming back~! hehex.. then next monday chalet le.. hahax.. i go study~!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:02 AM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
metoyou
well well, 2 days more to my posting and today, u r leaving~!!! yesterday, slept at aunt's place after updating the previous entry.. left for 1 hour+? hahax.. so comfortable.. the breeze near the sea is nice.. hahax.. then later on the way home, he msg me.. =) hehex.. rather shock actually.. hahax.. then later kor msg me, and GG msg me also.. 3 ppl sia.. hahax.. he leaving tonight.. then he wants to msg me before he leave, i dun wan.. then he insisted.. i always hate it when he insist on something, i always lose de.. >.< but i scare i cry out.. =X haix.. still cannot live without him lo.. =S couldn't think much about posting.. too nervous.. >.< hmmx.. 1 month 9 days to christmas worx.. hehex.. so happy, gonna have lots of fun things lined up.. anyone wanna go countdown?? i'm freaking bored at home.. but now wishing to do to the CPA camp.. *argh* you yao shou ku le.. >.< tml got choir.. hahax.. gonna sing again.. but tml sectionals lehx.. hahax.. kae kae.. time to slack again.. update later again bahx.. miss u dear dear~! love ya~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:50 AM
metoyou
he left le.. 8.45 p.m.. at least he spend 30 minutes to sms me.. gonna miss ya lotx.. haix.. feel like crying.. i feel as if a part of me is missing.. >.< got a great news~!!! i'm not gonna be an EXCO~!! booya~!! happy for me?? hehex.. but no one around to share the happiness with me.. haix.. love u lotx~! have a fun time there~!! miss ya~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:14 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
metoyou
booya~! i'm at my aunt's house, but got the urge to update my diary..haha.. went to east coast jux now.. went to drop jie and her friend.. they go there to roller blade.. man.. been 4 years since i last roller blade.. hehex.. =P jia yun came back yesterday~!! ur care taker misses u, u noe that??? hahax.. JZ going china on thursday, unable to check out his posting.. sigh.. gonna miss u, buddy.. as for u, leaving tml huhx? wasn't able to imagine how i am gonna live 4 days without u.. manx. miss u dearly.. >.< hahax.. mum'x coming back on friday, dad too and u.. haha~! am i gonna have any presents?? =X gonna go.. wahaha.. =P
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:56 PM
metoyou:
stupid holiday sleeping mood only last for one day.. >.< msg minx.. she leaving today~!! *sadening* gonna miss u mummy.. everyone leaving me.. i'm so sad.. =( msg kor kor lo.. we got nothing much to talk about actually.. hahax.. i notice that i only can last msging a person for 1 month.. but not counting minx, nana and him.. hahax.. 3+ he msg me.. he is busy looking for houses?? he told me he wan to buy bigger house.. somehow, my six sense tells me, something is wrong.. hmmx.. then sae alot of miss ya, love ya, muackx and hugx.. *blush* he gonna give me his first kiss.. =X hahax... sweet guy.. love u baby.. =P but somehow, he wanna exchange his first kiss for my first kiss.. =S hahax.. wadever.. i guess, we won't give each other de.. hahax.. =) freaking bored.. hahax.. lets see.. GG msg me.. expecting it.. he has been msging me everyday.. hahax.. realise that he isn't that bad as i tot.. hahax.. good senior.. hahax.. then he sae he miss me?!?! haha.. aiyo.. feel so honoured.. finally noe he has a sense of humour.. hahax.. somehow, i feel he is trying to spend every moment he has with me.. the more he does that, the more i'm afraid.. do u think it will last? i have my doubts.. love u dear dear.. love u more than anyone else.. i'm seriously gonna miss u when u leave..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:55 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
metoyou:
woke up late..finally having my holiday mood to sleep~!!! =P then nana dear dear msg me.. =) ask me wad i wearing.. hahax..we going out today~!!! me, minx and nana.. so long 3 of us nv go out together le.. =X 11+ he msg me.. hahax.. then sae wake up first ting came to his mind was to msg me.. *blush* hahax.. u rox my world~!! love u more than anyone..hahax.. =P left house 11.40.. hahax.. he ask me whether eat le, i sae haven't..then ask him the same question, he sae he wants me to feed him.. >.< then ask him come out, he dun wan.. hahax.. he leaving on tuesday, coming back on fiday.. hao xiang ta worx.. =( minx minx leaving on sunday(14/11).. haix.. reach bugis mrt about 12+ le.. hahax.. then 3 of us + nana de younger brother go walk walk lo.. hahax.. then later, went to take neoprints.. coz nana's friends came ma, so me and minx went to take first.. we so lame lo.. got one is looking up, as if got stars lidat..hahax.. then later got one is we hug de.. but we never decorate.. *sadening* then later we took with her friends lo.. after that, we went to walk walk.. go buy second hand textbooks.. hahax.. then go mac sit awhile.. later, we went long john silver to eat eat.. hahax.. then went home lo.. hahax.. super tire.. read teens magazine.. next month de horoscope for gemini:turn the spotlight on yourself with your wits and charm. little arguments once in a while could spice up your relationship. friends love to seek ur opinion..and his, capricorn:make a fresh start and prepare yourself for the brand new year ahead! watch out for an exciting romance! everyone has their own style. follow yours.hmmx.. cool? hahax.. i dunno.. came across a nice nice four leaf necklace.. remember that his christmas present, i got give him one four leaf.. then the leaves represents: hope, faith, love and luck.. haha.. =P last night before sleeping, i msg him.. tu ran, i'm afraid he would leave me lo.. i dunno why.. but all his reply bu shi love u, jiu shi miss u, or hugx or muackx.. love u lotx.. somehow, he really rule my world le..he took over the entire world of mine.. haix.. love u lotx, dun wanna leave u..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:17 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
metoyou:
woke up at 7 today.. supper tire.. =( then reach school near 8.. wait for my freaking turn for the stupid interview.. dun wanna talk about it kae? jux noe i sux alot~!!! then later u msg me.. *happy* u going library to study bahx.. but i got choir, can't pei u.. =( i'm glad u forgive me for wad i said the other night.. so sorry.. told u about kor kor de shi.. then when u sae u object, it really made me smile.. things are fine between us again~!!! u gave me an answer.. u wanted me by ur side.. hehex.. *sMiLe* love u lotx.. choir rox today~!! keep singing the songs.. like the ca' the yowes alot.. hahax.. anyway, alittle better in life.. hahax.. i'm so happy~!! i'm jumping up and down.. =P miss ya lotx and love u alwayx.. =)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:00 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
metoyou:
i feel i need to talk to u.. i feel i needed to noe how u feel.. but something is pulling me back.. time change, everything isn't the way it was before.. things are different now.. i'm not willing to give up on this relationship, but i'm force to.. i wan u to be happy, i wan u to find ur own happiness.. happiness that i am unable to give you.. and it is all up to you.. many galx out there for u to choose.. and one of them is ur dream galx.. my dear, i love you more than anyone else.. but i have to let you go.. ur happiness is mine, and i wan u to stay happy alwayx.. love you lotx.. i'll never forget the love u gave me, and the care and concern u show me..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:28 PM
msg u last night.. kinda hint to u that i miss u.. but sad to sae, we are gonna be over.. kor keep asking me to be his stead.. i dunno how to turn him down, in fact i dunno my decision.. if u wan me by ur side, jux sae.. i'm willing to stay.. but now, it seems that u don't wan me by ur side.. 1 month 14 days before i give the answer.. u still have 1 month 14 days to tell me u wan me by ur side.. wadever.. jared kor called me jux now.. asked me go mac on monday, his treat.. =P thanx kor.. hehex.. miss ya kae? and all the best for ur Os~!!! hehex.. come back often to visit me horx.. hehex.. choir rox today.. finish the entire Ca the yowes le.. hahax.. but friday starts at 10 and end at 4.. stupid lox~!!! no computer le.. ='( saturday going out? dunno.. lazy go out lehx.. kor kor wan go watch movie.. i also wan to watch~!!! but i lazy go out.. hahax.. rain heavily today.. then my stupid flu still not recover and my maid splash water on me.. (-.-") haix.. can't help thinking of u.. maybe i zi zhuo duo qing.. haix.. love u lotx.. miss ya..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:16 AM
Monday, November 08, 2004
*sigh* dad's condition seems to be better a little.. hope everything is fine.. but here i am, caught with a flu virus.. >.< slight headache too.. didn't receive ur msg today.. ='( hope u aren't angry with the way i treat u yesterday.. sorwee.. kor kinda cheer me up yesterday.. he tot of a good news.. and wad was it? he wanna forget his ex and find a new stead.. *diaox* so i ask him who is his new target.. he sae me.. -.-" then i dun believe him lo.. stupid guyx.. =P he keep asking me to believe him, then i ask him how he gonna convince me, he sae to ask me to go steady.. *bleahx* he pei me last night till i slept.. but still, i hope to receive ur msg.. i dunno wad to sae.. but i really miss u lotx.. i dunno wad i can do.. but i jux miss u lotx.. love ya..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:11 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
lately, many things happened.. probably they didn't affect my much for the past few days.. but they are affecting me so much now.. >.< i dunno wad to do and i'm in a confuse state.. so much family problems to worry.. and i'm the youngest.. i dunno how to help out.. i dunno how to bring happiness to my parents once again.. all i bring to them is nothing but trouble.. wad am i to do? i wan my happy family to be there for me.. but things are going so wrong.. i'm willing to let go all my stuff in exchange for my family.. i'm sorry for how i treated you.. i might sound cold or mean.. but i'm really not in the mood.. sorry guys, if my tone is abit mean or cold.. way too many stuff for me to handle and it is seriously hard for me to adapt.. guess time heals my wound.. take care peeps~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:57 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
packed my entire cupboards yesterday.. all the memories seems to be flowing in.. still remember stylio keep writing letters to me.. hehex.. then we start gossipings, chatting and soon.... hmmx.. that was in P6.. sec 1 ar.. minx, nana and i keep passing notes in class.. and we were talking about bgr..hahax.. it always ended up minx and me will be the only one passing to each other.. coz nana is right in front and the teachers are always looking at her.. hahax.. my place rox last year.. sitting by the window rox.. can bio yandao.. hehex.. this year too~! but later i changed my place.. hahax.. anywayx, i saw my last year grades.. i did improve in my CAs papers.. hahax.. =P went for the bbq at 5.30.. mummy make me wait for daddy lahx.. aiyoyo.. >.< then i so 'bright' lo.. lucky got kor kor to chat with me.. hahax.. i spend the entire night teasing kor kor.. =P stupid kor kor, ur dream galx still waiting for u la.. =P hehex.. can i believe it, i went there for the bbq, yet i ate only a satay.. *saded* then went the the beach.. so stars.. haix.. then i shout!!! rox man.. uphappy stuff jux slowly fade and disappear into thin air.. i shouted twice.. then da sao cried lo.. stupid sam kor still dun wan to an wei her.. haix.. then we sat at the benches there.. sam kor told me alot of his stories.. dunno why, i started to cry lo.. not again?! then doggie sat on the leaning thingy la.. then i rest my head on his leg.. then i looked at him.. stupid doggie, suddenly use his hand and touch my chin.. then he keep patting my head.. doggie is a good guy, but he kinda flirt.. hahax.. =P went home at 11+.. then i slept nearly 12.. i'm having sore throat after those shouting, having flu after the sea breeze.. >.< haix.. my hand pain again.. and my stupid thumb is bleeding.. =S haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:17 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
aiyo.. stupid guy, make me worry for nothing.. haiyo.. but glad u are fine.. =) kor kor wake me up again.. sorrwee lehx.. didn't mean to get u up so early.. then he went back to bed, 8.10 then wake up.. keke.. he was late for lesson.. hahax.. =X u got test today~!!! hahax.. how was it? wish u all the best kae? i noe u can do it.. went to school at 9 to help mrs poh again.. then Mr tan caught me using phone.. >.< nearly get confiscated.. >.< then went for choir.. the song so blur lahx.. hahax.. wadever la.. SYF mux jia you.. came home msg ya.. hehex.. so good of u to pei me awhile.. but sad that u dun wan to go.. guess she is going, so u dun wanna see her.. won't force ya.. muackx.. love ya kae? i feel i'm closer to kor kor worx.. probably we noe for a short time, so got more things to talk about.. to u, i really dunno wad to talk about.. probably i'm yet to noe you well.. haix.. love you lotx.. *-forever in my heart-*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:37 AM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
kinda surprise you msg me last night.. expected no msg from you yesterday.. somehow, you melt my heart before bed, allowing me to have sweet dreams.. love you lotx.. woke up by kor kor today.. got him to msg me at 9, before his lessons.. then saw ur msg early in the morning at 7.09.. =) wad a start of the day.. haix.. i seems to be falling deeper for you, no matter how hard i try to control my feelings.. sometimes, it is better to let nature take its own course.. went to downstairs.. you occupied my whole mind once again.. i recalled the day we first met.. probably i left you a bad impression.. i wonder how things change so fast.. i'm amused.. i think i'm crazy.. totally.. i'm stuffing myself with food despite feeling so full.. now i feel like vomitting.. *argh* i hate the feeling.. but i dunno why i love doing it.. i'm stuffing myself again~!!! why can't i stop?? haix.. i'm mad~!!! hahax.. kae.. i have to learn to stop all these at once.. haix.. if only i could stop myself for falling deeper for u.. >.< love you lotx..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:16 PM
kor kor wake me up this morning.. then i slowly climb out of the bed lo.. msg kor kor until his lessons start.. he damn good wors.. he msg me during his break.. hahax.. i damn bored lo.. =S then went to school at 12.30.. saw u there.. but i choose to ignore.. then saw samuel kor.. high 5 with him, but he grap my hand..then i struggle.. damn pain la.. dunno if u see.. haix.. went to canteen help my jie jie.. then u tap my head.. dunno for wad.. i damn sleepy la.. today de choir not so bad.. quite fun.. but after that, came home, damn sleepy.. haix.. i'm reading this chao ji sweet story book lahx.. the husband died but left her lotx of envelopes.. each for each months.. is a list of things to do lo.. then at the end of each letter, he signed off: P.S, i love you.. so sweet.. i couldn't help crying when she was reading the letter he gave her.. so touching.. haix.. i miss you so much~!! i can't help thinking of you.. u occupied my entire mind.. i dunno why.. haix.. i love you so much..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:18 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
it seems like yesterday when we were having all those funs.. but yet, today, i was unable to look into ur eyes.. probably my level of confidence is low when u are around.. i dunno why.. with all those pressure that the prefectorial board teachers are giving and those obsticles that are awaiting me to go through, i feel like jux be a turtle.. i feel like jux hiding away from all these problems.. then again, i feel as if i'm in a world full of darkness.. with no one around me, that loneliness and sadness soon came to accompany me.. haix.. wad should i do? what should i sae? the level of confidence is too low that i am unable to look at you.. am i a coward or wad? haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:09 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
today so sickening.. cannot sleep lehx.. all thanx to the weird dream i have last night.. >.< didn't expect to meet u in my dream.. =) haha.. went to school today.. suppose to do personal statement.. but i slack la.. dun care about it.. hahax.. then saw u twice.. =X so happie worx.. hahax.. =P then about 12+, miss leong came in.. then she took pei pei de poker cards and help me see my future la.. she damn pro.. it is very accurate i have to sae.. =) the first time is really on relationship lo.. then i wasn't really concentrating.. so only one card came out, then she ask me to concentrate, then many other cards came out.. hahax.. then she told me la.. then sae that i was the one who liked u first.. but i like u more than u like me.. haha.. true? dunno.. then sae that u liked me, but i dun dare to accept.. tRuE~!!! hahax.. then sae that it is rather a good relationship, but then, then ending might last only for a few months.. gee.. i totally believe in this now.. so true.. but worst, she is curious who i was thinking about.. >.< hahax.. i didn't noe wad to do, so i asked to play the YES/NO question.. i asked if we should be together? guess wad?? the answer was yes~!! hahax.. am i glad or wad? God gave me the answer.. love you so much man~!! hahax.. it kinda brightens my day.. but somehow, the rain spoils it all.. haix.. it is raining.. everything starts to flow back into my mind.. i haven't forgotten those days.. those days that i had been through after we break.. it was raining.. i listen to the same songs online, thinking the same things.. if we would really be back together again.. would miracles happen again?? i feel like i am a turtle.. hiding in my shell, not wanting the face reality.. who had been the one with me through those dark days? who have been the one lending me the firm shoulders to cry onto? i dunno.. but all these while, i wish we were together and face every moment together, walked every road together.. enjoying and treasuring every moment we had.. i was once truly, deeply, madly in love with u.. and now, i am once again, truly, madly,deeply in love with u.. till now, i'm still wondering in ur world.. i'm lost in the big world, searching for u to save me out.. haix.. but will you?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:00 AM
