Thursday, December 29, 2005
there is one weird thing about life.. everyone has different strengths and weakness.. well.. but despite of these, people are still able to communicate well.. okay.. probably some..
i was thinking about my achievements that i had this entire year.. and let me tell you, i've done nothing to make myself proud! being in the first class, so what?! being an exco, so what?! it doesn't matter how much and how well you do.. all it matters is whether u have done the best you can.. and put everything that you have learnt into good use..
i've been looking through my files.. yap.. lots and lots of work.. completed, remarks such as neat work or good.. but so what? i've learnt nothing.. i have to practically flip to the notes to be able to have a brief idea on how to do my questions.. did i ever put my knowledge into good use?! nope! i'm a failure..
so what if you have an A level cert? i can have a diploma cert! all that matters it that you have done the best that you can.. you feel happy of being who you are.. and what is most important that you are happy with what ur are studying.. studying something that you don't like is a torture! it is like forcing urself to eat something that you hate.. to eat something that you shall and will never eat! that feeling, is so torturing..
probably many of u disagree with me.. i'll accept it.. this is my way of thinking.. i just hate people planning my future when i'm not happy with it.. i hate being someone that i don't want to be..
i don't care if i'm useless.. i don't give a bloody damn whether i am childish.. i just care that i am happy of being who i am.. and who i really want to be.. and of course, whether i have put in the best that i can..
stress, is just like a dessert.. it only push you to work harder.. put it will never push you to put the best that you can.. treat studying as a leisure.. treat it like an entertainment.. for this entertainment will lead you to where u really wish to end up in..
follow ur heart, let it bring you to where you really wanna be..
the future lies in ur own hand.. and not others
sorry mummy, i can't do what u want me to..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:04 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
i'm bored.. i've practically spent the entire morning doing my physics TYS! can u imagine?! my my.. my head is gonna burst with numbers, formulas and graphs! aiyoyo.. in fact, i have spent like 3 whole days to finish just 2 chapters.. ><
aunt gave me a box of gingerbread.. then ask me to make my own house.. lols.. i tired to do it this morning during breakfast.. but the biscuits just don't stick to each other.. *sigh* oh oh.. i tired abit. it taste.. weird.. hmms.. lols..
recently, many people think that i'm sad and stuff lidat.. i'm fine, k? don't worry.. especially to my dearest eve, and lao gong! woots.. i'm fine.. eve, i know Daddy loves me.. i know that.. =D
*sigh* new year is coming again.. i hate it when i have to be stuck at home.. just like saturday.. everyone is counting down.. while me? ALL ALONE! that feeling just sucks! i hate that feeling.. eeewx~!
oh ya! for those you wanna grow taller, maybe u can try jumping when the clock stikes 12 m.n.. i think it works.. i tried that! hahas.. that is why i'm quite tall.. erms.. the word is "QUITE".. =X
i'm so crappy.. coz i'm bored.. and when i'm bored.. i'm crappy.. and when i'm crappy, it means i'm bored.. and when it means i'm bored, it means i'll be crappy.. aiya! say until i'm confused, myself! *argh*
hmms.. wonder why people have so many good points, while i can't find my good points.. everyone has their talent, while i don't.. i can't and i won't blame my mummy for pushing me so hard to study well.. probably i'm only good at burying my head in the books.. but even if i do so, my results aren't good.. *sigh* am i a failure or what.. it really hurts seeing ur love ones worry for you, when u are trying so hard to make them proud.. but u know that that is the best you can do it.. i hate myself! i hate myself for not being able to do my parents proud.. DADDY!!! SAVE ME!!!!
---- my deadline will be coming soon
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:05 PM
Monday, December 26, 2005
sometimes.. i feel that i'm not wanted on this earth.. probably people around me would be happier.. probably life would be better for every single one of them..
maybe.. i should just slipped away from them.. and maybe.. well.. i don't know.. tell me what to do?
piggy:tell me if everything is true.. don't hurt me anymore.. please..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:23 PM
another rainy day.. not nice for sleeping though.. lols.. currently, i'm in a studying mood.. don't ask me why.. after all the nagging, shoutings and GROUNDING!!!! *argh*
suppose to go to school to take the paper.. but then, the assistant don't allow us to take the paper home.. fine.. so i just head home lo.. BORING! lols..
i'm like stuck at home.. can't go out till i finish my homework.. *sigh* any kind soul wanna help me with my homework? i'll treat you!!! lols.. i know.. i know.. i'm lame.. but i can't help it! i'm desperate to get out of this freaking house! i wanna go out to buy chocolates.. lots and lots of chocolates! milk chocolates, white chocolates.. and many many more! i wanna go out!!!!
*sigh*
thats all folks`` tata``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:25 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
ARGH!!!! so sad.. i missed the first 17 minutes of christmas.. *Sigh* i slept at 11.30.. then i woke up at 12.17.. received 7 msges.. >< lols.. i was too lazy to reply any.. lols.. so i went back to bed lo.. =X
woke up this morning.. wait for sis to wake up so we can open the presents together.. hehes.. i got my furry notebook from my sistah, Q bear wallet and belt from mum's friends.. mum gave me a heart-shape pendant.. hehes.. all that i wanted.. really so happy!
went to orchard lo.. stupid.. so many people keep pushing me!!! *Argh* hate people who push me or step on my slipper.. make me feel like slapping them right on the face and step on their bare feet.. hmpt! aiyo.. reach home that time.. did abit of homework.. them mum pull me to NTUC.. lols.. spent alot on food lo.. hehe.. then came home to do my homework again.. lols..
just wanna wish everyone a merry merry christmas.. =D
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:40 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
what am i doing here? what am i doing here?! argh! everyone is partying.. and yet, me, who is suppose to go countdown, is at home.. i'm freaking bored! i've got nothing to do..
went out just now.. suppose to meet qian ying.. but i went alone.. went to order his christmas present.. then i went to edge to buy jie's present.. walk and walk and walk.. then i msg qian ying.. lols.. she alone in bugis too.. lols.. so i met her.. then we went to walk walk lo.. after that, i walk with her to the mrt station.. then i'm alone again.. lols.. so i went to collect his present at about 2.40.. not bad la.. =S after that.. i went alone to TM..
i just realise that it is so hard for one to be alone.. especially if u are someone who is cheerful, and talkative.. i really had a hard time today.. lols.. it isn't easy shopping alone without anyone to chat with..
well.. next week got another countdown.. will i be at home? *sigh* someone! anyone! please! ask me out!!!!
who am i?
| You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
| Your Personality Profile |
You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
| You Were Nice This Year! |
You're an uber-perfect person who is on the top of Santa's list.
You probably didn't even *think* any naughty thoughts this year.
Unless you're a Mormon, you've probably been a little too good.
Is that extra candy cane worth being a sweetheart for 365 days straight? |
| Your Birthdate: June 2 |
You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.
You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.
Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.
Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive.
Your strength: Your universal compassion
Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings
Your power color: Mauve
Your power symbol: Butterfly
Your power month: February |
| Your Hidden Talent |
You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary. |
| Your Seduction Style: Au Natural |
You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you. |
| Your Inner Child Is Surprised |
You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. |
| The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
| Your Dating Purity Score: 91% |
You are an innocent dater.
You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship.
Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample! |
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:04 AM
Friday, December 23, 2005
IT IS OVER~!
lols.. i'm wondering if yesterday's registration is the last time i'm wearing a blazer and court shoes.. =D
anyway, i couldn't sleep last night.. probably only 4 hours bah.. lols.. then i woke up at 6+ to prepare for school.. then i tot i'll be late.. but never mind.. reach school.. first person i saw was kor.. so i run, to catch up with him.. lols. then he won't say that i'm late.. =D
i change into my court shoes, and help him get ready for the event.. it should be a great day bah.. there are only 5 classes this year, with only 168 students.. man.. the population is decreasing.. lols..
anyway, parents start coming in at 8.. the ICs are all helping out.. i kept running up and down.. lols.. coz up stair a little too boring.. lols.. lols.. the entire event finish at 11, going to 12.. then i went with eve, boi boi, kor, ren, jordan and rainer to bugis.. WE SPENT 91 BUCKS FOR LUNCH!! can u ever believe it? lols.. then went to collect boi boi's present.. lols.. he spent so much to give the girl he likes.. lols. then i tease kor kor.. hahas.. funny.. =D
P.S: I REALISE I HAVEN'T FINISH HITTING KOR~!
anyway.. happy birthday kor.. =D
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:02 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
have been a rather good girl these few days.. hahax.. =D
went to the airport yesterday to the airport.. not to depart or not to expect anyone.. but i went to the pacific cafe to study.. =D went to study with my beloved puay.. with my dear qian ying.. and with my wonderful buddy, jian zong.. lols.. very lame lo.. me and jian zong meet first.. then we wait and wait for qian ying.. from 12.20, to 12.30 and finally met at 12.40.. lols.. then puay was like so erm.. hahax.. then walked to find place to study lo.. they were really serious when come to studying.. i was like playing, walking and joking.. oops! i influence qian ying until she wasn't able to concentrate studying.. >< sorry! lols.. then went to NTUC to buy some stuff.. not bad la.. bought alot of things.. hahax.. spent 4.80 only lo.. hahax.. not bad sia.. was super broke yesterday!
today leh. woke up rather early.. then msg kai xiang kor.. sorry to wake u up worx.. didnt' know ur vibration so strong.. my vibration defintely won't wake me up.. lols.. call me 10 times, i also dun care.. lols.. then i went out to print the homework for puay.. haha.. so this lady was asking me about my school.. i sound like a promoter.. keep promoting my own school.. lols.. then rush back home.. then get ready to leave the house.. reach there the earliest lo.. then went to buy chocolates.. =D then met qian ying.. then we saw puay.. i ran to her.. qian ying wear high heels, so cannot run.. lols.. studied from 11+ to about 6.. then went to buy chocolates again.. then went home.. lols..
its surprising to receive his msg though.. somehow.. i don't know.. hmms.. it feel weird..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:44 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
i tot i've gotten over it.. but i realise i havent..
how am i going to tell you that i still miss you? that i still love you?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:41 AM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
lesson learnt: you won't know the outcome, till you try it. it takes alot of courage to try. it takes alot of courage to stand on stage and do the best. you are the winner, as long as you try. you are the winner as long as you tell yourself that you have done the best that you can. you will and you are the winner in your heart.
1st day
carry my luaggage to school.. then wait for every single member.. we were all excited, ready for the party that we had planned.. however, we weren't ready for the competition. along the journey, we screamed, we played, we slept.. we have done so many things.. our first stop was at yong peng.. we stop for toilet break and have some breakfast. me, QY, JL and jenny went to the shop to grab some stuff that we aren't not allowed to eat. coz they are bad for our throat. we manage to resist the temptation, by just buying, but not eating.. lolx.. then we we carry on our jouney to a country club for lunch. the food was great. it is really a country club lo.. lolx. then we took group photo.. lolx.. we carry on our jouney to the hotel, which took about 3 hours..
finally, we arrived at the hotel with our luaggage. as we walked pass some JC students, they commented that we look too big for a primary school student.. i was like what the.. hmmx.. we check into our rooms.. had a break before we head to an hour of practise.. then we break for dinner.. about 7+, we met up at the lobby and went to the near by condo, to practise.. MAN~ the condo is called sri acapalla it is like so coincident.. lolx.. we practise from 8 to 9.30.. while we were singing at the poolside, i could see the lights of each house, one-by-one turning off.. wonder it is how we sing, or if it is they way their life is.. hmmx.. anyway, as the conductors feel that we should not carry on, they break us.. that is the end of day one.
2nd day
we had to wake up early for breakfast.. then we had an hour break before we had our sectionals. sectional starts at 9 a.m in QY and my room.. although it was squeezy, but there was no other choice.. about then at 9.45, we left the rooms and met at a huge room for a rehersal. we did our warm-ups and started singing.. at about 12, we had a sound test in the actual hall.. man! now i understand why we must have good support.. otherwise, people at the second level, could not hear.. the medium which the sound travel wasn't like the music room, where the sound bounce back and makes it feel as if you sang loudly.. it is different in there. we break for lunch and went back to our room to prepare for the competition. we had another round of rehersal before we changed into our costumes. we met up for our final round of rehersal before we will be on stage. while waiting for the other choirs, we stood there feel very anxious, excited and scared. especially for me! it is the first time i'm standing on the first row! >< lolx.. then it was our turned. audience were clapping, as we walked up the staged. we got into our positions and sang where we were give the signal.. *phew* our turned was over. we went to the second floor to watch the other choirs.. it is really our honour to watch the european choir.. they were prefect! about 7+, we went back to our room to changed and head out for dinner at a restaurant far away from our hotel.. then, we went to 7 eleven after dinner.. we are able to eat what we want without paying a single cent. coz our teachers will pay for us.. =D hahax.. that night, many people party.. but i was too tired, and slept off.. zZzZ.
3rd day
that morning, we woke up 8+, and head for breakfast.. we met at about 9 a.m.. had a walk to the quality hotel there to take group photo.. and head back to the hotel to watch other category. we had the JC choirs and the mixed voices.. it was really nice.. about lunch time, we went to sunway pyramid for SHOPPING~!!! they gave us about 1 and a half hour. i didn't buy much except for one shirt which cost 29.90RM about S$13.10.. it was cheap though.. QY bought a shirt, a bag and a pants.. man.. you be scared out of ur wits to see how she buy.. MY GOSH! lols.. we had dinner at a chinese restaurant near the shopping mall.. the food looked nice.. but i did eat much as i was feeling so full.. that is all for the day..
4th day
we met about 9+ and head towards the KL.. went to visit some tourism attraction places.. took many photos! oh ya.. went to the King's palace! it is huge! guess we are able to finish our 2.4 in just one round or so.. lols.. then went to the KL tower.. didn't went up though.. but took many photos.. then went to visit the monument.. it is so funny! lols.. many funny photos were taken there.. finally.. we were give 15 RM each, for lunch.. then, we head off to Wan Utama for shopping! i today, it's my turn! i bought many things.. i bought a bag for myself and foods for my family members.. lols.. we met up at 3+ and head back to the hotel for the final.. WE GOT OURSELVES SILVER GRADE A! we were so shocked, but happy! lolx.. it is really a wonderful thing! we went back to our rooms to do some packing and met up again to watch the grand finals.. all the top winners performed.. oh oh! there is this TK guy who was so cute! he is tall and he had wonderful features.. OMG~ HE IS A HUNK AND A CUTIE! well, after that, we had dinner in the hotel and head back to our rooms..
we had party.. actually it was in my room.. then one-by-one went to avril's room.. so i was alone in the room.. watching soccer match when, someone pressed my doorbell.. i looked out, and saw no one.. >< OMG~ i freaked out and run to avril's room.. we chatted till like 2+ in the morning.. and by the time everyone went to bed, it was already 3.30 in the morning.. ><
5th day
we had to meet in the lobby at about 7.45 to check out.. yap.. i only at 2+ hours of sleep.. then we board the bus and head to malacca.. we had our last minute shopping at TAN KIM HOCK.. i bought food stuff for friends and for my uncles and aunties.. then we had lunch at about 11.30.. after lunch, we went to the malaysia custom.. well.. that is all for our trip..
through this trip, i know where i belong. i feel a sense of belonging to choir. i feel that they are just like my family. we share our happiness together, we work hard together and we aim towards the same goal together.. there may be cliques somehow.. but it doesn't matter.. as long as we know that we will be standing hand in hand, side by side to achieve what we want. choir, you rock my life. music, you spice up my life!
oh oh.. and to that TK guy.. man! i really hope to know you one day.. *sigh*
that all folks. tata``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:59 AM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
wow.. been a long time since i last update.. actually, it isn't long.. just 8 days only.. hahax..
intensive training was tough.. many people fell ill and stuff lidat.. but.. man! when all the voices were warmed up, it sound really nice.. hahax.. =D well.. hope we could perform lidat during the competition.. and may our voices be at tip-top conditions.. hahx..
hmmx.. many of my friends are leaving one by one.. as in, going for holidays and stuff like that.. but never mind.. coz i'll be leaving tml! hahax.. kinda feeling excited.. but i haven't pack my bag!!! lolx..
well, that's all folks! tata``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:34 PM
