Saturday, February 25, 2006
yesterday, went to mac with kor and boi boi.. although they got their own problems.. but still, they are that cheerful.. yap.. i'm glad.. dun have to worry about them.. =)
went to tuition with alex.. then at the bus-stop talk to ted.. got to know that enen cried.. then i feel so helpless lo.. sigh.. maybe i'm not a good friend.. *sigh* then when i msg him, i feel very useless.. there is no way i can ever cheer him up.. man.. i'm just another failure..
went home that time.. mummy ask me if i wanna cut my hair.. didn't want to...
probably what wu lao shi said was right.. whenever girls are sad, they either shop like crazy or they go and cut their hair..
yap.. i've got a new haircut.. didn't want to.. but i just need to cut if for the sake of cutting.. *sigh*
didn't feel happy ever since that day.. i don't know what happen.. probably what doesn't belong to you, will never belong to you.. what for should i let it affect me? but there is no choice..
right now, i'm in a total darkness.. all that i can ever see is tears in my eyes.. i'm lost.. i don't know where i wanna go or where i wanna be.. what i fear of has already come true..
he is now a total stranger to me.. someone i will never understand..
was at orchard.. everyone around me is smiling.. i really wanna lead a simple life.. i really wanna just do the things that i've all along wanted to..i wanna lead a carefree life.. but why? WHY DID IT EVER HAPPEN?
i'm back to where i was.. i'm back to being afraid of many things..
how i wished it had never happened before.. i'm wishing..
a lesson learnt``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:54 AM
Thursday, February 23, 2006
thanks kor~! thanks for always being there for me and listening to my problems.. =)
well, i've found my valentine for next year le.. lols.. treating him hagen dazz while he treat me sushi.. lols.. who could it be? my beloved kor.. lols.. a kor who will always be there for me~! lols..
well.. i'm really amused with myself.. lady luck is always watching over me.. i've been really lucky enough to pass my tests, even though if i didn't really study.. Mr M said that i had a great improvement in my a maths.. lols.. i'm glad i've pass my e maths and my chem test.. lols..
hmms.. ever since things changed, my friends are always there to encourage me to move on.. but where are you? haiz..
saw lin lin cry today.. abit sad la.. sigh.. why do guys always don't understand what girls are thinking? well.. i can't blame you guys, although it is partly we, girls's, fault.. sigh.. best, don't be involved~!
tata``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:07 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006
weekend is over.. which means more obstacles are yet to come..
tuesday:english language Common test
wednesday: A Maths mock common test
thursday: chinese class test & chem QA theory class test
friday:Chinese common test
wow.. really busy huh? lols.. not busy actually la.. it is fine.. only that i have to sacrifise my sleeping hours!! >< damn..
well.. haven't been doing well in my studies.. probably i've lost all my interest in it.. but no matter what, i won't give up.. i'm continue trying and striving for better results~!
come on man~ encourage me! motivate me! keep my moving! hahas..
i don't know what cause the change to the way you speak to be.. i don't know if i should feel hurt, or should i just ignore it.. you know my fear.. you know what i always wanted.. but if you have to do this to me.. i'll let it be..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:16 AM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
life is starting to get worse.. really don't wish to carry on any further..
things are starting to change since last friday.. i'm telling you, i'm not use to it.. it is pointless to constantly reminding urself that tml will be a better day when you know it will never be.. what for deceive urself?
sigh..
tell me this is only a nightmare.. tell me that when i'm awake things will be better..
sigh..
what for? when i know that i just have to accept reality one day..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:40 AM
Saturday, February 11, 2006
wanna thank those who really care so much for me.. i'm fine now.. really..
Dr Ernest wong said: to have satisfaction, we must have action.. i guess.. my only action is to work hard for the retake.. time to change my syllabus to the new one.. no more words to study! that is what i'm happy about.. compre? yap.. my best part.. guess. it wasn't that bad as i thought ba..
i wanna be the 5% who wanna succeed.. i wanna do my parents proud..
hey man.. i'm really sorry that i've disappoint you.. forgive me, will you?
tears are rolling down again..
the only person who can't accept me is myself.. no one, but me..
is my expectation too high or what?
i'm just arrogant..
There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
i'm praying for a miracle.. i believe there will be..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:35 AM
Friday, February 10, 2006
haven been attending a motivational camp from monday to wednesday.. shall update about it some time soon.. just not today ba..
i don't know if life is like this.. but i guess, everyone must fail ba..
getting b4 for chinese Os.. should i be happy or what? yap.. i finally dropped higher chinese.. but yet i'm feeling sad..
how should i feel?
is it a blessing in disguise of what? *sigh*
not mood to update..
i feel so guilty.. stop loving me.. will you?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:30 AM
Sunday, February 05, 2006
yesterday.. woke up 7+.. lols.. then went to school lo.. then on the train, i receive a msg from dumpei.. so before i reply, i look around for him lo.. he is like one arm away from me la.. then i smack him.. lols.. stupid dumpei! i'm not dao hor! listen to my mp3 so loudly, so never hear you only ma.. >< lols..
then went to meet lao gong and qian ying.. lol.. she very poor thing leh.. always have to wait for me and qian ying de.. lols.. then went to schoo to do our noticeboard.. lols.. after it was done, we help to sweep the floor and clear up the place lo.. haha..
went lunch with puay, buddy, qian ying and Mr F.. lols.. very funny lo.. lols.. me and qian ying only had coffee for lunch.. lols.. pro right? hahas.. anyway, we spent the entire time laughing lo.. hahas.. alot of jokes going on.. hahas.. and he trick me and qian ying with his stupid condo key.. lols.. then i say, we'll go his house for A maths tuition and study for O Lvl.. haha.. he say we may go to the baby pool to study.. >< LAME RIGHT?! lols.. nvm..
after that, me and qian ying head off to town.. lols.. walk here walk there.. i only manage to buy my comb and my socks.. those super high socks.. for what? don't want to get scolded by some teachers lo.. *sigh*
after that, came home.. receive a letter from MOE.. they congratulate me for completing my O Lvl exams and say i'm ready to move on to the next stage.. lol.. how am i to move on when i only took one sub? lol.. after reading the letter, i keep laughing lo.. lols..
hmms.. wonder if the truth always hurts.. but i'll rather get hurt than being lied to.. *sigh*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:07 AM
Saturday, February 04, 2006
for potato, who ask me to do.. i'm good lo.. lols
Seven things that scare me:
1. being alone in a dark place.
2. crowded shopping malls, like those in orchard!
3. BEING FAT~.
4. pimples
5. failing exams!
6. insects
7. stress?
Seven random songs at the moment:
1. just want you to know
2. almost paradise
3. because of you
4. breakaway
5. almost here
6. without you
7. that thing you do
Seven things i like the most:
1. my relatives
2. my zhu peng gou you.. lols.. jk..
3. electronic stuff
4. being wanted and loved
5. stuff toys!
6. me, myself and i..
7. watching TV
Seven important things in my bedroom:
1. blanket
2. cupboard
3. mattress
4. calendar
5. soft toys!
6. clothes
7. a box of my secrets.. xP
Seven random facts about me:
1. im a cheerful person (most of the time)
2. im a person who love romance
3. hate teachers who go against me!
4. im a failure
5. i love my friends
6. im sensitive
7. i am trying to be mature
Seven things i plan to do before i die:
1. wanna watch NC 16 movie
2. wanna go clubbing and pubbing
3. wanna start a happy family
4. have a comfortable life
5. wanna go touring around the world
6. wanna do volunteering work for the poor in other part of the world..
7. want everyone around me to be happy.
Seven things i can do:
1. study
2. sleep
3. skip meals to go dieting
4. joke
5. read
6. slack
7. eat
Seven things i say the most:
1. whatever la.
2. aiyo
3. haha
4. love!
5. ooo
6. no lo
7. bleah
Seven celebrity crushes
don't know.. lols..
Seven qualities i want in a potential boyfriend:
1. taller den me
2. trust me
3. caring
4. always being there for me
5. LOVE me truely, deeply, madly
6. be who he really is
7. be proactive!
Seven people i want to do this:
everyone who enter my blog!
done~! lols..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:01 AM
