Thursday, September 30, 2004
life kinda sux these dayx.. stupid hand hurts alot.. think my vein become swollen.. =S had this entire week slacking.. had english EOY on tuesday and chinese EOY paper 1 on wednesday.. stupid lorx.. so many tests!!! tests after tests.. *argh* doubt can go E1 next year..*sigh* so happy lehx!! HCL test finally pass le.. haha.. aren't i happy or wad? haha.. geex.. actually kinda feel down lorx.. friends are experiencing lots of problem.. somehow, mine isn't over.. i still miss him.. but... guess he found someone new? i don't know.. i'll learn harder to but the past behind me.. is he someone that is worth my tears? i don't know.. i jux hope that life could be cheerful once again.. haix!! i wonder why i keep missing those days where we had together.. haix.. i'm starting to hate myself.. i hate myself for falling for him when i know it is a mistake.. haix.. life jux sux..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:05 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
i'm here to blog again!! haha.. so long never blog le.. so many things happen.. good and bad.. bad is that i heard a bad news.. haha.. but guess things are better le.. good news? i found a CCA!!!! haha.. i join choir le!!! hehe.. though everytime i sing out of tune, but i hope to sing better.. wo hui buck up de!! haha.. another is that i won the best speaker award for IPW and an art competition award lorx.. haha.. so cool yeah~!! end year yao dao le.. mux work hard to go first class, second class also not bad.. as long as i can put the stress aside and jux take study as a relaxation!! haha.. biology rox~!! today, went to yu ying sec to help out.. then i saw my twinnie!!! haha.. he more yandao than before.. he is so cool somemore.. haha.. well, he is now popular among galx.. haha.. so sianx lorx.. but at least Miss Leong treat us to mac.. haha.. cool horx? geex.. i seems happier than before.. probably i tot through everything, and i manage to put the past behind me.. =D well.. always trying to look ahead.. but if i could turn back the time, i guess... hmmx.. haix.. dun wan think le.. haha.. got this 3B guy wan to noe me sia.. then he damn shy.. quite cute nahx.. haha..
i wish upon a star,
to face the world with a smile,
for my wound to heal,
and my strength to be renewed.
take my hand,
and walk with me.
help me grow,
help me see
that the world is a beautiful place to be.
give me hope,
teach me to sing.
light the way for my dreams.
help me stand tall,
don't let me fall.
be my friend.
be my pillar of strength.
i will have no fear,
knowing you are near.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:16 AM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
life jux sux.. tears jux start to gather in my eyes.. tears of sadness, anger, hurt and pain.. the happy moments we spend together, joke around, play with each other and study together.. we seems to be the best of all friends.. but yet, without a reasonable reason, u gonna end this friendship.. i guess, i won't force u to do something u dun wan to.. jux know, i'll always have u as a friend and we will always be friends forever.. today, chat with him awhile.. then told him a tiny secret.. and he replied me.. he told me he love me alot.. kinda blush.. but then i realize it was the sibling kind.. haix.. first, i lost him.. second, i lost my buddy.. wad will i lose next.. but i hope, i'll lose my life, before i lose another special thing.. God, are u testing me? life isn't easy to move on once again.. everything don't seems right.. but all i wan to sae is that i really love those ppl around me.. i treasure them, and i hope u return them back to me.. *aishiteru* love u ppl. May God bless u..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:03 AM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
yesterday came home from HEY program meeting again.. damn fun lahx.. haha.. anywayx, went ah ma's house.. damn sianx.. watch tv.. came home, use computer awhile then i go do homework.. then later sms jian cong kor kor.. he pei me talk until 12 a.m.. then i msg him good morning.. he reply me lehx.. i tot he sleep le.. but he nv.. then i ask him go sleep, he sae he wan to wait for me.. then keep persuading him to sleep, he sae he wants to accompany me.. then i tell him i go orh orh, he mux orh orh too.. he sae yes.. then he ask me if i love him.. i said yes.. then he wants kiss kiss.. so i msg him before i sleep.. slept at 2 lorx.. today chiong all my homeworks.. sianx.. then sms also lazy type.. jux glance and anyhow type.. =X haix.. today abit moody lahx.. sorwee ppl if i offend u.. >.<
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:04 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
last night slept 11+.. msg him lorx.. then talk alittle while.. then he ask me if mei mei love kor kor.. so i jux said everything.. somehow, he thinks i'm kidding.. so let it be.. haha.. slept imnmediately after i lay on my bed.. woke up today.. damn tire to do homework.. so mummy let me take a day off.. haha.. i watch tv the entire day.. jux now aloy kor msg me.. then i sae miss me then sae lahx.. he sae ya lorx.. -.-" then he sae 'i lurve you'.. OMG!!!! like not 8 years le?!?!?!? *argh* haix.. didn't know the feeling have not fade.. haix.. why lidat lehx? he got good character, but why he dun wan give others a chance.. haix.. i dunno lorx.. shu hui got edwin's number.. haix.. i feel so hopeless.. i tend to appreciate ppl when i lost them.. i hate myself!! haix.. feel like crying.. dunno why.. things seems so fine, yet turn out wrong towards the end.. i love him lotx, yet he dunno.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:28 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
cool manx.. jux came home from the camp and i jux couldn't wait to update it.. haha.. anywayx.. it started lidat..
cAmP sTaRtS
reach school close to 1.. everyone were so excited!! kinda know most of the sec 2s, so it wasn't of any problem.. went to the MRL to have some instructions.. after that, we were told to go to our respective venues to have the course.. kinda enjoyed the first lesson.. cool manx.. the teacher actually speaks damn good!! kinda like his jokes and the way he pin-point ur mistakes, is rather indirect.. so u dun really get hurt.. haha.. after that, we went to have a short tea break.. then went to play captain ball.. cool yeahx.. me and joceyln jux stood there without running.. first round, we won.. then lost to Vale's group.. all tall tall de.. cannot be blame.. after that, went to bathe lorx.. everyone rushing for the toilet as if they nv bathe before.. then we had dinner.. haha.. so cool.. stupid dinner, had to play some stupid joker game.. haha.. nana was the joker.. so sad.. she wasn't feeling well lorx.. then later, she felt better.. then we had to play spooky hunt.. the hunt wasn't that bad lorx.. enjoy the hunt alot.. haha.. coz our group came back first.. then we were given some time to bathe again.. i lazy bathe again.. so i jux dry moiself.. haha.. then me, nana, vale and ying mae were on our way to the MRL to gather.. then saw him.. haha.. didn't talk to him lorx.. then nana went to talk to him.. then i jux shout, tt is a xiao zhu lahx.. haha.. feel so mean.. after that, went to do reflections.. then we were ask to go back to our own rooms.. some stayed down until very late.. while me, ying mae, nana and valerie goh chat until 2+.. i slept at 2.24.. before that, i msg him to ask if he sleep le.. then i off my phone.. 4.30, i wake up.. the rest habben wake up yet.. so i on my phone lorx.. then he msg me at 3.. he ask if i sleep le.. so i reply lorx.. expecting to receive later.. but he replied after quite sometime.. then we chat alot lorx.. rather happie!! haha.. then he ask alot of silly questions lorx.. he sae izzit cannot sleep bcoz i miss him too much.. then he ask me if i love him.. *diaox* haha.. then next morning, reach canteen at 7.. then i chat with ren ren lorx.. he told me tt he and his sis trying to get us to patch,bt he keep on destroying the plan.. it is good in a sense.. i won't wan to step in his world again.. haix.. stupid.. the whole group of them keep making me blush!!! then i see him alot of times lorx.. then i keep blushing!! stupid!! *argh* after breakfast, we went to play truth or dare while waiting for the teacher.. then when the pen point to me, they ask me that stupid question.. now the entire sec 2 know lorx.. so paiseh.. after that, we did broadcasting again.. i be pregnant lady lahx.. haha.. then we played murderer after the broadcasting.. then min min and joanna both murderer.. and i'm the first to be killed.. so mean!!! haha.. then after the tea break, we head back to MRL.. then debrief the sec 3s, sec 2.. after that we went back for session 2 and sec 3s break camp.. after the session, we head home.. then hen xiang ta lorx.. *argh* minx sae he tried to look for me.. as if lahx.. i mean, he nv like me before lorx.. guess i'm only a substitution in his heart.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:06 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
kx.. today was totally cool!!! saw this ITE guy who looks exactly like him lorx..but he dun wan give me his number.. then nvm lorx.. haix.. kinda have his face stuck up here *pointing to brain*.. wonder why? anywayx, today de alpha zone was fun.. but it rained.. so sad lorx.. actually i manage to overcome my fear of heights, which was a good achievement.. anywayx, many cool instructors there to guide u.. so there isn't anything to be scare of.. the flying fox was cool~! enjoy the feeling of coming down.. rox man~! ITE West ang mo kio rox~!! haha.. feel like going there next time.. but guess he will graduate le.. haha.. anywayx, he really rox lorx.. yesterday keep bullying the whole bunch of instructors when they were playing the trolley.. then they cheat lorx.. cheater bugs!! haha. but all kawaii de.. nice manx~! he was damn cute.. yu ren got him to join our group for one of the indoor items.. then he got stuck with us lorx..haha.. he play until he sweat lorx.. haha.. pity them.. but had a great time yesterday.. today going for english camp.. haha.. gonna enjoy..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:29 AM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
yesterday start of holiday, i slack.. 2nd day of holiday, i also slack.. prepare to finish all my homework, on thursday le.. haha.. tml got alpha zone camp, kinda prepare le.. haha.. jux wondering if tml, i'm able to overcome my fear of heights!!! >.< tml is gonna be a fun time~!! haha.. tuesday start english camp.. kinda feel excited and scare.. mix feeling sia.. haha.. but mux learn to enjoy mahx.. haha.. i crazy liao.. this morning ask jian cong kor kor to sleep late late, then can pei me talk talk.. coz if i scare hor, at least got someone to talk to me mahx.. haha.. go camp le, hui xiang wo de blog de.. but at least all my good friends all pei me go camp.. so shouldn't be scare bahx.. hmmx.. wrist still pain.. wonder wad happen lehx.. dunno if i got injuried it.. last night weird weird de.. half way my sleep, i started crying.. weird bu weird? also dunno izzit of wad i dream or wad.. *scratch head* haix.. life still sux lorx.. this year de exam won't do well.. started to slack alot.. hate myself.. HATE hAtE HaTe~!! haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:44 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
today went to school lorx.. damn tire.. keep yawning and having the urge to fall asleep.. then during morning assembly, i went to give out the attire and grooming file.. then Ms Yap scare me.. she suddenly shout my name out.. then actually is go for the EL camp briefing.. stupid lorx.. mux stay overnight.. hate it when our school got so many 'interesting' stories.. hmm.. kor kor also got go worx.. haha.. cool yeahx? but bu hao wan de.. upper sec camp end earlier.. *sob sob* lessons are still as boring as before.. and the stupid time table change, making my bag extremely heavy everyday!! *argh*went home alone today lorx..then many things are occupying my mind.. kinda still keep thinking of him lorx.. jux cannot let go of the tots of him.. haix.. ='( dunno why some couples can be so long, yet i can't make it last long.. haix!! life sux!!! mish him alot worx.. last night talk to kor kor.. find that he is actually quite playful in some sense.. haha.. but really cool talking to him.. =)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:01 PM
kinda feel life sux.. can't wait to leave this world!! didn't have the mood to study and i practically spend the whole day slacking!!! went out with joanna and her sister to watch garfield.. chao ji cute lorx!!! haha.. didn't know garfield was that cute.. haha.. went home, slack again.. jux came home from yee yee's house.. saw this guy who live on the 15th floor.. he got the features of him lorx.. then i keep looking.. but i guess not bahx.. kinda mish him worx.. haix.. i dunno lahx.. my mind haven't been right.. so many thinking going on up there *pointing to brain*.. hmmx..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:03 AM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
finally manage to update my entry after a little trick..haha.. =X yesterday's celebration was a success, i was rather touched when all the effort was paid off.. =') went back primary school with my whole bunch of friends.. somehow, i kept singing my troubles away.. i kept laughing and singing, hoping to forget everything.. but i realise it is impossible.. ='( things in primary school still remain the same, but yet most of my friends changed.. haix.. probably things will have to change as times goes by.. went to bugis to meet nana, evelyn and their friends.. then i went home alone.. haix.. many things in my mind.. results frop drastically, unable to cope with my studies.. still having him in my mind.. i dunno wad to do or sae!! i jux can't get him out my mind.. sux sux sux!!! probably, letting something go is jux so hard.. haix.. tml is qiqi's birthday!! haha.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to qiqi.. happy birthday to u!! haha.. take care worx.. *muackx* hmmx.. talk to him last night.. normal, same things, nothing special.. things will jux carry on lidat.. and i guess, i wouldn't carry much hope any more.. guess... one day.... i'll... jux.... leave... this... world... carrying the memories.... in my mind.... he made an impact in my life.. take care worx.. i promise i'll nv ever gonna disturb u again.. i'll leave ur world and never step it again.. but no matter wad, u'll remain in my mind and heart.. love you alwayx..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:38 PM
