Tuesday, October 31, 2006

wow. today's pract is like the easiest among all three sciences la. lols. except that i have abit of colour blindness. damn. should have report that i'm colour blind. lols. seriously. why does pale yellow looks like pale green? ><

ok ok. went to far east to buy nail pen as well as sis present. lols. then went ps to buy the base coat for the nail. finally, head off to suntec to buy the cake!! i'm so broke la. spent all 130 bucks. >< i'm so dead. =x

took shuttle bus to city hall. on the way back, pass by esplanade. man. i just realise i have lots of sweet memories in and around esplanade.

ok ok. there was once, vjc choir concert ended, so i went home alone. on my way, to the mrt, i was msging someone. lols. ok. sorry to that person for waiting for me so long and i didn't meet him. lols. i saw him, but didn't greet him. hahas. then the sitting area outside esplanade. erms. yap. i sit there with him through the evening. though i didn't say much, i really miss that moment. yeah. still got alot. somehow, i really felt quite emo there. and my friend was like, "oi! what you thinking?".. lols.

so here i am, at home. broke yet alive, kicking. just got nagged by my maid for not studying. bet ah boi sure laugh de. "who will be afraid of their maids?" yes, me. i'm afraid. in fact all the women in my house are scary! well, except for my daddy, the only guy. he's quiet and hardly talk to anyone.

done blogging.

-every memory is a unique one. it happens once, never twice.-

Monday, October 30, 2006

the scariest practical is tml. chem!! ahs!! lols. anyway, i'm having stiff neck. and it's killing me. practically have to move my entire body just to turn my head. like not irritating??

tml is sis birthday. there's many places to go. so.. yaps. busy day!! gotta rush from school. lols.

i'm seriously wondering what's up with me. i'm either hearing wrong things or i'll be thinking more that what i should think. lols. ok. i'm not going to elaborate on the joke. or i'll change the impression of myself on everyone. so nope. i'll keep my mouth shut.

hmms. stupid kor nagging at me. not puay, then kor. -.-" sians. fahmy de hou dai. "i insist you to study before you sleep.." lols. kor. i love you. lols.

you made me feel as if you were going to leave me. probably i was thinking too much. =x i'm not use to a life without you. really. i feel as if a part of me is missing. i miss you alot. miss you way too much that even words can't describe.

ok.

done blogging.

-i wanna spend those time with you-




it's like 6 now. lols. quite early. i feel as if i'm preparing for my streaming. lols. yaps. woke up early every morning to study for streaming, when i was in sec 2. wow. suddenly, it's time to prepare for Os. lols. time flies.

my flu is currently trying to kill me. ><

today is chinese Os. good luck to those who are taking. better score a b3 or better. before i smack you. lols.

ok ok.

done blogging.

-it's really not the same anymore.-

Sunday, October 29, 2006

god! i stayed up till 3+ a.m. lols. erms. sick now. feeling terrible.




suddenly, i am so afraid of losing you.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

slept at 4.10 a.m this morning. and i'm awake now. woke up about 7.40. it's like less than 4 hours can?? i want my sleep!! =x kor tried to pei me up, but he fell asleep at 2. lols.

right now, i'm blogging. just to say that i miss you alot. more than usual.

damn. i'm feeling freaking down.

sleepy. ><

done blogging.

-i wish Os is over.-




i'm so going to hate people who goes clubbing. PLEASE KNOW YOUR LIMITS AND DON'T CAUSE UNNECESSARY TROUBLES FOR OTHERS!

you ought to thank her for caring so much for you after how you treated her. and for God's sake, she isn't your slave. she has feelings.

discipline yourself please.

Friday, October 27, 2006

this morning, had a hard time waking up. until my stupid sis played a joke on me. i was sleeping so soundly, until she started "mei...~" i thought why early in the morning got ghost. scare me.

got up, started my revision. about 12+, met ah boi to study. walk from library to mac, to bk, to kfc, back to bk. lols. met sotong and xl. then started studying. my god! he study not even 45 minutes, he started complaining he has headache. -.-"

2.30, i went for tuition. before i left, i told him that he better finish the paper before i come back. lols. so when i came back, he really finish. my god! so guai. lols. anyway, there's this bunch of bimbos, they were like talking about sotong la. so wanted to slap them can? they look super old, trying to act mature, and they smoke! bimbos! lols. study with ah boi, kor, alex and eve.

my tuition mates came. then the cute guy was there. so i point to sotong la. and the rest saw. so they were like shouting cute guy!! i was damn paiseh can? >< worse is that he is my tuition classmate. ><

then left for pastamania with xl and sotong.

i sat with sotong and xl. and i barely touch my pasta. and i started complaining that i'm full. lols. so xl bribe me. he told me that if i finish 10 fusilli, i'll get 10 cents. so i finish 20+ fusilli and 10+ chicken. ^^ man. i still feel like a kid. hehes.

went for tuition. and it's quite boring. oh. and that guy actually ask if i was at bk la. i was like... ya.. =x lols.

i'm not exactly sure what i'm thinking. to believe or not? damn. hate to think! ><

done blogging.

-i love you-




wow! i'm online! it's like 3.43 a.m. i sort of force myself up to study. yeah. serious work. =x tata

Thursday, October 26, 2006

i'm not sure what's in my head now.

a part of me wish to study. while the other wants to play. like what the heck? can i like split myself into 2 so that i can study and play at the same time?? or maybe teachers should create a game that can play and study at the same time. lols.

physics pract. like what the hell?! miss many things. like i didn't describe how to do the experiment. i didn't write the time in 1 decimal place. and my freaking graph gradient is out of the freaking range la. damn it! wah lao. i'm going to hate pract la. SO HATE PRACTICAL!!! and that stupid lens! wah lao. i look at it until i'm freaking blur lo. and glenn laugh at me. cause i bend down until my face turn red. what a stupid experiment!! argh!

no laughing matter. it's really time to get down to serious work. if anyone catch me slacking, come up to me. then slap. i won't hate you. lols. i'll just shout back. but you can shout back too, and ask me to wake up from my freaking dream. yaps. no more dreams. forget about being a tai tai, too early to think about it now!! forget about being such rich business women, won't happen!!! forget about playing, i'll have all the time in the world after Os!! just another 21 days, 1260 hours or less, 75600 minutes or less. and it's all over. OVER!!

shit. headache.

don't come near me. horrible AP today!!

done blogging.

-no more temptations. CHIONG AR!!!-

P.S: thanks puay. really thank you. alot!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i'm really tired of everything. i'm just not in the mood to do anything. don't talk about studies. do i look as if i give a damn that the Os is in like 12 days? i'm just not in the mood!

woke up about 9+. skip one lesson in the morning. anyway, went for bio. had a hard time keeping my eyes open. but anyway, manage to. went home almost immediately after the lesson.

slept through my afternoon. still not in the mood to study. damn it!! *argh*

physics pract tml. i'm really praying hard i can do it. bio pract was sort of a goner. just hope physics and chem won't. i'm really depending on this two sciences.

i'm going crazy. i seriously wanna study. but my damn mood is gone. GOD DAMN IT! puay is nagging. ><

i'm not prepared for Os. not at all. =(

i'm so dead.

done blogging.

-why does life got to be like this?-

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

didn't study at all today. wasn't in the mood. ><

woke up like super late today. bro was kind enough to msg me at 6 although i asked him not to. anyway, i still woke up late la. lols.

i was trying hard to focus on my studies the entire day. but, i just can't. can't wait for 16 november can? >< shit. can anyone stress me and push me to study?? I WANNA STUDY!!! ><

aloy talk to me yesterday. yaps. know him for 12 years. just like twinnie and boy boy. lols. three of us used to be closed. but not now. lols. anyway, he told me something. and i was laughing my head off. lols.

hmms. i'm not sure what's going on in my mind now. the feeling is just weird. i hate this feeling. i hate crying for no reason. i hate crying to bed. i hate it when i wanna cry and i have no one to turn to. i hate being on this earth. i hate living this freaking life of mine. so what if people thinks it's perfect. so what if people think i have a perfect family? what's the point of having all these when i don't even feel any love when i need it. ^damn!

i wanna go to the beach. i wanna shout it out. i wanna cry everything out. i wanna be that bubbly and cheerful girl. it's just not me now. ><

done blogging.

-don't lie. you no longer care!-

Monday, October 23, 2006

i've decided. i'll ignore it.




ok ok. woke up early to head to school. nothing much happen actually.

wow! i pass my a maths test! score a2. i'm like freaking happy can? lols. hopefully our a maths test paper would be equally easy as this. lol. HOPEFULLY!

sometimes, it's not good to be curious all the time. the truth always hurts. no matter how strong you are, when the truth comes, you might not even take it.

should i just ignore the truth and live what life is now? or should i take the thing seriously and change this life of mine? will i miss it? or will i forget about it? tell me.

another special day. but nothing much.

done blogging.

-i'll miss it alot-

Sunday, October 22, 2006

ok. i seriously think people should hate break ups. and if you wanna break up with you stead, write a compo about break up first before you break up, will you?

stupid compo. i think i rewrite 5 times, i'm still not satisfy with it. bloody shit! can't think of a proper way of ending a relationship. lols. ok. i usually end it with "we should break up." but this stupid compo, must have the word "goodbye". huhs? like what the hell? lols.

went out to buy pens to prepare for Os. wow. like in another 2 weeks time. really hope i'll do well. and i WON'T and MUST NOT let anything affect me. i'm not going to ruin this life. NEVER! quarrel all you want, scream at me for all i care. i'm not going to let it affect me. NO!!!! ><

went hospital to visit my aunt. she hurt her wrist. and somehow it became very serious. hmms. anyway, they were discussing about going Bali. wow!! lols. somewhere in december?? woots. guess i'll only start working in jan. oh ya! they say i look different. lols. i grown prettier and more feminine. i was like "really?". lols. i think they haven't seen me for so long. oh well.

hmms. am i someone nice to cheat? or am i just being dumb?

done blogging.

-get lost you big fat liars.-

Saturday, October 21, 2006

ok. i'm quite lazy to blog suddenly. but i'll give a short entry.

woke up like super late. then started studying. slept for 1 hour. bro wake me up. lols. then started studying again. wow. so guai right? but don't know if the stuff i study stored in my brain ma. ><

i'm writing a compo, "saying goodbye". hope it'll be good. ^^

done blogging.

-shit! time flies-

Friday, October 20, 2006

went for tuition. had western food for dinner! woots. cheap and delicious. ^^ finally manage to finish all my food la. ok. other then the burnt fries and the salad. =x poor buddy.

went walking around PP. then finally found the thing i've been finding! but damn it! it's like so ex. not worth it. so. didn't buy. went to buy chocolate. then went mac to buy ice cream. ^^ anyway, i'm disgusted. ok ok. i was like watching the tv. and some how, i took notice of the couple at the counter. they were like kissing can?! wah lao. want to kiss also go somewhere more romantic la. kiss at the entrance and in front of the counter. my gosh! ><

ok. then went for tuition. went through pract. quite boring. but the VS and CCHMS guys were teasing each other. so it's like damn funny. lols.

ok.

16 days to Os. and what have i done?? damn it. no wonder people look down on me.

done blogging.

-just a useless kid-




went back to school for test. wasn't in the right mood today. so, sorry guys if i sort of pms you. to kor, thanks for listening to me.

test was quite easy, hopefully can pass. =) if not, i should really think twice about turning up for the a maths paper. yap. think twice! >< if not i'll have an ugly F9 on the result slip. yucks!

seriously, why can't you encourage like others do? do i look as if i'm really a failure to you? if i am, why in the world did you bring me to this world? to make me suffer in this freaking world? or to make me feel like an idiot when all those around me are smart? you know i hate being look down at. and i was hoping you won't look down on me. but you did! you made me feel like a useless kid! you make me feel as if i can't even plan my own life that you have to plan it all for me! i feel like i'm non-existance now. totally invisible in every individual. i'm feeling inferior now. totally. yes, i know. i'm hopeless.GONE CASE!

i feeling very tired now. really tired. feel like just closing my eyes and leave this place. silently. peacefully. it must all end now.

hmm.

i've got no more tears to shed. it has all dried up. i'm completely numb. please people, forgive me for being who i am not. hate me if you want to.

done blogging.

-no longer who i used to be.-

Thursday, October 19, 2006

today is quite a bad day. quite alot of people cry, so sort of stay back till quite late. oh well. i'm currently still consoling people and listening to their problems. yaps.

everytime, i stare into space, i'll be wondering why am i here? why am i alive? why am i living on this earth? what is my purpose? suddenly, i lost my purpose in life. i see no reason to be here. i feel as though i'm dead. i'm just a walking corpse. it's like, suddenly, everything is just an illusion. it seems so fake. so not true. why is this happening?? ><

hmms.

not in the mood.

done blogging.

-can't i just leave here for good?-

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

bio pract was yesterday and it was totally a disaster. ><

met qy in the morning. then went to look for form teacher for our new entry proof. i see no reason for a new one cause there's no change in mine. ok ok. only that the font size is bigger(according to qy). lols.

went to ava and was locked up for 45 minutes stuck with the el hod. lols. all our electronic devices were kept so as the avoid being barred from the exam. lols. i miss my mp3 through the entire exam la. >< lols. finally, the time is up, we left the room and report to the lab.

got to our places, and the teacher was like reading the instuctions and he keep shaking his leg. can't stand it la. >< anyway, the exam started. i don't know what i was doing la. lols. anyway, after the entire exam, xl told me that i should actually look at other's experiment if i didn't get the result. the prob is that i'm at the first bench, at the corner. like wah lao!! lols..

anyway, went home, started mugging, not hard enough though. then my mum came nagging at me. damn it.

done blogging.

-if only you were then by my side-

Monday, October 16, 2006

suppose to wake up late since school starts late now. but in the end, i woke up like 4+?! i was like, damn it. >< anyway, manage to sleep back at 6+ and woke up at 7+.

went to school for physics. but the entire school was quiet. cause eoy just ended. oh well. physics was quite dull. just doing through some of the tys questions. anyway, shared the alcohol chocolates with friends. puay's face was red. so cute!! lols. then my buddy had headache after that. i was quite high. silin, sh and mae love it. lols. it's nice. bitter sweet. lols. so during lesson, i was like trying to get secrets out of buddy's mouth. lols. and that eve! die die also don't wanna lend me the tiggr!! =x that stuff toy is like so innocent la. quick! someone finish my pooh bear set! i need a piglet and tigger, medium size. lols. then i'll have a complete set. ^^ ok. my bed is flooded with toys that mum have kept many away from me. ><

stayed back for consultation. AHH!! tml's bio pract. lols. i'm nervous. i'm scare. i'm... hmms. lols. pray hard it'll be easy. ><

this morning bro msg me. cause he did something, so he slept late. i keep asking him, he keep changing topic. lols. anyway, thanks for the card, dude! and the dog keychain. lols. i think he has poor memory. either that or he was too sleepy that he couldn't rmb anything. lols. wah. first time in history, someone praise me as a good sister!! hahas. is it the first? lols. can't rmb. =x but i know many thank me for being there for them when they're down. man! am i an angel or what? ^^

anyway, eve is jealous cause i got present and she doesn't!! lols. don't jealous k? next time i make for you too lo. =P

my prefect days have ended. but i hope the joy, laughter and fun has not ended. cause i'll miss you guys!! ahhs!! =)



my cert, tie, badge, medal.




shhh.. someone is busy at work. =P
i love my puay! ^^

done blogging.

-i'm scared!-

Sunday, October 15, 2006

ok. today, i'm not the one who woke up on the wrong side of the bed. but it's mum. early in the morning, she was like scolding me. innocent and poor me. lols.

anyway, went to pray. helped many people pray. like my beloved friends, jia you for Os. sis, good luck for her exams. and you, hope everything turns out well. so anyway, mum went to buy flowers. and being a good girl, i helped. after that, went to buy lunch and bought granny's share. so went to give her. today, no baby. lols.

came back home, did geo. the paper needs alot of thinking k? or probably because i wasn't doing it with full concentration. =x so anyway, spent the entire afternoon doing one 25 mark question. SAS. the school sounds like proving e maths congruent triangles la. =x ok ok. shan't offend any one. ><

then came a msg. which sort of affect me. not gonna elaborate any further.

buddy was kind enough to cheer me up and he said things which... i didn't expect him to say. anyway, thanks alot. your alcohol chocolates. yap. lols.

things are much better now. =)

done blogging.

-just love you the way you are-

Saturday, October 14, 2006

i think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed. really pms this morning la. >< wasn't in the mood to do anything. but still, manage to force myself to study. and even so, my face was like quite black la. lucky i didn't pick a fight with mum. *phew*

then came afternoon. was really sleep. so i took a nap and got up to do chem. ok ok. i'm starting to love chem!! lols. really. i used to hate chem cause of the stupid rate of reaction thingy. lols. ok la.

monday, school!! hahas. finally no morning assembly. need not go school in full school attire. and i get to sleep late. and get to go home early. one good thing about graduation. lols. i bet the sec 3s sure get jealous. cause i was jealous too! hahas.

ok ok. tuesday is bio O lvl pract. i'm like on the first bench la. with qy. i'm always sitting beside her. hahas. lucky it's not spa. or else, the teacher can find all my mistakes easily. lols.

ehs. can't upload any pictures today. maybe tml.

done blogging.

-the defining moment has ended-

Friday, October 13, 2006

finally the big day arrived. a day i've always looking forward to since sec 1, yet trying hard to avoid it when it's nearing. but life is like that. when it's time to part, we just have to. just rmb to keep in touch.

let me share my pictures with you. ^^



this is me, sis, daddy, and brother. ^^




mae, leonad, qy(tutor). they rock!




snapshot of my e maths teacher teaching. =x brilliant me ^^




i made my a maths teacher look so tall. oh ya. he didn't know i took it. =x




my dear look so cute!!




crystal, potato and meh`




first picture after i wore my tie




look who's that? bleahs.




this guy totally rock. he made lessons not boring for me cause he always crap. and he's a great guy. yes, he is shuai. shuai(1) or shuai(4)? lols.




this is the few prefects i'm close with. they rock the PB~! woots.




crappy girl. her english is freaking good! lols. fishy!^^




3 vals? nahs. it's val,mae,val. lols.




my best friend. and always will be. nana! ^^




finally presenting to you my cute brother! ^^












during the grad night, we still share the joy, laughter and still enjoyed each other's company. i've never seen my form teacher cry so much before. we just love her. =) and after so long, i finally sing my school song so loud. singing it with pride and so on and so for. lols. receive many things. yaps. and of course, i love them to the core!

4 years stay in mjr. met different teachers. of course. there are times when i really hate them cause i hate the subjects. but still, the lead me through the obstacles and always ensure that i pass my subjects. this task become difficult when it comes to upper sec. as the gap between lower sec and upper sec is huge!! lols. but with friends and teachers to help, i manage to pull through by passing all my subjects for prelim. =) many friends encouraged me and support me along the way. especially lay puay and qian ying. you guys consoled me alot last year and didn't complain how irritating it was. you guys helped me with my studies. and yaps. listen to my troubles. totally. as for seng yong and jian cong. you guys took good care of me in camps. lols. really won't forget it. =x minx, eve for crapping with me. and mae, sotong, san and sh for bringing craziness into my life. ^^ buddy. thanks for always reading my mind!! it's freaky at times. lols.

my gosh! Os is coming. so buck up people! i'm going to study hard with you guys! and i'll meet you on the 6 nov! =) jia you!



my lucky table in the PB room, a place i sit every morning ^^




my lucky class i spent for 1 year. a place where i cried, laugh, play, get scolded, and many stuff. 3E'05, 4E'06 rocks! totally. 39 of us, yet there is only one heart. ^^









done blogging.

-it's all a memory now-

Thursday, October 12, 2006

finally, the special moment is arriving tml. it's time to say our good byes officially to this school after so many things that happen in this school. my life here is memorable. although mjr was my last choice, i'm glad i didn't go any where else. if not, i'll miss the opportunity of meeting such wonderful friends and great teachers. learning is a long process and, of course, my learning journey will not end here. =) before i end this entry, i'll like to thank the people that made an impact in my 4 years of stay in mjr. sorry if i didn't mention your name. but you're not forgotten, as you left your footprint in my life. =)

teachers
Mrs keh, for making me for in love with maths, thus scoring well in sec 1 & 2.
Ms tia, for making science so interesting!
Ms Yap, for being such a wonderful lower sec english teacher.
Ms Pan, for giving me the opportunity to be a leader.
Mr gui, for making my sec 2 life so fun and for helping me with physcis.
Ms tay, for being such an encouraging teacher.
Mr fahmy, for helping with improve my a maths and for being such a great teacher!
Mrs lim, for being such a cute e maths teacher.
Mdm wee, for helping me with english.
Ms quek, for being so patient with us.

friends
auntie! for teaching us shopping skills.
boon for always acting cute thus bringing joy.
buddy for always knowing what is in my mind.
claron for being giving me so little space in class to sit. hahas.
crystal for always brightening up my day with you blur-ness
eve for being such a good friend and always looking at me in class. lols.
feng yao for always crapping with me both in school and on msn.
fishy for being such a cool friend!
LAYPUAY, always there for me, never complain how irritating i was. lols.
mae for being there for me and doing pair work with me!
mummy! for teaching me and always listening to my complains.
potato for always crapping with me on msn and giving me my nick! lols.
san for always being so motherly and supervising me when i'm studying.
sheldon for all your dirty talks in sec 2. lols
sihui for singing songs in class and being such a great choir chairman.
sotong for bring joy with your blur-ness too.
sze hui for always crapping with me.
qy for always teaching me at the last minute and being so ah mah!
yankuang for bring joy to my life this entire year. you totally make lessons not bored! you rock!

prefects
alex for being my daddy!
avril for being a cool and funky junior since you're sec 1
eugene for always quarreling with me in the morning thus life doesn't seem so bored.
hang qi for being a great junior
heng yu for being a great boyfriend. hahas.
jc for being such a good senior and always looking out for me
jia wen for being the sotong in the PB
joanna for being such a good friend.
mins for always crapping with me in the morning.
sy for being a good senior and looking after me in camps. lols.
yu ren for being so cute. lols.

hope that i didn't miss out anyone. anyway, i love all of you and carry on rocking this world of mine!

P.S:don't cry tml. or should i say, don't make me cry tml. =P

done blogging.

-a special journey of my life-

Saturday, October 07, 2006

really had a horrible night. the longest night i ever had can? *argh* people are getting eye bags cause they study until super late. i get eye bags cause of stupid nightmares. so unfair can?! stupid nightmares!

woke up today. did chem and studied chem. then slack a little. then did compo. it's a weird title. but a title that reminded me of what i regret in my life.

life is all about decision making. tell me, who didn't regret in their life before? i bet you did too. only that,probably, you didn't keep thinking about it. but i do. i hate myself for making such a stupid mistake. and now, i have to live in that shadow for the rest of my life. sucks!

went out today. well. it's a wonderful and pleasant night. seriously. if only there's a house in the city, i'll really buy it and stay there. the night scenery is great. just love every single moment. the scenery, the atmosphere and your companionship. =) anyway, went to a place that i've never been before. feel so sua ku. take it that i'm not a person who don't go those places la. man. too class for me le. hahas. ok. talk about the food there. the steak is nice. it doesn't taste like those that i ate before. one thing i don't like about steak is that i will have to bite it until my jaws get tired. >< and the fats!! ahh. no one help me eat can? shit. result of being pampered by my maid. lols. she loves the fats. haha. =x the potato wedge is nice. too bad. i was freaking full. >< ahhs! it's so sinful! >< waste so much food lo. wahs!! had cravings for haagen-daz ice cream actually. but then decided to keep my mouth shut. diet~! ahh!! ok. another point to note. please don't look at me when i'm eating. will be shy one lo. =x

ok.

next friday is graduation day. so yaps. i'm going to dedicate an entry for all my beloved friends and juniors. look out for your name. well, to those who i didn't write your name, you're not forgotten. cause you still did left your footprint in my life. =) this entire 4 years will not be a memoriable one without you guys, seniors and teachers. of course. many great teachers helped me along the way. P.S: i won't cry. i don't want to waste 50 bucks just for crying. lols.

it's good to see people smile. really. don't thank me. cause i really didn't do anything. =) just be happy. happiness is the best medicine to everything. ^^

ahhs! i need to go on diet soon. i want my bmi to be below 18. hahas. woots. ^^

done blogging.

-i love every single moment that i spent with you. i'm crazy about you. and i'm so in love with you-




haven't been updating this blog for a long time. yap. manage to resist the temptation of coming online. =)

let's talk about wed. wed is a special day. cause i had a great time walking home. just miss having you by my side. =x oh. and i got back my report book. ^^ i make a great improvement. =x well. quite big. hahas. improve by 12 points! yeah! hahas. i'm happy. ^^

thursday. some stupid bee got me distracted. >< it was like flying above me for so long. then i ran to the back of the class and squat. so unglam! lols. anyway, i'm really scare of bees la. hate them! lols. mdm wee gave back my compo. and she ask me to write simple sentences. lols. i wonder how she can see my style. i don't even know my style. lols. consultation was rather useless. i didn't even know what to ask. lol.

today. went granny's house. played with my niece. she didn't really bother me until i feel her. and she's cute. lols. after that, went for tuition. met puay. think she got a shock out of her life after seeing how i dress. i wasn't trying to act bung k? it's just that i haven't wear that pants for quite long ma. don't put it to waste. lols. so i wore it lo. =) and some people took advantage of me can? treat me like a bf. make me pay bubble tea some more! wa lao! lols. stupid haze so bad. it kinda affect me. having sensitive nose is bad. lols. oh well.

ok.

within everyone, there is a weaker side of us. many people are trying to be happy when deep down, they aren't.

some friends do tell me how they feel, especially when they are sad. yap. i tried to go all out to listen to their feelings. that is the least i can do. cause i really have giving advices. i'm lousy at that.

to you. i really hope to be there for you, just like the way you are there for me when i'm down. you are never alone. you have your family to support you no matter what. you have friends to be there for you. and me. to give you all that you need. i still wanna write that never ending story with you. yaps.

hmms.

feeling kinda emo now. i could feel my eyes kinda teary. many things in my mind and i really don't know what to do. seriously. i've got no idea what's my purpose in life. i feel as though my existence made many people suffer. i disappoint my parents, i'm just a passing-by friend, i'm a horrible stead, and a terrible buddy. so, who needs me on this earth?! i've given up on myself long time ago. and right now, i'm just living this life aimlessly. this is my life.

emptiness. darkness. silence.

done blogging.

-thanks puay. <3 ya!-

Friday, October 06, 2006

i'm kinda feeling emotional right now. there's only one reason.

everyone affects each other's life. and of course. this person affects mine.

i'll end here. update real soon.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

school is getting more and more boring as days go by. can't wait to stop going school. in fact, it's a total waste of time. i rather stay at home and do more meaningful stuff. damn.

the haze is making me sick! eyes was freaking itchy and my nose started running la. argh!

was having e maths test this two days. wasn't that bad. just hope i get the quality grade. ^^ oh well. not worried about e maths. more worried about A. stupid angel. make me solve one a maths question. in the end, i think the entire night without doing anything and still can't get the answer. cause it cannot be done! argh!

34 more days. can't imagine what life would be for the next 14 days. yaps. to my first O level practical. so cool. lol.

ok. let me do a survey. do you think i should cut my hair short? or should i just layer it? this is not bo liao k? lols.

i finally find the disadvantage of not knowing dialect. although english is the international language, dialect still exist. and i don't understand when people communicate to me in dialect. worse! i don't catch the jokes that has dialect. >< like that, like no life lo!

hmms. so much for this entry.

done blogging.

-just a few more days.-

Sunday, October 01, 2006

happy birthday bro! lols. you ought to feel guilty for making me jealous! lols. everyone of us already not celebrating children's day la. and you still get to celebrate! not fair! lols. anyway, hope life will be great for you. =) your mei is always here. ^^

today is not a bad day. manage to finish reading my bio sec 3 topics. =x then later i'll start to do e maths.

hmms. haven't talk to mum about MI. in fact, i don't feel like talking to her about it. she's kinda against it. she asked me to appeal for tp. -.-" if i get to go tp, the rest should be able to go le lo. funny.

counting down to the day of my Os. 36 days. as the number decrease, the less stress i am. probably because i'm seriously not prepared. puay!! jiu wo!! >< i like to see when puay study. lols. you finally get to see the serious side of her. not the crappy, siao siao side. lols.

oh well.

done blogging.

-still afraid of what lies ahead-

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