Thursday, June 23, 2005
finally! my brain get to rest.. hehex.. they say if you really sleeping, you won't have dream.. and i didn't have dream.. so my mind in resting.. ^^ so cool right? finally lo!
wake up 8+.. then came online awhile and did my work.. so guai right? today got homework mood.. but so sad, have to go out to do project.. or else sure get to finish my homework de.. hehex..
left the house at 1.. then went to meet them at enous.. then i sit on the left, fish sit on the right.. until i stand up and look that time, then i found her.. hehex.. then later went to parkway to eat eat.. then walk to library and get things done.. actually quite alot of things done lahx.. hahax.. then i borrow 2 books for my book reviews.. *argh* haven't finish!!! ><
took cab back.. having bad flu, but don't dare to sneeze.. scare the driver think i got SARS.. =X hehex.. then came home and do homework again.. hehex..
to jia yun: happy birthday galx!!! take care worx.. i love you!!! ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:20 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
[21o6]
today wake up super early! hahax.. then went to play with the baby.. carried her lo.. hehex.. then she anyhow touch.. >< then she keep moving, then tickle me.. so i let her maid carry her.. hehex.. she very cute.. hehex.. after that, took my bath and went to meet minx and eve lo.. i super sleepy.. then keep laughing lo.. go shop shop and finally settled down for lunch.. first time finish the whole set of yoshinoya worx.. hahax.. so amazing! hehex.. then went walk walk.. buy alot of food.. hehex.. after that leh, went to school.. hehex.. got investiture mahx.. they all arrange, i sit there and sms.. =P so slack.. >< then while the EXCO were discussing the procedure, the others were playing ice breaking games.. must bond them mahx.. hehex.. so we join lo.. then i super high.. then keep joking.. >< anywayx, we'll be slamming the doors open.. so cool right? hahax.. one of the door spoiled.. hehex.. everything ended at 4.40.. then they make me go mac.. suppose to have meeting.. but they ended up eating.. so i went home lo..
[22o6]
woke up 7.51 by my maid.. hate my dream last night.. finally get to sleep, yet dream of ghost!!! *argh* then went to school.. choir rox~ hehex.. then later went to mac for lunch.. yapyap.. with my buddy.. i'm tired.. suppose to do my homework.. but i can't.. so sleep.. hehex.. tired tired! *argh* aiyox
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:00 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
i'm so lost without you..=.= i'm having a super huge EYE BAG!!!! my god! aiyoyox.. couldn't sleep last night.. keep tossing and turning.. don't know what is going wrong with me.. one minute feel hot, the next minute feeling cold.. >< aiyox.. then keep thinking of the time that i first met [u].. =X don't know why, all of a sudden, [u] came to my mind.. >< then recalled and recalled.. cannot sleep lo..
later gonna meet minx and eve for lunch.. going BUGIS again.. hahax.. wonder if will meet anyone there.. hehex.. ^^ after that will be going to school for rehersal.. i'm so sick of it!!! can't put it in the morning coz the sec 4s got revision tests? so must put it in the afternoon.. and longer hours!!! actually 3 hours only.. now they make it 4 hours~!! >< there goes my afternoon..
feel so tired.. so sick.. so confused? just don't feel like myself lo.. no more cheerful? don't know.. yesterday nearly got hard time breathing again.. don't wanna see a doctor.. bu yao bi wo ler.. >< shouldn't be any big big problem lo.. just cannot breathe.. won't cost my life anyway.. haix.. feel like a weakling now.. no longer that girl who could shout and scream.. feel as though i'm locked in a cage.. i wanna fly, but i can't.. i'm tied down.. with troubles, stress and problems.. haix.. cos i'm dreaming, of you tonight,
till tomorrow, i'll be holding you tight.
and there is no where in the world, i rather be,
than here in my room, dreaming about you and me.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:50 AM
Monday, June 20, 2005
sis showed me a message from this Singaporean who slam the youngsters, like us.. he is right about our speaking and writing habit.. but did he thought about the environment that we grow up in? whatever.. i don't give a damn.. ><
hmmx.. last night cannot breathe properly again.. didn't want to see a doctor, so i just keep my mouth shut.. don't wanna see a doctor~!!!! >< been a year since i last went down.. which i'm very happy!!! hehex.. =P
tml got rehearsal for the investiture.. haven't do a thing yet.. hope JC won't scold me.. =X especially SY~!!! >< scare of all the heads.. =X hehex.. well.. got one junior wanna quit.. i mean, what so bad about being a prefect? we should be proud!! totally.. with SAC coming up, i really hope we could work with them instead of treating them as enemy.. hmmx.. afterall, Prefects and SAC exist is for the sake of the school's well-being.. so why should we ever have the idea of only having either one to exist?
[u]: don't know what to say.. just wanna apologise for everything.. sorry.. ><
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:50 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005
tell me all about it!!! which part of me looks like a guy?! i swear i'm never gonna takashimaya there to buy anything! *argh* i went to pay for 2 cards, and the cashier told me: thank you sir, come again next time. and he still smile so nicely! *argh* never mind..
anyway, went to meet mum at taka.. she brought us to Zara.. i bought a blue shirt for about 39.90.. not because mum got the 100 bucks voucher, i wouldn't have buy anything.. and don't even think of stepping in there! just imagine a 3/4 pants, that can be found at 10 bucks in This Fashion, is sold at 99 bucks.. i nearly faint lo.. no way, will i go there.. nono..
after that, went to taka to buy stuff.. shop here, shop there.. after the cashier thingy, i really thought of cutting my hair like a guy.. i think it really rawks.. but mum and many other people told me i don't look nice with short hair.. hmmx.. anywayx.. i was told to act more lady-like.. >< i'll learn to be soft-spoken k? i'll try.. *sigh* some times, i really wonder why can't i be a guy? i don't know why.. probably because i'm longing for freedom.. to do things without letting my parents worry for me.. =X
sister told me that it isn't time to work yet.. studies come first, working last.. don't know bah.. just feel like experiencing what my parents are going through.. is that wrong or right? i don't know.. probably, studies really come first bahx.. hmmx.. well.. let nature takes its own course.. ^^
[[* if i were to see rainbow, i'll see hope*]]
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:55 PM
till now, i realise that i'm living without a goal, a destination or an aim.. i don't even know what i wanna be when i grow up.. =S JC or Poly? don't know.. haix..
anywayx.. i went out yesterday.. but while waiting, i sat was reading my book.. i like these few para in the book:Joy is the magic and stillness that stand on the threshold of every moment, the experience of giving and living fully without expecting anything in return. Because joy knows no rules, it isn't agraid to be imperfect, and it can surprise us even in the darkest place.Faith is not about believeing but about letting go of beliefs. Faith does not hope and pray for things to be different sometime in the future. Faith is the still heart that refuses nothing, out willingness to trust things as they are.compassion does not feel sorry in the face of suffering; it knows that all suffering is its own. when we recognize this connection between us and everyone else, we know that we belong to each other; we do not suffer alone.aren't they meaningful? hmmx..
anywayx.. got home 7.10 p.m.. lucky mum and dad not home.. or i'll be scolded.. my maid scold me.. *wadever* got use to her scolding.. =X anywayx.. just wanna say that i enjoy myself!!! hahax.. to my buddy: thanx for ya present.. and sorry to trouble ya.. =X
well.. that is all.. take care peeps.. I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN BETATAR!!! ESP OUR INSTRUCTORS AND TOWKAYNEO!!!! hehex..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:25 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
well.. i'm back from camp for about 4 days? hehex.. finally got holiday mood.. but got scolded for not having a study mood.. >< so i'm gonna psyco myself to mug today.. mug mug mug!!!
lolx.. tml gonna make IC ler~!!! hehex.. i'm officially 15-year-old.. a year older, a year wiser.. hahax.. but in camp, they say: a year older, a year hornier.. >< that horny joke is contagious.. =P anywayx, betatar is known for the horny peeps.. lolx.. with horny boy and ger around.. =Panywayx.. gonna cut my hair too.. gonna start a "brand new" life.. *splash holy water* hehex.. yapx.. gonna walk out of the past and head for a new future, a new challenge and a new destination.. ^^ do i sound mature?? hehex.. maybe mentally lahx.. not physically.. =X
hmmx.. keep thinking about life in Brunei, can't help wishing to turn back time.. the life there is really stress-free!! I MISS BRUNEI! I MISS TOWKAYNEO!!! I MISS KIM CHUAN!!! I MISS BETATAR!!!! YOU ALL ROX MY WORLD!!!! hehex.. i love all of you..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:50 AM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
to all my dear friends out there, thanx for tagging me~! i miss all of euu too~!! but must thank qian ying for remembering my birthday.. ^^ must also thank my dear ade laogong for the testimonial.. hahax..
just came back from the airport not long ago.. just got the urge to write down all my feelings before i put my memories aside and start to accept the new challenges that are going foreward.. i must admit that this camp have help me to discover a part of me and have change my character.. i must thank Nain for his patience towards BETATAR.. Kim chuan for his guidance and advices.. and to the 15 of you, for making this camp a success and making BETATAR of OBBD rox forever~! i love all of you. you will remain in my heart, not for this moment, but forever and never will be forgotten.. ^^dAy 1
reach the water complex in the evening.. we met our brunei instructor,nain(#9).. although there was a little communication break-down, but we understand each other.. we did all the administative stuff on the first day.. had a talk by the medic, uncle rosnan.. lights out at 11+ after debrief by kim chuan..
dAy 2
we woke up 6 in the morning, wash up and had our morning PT.. we did the warm ups and then running.. after that, we packed our tents, clothes and food for the kayaking camp.. before going for our actual kayaking, we had capsize drill.. we were taught what to do if we were to capsize.. my partner was lex.. really have to trust each other if you want everything to do well lo.. hmmx.. always, after lunch, we kayak towards the off-shore island, which belong to brunei.. we took 6 hours to kayak 11 km lo~!!! hand pain pain worx.. but it was really something to be proud of for the day.. =P anyway, i pitched my tent, while minx help to set up a fire and eve and qiqi to do the cooking.. must really apologise to them for pitching such a horrible tent.. >< the night was hot, and wanted to open the door of the tent, but one of the door got jammed.. shitty~! anyway, qiqi "hit" me.. she dreamt she capsize and had to hit the kayak.. hahax.. she very cute~!!! =P
dAy 3
we woke up 5+ to clear the area and to prepare to head back to the main island.. minx was the first to wish me happy birthday.. followed by kim chuan.. ^^ hehex.. after that, the rest wish me too.. it was really something special about this year's birthday.. the first time not with my love ones? hahax.. anyway, we got to the main island about 1+. took our bath and lunch and we head to the actual OBBD campsite.. there was a boat ride.. we were singing happily and the group surprised me with a birthday song. i'm touched.. i really cried out.. hahax.. anyway, must thank them for making it so special.. hehex.. we reached our campsite about afternoon and we were showed around.. to the bunk, to where to assemble if there was an emergency.. hahax.. then later, pack everything into the bunk lo.. then after that, go the the sungei temborong to float down.. then swim ashore.. hehex.. i got washed away, then mae pull me to shore.. =X hehex.. after that, dinner.. curry chicken, fish and rice.. got debrief by our towkayneo.. hehex.. she sang a birthday song for me.. nearly cried again.. then suddenly miss everyone back in singapore.. but somehow, i hide my feelings.. =X lights out.
dAy 4
woke up early, assemble in front of the flag pole at 6.10.. #9 very disappointed in us.. he didn't say anything, he just kept quiet and then conduct the morning PT.. after that, we went for breakfast and had our abseiling training.. hehex.. i was rather nervious when i was on my way down.. then i slipped and knocked my elbow on the rocks.. ='( after abseiling, we got "amazing race".. rather fun lo.. an simple activity that would built the foundation of the bonding between each of us.. hehex.. after that, we had dinner, debrief and lights out again..
dAy 5
same thing.. assemble late for morning assembly.. #9 disappointed again.. but today no morning PT coz we will be climbing a hill to do the actual abseiling.. hehex.. we set off at 7+ and climb the 1565 feet tall hill lo.. reach there about 9+.. each of us took our turn to abseil down and belay each other.. shitty again.. i was too nervous, i slip and knocked myself on the rocks.. shitty.. then later slowly abseil down.. got one part is hanging.. i very scare and my hands very pain ler.. i keep screaming for help lo.. and the medic still sit there and took a photo of me hanging.. >< sick! then i climb up and meet the rest again.. many of the girls lost their ways lo.. i'm lucky to have my friends there to help me find my way back.. =X hehex.. must curse that cricket that scare the wits out of me.. hmptx.. hate it! after that, we slowly climb down.. had lunch at the feet of the hill lo.. hehex.. then later head back to campsite.. went to float in the water again.. then #9 want us to float down.. so we float down lo.. i got wash away again.. then yongx hold on to my life vest and swim me ashore.. hehex.. very scary lo! he told me he also very scare.. he not scare that he get washed away, but scare that he cannot pull me to safety.. hehex.. =X after dinner, got a short debrief about the next day trekking.. after that, something happen to me.. i got difficulty breathing.. then stomach area very tight.. got send to the medic.. scare quite alot of people.. =X after awhile, i'm fine.. then beg the medic let me go trekking.. he agreed.. =P
dAy 6
woke up early.. prepared for trekking lo.. took some group photos and we set off.. trek until it rained.. then we stop at one place for the night..
dAy 7
continue trekking.. many of us de morale very down.. navigators all frustrated.. rain again.. some of us fall sick.. then about to reach the camping point, i got difficulty breathing again.. hmm.. then kim chuan help me carry my bag.. hehex.. 12 kg lehx.. together with his own back is about 20+ kg lo.. my god! spend the night.. very cold.. *brrrr*
dAy 8
finish trekking, took boat back to campsite.. then later briefing for solo night.. set off again.. i was allocated my place.. then i pitch my "tent".. write my reflecting.. about 5+, already dark dark ler.. then i sleep until next day..
dAy 9
sun rise, i woke up.. then sleep again.. then wake up.. then sleep and wake up.. then kim chuan came and ask me to pack my things.. -.-" return to campsite, took our bath and debrief.. after that, we got white water kayaking.. yongx partner me.. he took great care of me.. entertain me.. encourage me.. and play with me lo.. really trust him alot.. hahax.. then started to rain.. got drenched.. feeling very cold.. stupid thingy happened again.. cannot breathe.. started to cry.. medic came, send me up the bus.. hmm.. then go back campsite, i took my bath and debrief.. we packed all our things, had dinner and briefing for next day's activity..
dAy 10
went to the city, visited many places.. then got shopping.. hehex..
dAy 11
ran 7 km in 56 minutes.. then went to do CIP.. go shop shop.. went themepark.. and went to bed at 3 in the morning..
dAy 12
packed everything and head back to singapore.. many of us cried in the airport.. well.. we'll miss brunei.. and i can say that i'll never regret going for OBBD..OBBD ROX~! BETATAR RULEX~!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:05 PM
