Monday, October 24, 2005
learning is a tough process.. and learning how to let go is of course a tough process too..
i was reading a chinese compo today. written by some adult.. he said that learning how to let go is a long and tough process.. sometimes, it's because you don't wanna lose that thing, you don't wanna let go.. and you'll end up wasting so much time and effort on it.. sometimes, you just wanna stick to the same thing.. but you didn't know that when you try new stuff, you might like it.. it is all about letting go..
for every lesson, we learn something new.
and for this, i learn that i'm not alone.. many people are around me.. many people care for me.. and many people love me.. i'm not unwanted.. God send me angels.. and they are my friends.. they are everywhere around me.. angel = friends..
falling out of love, doesn't mean hatred.. coz i know that no matter how much i wanna have you by my side, it will only be u, the person, but not your heart..
i've learnt to let go, learnt to love myself and those around me.. i've shed my tears as you leave.. and i know i just have to let go..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:18 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
no one to blame.. but myself..
blame myself for falling for it. blame myself for giving it all. blame myself for being to committed. blame myself for everything i've done.
blame myself for being stupid. blame myself for being idiotic. blame myself for being desperate. blame myself for being bitchy.
haix..
promises are meant to be broken..
* - gonna leave the past - *
[[ nv gonna forget you ]]
still loving you always``
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:12 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
somehow, i feel demoralise.. at the rate that my A maths block test is going.. i'm starting to lose the hope that i'm do well for A maths.. ><
first time in my entire life that i leave at least a blank for all my papers, other then MCQ.. so discouraging!!! don't think will do well for EOY lo.. *aRgH* hate myself man~!
hmm.. friday was grad day.. many people ask me to do.. but i didn't want to.. not only do i have tuition.. i just wanna stay at home.. probably because home is the safest place.. but anyway, i'll wish all my seniors the best.. thanx for teaching me many things, thank u for guiding me the way.. finally, thank you for being such a great senior~! whee~!
i've grew stronger, but weak again..
i've finally know what like is.. never smooth and full of obstacles.. but that is a way to make me stronger.. isn't it? i guess i'll be strong soon.. just give me sometime..
ah ji: don't cry so much.. cry ler, not only teacher tease you, you'll not be pretty le wor.. ^^
you: time to leave you alone..
and to me: just wanna end this stupid life of mine~! dammit~! hAtE mYsElF
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:00 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
i wanna know what lies in the future.. i really wanna know.. i don't wanna sit here and figure out what you're thinking.. please tell me! i really wanna know.. i miss you.. i really miss you.. but would you ever know? would you ever bother? tell me what to do.. i miss you..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:06 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
dreams are just dreams..i was staring out of the window, when i saw this flock of birds.. sometimes, we are just like them.. although now, we have a group of friends.. but you won't know when, they might leave you.. or when all of you might go separate ways.. but at the end, you can find them beside you during difficult times..
many things in life are unpredictable.. you may promise something.. but later, you will realise that you ended up taking back your promise.. or sometimes, you'll think that things around you will remain forever.. but you never realise that one day, that things will no longer be the same..
i'm dreaming.. i'm dreaming of a dream that might never ever come true again.. but what can i do? just dream lo..
many things happen.. like my phone bat.. suddenly become bloated.. actually is leakage in the battery la.. so bought new bat and a destop charger.. about 2 papers down.. i'm still charging my "battery" to fight for the battle which will start soon.. *sigh* starting to be discouraged by my test results.. out of 4, that i took on wednesday, i only pass 1.. fail 2 and the other dunno the result yet.. and EOY is starting! but i'm slacking.. *sigh*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:26 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
sometimes.. i really think i'm stupid.. don't ask me why.. haix.. i flunk my block test! i really dunno why.. tml re-test.. what will the outcome be? i'm yet to know.. i feel i have disappoint many people.. people whom put high hopes on me.. but i can't help it.. and all i can do is just to apologise.. ><
stupid me! silly me! idiot me! damn me! HAIX!!!!
11 more days to grad! 11 more days and i can't see my sistah! 11 more days and i'll bid good bye to my mummy! 11 more days and i'll be all alone.. ='( no one can take over ur places! love you peeps!!
you walked pass me.. you ignored me.. i tried to do so.. but my heart sunk.. i dunno why.. *sigh* is that ur final decision? i guess i know..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:17 PM
