Sunday, March 27, 2005
omg! i'm sick for exactly 2 days!!! flu flu, go away, come again another day.. little vale vale want to play.. >< lolx.. i'm so lame!!!
hmmx.. i finally found my book.. cost 10 bucks only.. it is a nice book.. read first part, i feel like crying ler.. >< hannah was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 2.. and she past away in 1994.. hmmx..
the truest measure of a life is not its length, but the fullness in which it is lived.
wellx.. i wonder when i would finish by book.. lolx.. ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:25 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
somehow, i feel i'm a failure.. i don't know what gave me that idea, but i just can't help thinking that i'm not..
being too active in prefectorial board gives teachers a reason to scold me and lecture me.. i just hate that.. *argh* failing grades gives my tuitor a good reason to scold me and lecture me too.. so what am i suppose to do? haix..
there is no longer the sense of belonging to this world.. everything is meaningless, colourless and worthless.. why is life just so unfair? why can't those God give others a chance to live, and allow me to just get out of this world? i don't wanna care anymore.. haix..
yesterday, the entire class celebrate Mr J's birthday.. i guess we touched his heart.. how can we not treat him good? he is one of the only teachers that think we are not arrogant and a class who doesn't produce good results.. hmmx.. we ordered pizza, and cake.. blew many many balloons and got a wonderful hand-made card for him.. isn't it cool? lolx.. he nearly cried.. i saw his eyes watery.. hmmx.. anyway, all of us were eyeing on the pizza.. lolx.. then we took class photos.. eveyone were shouting and bursting all the balloons!!! lolx.. 3E ROX TO THE CORE!!!!! =P
hmmx.. i went round TM, borders and kinokuniya to search for that book.. but i guess, i don't have fate with it bahx.. but that 3-year-old gurl very ke lian worx.. she got cancer.. then the mother so sad.. hmmx.. =( haix.. life is all about illness and death.. when will it be mine?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:45 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005
i'm so tired after 3 days of choir day camp!! >< my voice so weird now.. wonder how to perform on sunday.. hmmx..the day camp wasn't bad actually.. jux keep feeling thirsty and leg pain!! but overall was great! hmmx.. trying my best to support my voice and trying very hard to reach the high notes.. but somehow... hmmx.. jux got out of tune.. oopsy..
Ms poh ask us not to come on msn and blog.. but i jux couldn't resist the temptation.. hehex.. =P online is jux too addictive.. so hard to get rid of the habit.. can't imagine life without all the electronic stuff!!!! *argh* hahax.. it's gonna be hell.. =P
MY ADE LAO GONG IS BACK!!!! MY YUNX GER GER ALSO BACK!!!! oh.. my joceyln lao po is all along in s'pore.. hahax.. MISS THEM SO MUCH!!!! hahax.. all of them become darker and skinnier? conclusion: the food might not be nice.. hehex.. hmmx.. something happen.. but i dun think i'll say it.. but jux wish him all the best.. hope that nothing BAD would happen.. hmmx.. he is a great guy actually, jux dun povoke him.. hmmx.. i'm praying..
3 days of day camp is bad enough for me to miss my bear bear!!! *hug tight tight* i miss sleeping on my bed and hugging my bed.. omg! i sound as if i jux came back from OBS.. lolx.. so tired.. zZz
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:55 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
change my blog skin again.. coz mua sistah got the same blog skin and she wants me to change.. *argh*
woke up 5.51 a.m.. coz i had a weird dream.. then went back to bed.. woke up at 10.31 a.m!! then had breakfast.. and i laze around.. feel so tired!!! lie on the sofa and nearly fell asleep.. hahax.. 12+, my tuitor came.. then i had lessons.. duhx.. after that, i had lunch.. jie's friend came mahx.. hahax.. and i had maggi noodles coz her friend miss my maid's maggi noodle.. dotx.. hahax.. then i slack the entire afternoon!!! totally no mood to do my homework lo.. shitx!!!!! haix..
i'm bored!! i dunno wad is in my mind.. i jux dun feel like myself.. i feel awkward, weird, different.. jux not me!!! haix.. dunno lahx.. tml got choir day camp.. 8-6 in the evening.. i'm so tired and lazy!!!
[u]: i miss you.. i miss you so much!!! wad is life without u? i dunno.. dun wanna think about it..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:35 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
went kinokuniya and saw this title.. sounds cool.. but the content don't interest me.. hahax.. so jux put it back into the shelf..
i find myself silly last night.. i dunno why.. probably gurls who are in my shoes at that time would do the same thing.. i'm sure they will.. after receiving those sms-es, i couldn't help crying.. i couldn't resist cutting my wrist with a sharp object.. i jux couldn't.. yapx.. jux 4 red lines..
woke up 6 to send my ade lao gong off.. didn't reply her though.. but, yap, gonna miss her and my ger ger.. hahax.. they'll enjoy themselves.. i know.. hahax.. then i got up to do my bio and chem.. i jux dun have the mood to complete them.. was running a slight fever after that.. feel so tired.. *yawn* never tell my parents anything, so jux tried to act as if i jux didn't sleep well.. hmmx.. then got ready and left my house..
reach city hall at about 10.10.. then met him and went to plaza sing.. walk down to up, and up to down and up again.. then went to catch the show at 11.20.. sat next to him.. feel the warm air he's breathing out.. hmx.. suddenly, i felt guilty.. i dunno why.. hmmx.. then after the show, walk from plaza sing to orchard.. leg pain pain!!! silly boy!! dun let me take mrt.. aiyoyox.. reach taka, then walk down to up, up to down, and up again.. then spend the entire 1 hour walking.. then went to meet qy.. went far east with her.. shop alot sia.. but, well, not me lahx.. hahax.. i bought eye shadow for personal use.. abit ai mei lahx.. hahax.. then after that, we go kinokuniya.. hahax.. saw my book!!! 28.90! sianx.. wanted to buy.. but it is like more expensive than her other book.. hmmx.. reach home at 6.45.. lucky mum's not back.. hehex.. i'm tired.. head so pain!!! *argh* i miss ade lao gong!!! hahax.. she very notti u know.. aiyox.. change place and go "flirt" with other people.. hahax.. jux kidding.. she's cool.. ^^
hmmx.. everyone does fall, don't they? and their life jux dun stop here, does it? i'm forcing myself to accept reality, and telling myself that this dream will jux come to an end.. and i'll wake up by then, telling myself that it is jux a dream.. i dunno if i can do it.. but i guess i'll try..
[u]:you are the first person to make me cry.. the first person who touched my heart.. and the first person who left me missing u miserably..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:50 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
woke up 6.40.. then couldn't sleep.. so jux glaze at the celling.. dunno wad to think about.. toss here and there.. then check my fone.. u msg me.. hmx.. then later chat awhile lo.. then i went back to bed.. woke up at 10.30 by my maid.. so ahd breakfast, then sleep on the sofa again.. slept until 1.30 p.m sia!!! aiyo.. i dunno why.. jux force myself to sleep.. wahx.. today job week right? that victoria scout so lucky.. he came to my house.. then never do anything lo.. jux wait at the gate there and receive 10 bucks from my mum.. shuang lo!!! aiyoyox..
i dunno wad to say bahx.. i jux feel i'm running from reality.. i'm still dreaming.. i'm still wondering about in the memories.. i dunno why.. i wish to be in ur arms.. i wish that everything u said was true.. i wished for all the impossible.. i wish for you.. i dunno if he said was true.. but i keep wishing they were the truth.. and if they were, i jux wanna let you go.. and i won't regret.. i'll jux take it as a nightmare.. and nightmare i never wanna dream again..
haix.. i'm jux wishing
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:00 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
i dunno who i am.. i'm asking myself again!! i feel super irritated these days.. i dunno why.. when i'm happy, i'll be crazy.. when i'm angry, i'll jux vent my anger on anyone.. geex.. mux apologise to t^w3e.. that day smack him super hard lo.. only such good kor kor will let me hit.. always there to be ready to lend me his steady hand to hit.. *sigh* sorry worx.. hit u until so pain.. ><
[u]:sorry to hit ur arm.. feel so guilty.. hope u r feeling fine.. He'll be always watching over u from above.. ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:30 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
monday went for DNA course at dunman.. Dr Yeo was the in-charge.. the lesson last very long lo.. about 5+ end.. then went to TM with the guys and galx and Mr J.. then wanted watch Hitch de.. but too late, so we decided to watch the next day.. then went long john with mua ade lao gong, mae, eve, xing lun and Mr J lo.. then later went home.. reach home about 7 lahx.. quite early.. hahax..
tuesday, got DNA course again.. then we got to know our actual sex.. yeah man! i'm a pure gurl.. not XXY or XYY, but jux X.. hahax.. rox hor? so cool.. i'm gonna miss the micropipette.. hehex.. then i got to see my actual DNA.. then went to TM after the course.. watch hitch lo.. the 6+ de.. ade lao gong laugh practically throughout the movie lo.. hahax.. wah lau!! i can't believe i cried lo!! so touching sia.. hahax.. but it rox lo.. =P then had popcorn as dinner.. after that, went home with eve, xing lun, jareld and ade.. then reach home did my HCL and went to bed..
today is a boring day.. *argh* recess time so sianx.. came down alone lo.. then feel so awkward.. so i turn behind.. and saw him.. then came down lo.. then went prefect room to slack.. hahax.. then jared siao liaox.. he keep disturbing me.. then end of recess went up to the hall with mae.. then sat at the back of the hall with eve, jia wen and mae.. then keep looking at him.. >< siao liaox.. go back class that tym, ah kor keep telling me he wanna promote me.. wah lau!!! i nan de reject the offer, then now he wan to do it again.. then i keep poking him.. then hear alot of sound.. dunno from where, so i turn again.. saw him.. -.-"
after school got choir.. choir not so bad lahx.. quite tired.. break that time, ah kor go clean his face and touch my cheeks!!! eekx.. scare got pimple.. hehex.. went home late sia.. hahax.. gonna sleep ler.. wan an..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:00 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
i wish today would never end.. ><
woke up 5.55.. couldn't sleep lo.. although i slept at 12 m.n.. hahax.. then i get to do my work.. actually i came online la.. lolx.. then left my house at 10.40.. hehe.. reach city hall later than him.. hahax.. then saw 2 other people.. so paiseh.. =S
then walk to suntec lo.. went to buy eugene's birthday present.. coz he keep asking me for it.. stupid lo.. hmpt.. spent about 5 bucks on his pressie lo.. not so bad lahx.. but not practical.. hahax.. then walk to MPH to see books.. and then to HMV to see CDs.. he so naughty.. keep pushing me.. then i nearly walk into a old man.. >< eeks.. then later.. went to city hall mrt station.. wait for train to go to bugis.. then sit there for so long.. miss 3 trains bahx.. i very tired mahx.. so i sit lo.. then talk to him.. realise that there is so many things that i got to know about him today.. ^^
reach bugis, met jia yun.. then went to take neoprint.. then she go watch movie with another friend.. hmmx.. then left us again lo.. ^^" then go kinokuniya.. saw alot of books worx.. kinokuniya is the best bookshop.. got one very meaningful book.. u know those small small books.. then very meaningful, but very expensive.. *haix* then go walk walk lo..
feel so lame.. we walk out, then go to the carpark there, then walk to fish & Cos.. then back to the carpark again.. i feel like a kid in front of him.. hehex.. he is the daddy, and i'm the daughter.. hehex.. my shoelaces keep dropping mahx.. then he ask me to tie.. i dun wan.. then drop out again, he ask me to tie.. so i tie lo.. =X hehex.. then go mrt station.. wait for the train.. then talk to him.. hehex.. then both sides train come the same time lehx.. so coincident.. then i bid good bye lo.. in a rather special way.. hmmx.. dunno lahx..
then went to somerset.. meet qian ying.. hahax.. from 2.15-2.30 worx.. hahax.. but in the end, only 2 of us.. lol.. then we from first level of heeren, walk to last level.. then back to first level.. of coz to shop lahx.. then go cineleisure to shop.. same thing.. hahax.. then walk to wista ma.. then go home lo.. hahax.. so long never walk to so long lo.. hahax.. from 10.40, reach home 6.40 too.. hahax.. then so tired..
but somehow, today was a great day.. got to know so many things!! hehex.. once a friend, always a friend.. i love everyone!!! hehex..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:18 PM
