Sunday, February 27, 2005
wahx.. my brain in bursting with facts!!!! >< CMT is officially over for the lower secondary students.. sigh.. tml got bio and next monday got A maths!!!! it will only officially end on the 7th march!!! aiyoyox.. but never mind.. can miss a total of 4 period.. hehex.. ^^
hmmx.. couldn't remember wad happen for the pass few days.. only know that i'm planning to go out with ade lao gong and the rest of mua classmates!!!! hehex.. so happy!!!!! can't wait for 5th march to come.. hehex.. finally can go out ler.. after like 3 months.. hahax..
yesterday, got choir.. then went to school at 7+.. choir starts at 8.. we sing outside the stuffroom.. did a little warm up, then went music room.. sing and sing and sing.. my throat super dry lo.. aiyoyo.. then later, got short break.. then we were split into groups.. got 2nd audition.. >< sianx.. lucky me and pearleen same group.. *phew* then poor zeyun the only S1 in the group.. hehex.. tootx teacher her how to remember the pitch of the notes.. so caring worx.. next tym cannot call him toots ler.. hahax.. afterall, he's my senior mahx.. hahax.. then went back music room, our group combine with another group.. then started singing lo.. then i think we not up to standard? so went to the open space outside PAC.. then sing to the opposite side of the school lo.. after singing, went to the car pouch to sing.. then went up the stairs, sit there and sing.. then we keep shouting instead of singing.. so they stop us in between.. then we went back to music room, and was released from there.. qian ying say my voice improve worx.. ^^ then i told her never lahx.. then she say i er long(deaf).. -.-" so i told her, i'm not er long(deaf).. i'm da er long(loan shark).. hehex.. ^^" my throat pain pain.. >.< dry and pain.. aiyoyox..
after choir,nana, kris and jocey came.. did HCL project.. then in the end, me and jocey were studying bio, and nana not happy.. but in the end, we manage to split the job lo.. so should be able to hand in on friday bahx.. hahax.. give us a big 'W'.. WADEVER!!! hehex.. i feel so lame.. hahax..
march holidays, got a career exhibition.. i guess i wanna go bahx.. mux set a goal and then work towards it.. hehex.. now after Os, can go NIE!!! i wanna be a teacher.. since a toddle until now, my ambition still never change.. be a math or science teacher.. definitly not language. if i teach languange, prepare the entire class to fail.. hehex.. but anywayx, i hope my dream comes true.. if not, i'll really waste my time in there lo.. =( 15 to 20 points to get to NIE worx.. if can do better, why not? rather than jux aiming for jux 15 points right? hehex..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:35 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
i'm not gonna study now.. for one reason, the facts jux can't go in to my mind.. *sigh* i got no choice, but i think i'm gonna wake up 5 tml to read my notes.. jux like wad i always do..
woke up 5.30 today.. read through my notes.. finish the 2 main chapters in 20 minutes.. hahax.. counted not bad.. then later got ready for school.. hahax.. went to school, read through my notes briefly.. hoping not to miss anything out.. but i guess, i didn't..
8.04, paper starts.. rush to finish my questions as soon as possible.. only got 10 minutes left.. 8.49, paper ends.. wootx.. might not score well this time.. *sigh* give me a break.. went for duty, send students to meet Mr L. then went for HCL lessons.. shit! forget to bring sweet.. couldn't concentrate lo.. hahax.. too addicted to sweets ler.. ><
recess time, rush to do E maths homework.. the results of not liking E maths and the results of not taking note of the homework.. too frustrated and irritated with the freaking noise made by the prefects, i had no choice but to shout at all of them.. *explosion* everyone stared at me.. ^^" shit.. shouldn't have shout.. haix.. but i'm super irritated.. why do they have to talk like they never talked before? why do they have to shout like the other party is deaf? *argh* went to the toilet to cool myself down.. then went to do duty.. rather guai mahx.. most of the students in front of me, put their places back.. hahax.. does that mean i should be more angry next tym? wadever.. irritated!!!! *ARGH* damn.. super horrible mood swing..
swing ur way home
had chem lesson.. started to feel better, laughing and smiling.. lessons end 1.50.. why? Mr G never come mahx.. but we all stayed in class.. then wait until bell ring then went off.. haix.. mux rushed home..
sometimes, i sick and tired of my lifestyle.. it is jux not interesting enough.. maybe.. maybe i should jux quieten down and be a good student.. won't it be better? jux focusing on my studies instead of unimportant stuff.. i'm starting to hate staying back in school.. probably is influence by someone.. or probably due to staying in school for too long and got sick of it.. well.. wadever..
today is kai's burfday!! he is in australia.. manx.. i miss him!! jux e-mailed him.. hahax.. update him about his buddies back here.. so cool.. i can't wait to go aus in june to visit him.. cool.. hahax.. =P
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:10 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
woke up 8+.. then came online.. met jared kor kor online.. hehex.. wootx.. 25th they receiving results.. so exciting!! hehex.. well.. jux hope they dun cry over a spilt milk.. failure is the mother of all success!! aiyox.. self-console again.. >< hahax.. wanted to teach me my studies worx? dun need lahx.. i try to cope on myself can ler.. ^^ thank u kor!!
then went for breakfast and start with my work.. irritating lor.. my nose keep running.. haix.. chem TYS got 76 MCQ.. and mostly are repeating.. -.-" lazy to read again, so i jux copy the answer for the front lo.. >< do until lunch time still haven't finish.. >< then after lunch, got sick of my nose, i took my medicine and went to bed.. woke up an hour later.. then i went to do my work.. finally start doing with paper 2 ler.. *phew*
left my house at 2+, went to popular to get my files, folder and a notebook.. then took a look at the redspot TYS.. hehex.. i finally know the reason to one of the answer!!! hahax.. how clever.. but of coz, i'll still have to ask ms tay for a better explaination.. hahax.. =X
here i am, updating my blog.. fed up with my buddy for venting his anger on me.. but later i thank him for encouraging me.. ^^ hehex.. jux last week, i encouraged him when he was down.. and now it is his turn.. wootx.. wonder if his twin would be the next to experience it..
MITCH ALBOM books are nice.. and popular is selling it 20% off coz it is the bestseller.. hmmx.. too bad.. common test week, gotta stop reading the book for a week or 2.. *sigh* my works are all in bits and pieces.. and it is mess up everywhere in my file.. *argh*
[u]:sorry to coz so much trouble.. but i jux dunno how to say sorry to [u] personally.. imissyou..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:50 PM
Friday, February 18, 2005
when u sacrifice, u gain something.today is a tiring day.. begin my day with worrying of my E math test.. then later, after doing mua test.. i'm freaking sleepy.. then today receive EL results.. not bad bahx.. to those who didn't do well, dun be dishearten.. failure is the mother of all success.. so dun be sad.. cheer up!! ^^ then SS so sleepy sia.. >< can sleep ler.. zZzZ..
i love my lao gong, adeline!!! hehex.. she rox manx.. hahax..
anywayx, today, ade, qy, me, jocelyn were disturbing jordan and B.. *cough* yeah.. B seems to be interested in jordan.. hahax.. it makes my hair stands too.. but.. *phew* at least he is not interested in galx.. hahax.. =P then choir that time, me and qy keep disturbing him.. then i think the either choir knows about it, then they also tease him.. hahax.. choir rox today.. i dunno why.. not that sleepy during choir.. hahax..
after choir, i pei rexie go bus stop.. then later i wait until so bu nai fan, so i went to take MRT.. then meet JZ. then went home.. got tuition.. super no mood for tuition.. my mind isn't listening or working.. totally switch off.. haix..
after tuition, i sang lovers concerto.. then i started crying lo.. i dunno why.. sux sux sux.. i always cry when i'm singing one verse..
you'll hold me in your arms
and say once again you love me
and if your love is true
everything will be, jux as wonderful
haix..
i dunno why.. i dun wanna lose [u].. but i feel that i jux have to let [u] go.. something tells me that letting [u] go would be better for [u].. probably.. probably.. tell me wad to do?
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:50 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
today is the 17th feb ler.. about nearly a week since i last update.. haix.. life is quite normal.. i won't complain nor be happy about it.. for i have to accept wad kind of life i have.. wo ren ming ler..
[14 feb]
V day is the day for friends to celebrate their love for each other.. and for couples to pledge their love once again.. then me lehx? i'm in the middle lahx.. hehex..i celebrate my love for my friends and my love for all my DEARIES!!! hehex.. dunno how many i have.. hahax.. anywayx.. yao yao gave me a box of chocolates.. love ya, kor.. thanx for the prezzie.. then tai gong and daddy jux wish me only.. so let it be lo.. hehex.. receive alot of chocolates too!! thanx for all.. hehex..
[15 feb]
everybody b-day.. then it is alex, pei pei and wei chang de b-day.. aiyo.. i gave pei pei and alex.. forgotten all about wei chang de.. =( feel so guilty now.. =( went home earlier than yesterday.. walk home with alex, valerie and seng yong.. hahax.. then me, alex and seng yong go bonkers ler.. hahax.. =P then i bully seng yong's sister.. dun think she like me.. hahax.. who cares.. i also not his stead.. hahax.. =X
[16 feb]
receive mua geo test after so many weeks sia.. then i got 10 upon 15!!! hehex.. so cool.. although i dun really know wad my mistakes are.. hahax.. manx.. i think Mitch Albom books are nice.. jux finish reading the five people you will meet in heaven.. can u believe it? i cried.. hahax.. it is really nice and touching.. i learn many things.. ^^
[17 feb]
dunno wad to write lahx.. hahax.. jux very tired.. super no mood to do anything.. i dunno.. mood swing!!! PMS!!! like real sia.. i'm crazy ler.. haix.. i give up.. i'm gonna study.. i'm sad okay? I'M SAD OKAY?!?! but i dun think anyone will know it.. i've given up on all my hopes.. i've fallen back into the hole.. but u think u'll care?! i doubt so.. i hate myself.. *argh* suan ler..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:17 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!! hehex.. i can't imagine how bored life could be.. i'm dying for boredom.. soon.. hahax..
[o9o2]
went visiting lo.. collect here and there.. hehex.. i'm not the only one who slim k? my 7th granduncle went on diet and slim down.. cool.. hahax.. anyway, i got a feeling i've gain alot.. =X mux go dieting again.. sianx.. reach granny house for lunch.. then i rest on the sofa.. then later, went home to take a nice bath, and head down again.. had dinner.. then about 10+ went home.. *yawn* so tired..
[1oo2]
went to visit my grandpa.. only get to "see" him one a year.. and it is always on new year.. why? coz it is his death anniversary.. haix.. i never get to see him before.. *sigh* took a qian.. and it ask me to smile and say hi to strangers and do more donations.. ehx? i've been donating each time a see someone carrying a can.. i can donate until i'm broke.. but wad i ask for? nothing.. and now? i have been going around smiling at strangers and say hi to them.. guess ppl think i'm insane.. >< anyway, i went to pray for [u].. hope that those "GODS" would watch upon you and let u pass ur Os with flying colours.. hehex.. i jux realise i'm taking my chinese Os this year.. and believe it? i jux pass my HCL paper.. *sigh*
went to watch constantine with my family.. first time the entire family went out!!! i jux love my daddy more and more now.. hehex.. anywayx, that movie rox k?? hahax.. i love the part where he point the stupid middle finger and when he eat the chewing gum.. hahax.. that part is so farnie!!! hahax.. anywayx.. there is this line he said.. life is all about choices(something lidat).. i have to agree.. hehex.. ^^
[11o2]
went back to school.. still in the CNY mood.. hahax.. i didn't even understand a single lesson today.. *sad* mux go read up textbooks later.. =S
choir rox today.. no audition today!!! hahax.. so cool.. but i sing until my throat hurts.. *sigh* went home about 6+.. then got tuition.. hahax.. now, here i am.. online, updating this blog.. sianx.. i'm having a meeting on V DAY!!!! means i can't go home and spent my V DAY with my love ones.. ermx.. not my stead or wadever.. but is my family members!!! hehex.. i love them.. hehex.. kk.. i'm going to sleep.. i'm tired.. wan an..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:05 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
hehex.. went to school for celebration lo.. but got one period of lesson.. sianx.. chao give A maths test!!! >< i think i'm gonna fail.. *sigh* then went to prepare for the performance.. entire celebration end about 9+, 10.. then i went to meet ENEN to go back primary school..
on our way back.. i saw jian cong.. then in front of him is a bunch of sec 4s.. so i wave to jian cong.. and that bunch of sec 4s say something lo.. so bu shuang!! should have jux should back at them!! *argh* dun care them.. ASBS: act shuai, bu shuai.. ^^ then took bus 31.. kim hoe seat in front, ke xian and nicole seat at the back, me and ENEN sit in the middle.. hahax.. then i super tired, so lean on his shoulder.. hehex.. ENEN de shoulder very nice to lean on k? no wonder so many gurls wan to jio him.. hahax.. take ur time to choose bahx, jux pick the right gurl, dun wanna see u upset again.. ^^
finally reach school ler!!! then went to the teachers' room.. saw my P6 form teacher.. hehex.. she and my friends don't recognise me.. firstly, they think i grew thinner(i didn't).. secondly, i never grow any taller, and they expected me to be 1.70+.. *dotx* lastly, they think i changed, in terms of looks.. hmm.. wonder why.. hahax.. all my teachers gave the same comment.. i grew thinner, then ask me eat more.. -.-" eat alot ler worx.. hahax.. then i saw clarissa.. then i hug her.. hahax.. miss her so much.. hehex.. then both of us went to suntec to walk lo.. we shared alot of secrets.. got to know her more, and she got to know me more.. ^^ yeahx.. we both got something in common, that i dun wanna sae.. hahax.. then went to watch movie.. the seoul raiders.. something lidat.. the actor rox lo!!! he is so shuai!!!! hahax.. i'm crazy.. then we went elena.. then went tru citylink and go shopping.. all the shops all close actually.. so we head home.. hahax..
reach home the lastest lo.. >< hahax.. then rush to do everything and went to granny's house.. *ouch* got tummy pain.. gastric.. hehex.. coz i only had a scoop of ice cream for lunch.. so cool.. ^^ hahax.. went home in the morning.. so tired k? gonna out for visiting.. hahax.. hApPy LuNaR nEw yEaR tO aLL oF u!!! ^^
[u]: u made this new year very special for me.. thank u so much..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:05 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
freak lo!!! gonna fail my english CA.. i know i'm writing out of point, but i dun care!!!! hmptx!!!! i'm angry with myself.. *Argh* *sigh* i fai;ed my HCL, but manage to get 1 more mark.. so jux pass lo.. so sad.. i'm the lowest again.. dammit!!! language sux lo..
recess time, super sad, super down.. then i keep tickling yu ren.. then i like so mean lidat.. so wanted to lean on his shoulder der.. but he eating sia.. haix.. then i so sianx.. then kor kor tap my head!!! aiyo.. pain lehx.. hmptx.. i'm sick and tired le.. i miss my bear bear.. i wan to hug it and tell it all my unhappy stuff.. sigh..
lessons so boring.. can't help falling a sleep lo.. *yawn* then mr g lesson keep dragging.. then we wanted to leave jux lidat.. but then, he kinda angry lo.. haix.. second time see him so angry.. =( sorrwee mr G..
after school stayed back for choir.. tml got performance sia.. i'm so tired of performing ler.. *yawn* about 4+, then end lo..
then SY and ben pei me go home.. so sianx.. PY like SY i think.. but aiya, who cares.. i'm too young to know about it.. *cover my ears* i dun wanna hurt anyone.. >< *sigh*
[u]: CNY is coming.. after that, i'll leave u alone k? then u can study!!! hohox.. i'm silently watch u.. ^^
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:00 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
can u believe it?! i only got 5 hours of sleep today.. *yawn* starting to be sleepy again.. anywayx, slept at 2.15 this morning.. i was chatting with yunx from 1+ to 2 lo.. feel that we are super crappy.. hahax.. i wrote her a testi, then she replied, and i replied, and she replied.. hahax.. lame horx? hahax.. but it was fun okay? =P
woke up 7.15 a.m.. then i hug my bear bear all the way to 8.15.. then mum pulled me out of bed.. got everything ready, then went to the temple with my parents and sistah.. yeahx.. it is ah gong's death anniversary.. i didn't even get to see him lo.. *sigh* came out too late to see the world.. then the adults were talking.. i was looking around.. i didn't even understand i single thing k? first, they talk too loudly that i couldn't make up wad they are saying.. second, i dun talk dialect.. i dun even know that i'm a hakka k? dun laugh at me.. >< so i msg [u].. hehex.. ^^ but [u] had to study, so shan't bother u.. then my uncle talk to me.. ask me why i never go holidays after exams? -blur- my CA jux started lo.. where can i go? then i realise that he wanted to talk to mua sistah.. do i look older than mua sistah? *fAiNtx* firstly, i'm more fair.. and secondly she is taller.. -.-" aiyoyox..
after that, mum went to by nian gao.. eeew.. no one eat lo, yet she still buy.. in the end also leave there and rot.. yucks!! after that, she went to buy flowers.. and head off to NTUC.. i help to buy some stuff.. then saw this guy in pink shirt.. he looks like one of mua junior lehx.. but i didn't care lo.. coz mua sistah with me mahx.. sianx half..
reach home about 12+.. force to eat sia.. why? all of them think i'm on diet.. then force me to eat.. i'm not thin lo!!! i'm fat fat fat fat fat!!! as fat as a piggy!!! haix.. i give up fighting with them ler.. jux gobble all my food lo.. then went to do my work.. then [u] msg me.. omg!!! i didn't expect it lo.. hehex.. anywayx.. i'm trying very hard not to disturb u ler.. so please dun tempt me!! ><
here i am, updating my life.. a boring life, complicating life, and a life that i'm sick and tired of.. staying cheerful and forgetting all the unhappy stuff isn't a simple thing to do.. *sigh*
[u]: i'm looking forward to each moment we are gonna share.. every single word you said is like an evidence of love.. and the evidence would never be found anywhere, other then my heart..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:35 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
*yawn* woke up 9 lo.. then i realise i'm alone at home.. jie go guides HQ, mum and maid go market, dad go office.. then i went cheers buy my breakfast and 2 bars of chocolate.. 6+ worx.. so ex.. -.-" then later, i went home came online.. then saw [u].. then started chatting lo..
mum came home, ask me go out with her buy those tonics.. dunno for wadever use.. then went to TCC to eat.. then started talking to mum about my life.. at least i got to know more about my mum.. she isn't as unreasonable as i realise.. hehex.. i love her.. ^^
then went to the raffles MRT there, to shop.. didn't know got so many things to shop lehx.. help mum choose some clothes.. ^^ aren't i good? hahax.. then was msging [u].. hehex..
went home, got mum to open the letter box.. coz yesterday came home that time, i saw mua letter.. i got so excited.. thot it was from my primary schoolmate.. but it really surprise me when i open it worx!!!! it turned out to be [u].. i cried out lo.. so mean.. never tell me that [u] were sending me a card.. =S
thank you so much for making mua day a wonderful one.. i love [u]
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:30 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
wahx.. so long never update ler worx.. about nearly a week ler bahx.. hahax.. i'll write down wad i remember lahx..
[2 feb]
prefect investiture.. yeahx!!! it rox totally.. hahax.. prefects rules the school.. hahax.. as if lahx.. hahax.. anywayx.. we said the pledge.. and i was shivering.. i'm not sure if it is really me.. coz Alex was shivering, cai cai too.. hahax.. =P think all of us all shivering.. hahax.. ^^ then after that got choir.. hahax.. stay until 5.30.. for the first time we release earlier than the sec 1s.. hahax.. so happy!! 20th march got a public performance.. not expecting anyone there.. hahax.. especially not [u].. hehex.. ^^
[4 feb]
yesterday was Vale's burfday.. and today, mrs keh is leaving!!! i'm gonna miss her.. ='( i know how bad we used to treat her.. and we always get upset when a good teacher is leaving us.. guess that is wad life is all about.. *sigh* HCL test might only get 15%.. God bless me.. >< i dun even know wad i'm doing lo.. aiyoyo.. the consequences of unprepared.. hahax.. then got choir today.. SYF audition lo.. i kinda pass.. but not confirm i'll get in.. die lo.. >< hahax.. then rushed down to PR.. then wanted to go home.. but no one pei me lehx.. then i saw doggie.. so ask him pei me go home.. then on my way out.. my neighbour ask me wait for him.. so i wait lo.. then went home together.. next tym i can go babysit.. hahax.. i look like a sistah to him u know? he complain bag heavy, i offer to help him carry his stuff.. i'm so good.. hahax.. then i later, he took it back.. he say "where got guys ask gurls to carry their stuff one".. *dotx* wadever lo.. hahax.. but he is a cute guy, no matter how rebellious he is.. peepx tends to change as they grow up.. they'll out grown that somehow.. ^^
that day went home with him.. then realise that although he got lotx of friends, but none are the best, and none are true.. wad is the meaning of true friends? he complained he is tired of life.. i can't imagine, i have to admit.. he is always that cheerful, always accepting his life and scoldings by teachers.. and he never hold grudges against any prefects.. isn't he a good leader? i remember how he took care of his members in Mawaii camp.. i'm glad to have such a great leader.. a leader is always a leader.. ^^ he is a really great person to talk to.. and his experience teaches me something.. BGR may not be something bad.. it is true it, where people find out who they really are.. a lesson is learnt somehow.. and i've learnt mine.. hahax.. i realise that the beginning of each BGR is that sweet.. but towards the end, it jux sux.. and i'm disgusted with people who claims how much they love each other.. but yet forget everything, when they break up.. *sigh* i dunno.. i'm disgusted by her acts.. *argh*
[u]: life without u is jux nothing.. u add colours to my world and life.. muackies.. i'm always loving you..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:05 PM
