Saturday, July 30, 2005
life now? it just sux.. dont even know what am i doing.. somehow, i'm being led by someone, but not me.. *argh* for no reason, i'm finding fault with my classmate.. and shucks~
suddenly, i feel that home is the best place to be in.. all i wanna do now is just to stay at home and to wait for this life to end..
i'm sick and tired of it.. im so freaking tired and dreading to wake u to carry on with life..
sux!!!
wanna hate [u]!!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:05 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
hehex.. finally cut my hair ler!!! went to TM to cut hair after my rehersal yesterday.. can you believe it? jocey lao gong tells me it is nice.. haha.. coz i met her and my choir friends after that.. haha.. at least i saw her smile.. ^^ hehex..
tootx ask me to show him lahx.. tootx jiu shi tootx! then he saw he come find me during recess.. hahax.. tootx!!!!! hahax.. confirm he will laugh at me de.. he is the evil tootx!! hehex.. =X yapx.. went home at night ler.. then msg kor kor.. i'm bored lo.. so just msg him.. hahax.. he got letter from NS.. hahax.. wadever chapter 93 thingy.. didn't understand.. hahax.. then jie jie msg me at 11+ to greet me night night.. she so sweet.. sorry to make her worry so much.. =X
yapx.. found the meaning of my name.. STRONG..yapx.. i really think so.. hahax.. i'm strong k? then my sistah laugh at me.. so evil.. >< hahax.. anywayx, i'm who i am ler.. keep laughing at my jokes these days.. so lame.. ><
tml got performance at coral sec.. so excited.. hahax.. =X jia you!!!! hehex..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:30 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
promises are meant to be brokenguess promises are really meant to be broken bahx.. finally the weekend is here! this week is a tough and horrible week.. ><
yapx.. after so many things had happen.. i guess i've finally found myself bahx.. just that i'm too tired to study.. =X but whatever it is, i've learnt my lesson.. never let emotions take over your life.. guess i've made the wrong move? don't know.. probably by this way, i'm learning to be a stronger person bahx.. probably?
came to school this morning.. don't know why tears just start gathering in my eyes.. put my head on the table.. guess my juniors saw bah.. they tried their best not to disturb me.. hmmx.. then nana and jocey came lo.. ask me join them in the canteen.. wanted to smile de.. but.. haix.. then saw jie jie.. then ran to her and started crying.. >< don't know why.. something is so heavy that i'm dreading to live.. hmx.. didn't wanted to eat, but jocey bought me lunch.. =X she very sweet.. yapx.. friends are always there for you no matter what.. must thank her.. in the end, she made me smile all the way till i got home.. and tootX!!!! make me hit my hand on the door knob.. and he is tootX enough to msg me so many times sorry.. hehex.. yapx.. that senior is cute.. hahax.. so nice to bully. =X came back.. hide in the toilet and cry.. >< now my eyes super pain sia.. tml don't know how to sing ler.. close eyes and sing again.. hehex.. like that day.. hehex..
yapx.. no one is strong.. everyone will fall and everyone will be silly enough to believe in miracles.. guess i'm one of them.. i'm silly enough to believe in miracles.. but, guess, it doesn't even exist.. but anywayx, no matter what has happened, it'll remain in my heart.. never wanna fall in love again.. probably, i've lost all the trust in love.. it hurts alot.. yapx.. i'll be strong.. yapx.. strong girl..
i'm finally who i used to be.. i'm who everyone knows before.. i'm me now.. the girl who makes people's life go crazy.. =X the girl who cheers you up when you're down.. ^^ happy mah? hahax.. i'm me~!!!! wootx! i'll be your strong girl..so much for my happy ending..a smile hides a thousand tears..
don't think i'm happy,
coz i appear to be..
but deep inside,
you won't know how complex it may be..
i cried the entire night,
wondering why did i end it..
i came out with no answer,
but i know i can't blame anyone but me..
just be happy as can be,
and i'll be fine and you'll ba able to see..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:20 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
i'm like so evil~! tml is my chinese oral, and i'm slakcing here~ hahax.. the best part is, i flunk my physics test with 3 out of 24..
aiyox.. sometimes i wonder if i have finally found my true self back.. i may be happy, but i have lost my interest in studying~!! haix.. my life is in a mess.. totally.. hahax.. i'm happy at least..
well, dun wanna say so much.. i'm bored of my life~!!! LIFE IS SO BORING~!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:51 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
somehow, i feel that i've screwed up my life.. curious? haix.. have been meeting many problems.. one after another!!!! i just can't stand it anymore.. i feel as though i'm gonna break down.. i feel as though i'm gonna end all these sufferings any time! i just can't take it.. i can't..
can i ask that question again? who am i?
i'm just a bitch.. a bitchy bitch, a slut, a girl that no one would ever wish to look up to.. i sucks to the core, i hurt everyone around me, i bring saddness to everyone's life.. that is who i am..
i'm on the verge of losing a 2 years friendship.. a friendship that i never wanted to let go.. but it seems that what doesn't belong to you, you can never have it.. no matter how hard you tried to keep it to yourself.. i just wish to there is still a chance to save that friendship.. never wanna let it go.. probably there is a wall in between us bahx.. something that cause us to drift further apart.. is this my life?
i've changed.. i'm longer that girl who obey school rules.. i'm trying hard to find myself back.. trying hard to be mummy's good girl again.. but i can't.. i'm sorry.. i feel so guilty.. sorry..
[u]:i don't know what life have been.. but i think this choice is right.. is time we should let it go and give ourselves sometime to do the things that we really wished to all these while.. i've finally made the decision after so long.. i've finally picked up my determination to returned you to her.. i'm not treating you as a good.. i'm treating you to as someone who i have silently snatched away.. and i'm returning you back to her.. to let you be who you once were.. and to let you be who you really wish to be.. life is all about moving on and not turning back.. i've chosen to move on.. whatever is the path ahead, i wish you'll just walk and never turn back.. i thank you for everything you have done all these time.. but it is time we should let go.. i'm sorry..
well.. i just wanna lead a simple life now.. i'm a bitch~!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:10 PM
