Saturday, January 15, 2005
i feel that i no longer belong to this world.. i'm a stranger to everyone and everything.. no longer use to be that gurl who goes to school and laugh with her friends.. but jux a gurl who sits at one corner watching people laugh.. who am i? a gurl who wish to find her true friends and friends that she hopes they'll be there for her..
was walking with my family along bugis.. used to go there with my friends.. but things changed.. i'm there and seen with my family.. yeahx.. not only do people changed as time flies, a place changes too.. and bugis was a great example.. it changed.. i'm not surprise.. i found myself losing my sense of direction.. finding myself following others instead of having a mind of my own.. and now.. i'm regretting it all..
i choose to ignore advices.. i choose my path.. and i'm seriously regretting it all.. i dunno why.. probably i should be grateful that i'm able to pass my EOY and end up in the first class, even though i was so involved in PB.. and i'll learnt.. i'll learnt to but studies before it.. i'll learnt for my mistakes.. i'll learn to walk the right path again..
*sigh*
i'm stuck with my studies.. the works are starting to pile up.. and here i am still slacking.. guess i haven't put much effort in.. seriousness-out of my list.. *sigh* i'm confused, sad, disappointed.. i dunno.. i'm having mood swing.. guess life isn't that smooth afterall..
there she is.. enjoy her life, enjoy each of her friends companion.. and here i am.. watching her, envy her, wishing to be her.. but will i be able to bear the consequences like her? guess not.. i'll go bonkers and break down.. guess being her will not work out..
dunno wad is wrong with me.. i'm jux so bored with my life.. tired of my life.. sick of my life.. haix..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:20 PM
